Invade the World

  Chapter 193 Confession

   "I have something to tell you, come with me."

   After Xu Xiangyang left these words, he firmly grasped Lin Xingjie's hand and pulled her out of the room.

   "Where do you want to go?"

  The girl followed him step by step.

   "Let's go outside. I can't wake my sister up."

   Lin Xingjie agreed with her heart, and silently followed him to the door.

  "Sunny..."

After Xu Xiangyang opened the door and walked out, Lin Xingjie stopped on the steps.

   "I have come to apologize to you."

  Xu Xiangyang turned around, the street lamp in the alley illuminates the faucet erected not far away and the bluestone pavement under her feet, and his voice echoes in her ears.

   "Those things we talked about tonight make you feel uncomfortable, right?"

"Yes."

  Lin Xingjie put her hands on her chest and nodded without hesitation.

   "I didn't expect your so-called ‘important things’ to talk about this, which is meaningless at all. Are you still thinking this way?"

  "It’s up to you to decide where to stay in the end."

  He answered softly.

"I originally thought that if you are not here, it is not easy to worry about my opinions and be influenced by me, and I can communicate with you on an equal footing, but I didn’t expect this to make you more uneasy. Really very sorry."

   "...I forgive you."

"thanks."

  Xu Xiangyang raised his head and quietly looked at her standing on the edge of the threshold.

   "So, you knocked on the girl's door so late, did Rory just say this?"

  Lin Xingjie waited for a while, but did not see him speak. Suddenly she felt a boring sadness. She was angry, and grievances surged up in her heart, so she said straightforwardly.

   "Then you can leave as soon as you are finished. If you don't sleep, I still want to sleep."

  As soon as she said this, the girl regretted it.

   After all, she took the initiative to get up in the middle of the night, but it wasn't just to slap him.

  It's better to say, if he didn't come and knock on the door, it would be his turn to knock on the other side's door!

   However, when Xu Xiangyang was pulled out, she thought something was going to happen. The deer slammed into her heart, mixed with shyness and nervousness, but when she heard him seriously say "apology" and the like, it was really uncomfortable.

  I don’t want to hear him say this at all!

  Just now, the words have been spoken...

   Lin Xingjie tensed her face, she lowered her arms and walked back. I thought in my heart: Now that it’s happening, it’s too weird to knock on his door later. I’m afraid I won’t have a chance tonight. When will I have to wait? There are more than one year left in high school. If you say that it is not long or short, you can’t keep on "tomorrow and tomorrow"——

  Countless chaotic thoughts flowed through her mind.

"Snapped."

  However, Lin Xingjie did not have time to go far.

  Because her hand was firmly grasped by the boy behind her.

"you--"

   Lin Xingjie turned her head in surprise.

  Her cheeks rose flush. The girl had no time to react. The big, hot palm made her body lose strength in an instant and was easily pulled over.

  Just listen to him sighing.

   "You are too impatient, Xingjie. I haven't finished speaking yet."

  She was dragged down from the steps.

  As soon as Lin Xingjie touched her feet, she raised her head in a panic. She saw a shadow covering her vision, and the heat in the boy's palm was still constantly being transmitted.

  She panicked all of a sudden.

  What is this, what is this?

  Romance novel? Idol? When I was dreaming, I didn’t dare to dream of this scene--

   "What I said before was the ‘very important thing’ I promised you a week ago. I thought about it for a long time before I came to this conclusion."

  This is a peaceful and peaceful night, the lights are very quiet, the alleys are quiet, and the voice of the boys in front of them is also quiet.

   "I don't want you to leave me, but it is necessary."

   "You, you still..."

  "—But what I really want to say to you has never been this."

"I……"

   Lin Xingjie calmed down, and a little rebellious spirit arose.

   "I don't want to hear you anymore—"

  "——I like you, Xingjie."

  The hand, which was still struggling and twisting, softened suddenly.

  It took a long time before she staggered her head up, her eyes flushed like she was drunk, and her face flushed.

"……real?"

"Ok."

  Xu Xiangyang nodded.

   "You stupid." She complained, "How can there be such a sudden attack, there is no atmosphere at all..."

   "You didn't give me this opportunity. I didn't want to confess to you at home."

   "Is that my fault?"

   Lin Xingjie felt that her head was still a little dizzy, as if she was dreaming.

  ...Are you really dreaming?

  Is already asleep, from the moment she decides to wake up, everything that happens after that is her own dream?

  The street lights and streets, the night and the houses are all clear; but only the people in front of them are caged in a mist.

  She is determined to figure it out.

  "Since you have decided to confess to me, why do you still...speak that kind of thing in front of me and Qingyue? What else is there to say "very bad thoughts"..."

