Lin Shilang Gu

Lin Yuewei raised his eyes and met Gu Feiquan's questioning eyes because he had observed him several times, and asked, "Big brother, where is your mother?"

Gu Feiquan: "I asked her to rest first."

Oh, went to rest.

Lin Yuewei thought about it, and then asked, "Is it in the hospital?"

Gu Feiquan nodded, "I don't worry about her going back alone, so I made a bed for her in the hospital and fell asleep first."

Lin Yuewei wanted to ask where he was, but to avoid Gu Feiquan's doubts, he swallowed the words. It wasn't that she was afraid of Gu Feiquan and her mother. She still believed Gu Yanqiu's way of looking at people, that is, they were mother and son.

Gu Feiquan gave her a deep look, and if she didn't ask, he wouldn't answer any more.

***

Gu Huai's physical condition is better than expected. He doesn't need to wear an oxygen mask, and has a bottle of water hanging from one hand. Except for his pale face, there is almost nothing abnormal.

"Here." Gu Huai smiled slightly at Gu Yanqiu who entered the door.

Gu Yanqiu walked over silently, the isolation gown made her look more difficult to approach.

Gu Huai's smile did not diminish, and her eyes followed the step by step.

Gu Yanqiu came to him, squatted down, and let Gu Huai's eyes level with her. She looked at Gu Huai for a few seconds and asked, "Why?"

Gu Huai patted the edge of the bed with her hand without a needle, motioning her to sit down.

Gu Yanqiu moved a chair and sat down.

Gu Huai sighed, but there was no sadness on his face.

"Actually, at the beginning, I thought about whether to hide it from you. Later, when I thought about it, it's the same thing. If one more person knows about it, it will not make the cure possible. In order not to worry you, I still Decided to hide it."

and……

Gu Huai didn't say the latter reason, because Gu Yanqiu probably wouldn't feel comfortable.

Gu Huai just married He Songjun, no matter what the reason for his marriage, He Songjun knew that he was a cancer patient soon after entering the door. It was too unfair to her, and it was only a few days to live a carefree life.

"Then you can leave without any worries?" Gu Yanqiu asked in a cold voice. What does this take her for? Irrelevant people?

Gu Huai: "..."

He coughed, and Gu Yanqiu came over to give him relief: "I'm not good at speaking, I'm sorry."

Gu Huai: "cough...not..."

Gu Yanqiu: "???"

Gu Huai breathed evenly, stared at her for a long time, and said in disbelief, "Who said I was going to leave without concern?"

Gu Yanqiu: "Secretary Li."

Gu Huai said angrily: "You give me your phone, I call him, what are you talking about, curse me."

Gu Yanqiu said in his heart, "Isn't it?

She recalled it carefully and said, "Oh, what Secretary Li originally said was "no worries, no worries", there was no 'going away' part."

Gu Huai coughed and said, "It's you who misunderstood."

Gu Yanqiu: "Huh?"

Gu Huai said: "What I said about no worries and no worries is that after the company's affairs have been settled, I can treat the disease with peace of mind. The doctor said that my condition is not serious. If I actively cooperate with the treatment, the possibility of cure is quite high, even if it is not good It's not like he will leave in a year and a half, and he has to spend three or five years, which is enough. I didn't expect it to be a big New Year's Eve."

Gu Huai smiled and said, "Hey, this body suddenly doesn't live up to its expectations."

Gu Yanqiu: "So..."

Gu Huai: "I just hid it a bit, I don't want you to worry." When he finished solving the company's affairs, he went to a place with beautiful scenery to recuperate and took He Songjun with him. After all, he owed He Songjun too much.

Gu Huai: "It's good to know now. When the news of my cancer spreads in the company, I'm afraid the two of them will not be able to sit still, just to let you sit and reap the profits. You don't always run to the hospital and let them know. It's time to be suspicious, it's time to go to work tomorrow, it's time to have a normal meeting and a normal meeting."

"I know Dad." Gu Yanqiu habitually showed an obedient appearance in front of him.

Gu Huai: "I'm a little sleepy, you should go to bed too." He closed his eyes.

Gu Yanqiu still had a lot of questions to ask, but Gu Huai didn't know if he was really tired or not, and he had already put on a posture of "seeing off guests", so Gu Yanqiu had to go out.

Gu Feiquan and Lin Yuewei stood up at the same time.

Gu Yanqiu first glanced at Lin Yuewei, then fell on Gu Feiquan and said, "Dad is asleep, tonight I..."

