Is this cartoonist mentally ill?

Walk out of the library.

Fu Liyu carried his schoolbag and ended the day's self-disciplined study.

He was a little tired, after all, he spent the whole day in the library studying, although he could also feel the fun from studying.

But learning itself is not a very happy thing after all.

Fu Liyu rode his bicycle outside the library and rode all the way back to the dormitory.

"Ayu, you're back."

His roommate Yao Zihan was playing games as usual, and he was sometimes envious.

But he was just envious.

"You're back, after all, it's night."

Fu Liyu put down his words and said jokingly, "I can't sleep in the library."

"Ayu, you're back."

Another roommate Fan Siwei was there, but he looked like he was wearing headphones and holding a mobile phone... he was chatting with his girlfriend again.

This is the real winner in life.

Fu Liyu envied Fan Siwei more, after all, he could actually do Yao Zihan's life.

As long as he indulged himself a little, he could play games and play every day like Yao Zihan.

But he was unwilling to do so. In addition to his own ambitions and love of learning, his family environment was of course an indispensable reason.

So Yao Zihan was not the one he envied the most.

His roommate Fan Siwei was different.

He could not do the same as Fan Siwei. He was introverted, sensitive and not very handsome. It was impossible for him to have good interpersonal relationships like Fan Siwei, and almost everyone in his grade was his friend.

He was also able to quickly get rid of being single shortly after entering college and have a beautiful and lovely girl as his girlfriend.

"Uh... Wei, don't worry about me, keep chatting."

Fu Liyu responded with a smile, and then he found clothes and said, "I'll take a shower first."

"Yeah, go ahead, we've all taken a shower."

Yao Zihan responded with a smile.

...

When Fu Liyu finished taking a shower and came out to blow dry his hair, and took clothes to the washing machine to wash, it was almost dark.

"Good night, everyone."

Since Yao Zihan and Fan Siwei both had early classes the next day, they would go to bed early on Thursday night.

"I'll just turn off the lights."

Fu Liyu said with a smile.

Then he turned off the lights and went to bed.

But he didn't sleep like that. He didn't have an early class the next day.

But even so, with Fu Liyu's self-disciplined and academic personality, he should have gone to study early the next day.

However... Fu Liyu didn't do that.

Instead, he hid in the quilt. Because the air conditioner was on, it wouldn't be very hot in this gradually warming weather.

Then he took out his mobile phone and carefully inserted the earphones into his ears.

He then clicked on... a newly updated anime on C Station that he had clicked to follow - "Magic City Ghoul".

Even Yao Zihan and Fan Siwei didn't know that Fu Liyu actually liked the anime "Magic City Ghoul" very much.

Compared with the more popular "Kill! Red Eyes" and the second season of "Chainsaw Man", which has more fans and is known as the new anime overlord of the season, he prefers "Magic City Ghoul", a "niche" anime that is not very popular.

The depressing and artistic atmosphere, the not-so-outstanding plot, the restrained meanings between humans and ghouls...

And the weak male protagonist Kaneki, who is considered cowardly by others but is very much like him in Fu Liyu's eyes.

Fu Liyu likes this show very much.

During the update time on Thursday nights and Friday mornings, he always stays in bed, and tries to watch the show quietly as much as possible because he is worried about disturbing his roommates.

Not to mention...

This episode, the twelfth episode, is the end of the first season of "Madu Ghoul".

Unlike "Kill! Akame ga Mitsukoshi", which was directly announced as a half-year show, there are a total of 24 episodes, and it will continue to be updated later.

The first season of "Madu Ghoul" has announced the finale, and there is nothing to watch after watching this episode.

So even if he has early classes the next day, he has to finish watching it tonight.

Fu Liyu put on his headphones and immediately clicked play.

At this time, the beginning of the animation series is... Kaneki, who was taken away by the gecko and restrained in the restraint chair, seemed to be in a sea of ​​flowers.

Kaneki was already covered with scars. Under the terrifying "1000-7" torture of the gecko before, he accepted the torture soberly and fearfully.