  If he really wanted to confess, why would he admit that he was “involuntary”? She really couldn't understand.

"I was serious."

   "I know! It's not strange that boys have that kind of mind, but no one said this before confession! It's very strange!"

  The boy was silent and only spoke after a long time.

  He did not answer, but instead asked a question:

   "Tell me honestly, Xingjie."

  "——Are you disgusted and repelled by that kind of thing...I mean things between men and women?"

   This time, Lin Xingjie's eyes were wide open, and she didn't make a sound for a long time.

  *

  Looking back, the time of the past few months itself can be called dreamlike, so her memory of the things before this is a bit blurred.

  But Lin Xingjie knew very well that the other party's guess was not wrong.

  When she entered puberty and had a vague understanding of this aspect, she often became disgusted by seeing the sordidness between men and women because of her living environment.

   And since her mother found that new boyfriend, this psychology has become more and more intensified.

During that time, every time a girl fell into a pessimistic view of her future life, every time she imagined herself with a man in the future, she could only think of scenes that were extremely annoying and painful; therefore, deep in her heart Increasingly repel and get along with the opposite sex.

  However, since becoming friends with Xu Xiangyang, Lin Xingjie has worked very hard to collect the thorns from her body. She thinks she has hidden this very well——

   Lin Xingjie couldn't help covering her face with her hand, her voice trembling slightly.

   "Why, why did you find...? Is it because you care about this matter, that's why--"

   "I don't always want to be a good kid."

  Speaking of this, Xu Xiangyang couldn't help but feel a little bit at ease.

  He knew very well that he had a special position for Lin Xingjie, because he was the first person willing to reach out to her, so today, girls have a strong psychological dependence on him.

  Because of this, he wanted to pursue a reciprocal relationship and proposed Lin Xingjie to move away from his home.

  Emotional inequality is easy to make mistakes, and if he makes a mistake, it will disappoint the squad leader; more importantly, if this kind of mistake hurts the other party, he will never be able to forgive himself for the rest of his life.

  However, he may indeed be a little too impatient.

  I can’t help it. I am a boy after all, and my inner impulse and desire sometimes become uncontrollable. In addition to Qingyue, the relationship between the three has already become ambiguous and subtle in the entanglement...

  After all, he is inexperienced in emotional issues, and he is afraid that he will be unable to bear it and eventually hurt each other.

   Therefore, he felt that he could not wait any longer.

  As for how Xu Xiangyang discovered...

  ——"Does it really take so long for men and women to do that kind of thing?"

  Lin Xingjie once said something like this the first night she moved into this home.

  Just through such a sentence, Xu Xiangyang sensed the disgust lurking in her heart, and kept it in her heart.

  "Xingjie, I don’t want to say ‘I’m not going to take advantage of people’s danger’, because we met under such circumstances, and I don’t think there is anything wrong with it."

   "It's just that, once I think of you, I can't help but want to be careful, be careful."

  I don’t want her to be hurt at all, so I need to take 10,000 points of caution and a little bit of temptation.

  ……

--what.

  Lin Xingjie put down her hand covering her face and looked at him with an embarrassed look.

  There were countless words stuck in her throat and eyes, but she couldn't say it.

I see.

original……

   "...That's it."

  Although Lin Xingjie felt that she already liked and liked this boy very much, at this moment, her heart was agitated again like never before.

  It was as if the blood all over the body was rushing to the head in an instant, and the whole person became dizzy and fascinated.

   Yeah, what am I complaining about?

  What am I doubting?

  Mingming Xiangyang, he has always been such a person.

  I always put myself in consideration for her, and always stand by her side.

  Having been working hard in this direction after promising her "we will walk on the same road";

  He is attentive and sensitive, as well as capable of action, and will never make people around him sad or regretful.

  Isn’t this how he discovered the self who has been ignored by people intentionally or unintentionally?

  This kind of thing, shouldn’t she “be clearer than anyone else?”

  It’s me who made the mistake. Lin Xingjie realized that just passively accepting his kindness and kindness would not work.

  Even if the current self cannot help him in turn, at least...

  At least, I should be more candid.

  Her eye sockets are slightly hot.

   "Don't worry, it's all the same."

   Lin Xingjie was choking at her voice.

  "As long as I'm with you, even that kind of thing, I...I'm very happy."

   squeezed out all the courage in the body. After the girl finished speaking, she seemed to be collapsed and had to hold the boy's shoulder to support herself. For a while, she could only hear her breathing heavily.

   However, when Xu Xiangyang just opened his mouth to say something, it was immediately blocked by Lin Xingjie.

   "Next, it's my turn to speak."

  Her pupils revealed such a firm will, and she looked at him seriously.

