Li Huang

The Queen Mother did not speak, but looked at me. She stretched out her hand in front of me, and I stretched out my hand slowly, almost afraid to touch the hairpin. The queen mother took away the mother's hairpin in my hand, looked at it carefully for a long while, and rubbed it lightly with her hand, her eyes became sad.

She said leisurely: "You know, this hairpin is not your mother's."

I was so startled that I almost bit my tongue, looking at the queen mother, eyes filled with puzzlement.

The queen mother smiled sadly: "It's okay to tell you. Even if the Aijia doesn't tell you, Yao'er will tell you sooner or later. Since you will know sooner or later, it is better to tell the Aijia truthfully."

"This hairpin is the most beloved object of the Ai family when she was still in her boudoir." The queen mother said after a long pause, her gaze seemed to have passed time and flew to the distant past.

I saw that she even had a sweet smile, which was completely inconsistent with the solemnity of her body now, but it was a true smile from the heart.

"This hairpin is the love for the beloved before the Ai's family enters the palace." Her tone is soft, like a bright moon on the osmanthus sticks, full of sweetness: "This hairpin is the beloved person of the Ai's family, specifically for It’s made by Aijia. Because of the small “lan” in Aijia, the characters are also carved into it."

She paused, and said in a daze: "After entering the palace, the first emperor changed me to ‘Je’, and no one remembered that the Lai’s family was called ‘Lan’er’.”

She looked down at the hairpin and smiled and said: "It's a pity that good luck makes people, and the Ai family can't stand by the beloved. So, the hairpin, the night before the Ai family got married, the trustee gave it to someone in secret. people."

"You know, who is the person sent by Ai's family?" The queen mother looked at me fixedly, her eyes full of affection and love.

Past events flashed through my mind like lightning. It's not that I have never heard of such a past, but I always think it is a story made by others out of nothing. Looking at the queen mother’s expression at this moment, it seems...

But I didn't dare to say it, I was afraid to say it, and was shocked by what I thought for many years, the impression of parental harmony.

"Queen Dowager..." I hesitated: "I don't dare to guess."

The queen mother smiled and wiped the corners of her eyes gently: "For so many years, the Aijia thinks that the Aijia will forget it."

After the Queen Mother's narration, I was always in a trance, and the love and grudges from that long ago were slowly revealed in her mouth.

Miss Min at the time was in love with Young Master Ling at that time, and secretly got together.

If it hadn't been for that paper edict, now it would have been the husband sang and the woman succumbed to the case. At that time, it seemed that talented men and beautiful women were the most correct.

However, Miss Min's family is destined to become the Queen of the Great Xi, and now the Queen Mother, and Young Master Ling, who only crowned Jiuzhou, naturally will inevitably become a leader in the political field.

Even if helpless, even if resentful, but the emperor's order is hard to violate. The two had to carefully put away their emotions and accept the arrangements of fate.

This is also the reason why my father kept doing his best, not all because of the sincerity of a courtier, and the protection of his beloved.

This protection lasts for decades.

My mother, the gentle and gentle woman from Jiangnan in my impression, must have known it. It's just that she also concealed her inner grievances, and did her job as the wife of Xiangguo, and she also got the friendship of her husband.

However, what is not obtained is often the best. My father probably never forgets his childhood love. Therefore, what he does, what he gives, even if there is no return, is happy.

Shen Xiyao also knew it, so he hated his father. He hated this love that had passed through years ago, and this love has not completely faded. In the eyes of a born emperor like him, this is a blasphemy against the royal family. The blasphemy against his supreme father.

Everything turned into hatred for his father, which made him do that.

The night before my marriage, when my mother gave me the hairpin, the mist on her face was also lifted. This is not her dowry, but my father wants it to be my dowry. The palace evokes the memories of its original owner of the past, thus, to protect me.

But... Am I really protected by it?

But this hairpin also brought me a good memory, even if it was mixed with blood and blood and shocking.

"The Ai's family asked Yao'er if he really harmed your father. Yao'er admitted that he had done something before. Although he stopped later, he was unable to return to heaven and it was too late."

The Queen Mother said slowly: "The Aijia was shocked when he heard it, but his hatred for your father came from the long-term depression. Aijia understands. But the Aijia doesn't understand. Why did you decide what Yaoer did? , But lost resentment."

The Queen Mother squinted her eyes to look at me. At this time, I was disturbed by the past a long time ago, and it took a long time before I came over.

I slowly looked at the Queen Mother, the few red gold wishful hairpins on her head turned out dazzling brilliance, I don't open my eyes, my eyes fell on the quilt of hundreds of descendants.

Grasping his hand tightly, he slowly said: "Mother, after you have experienced such emotions, you will know that emotions and destiny are often beyond our control."

I sighed, and suddenly there was an urge to vomit.

"When I learned that my father's death was caused by him, I felt hatred in my heart. It was a hate that couldn't be wiped away even after chanting in the mirror hall for seven days. That hatred gnawed my heart for a long time. , My eyes were blinded by hatred, and I didn't even think about whether there was any conspiracy hidden in it."

