Life With You

"Xiaoxi's mother has been abroad for many years and has a life of her own. I don't want to force her to come back. I always thought she was fine. I didn't know that she had undergone such a big operation until Lao Xu told me about her situation..."

Speaking of Lu Fangqi, Song Yuanqing's eyes were soft and apologetic. After all, he couldn't make up for it. Just as he couldn't give Lu Fangqi the life he wanted, he might be destined to owe her in this life.

After listening to the past, George Sheng on the other side also learned a little about Lu Fangqi. He felt very sorry for Song Xi. He opened his thin lips and said softly, "Xie'er is a hard-hearted person. ."

Otherwise, she won't lose control when she sees Lu Fangqi, she must miss her mother very much.

Song Yuanqing's eyes were darker with guilt, she lowered her eyes slightly, and sighed: "Xiao Xi's mother is a very good person. It is because I did not do well at the beginning. We are separated and I will bear most of the responsibility. I thought I would double Xiaoxi can make up for part of her missing maternal love, but she has always had a knot in her heart over the years. Whether I or her mother, I don’t want to see her unhappy... Zhisheng, now you are also Xiaoxi’s closest person, her mother. When you come back, you can find an opportunity to let them meet and solve the misunderstanding that year."

George Sheng agreed. Apart from Song Yuanqing and Lu Fangqi, he is the third person in the world who loves Song Xi the most. When the two were just together, he mentioned her mother. Song Xi reacted very coldly. At that time, he was just holding a spectator's posture, and at this time, although he couldn't empathize with him, he could feel her pain.

Song Xi was at home alone, crying enough, closing the album, telling herself not to think about it anymore. Whether it was Lu Fangqi, who was abroad or the woman she met today, they never recognized her, did they?

Since she didn't admit it, she wouldn't think about it again, just because of Song Yuanqing's accident, Lu Fangqi did not show up, she would never forgive.

To avoid thinking any more, Song Xi lay down to sleep, but closed her eyes, her mind was filled with the familiar face, she pinched the quilt, forbearing the sore nose, and mumbling again and again in her heart, no, she didn't want to at all Lu Fangqi is not a good mother, why should she want someone who never missed her?

For too many years, Song Xi has been so awkwardly suppressing the missing heart. She had to tear open the scar and let the old pain flush with the missing, day after day, until numb, until she lied to herself and thought she really didn't want to.

After finally falling asleep, Song Xi didn’t know that George Sheng would come home suddenly, so there was a tissue next to him for wiping tears, and the pillow was also wet. When George Sheng walked to her, his heart was extremely soft and easy to pull. It hurts.

Raising her hand and gently pulling away her broken hair that was stuck to her cheeks with tears, she was so dead when she slept in the past, she wouldn't wake up at all, but at this moment, when he moved a little, she immediately opened her eyes, her eyes were red with tears. The red blood streaks and the loss of surprise.

"It's me." George Sheng said quickly.

Song Xi stared at his face, after a few seconds he recovered, and said in a soft voice: "Why are you back?"

George Sheng stretched out his hand to touch her face, and whispered back: "I'm afraid you will cry secretly at home."

Song Xi muttered, "Why am I crying..."

She was so stiff, she wouldn't admit it even if her eyes were red.

George Sheng sat by the bed, looked at her and said, "I just went to the hospital."

Song Xi didn't react, "Why are you going to the hospital?"

George Sheng said: "Go and see the kid who was robbed today."

Song Xi asked: "How is he?"

George Sheng said: "It's a little bit of skin trauma." After finishing speaking, he looked at Song Xi's expression change.

Song Xi looked down, and said in a very soft voice, "That's good."

He saw that she wanted to say something else, but after waiting a few seconds, he didn't say anything. George Sheng took the initiative: "Xie'er."

"Ok?"

"I have something to tell you."

Song Xi lay on her side, raising her eyelids to look at George Sheng, "What's the matter?"

George Sheng reached into the quilt and took her hand and said, "The kid who was robbed today is called Xu Le, the son of Xu Shunping."

Song Xi's slightly swollen eyes glared, obviously surprised.

George Sheng looked at her, opened his lips, and said softly, "Also, Xu Le's mother's surname is Lu, Lu Fangqi... She is also your mother."

Song Xi stared at George Sheng without blinking. There was no change in expression on her face and her body remained motionless. She was trying to turn the stormy waves in her heart into calm waves on the surface. She didn't want people to see how much she cared, even if In front of George Sheng.

George Sheng's Adam's apple moved slightly, shook Song Xi's hand slightly, and said in a low voice, "Xi'er, your mother had brain surgery. It's not that she won't come back to look for you, just don't remember..."

Song Xi could hear a voice, saying in her ear: Calm down, don't cry, don't cry.

But the tears flowed up unconvincingly. He soon lost sight of George Sheng's face. George Sheng took a tissue to wipe her tears and said that he had gone to see Song Yuanqing and told her about Lu Fangqi's experience over the years.

"I brought Aunt Lu's diary and videos back."

George Sheng did not ask Song Xi if she wanted to watch it, because it was obvious that she had always been a hard-talked child. Just like when she was eleven or twelve years old, her impression of Lu Fangqi stayed stubbornly at that time, because at that time It is not only the pain of sudden separation, but also the endless happy time.

He put the bag by the bed, touched Song Xi's head, and said softly: "I'll make you some food, and I will go downstairs to eat later."

George Sheng got up and left and helped her close the door. Song Xi raised his hand to wipe away the tears and took out the diary and DV in the bag.

Open the diary, the first line of the first page: My favorite daughter, Xiaoxi...

Tears made Song Xi unable to read the words clearly. The vague face in his memory and the woman who met in the restaurant today finally overlapped. The appearance and voice seemed to have not changed.

Song Xi stared wide-eyed as she cried. From the first line of the first page to the last character of the last page, she couldn't stand it for a few times and cried loudly. She also hid secretly when she was a teenager. In the room, under the quilt, she cried. She has not changed in the past and now, and Lu Fangqi is also the same. Lu Fangqi's love for her has never changed.

After reading a thick diary, Song Xi turned on the time-honored DV machine. It was full of words recorded by Lu Fangqi for herself. At that time, she was still young and looked like Song Xi’s memory. Facing the DV camera, Lu Fangqi said "Xiao Xi, I have already told your Uncle Xu. If the operation is unsuccessful, maybe this is the only thing I can leave you. Mom loves you very much, really loves you, I hope I can be yours An example, even if you only teach you one thing for a lifetime, no matter who you fall in love with or marry in the future, mother hopes that you can always be happy and happy. If you are not happy, don’t embarrass yourself. Life is very long. We hope everything is as you wish. And accept all the unsatisfactory..."

"I'm not a good mother. There is no way to give you a complete childhood, but you will always grow up, and there will be a day when you get married. Mom hopes that you will be carefree. Even if you encounter ups and downs, you will not be afraid of everything. Courage, and also, I love you very much, and I am also very afraid that I will forget you. If mother really doesn’t remember you someday, you must remember to come back and find mother..."