Lin Shilang Gu

Gu Yanqiu didn't know that Lin Yuewei had broken his silver teeth outside, and took a seat opposite Yin Lingxi: "What to eat?"

"Have you been here before?" Yin Lingxi leaned forward slightly to talk to her, a gesture of closeness.

"No."

"Just a few signature dishes." Yin Lingxi shrugged, "I thought you were a local and had eaten before, and I hope you can introduce some dishes."

Gu Yanqiu smiled lightly, put his hand on the table lightly, and pushed the menu towards her: "It's impossible for the locals to know about it. Even if they do, there are so many new restaurants opening every day, so they can't understand it."

Yin Lingxi: "The dim sum in the Hong Kong-style tea restaurant last time was pretty good. I like his porridge."

Gu Yanqiu: "If you like it, we can make an appointment there next time."

Yin Lingxi's eyes lit up slightly: "When?"

Gu Yanqiu, who was just polite at first: "..."

But after all the words were said, Gu Yanqiu didn't want to go back and said, "When you come on a business trip next time, tell me in advance, and I'll take care of you."

Yin Lingxi: "Then I'm welcome."

Gu Yanqiu politely replied, "Miss Yin is out."

Yin Lingxi then said: "Are we already in the relationship of 'Li'?"

Gu Yanqiu was stunned: "..."

She raised her eyes and looked at the woman sitting in front of her quietly, which was a little different from usual.

Gu Yanqiu pondered for a while, and then said in a compromise, "It's a relationship between the inside and the outside."

Yin Lingxi laughed.

"You're very interesting," she said.

What Gu Yanqiu was most afraid of was when others said she was interesting in front of her, she raised her hand and touched her nose, the wedding ring on her ring finger was particularly conspicuous.

Yin Lingxi: "..."

She looked complicated for a second and said, "It's not as interesting as you think."

Gu Yanqiu said, "Huh?"

Gu Yanqiu just hinted and didn't say it clearly, and Yin Lingxi couldn't clarify this topic for himself. She opened the menu that Gu Yanqiu pushed in front of her, and ordered two random items written on the signboard, Gu Yanqiu added a little.

While waiting for the dishes, Yin Lingxi asked about her private affairs: "Are you and your wife in a good relationship?"

Gu Yanqiu rolled his eyes: "Well."

Yin Lingxi said: "I can see that, when you mention her, you laugh. When you answer her phone after dinner last time, you feel restless and rush to go home. Last time, you didn't even want to eat well. It's delicious." This time...

Gu Yanqiu didn't feel anything at all, but it made his ears warm when he heard others say: "It's a joke."

"Nothing to laugh at, it's good." Yin Lingxi sighed.

Gu Yanqiu was wondering why she was sighing. Could it be that she was thinking of herself, and Yin Lingxi soon gave her the answer.

"Both in love..." Yin Lingxi seemed to chew these four words silently, sighed again, and said, "My father and mother were a commercial marriage based on interests. I knew from a very young age that they They didn't love each other. My father had several lovers outside and had other children, and my mother was at home watching over me and putting all the weight of my life on me."

Gu Yanqiu listened quietly, and did not respond for a while.

"My mother is a very gentle person, knowledgeable and sensible, and she is a beautiful lady. Since I can remember, I have never seen her lose her temper, and she has never spoken loudly to me. She doesn't seem to care when, no matter how romantic and absurd my father is, he does it outside. It's too much, she will always be the Mrs. Yin who is self-sufficient. Sometimes she will sit quietly in a daze, looking out the window, or looking elsewhere, her eyes are often moist. "

Yin Lingxi smiled self-deprecatingly: "I thought she was because of my father, and I persuaded her. I said that people like him were not worth it, and I persuaded her to get a divorce. I followed her surname. , I have nothing to do with the Yin family in the future. My mother just looked at me and smiled, while touching my hair, then hugged me and didn't speak. I went to my father, accused him, and had a big fight with him, my father sneered Then I told me and asked me to ask my mother. I asked her again, but she refused to say anything. She kept saying that it was all right. She cried when she was in a hurry, and then I didn't dare to ask any more.