When I looked at the Queen Mother, there was sorrow and regret in her eyes.

"Every night, my dream is filled with the loving smile of my father, and when I wake up from the dream in the morning, this smile turns into the faces of people around me, but what kind of people around him, he killed my father. Murderer. How do I face it?"

I looked at the queen mother helplessly, and she reached out and embraced me. I smelled the faint scent of sandalwood on her body, felt my heart gradually calmed, and continued: "At that time, I was crazy and could not care about anything. My emotions received the strongest impact at that time. It is hate and love on the other side, but in that case, love is deeply responsible, all love has turned into hate, and filled all of my heart. All hate, in the end, gathered into a glass of poisoned wine , A sharp blade, turned into my ingenious smile that night, and that deep knife."

I haven't thought about the impact on myself if I tell you these things. I just want to say it. If I say it, my heart will feel much better.

"At that time, I just wanted to let everything end. But, I didn't succeed. I thought I was bound to die, but he sent me here. He didn't cure me of the crime of the Ling family, but gave me a reward. And mine Hate, as long as the knife fell, along with my worry, let me understand that I not only hate him, I also love him. And when I learned that I had our flesh and blood, that hate, It faded even more."

I sighed and said: "So, after he admitted the facts, I just think that he is a good man. I can't deny that he is Mingjun, a good man, and I also recognize that I can't ruin this because of my own personal grievances. Paint the country, the country that my father once fought so hard for."

This is a joyful feeling, until I said it, I didn't feel it was a complete relief.

I have always been eager to confide in someone, but I can't find anyone to confide in this place.

The queen mother pondered for a moment, then suddenly looked at me with piercing eyes, but with oppression: "You really, have no other ideas?" I looked at her and shook my head: "My Ling family, what should be, has everything Up."

The queen mother shook her head and finally said, "You know, why are there three hairpins?"

I didn't react for a while, why did the Queen Mother suddenly turn the topic back to the hairpin. However, this is what I have always been curious about.

"Erchen... I don't know."

The Queen Mother did not answer immediately, she just stood up, and I suddenly found that her well-maintained face was full of vicissitudes at this time.

"These three hairpins... The one you lost was picked up by He'er. The one of Concubine Liu was made by someone in the shape of that one. And the one in the Emperor's hand was made by himself. "

The queen mother turned to me suddenly, her eyes were fierce and determined, no longer the previous compassion and gentleness.

"Do you know why they want to make the same hairpin?"

I looked at the queen mother and shook my head.

"He'er fell in love with you at first sight. He is willing to collect the things you have worn, because he doesn't know whether you will have a future." The queen mother looked out the window: "The Aijia knows that he wanted to ask the emperor to marry you."

"But...why does the emperor have?" I asked impatiently.

"That day he picked it up and went to Yao'er's Imperial Study Room. Although he was hidden in his sleeve, he was still seen by the eunuch. I told Yao'er." The queen mother said lightly, "But He'er should have noticed it, and stayed overnight. Someone hurriedly made the same hairpin and returned it to Yaoer the next day. It only said that it was picked up in the Imperial Garden the day before, but it was forgotten."

I looked at the queen mother and couldn't believe it.

"It just so happened that Concubine Liu went to the Imperial Study Room to see Yao'er, and said that she had lost it. Yao'er gave it to her along the way." The Queen Mother shook her head: "Even though, Yao'er knew that this hairpin was not from Concubine Liu."

I opened my eyes wide in surprise: "How could he know, the emperor?"

There was so much helplessness in the Queen Mother’s smile. She looked at me and opened her mouth: "Actually...Yaoer, he liked you very early. You must think that he liked you after he met you through a winding path. Yes.” The queen mother’s eyes were full of sadness, “he fell in love with you long before that.” The queen mother sighed and said: “The son of the Ai family is very affectionate, even if he knows you shouldn’t love you. The person who loves, still loves desperately. Ai Jia thinks that it will make him perfect, but doesn't want to, he escapes again."

I opened my eyes in surprise and looked straight at the Queen Mother, puzzled, "I don't understand what the Queen Mother said."

The queen mother smiled faintly: "You don't need to understand, that's all in the past. Now that the times have changed, you don't need to know, and, if you don't know, it may be better for you."

The Queen Mother did not explain to me, but I panicked, as if there was an important thing to do, but I forgot what it was.

"So..." The Queen Mother suddenly changed her tone and said solemnly every word: "The Aijia, you can't let you destroy the two sons of the Aijia!"

I pulled her robe: "Mother, please tell your son."

"Because the emperor has long been enamored with you, although he has always turned a blind eye to you, but he has you in his heart. How can he know this hairpin?"

I was too horrified to speak, so I had to stare at the Queen Mother.

The Queen Mother sighed: "There are some things that you still don't know." She paused and said, "Forgive the Aijia's decision today, because the Aijia can't let you ruin the two sons of the Aijia."