Pulling out nails, breaking limbs, centipedes in the ears...

All of this tortured Kaneki to the point that he was no longer human.

This even has some connection with the setting of the self-abuse of the Nestorian Church in the comic "Dao Weiyixian" currently being serialized by Lin Qingshan.

But Kaneki could not die under this torture because of the powerful regeneration ability of the ghoul.

He could not die and could not live, which made Kaneki in extreme pain, and his spirit seemed to be about to collapse.

And at this time... a gentle hand touched his face.

"Mom... Mom."

Kaneki thought it was his mother's touch, but when he looked up, he saw... it was...

"Ms. Rize..."

And his torture continued...

Gecko, wearing the mask of the famous killer Jason, used all the torture methods he had learned from the perverted ghoul investigator on Kaneki.

"How many counts?"

He asked Kaneki like a pervert.

Kaneki, like Li Huowang, is constantly drifting between... the real world being tortured by geckos, and the hallucinations of Kamidai Rise.

While he was answering Gekko's "math" questions, Kamishiro Riyo was also talking to him.

"You are still alive..."

The illusion of Kamishiro Riyo squatted next to him, looked at him pitifully, and said, "But... this kind of thing doesn't matter. Now... what kind of person is Kaneki's mother?"

Kaneki's... mother?

Fu Liyu was stunned for a moment. He only knew that Jin Mu had been an orphan a long time ago.

But in the early days, Jin Mu was actually a child of a single-parent family. His father... seemed to have never been mentioned, only that his mother had passed away.

Suddenly, under the guidance of Kamishiro Riyo in the hallucination, Kaneki began to think of... his long-dead mother.

As a child, Kaneki studied under the guidance of his mother and the large number of books left behind by his father who passed away before he was sensible. He gradually fell in love with literature and literary novels.

So in his eyes, his mother is a very gentle and kind woman.

At this moment, the real pain of the gecko torturing him in the real world once again interrupted Kaneki's hallucination.

He is still suffering from this gecko.

But soon, it seemed that the gecko left, and when Kaneki was able to take a breath, he had another hallucination of Kamidai Rise.

He has gone crazy...

But this time, Kamishiro Rise smiled and said to him, "Is your mother really a gentle, kind and amazing person?"

Fu Liyu was stunned for a moment. Could there be a hidden secret?

Then the animation continued to play, and suddenly the fragments of Kaneki's memories appeared again.

Only this time...

A woman with no face appeared here. Jin Mu's mother gave her a lot of money, and she immediately counted and left happily.

"Who is that?"

Kamishiro Rise asked curiously.

"Mom...'s sister."

Jin Mu said with some disappointment, "I said I don't have much money, so I always ask my mother for money..."

This is... raising a vampire.

Fu Liyu pursed his lips immediately because it reminded him of his family.

It's just that his family is... his father and his brother.

As the eldest son, my father's brother took away almost all of my grandfather's funds, and even inherited the house in my hometown that my grandfather had paid for and had built.

But he refused to raise his grandma, and she lived with Fu Liyu's family.

That's okay, but... my father's brother did not pay child support. Instead, he used the excuse that he needed to pay for a house and never gave any money to grandma or their family.

Not only that, Fu Liyu's father had to pay for his grandfather's medical treatment before his death, but he didn't pay a penny.

At the same time, all the pensions given by my employer after my grandfather passed away were taken away.

My father just said that after all, he was his eldest brother, and my grandfather had placed his hopes on his eldest brother before he was alive...

Fu Liyu, his mother and sister suddenly felt helpless towards their cowardly father.

Although he didn't directly ask for money like Kaneki's mother's sister, he had the same profound experience as Kaneki.

But Jin Mu was even worse.

because……

"Because of this, my mother is at work during the day and at home at night. She works day and night, and also works in her free time..."

That's it, until one day.

Kaneki's mother was exhausted.

She collapsed on the table, but there was still work in front of her.

"I became a human being."

Kaneki said sadly.

But then he met his good friend Chen Yingliang. When he recalled this memory, it seemed that there was finally light in his eyes.