"I checked secretly, and I rummaged through boxes in her room while she was away." Speaking of which, Yin Lingxi glanced at Gu Yanqiu and said, "Guess what I found?"

"Photo?" Gu Yanqiu frowned slightly and immediately reacted. Mr. Liu said that Yin Lingxi didn't know what Shen Huaiyu looked like.

Yin Lingxi: "No, I didn't find anything."

The answer was a bit unexpected by Gu Yanqiu: "Could it be that she hid too deeply?"

Yin Lingxi shook her head: "No, there is no trace at all. I later learned that she destroyed everything about your mother, except for herself, nothing related to her."

Gu Yanqiu: "Go ahead and talk."

Yin Lingxi couldn't find any clues at home, so he asked her grandma and grandpa, her mother's parents, who only had her mother and one daughter, so she loved Yin Lingxi very much and responded to any requests. The old man was tight-lipped, not revealing a word, and told her not to mention it in front of her mother. Yin Lingxi was already in his teens at that time, and he could tell from a few words that it must have been a painful past for many people.

Maybe time is the best medicine to heal everything. Although some wounds are deep, they will eventually heal slowly. Mother Yin spends less and less time in a daze, practicing calligraphy and reading books in her spare time, showing a positive look in front of Yin Lingxi.

Yin Lingxi went to university, then went to study abroad, returned to China, and worked. Ten years have passed. Yin's mother has white hair on her temples and picked up a Buddhist bead that she has not held for a long time. A pool of clear water.

If it wasn't for the accidental car accident that took her life...

Gu Yanqiu handed over a tissue.

Yin Lingxi gently squeezed the wet corners of her eyes, and slowly exhaled: "I'm sorry."

Gu Yanqiu stared at her deeply and said, "I understand."

Yin Lingxi smiled, tears welling up in his eyes.

"Life and death are destiny, you can't force it." While she comforted herself, she also comforted Gu Yanqiu.

"Yeah." Gu Yanqiu replied lightly.

"Fortunately, I didn't suffer too much," Yin Lingxi said, "My mother's funeral was handled by me, and she was buried in the car. She was caught in the middle of the car accident and died on the spot. Afterwards, I used to sit quietly in her room, and accidentally found the safe that had been in the corner. The safe was very old, it was an antique, but there was basically no dust on it. I thought it was very strange, so I tried the password of the safe. It didn't take much time to try it out, and that's the number she often writes. I sometimes have fun. When she took me out shopping, I would ask her to go to any welfare lottery, sports lottery or something. I bought it to play, and this is the number she reported every time."

Gu Yanqiu's heart moved slightly, and he glanced at her.

Yin Lingxi looked at her and reported a set of numbers.

Gu Yanqiu sighed and said, "Yes, it's my mother's birthday."

Yin Lingxi: "I found a diary in her safe..."

dong dong dong-

The sound of the door interrupted the conversation between the two, Yin Lingxi said, "Please come in."

The waiter came in with the dishes.

Lin Yuewei stretched out his head and looked inside, only to see half of Gu Yanqiu's profile, his expression seemed indifferent between joy and anger. She was scratching her head outside, but Gu Yanqiu didn't notice it.

The waiter served a good meal and closed the door with the only half of his face.

The waiter at the front desk raised his head from time to time and glanced in horror at the customer who had just bitten the cup. Judging from her current expression, the one in her hand seemed to be unsafe.

Biting the cup is a small matter, but hurting someone is a big deal. Fortunately, the customer was very lucky, the cup was in a mess, and her lips were intact.

Lin Yuewei pondered that all the dishes were served, and he definitely wouldn't read the diary at this time, so he took out his mobile phone, lowered his head and typed, and sent it to the past.

Gu Yanqiu's mobile phone was placed on the table, and the screen lit up.

Yin Lingxi noticed it faster than Gu Yanqiu, and a trace of teasing flashed in his eyes: "Someone is looking for it."

Gu Yanqiu guessed who the sender of the letter was, and slowly took a chopstick of the dish. After eating, he slowly turned on the phone.

Yin Lingxi looked at her with a look of "I'll just look at you XX quietly", with a half-smile but not a smile.