Gu Feiquan sipped away the trace of displeasure that flashed just now, interrupted her, and took the initiative to say, "I'll watch the night. I'll ask for leave tomorrow and not go to the company."

Gu Yanqiu didn't refuse, he nodded slightly and said, "Excuse me."

Gu Huai is right, at this time she can only carry out the indifference to the end, and Gu Feiquan obviously guessed it before making such a suggestion.

Gu Feiquan said "En": "Are you staying in the hospital for a night or going home?"

Lin Yuewei looked at Gu Yanqiu, Gu Yanqiu said, "Go home and call me anytime if you have anything."

Gu Feiquan: "Okay, then you all go back first."

Gu Yanqiu lowered his head and silently looked at the slippers he was stepping on with his bare feet. Gu Feiquan curled his toes and shrank inward, saying, "I'll have someone send me a new pair of new ones later."

Gu Yanqiu: "Thank you, hard work."

Gu Feiquan was stunned, Lin Gu and the two had already left side by side.

Gu Feiquan looked at their backs and hooked his lips, then stretched his waist greatly, and walked unsteadily towards the resting room. It's three or four in the morning, it's not appropriate to disturb the assistant's dream, and it's too late to get it in the morning.

Gu Feiquan tiptoed into the door, and firstly called out softly, "Mom?"

He Songjun turned his back to him, his back was motionless, Gu Feiquan shook off the blanket on the sofa, yawned, curled up his long hands and feet, leaned his face on the armrest of the sofa, rubbed his feet and fell asleep On, the snoring started.

He Songjun, who had been facing away from him, suddenly turned around and stared at him quietly in the dark night.

***

Gu Lin and the two returned to the Lin Mansion. At dawn, Lin Yuewei wanted to get up early to go to the temple to offer incense and pray for blessings. In order to make it easier for her to join Ran Qingqing, she went a long way. Ran Qingqing didn't sleep well at night, when she heard the sound of the door outside, she put on her coat and got up.

"Mom?" Lin Yuewei turned on the light and was frightened by the figure standing at the door of the room, "Why haven't you slept yet?"

"I fell asleep and woke up when I heard the sound."

"Go to sleep." Lin Yuewei waved at her.

"How is my father-in-law?" Ran Qingqing asked Gu Yanqiu.

Gu Yanqiu replied, "I woke up once, and I'm in good spirits, but now I'm sleeping again."

"Okay, you two should go to bed soon, it's almost dawn." Ran Qingqing didn't say much, and turned back to the room.

"Understood, good night auntie."

"Good night." Ran Qingqing closed the bedroom door and clicked softly.

Lin Yuewei put the two's coats on the back of the sofa, held Gu Yanqiu's hand, pressed her directly on the bed, covered the quilt, and before she said a word, she said firmly, "Go to sleep, Don't overthink it."

"No nonsense." Gu Yanqiu defended without any confidence, and slowly closed his eyes, "Go to sleep too."

"Sleep." Lin Yuewei quickly lay down.

How could Gu Yanqiu fall asleep, but she still closed her eyes until the alarm clock rang at dawn. She felt an arm pass over her and knocked off her alarm clock—when she and Lin Yuewei lived together, the two of them used a mobile phone to set the alarm clock, usually Gu Yanqiu's, and then the other party lowered his head and gently He kissed her on the forehead and quietly got up to wash up.

If it weren't for the fact that her ears had been focused all the time, she would have been unable to hear Lin Yuewei's sound of brushing her teeth and washing her face. What's even more bizarre is that she gradually fell asleep in such a subtle busy voice.

Lin Yuewei changed her clothes, and finally pecked Gu Yanqiu on the lips, opened the door and went downstairs.

Ran Qingqing slept on and off all night last night, her body was not as good as that of young people, and she would be refreshed after sleeping for two hours with her eyes open. The voice just glanced up: "Just you?"

"She was still sleeping, so I set the alarm clock back." Lin Yuewei said. The temple was about to leave Yanning City, and it would take two or three hours to drive there. The two of them had to leave early. Gu Yanqiu didn't go to work until nine o'clock, so he could sleep a little longer.

Auntie put her breakfast on the dining table for Lin Yuewei, Lin Yuewei pulled out the chair and sat down: "Thank you."

The mother and daughter ate breakfast quietly, got into the car of the driver waiting outside, and left the Lin house almost silently.

Gu Yanqiu, who was woken up by the alarm clock at almost 8 o'clock, raised his hand to block the light in front of him, took the mobile phone on the bedside table, the interface opened to the chat interface, and Lin Yuewei left her a message:

[I went to incense, remember to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner, can't cry secretly]

Gu Yanqiu: "..."

