Library of Heaven’s Path

It took more than a week to stop.

At 15:25 on June 18, 2019, his father was involved in a car accident. He was hit by an electric vehicle and was hit by a soil-carrying car. The skull was comminuted and the ribs were broken. The hips and leg bones were broken. The home has been at 14 o'clock on the 19th.

In the hospital, he saw a ventilator in his body, a tube in his head, and his entire face was covered with gauze. He was swollen and swelled, and he never stopped, and collapsed on the spot.

The next day, I contacted an expert from Jinan and said that I had the opportunity to take an ambulance in the past and prepare for surgery. As a result, the electrolyte imbalance in the body, sodium and potassium ions were too high and too low, and there was no surgical condition. After a night of treatment, not only did not improve, but it became more and more serious, and the cerebral infarction was more than one and a half. The overall score was only 3, which is the lowest score.

The doctor said that there is no hope.

The mother said, you can't go outside, according to the customs of your hometown, even if you die, you can't live in the hometown and go home.

At 15 o'clock on the 21st, I arrived home and stopped breathing.

At this time, I realized that life is short.

These days, I have been jealous, I feel dreaming, I want to wake up when I think, I found that everything is fake, he still sleeps in the room, still call my name, still ask me how I am now... Unfortunately, these , have become "if".

My father is a teacher. After more than 30 years of education, there are countless Tao Li. I have never done anything that is contrary to morality and contrary to my conscience. But God can’t let him stay for a while, go so fast, so decisive, even one sentence Did not leave, even a voice did not come out, from the accident to the death of the car, the eyes did not open once.

After writing for more than ten years, there are countless births and deaths. I don't feel sad. I can experience myself personally. I feel so painful, so helpless, like the whole world, I have abandoned me. I know that from now on, my father's looks and voices can only appear in memories, and I can no longer see them. I have completely lost him and become a child without a father.

After graduating from college, I worked in Qinghai. Later I became a family and stayed in the local area. I didn't return to my hometown in Shandong. The time spent with my parents has not been much.

I don’t want to miss them, but I feel that time is enough. Just give me some time, I can have my own business, I can become a god, I can be a platinum, I can live a good life, take them over, or go home... I have been fighting for more than ten years, and I am about to do it. When I am doing my best, he is gone.

These days I have been thinking, why not give me some time? I really can, even if I give it a little more, let me serve it well, it is not a white son.

But the truth is that suddenly...

In these years, when I go to work or write a book, I can't break it. The whole person has to turn around and have almost no time for herself. Everything must be carefully calculated. I dare not waste it. I am desperately trying to give them a better life. But with this condition, He can't enjoy it.

Listening to my brother, I went to Shanghai last month and he always complained. Since I am here, why not go home?

I know that he missed me.

I didn't return, and I didn't see the last side.

I always thought that there was time, and now I understand that there is no such thing.

The father is a native rural man who has lost his mother at the age of six at the age of six. His father died in his twenties and lived alone until he married my mother. I have given birth to three sons, from private teachers, to the present, and have never had a good day.

In 2017, my wife was pregnant and asked him and her mother to take care of it. It meant to stay with us for a while, but my place was more than 3,000 meters above sea level. After less than four months, I lost 20 kilograms and walked. When the grandson was born eight days, he went back.

When I left to clean up the room, I found that there were more screws and screw caps for the mineral water bottle. It was said that it was usually bent, and if it was useful, even if it was useless, it could sell money. I was sent to the plane, and I couldn't go through the security check. I checked the pliers with the broken corners, the screwdriver without the handle, the used compass... I asked what to do with this, he said it was all embarrassing, and it can be used back. I smiled and said, you mean, I can't afford this thing? I will buy it for you. He said, can still use, what to buy? Do not waste!

When I got home, I called and was very happy. I always thought that I couldn’t understand why the irons of such a big plane could fly to the sky and fly so high. Being able to fly in the village is very powerful, everyone is envious, and many people still don't believe it.

My father likes to learn new knowledge. When I was a child, my family’s books were almost all of the "100,000 Why" and "The Moon Mystery". I used my mobile phone and were more proficient than me. I always wanted to learn a computer when I was talking. I said Go back and buy one for you. If you have it, you can buy a better mobile phone for you... But this "going back" can no longer be achieved.

I will be a carpenter, and I have a lot of stools at home, which he personally did. Will repair electronic products, black and white TV, is a famous electrician in the four towns and eight villages, basically every day people send electrical appliances to repair. After repairing it, I will receive a maximum of accessories, not to make a living, and not to make money, but only the reputation of a "good guy."

I always wanted an old house. I said that I bought it in the county. I said that I didn’t live in the house in the city. I want to live in the countryside. I said that it would cover it. I gave it money at the beginning of this year and built a set in my hometown. In the past few months, I have been buying materials, looking for people, and I have to worry about it. I live there every night. I watched a piece of brick and brick built and I was satisfied with smoking. At the beginning of the month, I finally got it, and the furniture was bought. I was happy to say that I finally had my own nest. I was about to move in. I was gone, and the new house didn’t live for a day.

I like to read some miscellaneous books and I am very yearning for various mysterious events. I said that I should have a passport and take you to a place like the pyramid to see the wonders of the world. He is very happy. He insists on exercising every day. He said that when he goes abroad, he will not fall behind and be able to keep up with us. Now, the passport is also useless.

I don’t like debts, even my son. I recorded the cost of buying a ticket for him and taking him out for spending. The train ticket, bus ticket, plane ticket time and price are all recorded together. , still me. I still think, save the province in these years, wait for the house money to be enough, but also me...

I didn't intend to let him back, but now I think, how good it can be, at least it shows that it is still alive.

On the way back from Jinan, watching his vital signs drop a little, and eventually tend to be nothing, I feel like the brain is about to explode. These years have been creating the world, I have always felt that I can do anything, I can't help anything, but there is no use in reality.

I am imagining that if there is medical qi, it is a soul teacher, there is a heavenly spirit, and it can summon Zhang Hang... This way, he can let him not go, but can't do it!

I thought that as long as I can make more money, the days will be better, many things can be avoided, I can live happily, but now I find that many times, money is useless.

I thought narrowly, why are you, not others.

I want to keep you, but I can't keep it.

I want to go back a few days ago and stop you from going out. This kind of tragedy will not happen, but I am not the protagonist of the novel. Time cannot go back. I can't make up for it.

I am just a mortal.

A useless mortal.

Anything that can't be done.

In the face of leaving, you can only watch it, there is no way.

Emotional confusion, I don't know what to say.

The father’s funeral has been completed, and the land is safe. In the past two days, the responsibility for traffic accidents will be restored in the next few days.

Sweeping the horizon

June 26, 2019