[Two woods: 嘤嘤嘤]

The muscles at the corners of Gu Yanqiu's mouth twitched, his face tightened and he didn't smile, he replied: [Good]

[Two woods: not behaving well, roll around]

In order to attract Gu Yanqiu's attention, Lin Yuewei no longer cares about self-destructing image, and is very willing to go out.

Yin Lingxi hooked her lips and smiled: "Laugh if you want, don't worry about me being fed dog food."

Gu Yanqiu took the phone in his hand, got up and said, "I'll go to the bathroom."

Yin Lingxi looked at the fire in a hole: "Go."

After Gu Yanqiu went out, he closed the door, winked at Lin Yuewei who was in the private seat, and then walked towards the bathroom. Lin Yuewei waited for her figure to disappear before gracefully rushing to the bathroom.

Lin Yuewei, who had put Gu Yanqiu in the cubicle, lost her grace for a second, and sniffed around Gu Yanqiu's neck like a large dog. Gu Yanqiu laughed and asked in a low voice, "Did you smell anything?"

Yin Lingxi was neither stepped on the skirt nor slapped by the uneven road today. Naturally, the smell of perfume was not left on Gu Yanqiu's body.

Lin Yuewei suddenly remembered when, grabbed Gu Yanqiu's palm, sniffed deeply, and after a while, said, "I heard it!"

Gu Yanqiu flicked his finger on Lin Yuewei's forehead: "Nonsense again."

"No nonsense, I saw it all, you and her went in hand in hand."

"When did you hold hands?" Gu Yanqiu seemed to have amnesia.

"I saw it all."

Gu Yanqiu racked his brains to retrieve the picture in his mind, and determined that it should be the paragraph that Lin Yuewei said, helplessly said: "That's a matter of your perspective, neither she nor I like physical contact, how could we take the initiative Holding hands, Cheng Guiyuan and I do not hold hands."

"How do you know she doesn't like physical contact? She fell into your arms twice."

"Once, wasn't the first time you stepped on the skirt on purpose?"

"Why are you helping her speak?"

"I didn't help her speak." Gu Yanqiu's words "unreasonable and troublesome" were about to come to his lips.

Lin Yuewei looked at her face, and decided to die here, who was eating so much jealousy. He changed the subject and said quietly, "I just bit the glass, you know?"

Gu Yanqiu didn't react: "Huh?"

Lin Yuewei described to her what happened just now, especially the crisp "quack". She said, "This is the first time I know what it's like to bite a glass. It's warm and hot."

Gu Yanqiu was terrified by her description. Three souls went to seven souls. How could Yin Lingxi or perfume be of any concern? He held up her chin and said, "Open your mouth."

Lin Yue was slightly stubborn, with a stubborn expression on his face, and said in a pissed-off manner: "Not Zhang."

Gu Yanqiu leaned in and kissed her, licked the tip of his tongue across the gap between his teeth, and let go with satisfaction: "No bleeding."

Lin Yuewei was embarrassed and annoyed, or pretended to be embarrassed and annoyed and hit her on the shoulder: "You hate it."

Gu Yanqiu smiled and continued, "You feel good."

Lin Yuewei: "..."

The air was still for three seconds.

Gu Yanqiu covered his face with his hands: "I was wrong."

"Hand, take it off."

Gu Yanqiu glanced at her from between his fingers and slowly moved his hand down.

The squeezing touch on her cheek made her gasp, and Lin Yuewei pinched the soft flesh on her face: "Will you talk nonsense next time?"

Gu Yanqiu shook his head frantically: "Don't say it, don't say it."

Lin Yuewei let go of her and kissed her red cheek again.

After rubbing his ears for a while, Gu Yanqiu rubbed his fingers intimately behind Lin Yuewei's ears, buried his face in her shoulders, smelled the breath on her body, and said softly, "I'm going back."

Lin Yuewei: "Go, see your Miss Yin."

"hiss--"

She also got a twist on her face, Gu Yanqiu looked at her seriously: "Don't talk nonsense."

Lin Yuewei's face was aggrieved, and she blinked pitifully.

"..." Gu Yanqiu took the initiative to bring his face closer, "Pinch back."

Lin Yuewei's expression became cruel in a second, the thumb and index finger of both hands were ready, and Gu Yanqiu closed his eyes.