She replied to Lin Yuewei that she got up, then sat on the head of the bed and called Gu Feiquan with her eyes closed.

Gu Feiquan put the half-shaved apple back on the plate, wiped his hands, and took it up: "Dad has been transferred to the intensive care unit... I woke up... The doctor has seen it, it's fine... I'll let Dad go. catch?"

Gu Huai turned his face when he heard the sound, Gu Yanqiu asked Gu Huai a few words about his body, then ended the call and got up.

Gu Feiquan threw the phone back to the counter, and Apple picked it up and continued to sharpen it. Gu Huai looked at the long peel hanging down from his hand, and smiled softly: "I didn't expect you to have this skill."

"I know a lot of craftsmanship, and you will see it later."

"Are you encouraging me?"

"You think so, right?" Gu Feiquan accidentally cut the peel off, clicked his tongue, the tip of the knife drooped down, and with a slight shake, the peel fell into the trash can, and then he was more casual, and finally cut the apple. Piece by piece, feed Gu Huai one bite at a time with a toothpick.

When Gu Huaifan opened his mouth, he felt quite unfamiliar. Sitting in front of his bed was his son who had grown up outside for 28 years.

To say that his feelings for Gu Feiquan are definitely not towards Gu Yanqiu Shen, and even at the beginning, he was brought in entirely out of guilt. Later, as time passed, he learned about the character and ability of this child, and gradually began to develop feelings for him. The idea of ​​cultivating him as Gu Yanqiu's deputy, when it comes to a father's love for his son, is basically negligible for him. He and Gu Feiquan were well aware of this.

The grievances of the previous generation will always be implicated by the innocent next generation.

"Where's your mother?" Gu Huai ate half an apple and waved his hand to say no. Since Gu Huai woke up, he hadn't seen He Songjun.

"Go home."

"She...isn't she bad?" Gu Huai showed guilt.

"You know that too?" Gu Feiquan's mouth twitched, evoking a sarcastic smile. Although there was something wrong with his mother, she was the mother who gave birth to him and raised him after all. What Gu Huai did was nothing to him, but it was a bolt from the blue for He Songjun.

He Songjun was his mother, Gu Feiquan knew it better, she kept saying that it was for the Gu family's property. There were indeed reasons for this, but it was more for Gu Huai. Especially after entering the door, Gu Huai was very kind to her. She was an ordinary woman with no vision, and gradually tilted the balance towards Gu Huai. Gu Huai was her old love, her husband, and her support for the rest of her life. . Now that I suddenly know the truth, it is normal that I can't accept it for a while.

Gu Huai sighed, "I'm sorry for you."

Gu Feiquan asked back, "Are you really sorry for us?" He stared at Gu Huai's eyes.

Gu Huai's eyes were calm and unwavering: "Otherwise?"

Gu Feiquan skipped the topic and said straight: "I have a question to ask you."

Gu Huai: "You ask."

Gu Feiquan: "Why did you marry my mother?"

"Didn't I answer it? Because I was sorry for you at that time, and out of compensation, I want you mother and son to have a good life in the future." Gu Huai looked up at him and looked at him.

"Isn't it because of Shen Huaiyu's last wish?" Gu Feiquan stared at him for a few seconds, and gently twitched the corner of his mouth.

He used Gu Yanqiu's mother's real name, not Luo Yu, which was later changed.

Gu Huai's calm expression gradually cracked, and an uncontrollable coldness flashed in his eyes: "Where did you know her name?"

Gu Feiquan put one hand on the back of the chair, as if mockingly said: "I've talked to you so many times, but you still look indifferent. I just mentioned her name, and your reaction is so big?"

Gu Huai: "Did Yan Qiu tell you? How many did she find?"

Gu Feiquan avoided answering and continued his own words: "You love her so much, and for the mere compensation, why would you be willing to change Mrs. Gu's title to another person? Gu Dong, your reasons are too untenable."

Gu Huai didn't say a word, just looked at him.

Gu Feiquan laughed mockingly: "I've got the answer I want, I'm going out for a cigarette."

Gu Huai's eyes fell behind him.

Gu Feiquan turned around, and He Songjun, who was carrying a thermal lunch box, stood at the door. Gu Feiquan rarely showed a trace of panic, so he quickly sorted out his emotions and greeted him: "Why did you come back so soon? Didn't you mean to go home and sleep?"