   "I know, I have always known, Xiangyang has been working hard for me..."

"It’s just that now, I’m not as good as Qingyue, and less than you. I still don’t have the courage to live alone. Therefore, I’m afraid I’m not able to do the “equivalence” in your mouth for the time being. I can’t imagine The days after you left."

  "But I still want to try to change myself. I want to grow into a reliable adult soon, and I want to stand upright by your side in the future, as your best friend and your most important person."

  "...Can you stay with me?"

  She reached out her hand towards him.

  Xu Xiangyang did not hesitate to hold the girl's delicate hand firmly.

   "Of course, I look forward to that day."

  Glistening tears burst out immediately, flowing like glazed glaze under the faint halo, but the girl's face is not only with tears, but also has a big smile, which is especially affectionate.

   "Sorry, just let me say that sentence again."

  Xu Xiangyang took a deep breath.

  He heard the sound of a heartbeat coming from his ears, "rumbling" continuously, like a volcano bursting and lava erupting.

  The night and alleys are far away from me, the world is vast, as if there are only two of them left in the world.

  Xu Xiangyang asked himself:

   Put aside the shell of a good student, put aside the sense of obligation of a friend, just as an ordinary man, what exactly do I think about Xingjie?

  The answer is self-evident.

  ——I want to protect her, I want to possess her, I want to...get her.

"I like you."

  Thousands of words are not worth this sentence.

   "Well, I like you too."

  There are so many knots in the bowels, there is only one thought left.

  Xu Xiangyang lowered his head slightly, those dark and clear pupils that were close at hand, shone like the stars in the sky.

  He finally couldn't bear it, and took a small step forward, hugging her thin body tightly.

  Lin Xingjie’s body is so soft and so fragrant; at that moment, he felt that his soul had lost its gravity, and was floating away from the body, floating high in the sky, drifting out of the clouds, until the end—

  Let the stars into your arms.

  *

  Under the dark sky, a few dim street lights lit up at the end of the alley, like light clusters floating on the dark ocean.

  The young people who just showed their hearts to each other and become lovers are hugging each other tightly, obsessed with each other's taste, and even the feeling of the passing of time has become blurred.

  "Should we go back?" Xu Xiangyang whispered in the ear of the girl in his arms, "The temperature will drop in a while, and it will be easy to catch cold if I stay here."

   "Stay a little longer."

   Lin Xingjie shook her head coquettishly, rubbing her cheeks against his chest.

"good."

  Xu Xiangyang was a little helpless. He stood there and waited. It was a bit tired to maintain the same posture for a long time, but he could only wait until his girlfriend was satisfied.

   "I have another question."

  After a long silence, the girl asked in a low voice:

  "Xiangyang, since when did you like me?"

  Xu Xiangyang thought for a while and replied softly.

"Did the cheating guy invite you during the last sports meeting? I couldn't help my jealousy at that time. When Qing Yueyi reminded me, I realized my feelings for you are not a normal friend; if you think about it further, When you were a bad girl, my chest would become stuffy because of your business... Then there is also an element of jealousy in it."

  Go forward again, when is it going forward again?

  The memory of the past is like a rolled film, and every day spent with her hand in hand, it flashes through his mind quickly.

  Xu Xiangyang remembered the spring afternoon when the grass and yingfei had moved to this alley for the first time with her sister.

  He was tired from carrying luggage and was about to sit down and rest. He turned his head when he heard someone greet him behind him.

  He saw that on the steps in front of him, there was a pair of white sneakers that were old but very clean, and up there were light-colored socks, and fair and smooth calf skin...

  The long-haired girl in a baseball cap is standing behind him, overlooking him.

  ——"Do you believe in the end of the world?"

  The countless images that emerged in the deep sea of ​​memory are finally frozen in this scene.

  Xu Xiangyang couldn't help laughing.

   "I remember, Xingjie." He whispered, "I might... I fell in love with you the first time I saw you."

"I am so happy."

  The girl pressed against his chest, muttering softly like a dream.

   "In return, I want to like you all my life."

  The moment Xu Xiangyang heard this sentence, Xu Xiangyang's nose suddenly sore, as if tears were about to fall in the next second.

  A lifetime, a lifetime, he thought, it would be too long for two young teenagers——

  But when the teenager lowered his head and quietly sniffed the faint fragrance from her hair, his excitement suddenly calmed down.

  The surging tide in her heart is gradually stopping, converging on the open and flat ground, slowly flowing rivers.

  Thousands of years ago, countless stars shining on this land, and now they are still tirelessly caring for the lovers hugging each other under the night sky for a long time.

  Thinking about it this way, for a lifetime...maybe not that long.

  (End of this chapter)