But at this moment...

"But you have lost even this important friend."

Kamishiro Rise looked at him with a strange smile and said, "...because of yourself."

Once again, Jin Mu was scratched by a gecko in the real world, and he saw...

In front of the couple who had helped him, Gecko asked Kaneki to choose one person and Gecko would kill him.

Gekko told Jinmu that these two people were asked to take care of Jinmu just to prepare for this 'show', making Jinmu think that he would be rescued and regard them both as benefactors.

"All adverse situations in the world...are caused by the lack of ability of the parties concerned."

Gecko immediately said a famous saying.

"All adverse situations in the world...are caused by the lack of ability of the parties concerned?"

Fu Liyu was in a daze. He actually felt that this sentence... made sense?

Yes...as long as you are strong enough, there will be no adverse situations.

So it is true that most of the adverse situations in the world are caused by the inability of the parties concerned.

Just like dad...if he was braver, he would confront his brother...

Is it... that their family doesn’t have to bear such a heavy burden?

Then, when Gekko asked him to make a choice to kill one of the two people and let the other live, Kaneki couldn't make the choice to take either life.

So...Gecko killed both of them directly in front of him.

Jin Mu suddenly suffered a huge psychological blow!

Just like Li Huowang heard Yingzi say that he killed everyone in the town.

Kaneki, who was kind-hearted, killed two people he regarded as benefactors because of his cowardice.

The hallucination reappears at this moment...

"It's not me...it's not me..."

After Jinmu was entangled in his heart, he then said painfully, "No, it's all my fault..."

At this time, Kamishiro Ryo appeared again, laughing and mocking him, saying, "It's obvious...what's there to say? You just blame yourself like this, keep blaming, and make strange things, but nothing has changed at all, and there is no change at all." Will try to change..."

Kaneki opened his eyes, as if listening carefully to Kamishiro Rise's teachings.

"It's all your fault, of course."

Rise Kamishiro continued, "Whose fault is this? Accident? An accident? Luck?"

At this point, she laughed again and said, "Luck does not exist, there are only circumstances and a combination of circumstances. Who created this situation?"

"Who is it?"

"It's you."

She looked at Kaneki and said coldly.

However……

Fu Liyu looked strange, he remembered...

Rise Kamishiro himself was hit to death by a steel bar because of "bad luck".

She herself said luck does not exist?

emmmmm...it seems a little contrasting and funny.

But Kaneki completely believed it... because this was not what Kamidai Rise said to him. This was an illusion, an illusion that Kaneki himself had due to extreme pain.

So this is not Kamidai Roshi speaking to him, but his... true thoughts in his heart right now.

"All adverse situations in the world are caused by the lack of ability of the parties involved."

She came to Jin Mu again and said seductively, "That's the truth..."

In the midst of the words "Kamidai Rise", Kaneki let out a painful howl.

However, Kamidai Rise ignored it and continued to stimulate Kaneki with words.

This kind of mental pain made Jin Mu feel more painful than the physical torture.

"The beginning of everything is because you are ignorant, idiot."

"It's all...it's all your fault..."

"It's better to be a person who is hurt than to be a person who hurts others. That's why you are so miserable..."

"If you were strong enough to kill the gecko, wouldn't those two people be saved?"

"If we had not chosen to kill the man, the woman might have been saved."

"It was also that time..."

…

The death of Ryoko Fueguchi replayed before Kaneki's eyes again, and...he saw again that it was as if because of him, Hinami and the others also died tragically in front of him in the future.

And...the accusations made by his friend Yingliang.

All of this made him so painful that he screamed at the top of his lungs.

"understand?"

Kamishiro Rise touched his head affectionately, with a look of hatred in his eyes, and said, "This is the way of life you have chosen. This is the future you have chosen. Why are you crying and why are you shouting?"

"It's your choice. Instead of hurting others, you choose to be hurt by others...it's gentle and beautiful..."

"But you seem to have chosen everything, but you are losing everything. Your mother... too."