He Songjun smiled and put the insulated lunch box on the bedside table: "Aren't I afraid that your father and I are hungry? I asked my aunt to prepare it specially in the morning, and I went home to pick it up."

Gu Huai looked at her tenderly: "It's hard work, have you eaten? Let's eat together?"

He Songjun nodded lightly.

Gu Feiquan only felt that the scene in front of him was particularly eye-catching. Gu Huai didn't love his mother at all, but he pretended to be gentle and considerate in front of her, as if he cherished her a lot. Everything was just because of Shen Huaiyu's words.

Gu Feiquan was afraid that he would not be able to control himself if he stayed any longer, so he hurriedly made an excuse to leave first. He went to the smoking area, lit a cigarette, took a hard puff, and puffed.

After a while, a middle-aged man who was older than him, in his forties, with a simple appearance and clothes, had a slightly hunchbacked back, and every wrinkle on his face was engraved with the sorrows of life.

The man touched his pocket and found only a pack of cigarettes. There was no lighter. He glanced at the cigarette burning between Gu Feiquan's fingers. Gu Feiquan handed him the cigarette and borrowed a fire.

The man took a breath and squinted at him: "Thank you."

Gu Feiquan usually doesn't talk to people casually, but today, for some reason, he wanted to find a stranger to talk to: "You are..." He asked, "What's going on at your house?"

The man was not prepared to take the initiative to speak, even though Gu Feiquan looked depressed now, he didn't look like a person of the same class as him. No matter how it is outside, in the smoking area of ​​the hospital, the class of people and people is gone.

The man said, "My son, leukemia, is with his mother in the ward. What about you?"

Gu Feiquan said, "My dad has lung cancer."

The man exhaled a mouthful of smoke, his face wrapped around it, and said bitterly: "What a **** shit."

Gu Feiquan leaned his back against the wall, his smoking movements were very gentle until now, and he smiled lightly: "Who said it wasn't?"

The man glanced at him and said, "You look like you're not short of money. Like us, you have worked hard for more than ten years. At this time, you have to run around to borrow money to treat your child."

Gu Feiquan pressed the tip of his tongue against his upper palate, and slowly circled the inside, feeling the faint smell of blood between his teeth, and smiled: "I don't lack money, I can use whatever medicine I want."

The barrier of class was quietly erected to block the two of them.

The man couldn't smoke anymore, he hurriedly extinguished the cigarette and walked away quickly. Gu Feiquan told his failure, laughed at himself, took out the phone from his trousers pocket, circled his fingertips, and clicked to the latest call. The first number in the dial was pressed out.

On the way to the company, Gu Yanqiu pressed the public release: "What's wrong? Dad's health is not good again?"

Gu Feiquan: "It's my fault."

Before Gu Yanqiu could answer, Gu Feiquan had already hung up the phone.

Gu Yanqiu: "..."

After a while, her phone vibrated, and Gu Yanqiu opened it while waiting for the red light.

[Gabei: Gu Huai did marry my mother because of your mother's last wish]

[System prompt: Gabe withdrew a message]

These two are together, I don't know what Gu Feiquan withdraws.

Gu Yanqiu replied that he knew, and then asked how he came out.

Gu Feiquan recounted what happened just now. Judging from Gu Huai's reaction, this was the only possibility.

[Gabei: I want to go to work in the company]

【Xi Gu: Then you can come】

[Gabe: Forget it, I want to act, I'm going back to the ward]

【Xi Gu: ok】

Gu Feiquan put away his mobile phone, stood still at the door of the ward, knocked on the door, and then pushed the door open. He Songjun had already fed Gu Huai for breakfast, and was greeting him now: "Why have you been away for so long, come over to eat quickly."

Gu Feiquan took a deep look at He Songjun, if she was willing to live in white lies all her life, should she reveal the truth to her. Wait, did she hear anything just now?

Gu Feiquan took the porridge bowl that He Songjun handed over, took a sip, and said casually, "Mom, why did you come in so suddenly, I was startled."

"It's your grandfather who talked too much."

"Did you hear what we were talking about?"

"I heard you said you were going to smoke. What is the answer?" He Songjun asked, "Is the porridge cold? Let me borrow a microwave to warm it up for you?"

"It's nothing, it's the company's business. I don't need a microwave anymore. What kind of microwave do I need?" Gu Feiquan finished drinking the porridge, wiped his mouth, and said, "Okay."

"This is not good for digestion." He Songjun nagged him.

"I know, it's not that you did it too deliciously."

"...This is what my aunt did." He Songjun was speechless.