The devil's claw fell on her face, and it didn't hurt, and he gently stroked it twice.

A warm touch falls on the lips.

"Go." This time it was a very gentle sentence.

Gu Yanqiu went to open the door of the bathroom stall in a trance.

"Let me smell someone else's perfume and wait and see."

Gu Yanqiu immediately woke up, and Lin Yuewei was the same Lin Yuewei she was familiar with.

She took a long time to come out this time. After entering the door, Gu Yanqiu pulled out the seat. He didn't rush to sit, and first said, "I'm sorry, I've waited for a long time."

Yin Lingxi looked up at her and said slowly, "It's okay."

Gu Yanqiu had a feeling of being seen through.

In front of the mirror, she sorted out the lipstick mark left by Lin Yuewei and the messed up clothes. If it was still exposed, it meant that Yin Lingxi had long suspected that the most likely thing was that she found Lin Yue as soon as she came in. I looked at her eyes slightly, and added the sentence "Aren't you there all the time" that I mistakenly replied.

If such a person were an enemy, Gu Yanqiu felt that he would probably die a lot of brain cells.

Fortunately not.

Yin Lingxi did not dismantle her, but adjusted the speed of her eating. The two put down the tableware at the same time and sat on the sofa in the box.

Yin Lingxi took out the old diary from her satchel, took off a protective bag, took a deep breath, and carefully handed it to Gu Yanqiu: "It's all here."

Her helpless life is also here.

The cover of the diary is a blue sea, with a pair of seagulls flying on the sea, because the color has faded over the years, showing a gray atmosphere.

Gu Yanqiu paused for a few seconds before opening the first page of the diary.

198X X month X day

I am now in Xiaoyu's hometown, Yangqing Village, and she insisted on bringing me here. Such a memorable event, I decided to use a new diary to record it. (Actually, it’s because it’s boring to stay here. If Xiaoyu sees this line of words, please remember that the word boring does not include you, haha)

The folk customs here are simple, and it is different from my home. You can go into the water to fish, and you can go to the vegetable garden to pick vegetables. I went there once today, and it was very interesting. It's just that some villagers are so enthusiastic that they will call "college student" when they see me from a distance. I sound embarrassed and hide behind Xiaoyu. Xiaoyu is also a very bad person. When others shout like this, they never explain it to me, and they laugh, but when I see her laughing, it doesn't matter what the name is.

I was very afraid that she would tell her parents about our real relationship on impulse. There were many times when she looked at me without any scruples. I felt that her mother was suspicious. I hope she can take her impulse and wait at least We graduate and the job stabilizes, and we'll talk about it.

Gu Yanqiu read a page and found that this passage was actually what she knew. When Shen Huaiyu was in college, she once brought back a college student who said she was a good friend. He heard from others and saw the diary written by Yin's mother. It's two completely different feelings.

Yin's mother's handwriting is very good, one stroke at a time, strong and slim, with a willow style.

Gu Yanqiu continued to look back.

198X X month X day

This trip to Yangqing Village ended successfully. Fortunately, Xiaoyu didn't tell us about the two of us. She seemed a little unhappy on the way back. I asked her why, and she said that she had tested the attitude of her parents, which was very unsatisfactory. I was terrified when I heard it, she actually dared to test her parents at this time, wasn't she afraid that her parents would question her? I think this should be done slowly and not aggressively.

We booked two sleeper tickets, and at night we both slept in the bottom bunk and crammed into a bed. She held my hand and said that she would definitely let my parents accept me and make me believe in her. I said: I believe in you.

She was still repeating that sentence, and when I looked up, she was already asleep, talking in her sleep.

What a fool.

198X X month X day

She didn't go home during the winter vacation. I asked her several times to find out that she had a showdown with her parents last time she came home.

I knew that she couldn't hide, such a strong temper, even disdain to cover up.

I want to go back and talk to my parents.

I'm afraid they won't be able to stand the stimulation, and I'm not too scared myself, I'll tell them when I graduate.

I can do it.

...

198X X month X day

graduating!

The college days are over, and the other students are hugging and reluctant to part, so I cry, but I'm not sad at all. I'm about to run into a brand new future with my little Yu.