"Almost, it's the ingredients you ordered." Gu Feiquan hugged He Songjun's shoulder affectionately, looked into Gu Huai's eyes from an angle He Songjun couldn't see, and Gu Huai nodded slightly.

Gu Feiquan breathed a sigh of relief.

He Songjun put away the well-eaten insulated lunch box and said, "I'll go wash it."

Gu Feiquan: "Okay, thank you mom, go early and come back early."

Gu Feiquan kept a smile as he watched He Songjun leave the ward, and immediately shot his sharp eyes at Gu Huai: "What did you say to her just now? Are you sure she didn't hear what the two of us said?"

Gu Huai: "I'm sure she didn't hear it. I also told her that I didn't want to leave her, but I really wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. I'll make my body feel better and live a good life."

"What did she say?"

"She listens to me."

"real?"

"Really." Gu Huai said, "I really don't love your mother, but I want to make amends for her. Dust to dust to dust."

"It's not fair to my mother." Gu Feiquan suppressed his voice, and at the same time glanced at the door vigilantly, no one came.

"Then what do you think I should do? Tell your mother the truth? What is fair? Thirty years have passed, and these things have already turned into a bad debt. What's the point of worrying about who is right and who is wrong?! I can't let you Mom, did you live a peaceful life?!" Gu Huai said angrily, his chest heaving violently twice.

Gu Feiquan took two steps forward, stopped again, and stopped himself from trying to give him a good breath, and was also furious: "Who the **** made these things into a bad debt, me, my mother, Gu Yanqiu, Maybe you and Shen Huaiyu, everyone is suffering because of this, shouldn't I find out the truth of the matter?!"

"No!" Gu Huai yelled back.

Gu Feiquan was startled, "Why?"

Gu Huai closed her eyes, put her hand on her lungs, coughed intermittently, and pressed the bell on the bed with her other hand.

The nurse comes in.

Gu Huai didn't look at Gu Feiquan and said, "I need to rest. By the way, call a doctor to check on me. I'm not feeling well."

"Sir." The nurse glanced at Gu Feiquan and invited him out.

Gu Feiquan left the ward with a gloomy face, and slammed his foot on the railing. The family members who passed by whispered and were turned back by his gloomy eyes, while the nurse warned him not to destroy public property.

When He Songjun came back after washing the insulated lunch box, he saw Gu Feiquan sitting on a chair outside the ward, his head bowed, looking dejected.

"What's the matter?" He Songjun looked inside, "How did your father—"

"Don't mention him!" Gu Feiquan shouted, and immediately apologized after shouting, grabbing his hair with both hands, and burying his face in his knees, "I'm sorry mom."

He Songjun was stunned by his roar, and after he came over, he gently lifted his face up, pressed it against his abdomen, and gently touched his short, soft hair with his fingers.

"Mom hasn't seen you like this for a long time. The last time was when I was going to marry into the Gu family."

"Do you regret it?"

"Huh?" He Songjun looked down at his son's hair spin. It was a spin when she was a child, and a spin when she grew up. Are these things that will never change and will stay by her side?

"Do you regret marrying into the Gu family?" Gu Feiquan raised his head, his eyes filled with tears.

"I..." He Songjun raised his head calmly, sighed softly, and said, "I don't know. There is no chance to start over in life. The thing I regret most in my life is... Knowing you dad."

...and Shen Huaiyu.

Gu Feiquan put his face on her stomach and whimpered: "Mom, let me take you away."

"where to?"

"Go wherever you want. Let's leave Yanning and stay away from this man." He doesn't want the truth, he doesn't want anything, he doesn't want He Songjun to continue living in lies.

One of the things he regrets the most is not being able to take He Songjun away when he graduated from college, and he wants to stay in Yanning and let all this happen.

"There's nowhere to go." He Songjun slid his fingers through his short hair, lowly, as if talking to him or talking to himself, "I've been buried in the Gu family for half my life, I'm not reconciled, how can I be reconciled. "

"Mom, what did you say?" Gu Feiquan looked up and saw that her mouth was slightly opened and closed, but she couldn't hear what she said.

"Why are you outside? Did your dad kick you out?"

"No." Gu Feiquan wiped his eyes and lied, "The doctor will check inside and I will come out."

"Then why are you reacting like that?" He Songjun looked over at this moment with a dull look, as if he knew everything, Gu Feiquan panicked, and said, "I just heard him call that woman's name, so she's trying to replace it. You are upset."

"That's it."

"Ok."

He Songjun let go of his face and sat down beside him, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth: "Then let's wait here for the doctor to finish the examination."