We initially planned to go to Yanning, we have already found a good job, a big city with great development potential, far away from home, no one knows us, so we can live our little life with peace of mind.

198X X month X day

The second day of graduation.

Nothing to record today.

Waking up late in the morning, hmm.

Hahaha.

198X X month X day

Do you want to confess to your parents?

I asked Xiaoyu, she had already confessed, and she was very tragic. She basically cut off the relationship with her family, and she never answered the phone when she went back home. She advised me not to, I know it was for my own good, but I always felt sorry for her.

She looked me in the eyes and said, "Just be with me."

I struggled for a long time, but decided to put this matter on hold for the time being. We have just started work, and we are not very responsible for each other's future. If only I could be as rich as my father, I will work hard to make money! make money! make money!

198X X month X day

The happier you are, the easier it is to feel uncertain.

Xiaoyu is much better than me in this regard, she is always full of hope for our future.

In the past two years, the most words I have said are: You want to stay with me all the time, stay with me until I am eighty years old, be healthy, safe, and smooth, you can't be separated from me.

I can't imagine a day without her, even for a second.

I am afraid that she will get sick, and I will be so nervous when I have a small cold. I am very afraid that she will not be able to accompany me to grow old. Even assumptions are like a knife. .

I want to stay with Shen Huaiyu until I am 80 years old, healthy, safe, smooth, and cannot be separated.

God, did you hear me?

I only have one wish.

...

198X X month X day

Something went wrong at home.

Seeing this, Gu Yanqiu raised his heart abruptly, and quickly turned to the next page.

The following pages are very short.

198X X month X day

I don't want to get married.

198X X month X day

Don't get married.

198X X month X day

no way!

The last "no" almost pierced the paper.

Yin Lingxi glanced at the diary, she knew the contents of the diary, and explained in a timely manner: "At that time, there was something wrong with the company of my grandmother and grandfather's family, and it couldn't turn around. The company went bankrupt, not to mention. My grandfather might go to jail with him..."

"So you exchanged it with your mother?" Gu Yanqiu narrowed his eyes.

"Almost." Yin Lingxi sighed, "Everyone takes what they need." She added, "My grandfather's health was not very good during that time. If he really got into the situation, I'm afraid it would be really bad luck."

Gu Yanqiu frowned slightly, noncommittal.

198X X month X day

I frequently asked for leave to go home, and the company leaders euphemistically persuaded me to resign, so I resigned.

Xiaoyu learned from me that my parents planned to marry me into the Yin family. Her face was very pale and she didn't say a word. I was very flustered.

What are your real thoughts? She asked me a long time later, and she always respected my opinion.

My real thoughts? Of course I want to be with her and don't want to marry someone else, but I don't know why I can't say it. My parents raised me and raised me for so many years, and now my family is facing difficulties. Do I want to be a deserter by myself? I don't want Dad to go to jail, what if something happens to him? I can't afford such an eventuality.

The last time I came home and came out to them, I didn't expect it to be at a time like this. Unexpectedly, I didn't beat or scold them. Maybe something at home crushed my father's back. He just sat there. Smoking, he can't smoke, let the smoke choke into the throat, the mother will cry.

I knelt in the living room all night. My father came out of the room in the morning, looking tired, and only said one sentence to me: nan nan, you go, go far, don't come back.

I see what he means.

I decided at that moment to give myself to this family.

I have believed in Buddhism for so many years, why did the Buddha refuse to bless me?

198X X month X day

we broke up.

The five characters were all smudged seriously by water stains.

198X X month X day

A week before the wedding was approaching, I had nightmares every night, dreaming that Shen Huaiyu was crying in front of me, I couldn't help but bought a ticket and went back to Yanning, I had to take a look at her. But the moment I really saw her, I was no longer my own, and I begged her to take me away like crazy.

I am getting married. Shen Huaiyu said, and then showed me the engagement ring on her ring finger.

I burst into tears.

Don't waver anymore, live your own life, I'm fine, don't worry about me. She showed me pictures of her fiancé, tall and handsome.

She has always been braver than me.

It was in the past and it is now.

The author has something to say: I finally explained most of the things of the previous generation.

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