Lin Shilang Gu

Lin Yuewei bounced off the bed: "What?!"

She almost thought it was because she lost her memory, or was too busy, so she just erased this part of her memory.

Gu Yanqiu said, "You don't have amnesia, it's because I never thought about how to tell you."

Not long after Mr. Liu found out about the hometown of Gu Yanqiu's mother, Shen Huaiyu, in Yangqing Village, it was during Lin Yuewei's training camp. Gu Yanqiu came to N City to see her, and received a call from Mr. Liu the day after he went back.

Mr. Liu is used to seeing strange cases, but now the times are very different, so he is not surprised by things like Shen Huaiyu.

Mr. Liu: "I have already checked and found several old people who were also in Yangqing Village back then. One of them is a relative of the Shen family. If you choose a time to come over, I will tell you in detail, or do it on the phone first. A simple explanation."

Gu Yanqiu was silent for a long time. The original sense of unease captured her senses again. She said, "Give me the address and I'll go this weekend."

Gu Yanqiu was not afraid of anything, but she didn't like the state of being half-understood. She couldn't fly right away, so she delayed the time to know the truth for a few days.

"That weekend?" Lin Yuewei recalled, what message Gu Yanqiu sent her in those days, she could only remember the acting, so she went back to check the chat records, except for a few good morning and good night, she asked if she had eaten. , and every day is no different.

Lin Yuewei said unhappily, "Why don't you tell me anything you know?"

Gu Yanqiu: "It's pretty much what I expected, but it might be an unbelievable result for you."

Lin Yuewei: "What incredible result? Let me listen to you?"

After more than a week of relief, Gu Yanqiu had almost digested it, so he told Lin Yuewei what Mr. Liu found and some of the conjectures she had assumed earlier.

Gu Yanqiu said, "Do you still remember the words you blurted out when Gu Feiquan asked me to cooperate with me one day before we went to the movies?"

"Remember."

What Lin Yuewei said was: Have you ever thought about the possibility that your mother knew about the existence of He Songjun's mother and son, and there was a connection between them.

Lin Yuewei narrowed his eyes: "So this sentence..."

Gu Yanqiu said: "I think it makes sense, so I haven't slept all night since I went back that day. Based on this possibility, I deduced a series of results. I found that once this premise exists, many things will not be so complicated. , why is my father so eager to marry He Songjun, is it my mother's last wish? Gu Feiquan told me that he once saw my father cry at my mother's relic late at night. I don't think he loves He Songjun , even if it is guilt, my dad is a businessman, and he is a successful person with both fame and fortune. The series of things he did, regardless of my identity as his daughter, from the point of view of an onlooker, is stupid. One word explanation , it is not necessary, there is no need to do so absolutely, to do so is criticized."

"I followed this chain of clues and pushed back, so why did my mother let him marry He Songjun? First, he really felt sorry for He Songjun; second, my mother didn't love my dad, didn't care, or she loved me too much Dad, I love him so much that he doesn't care if he has other women, and even let him make up for his mistakes and marry someone else soon after her death."

Lin Yuewei: "..."

Gu Yanqiu asked her, "Which of the two do you think is more likely?"

Lin Yuewei didn't dare to say it, but she already had the answer in her heart.

It's more like the first type, the second type. If you really love someone, you will never do such a thing, unless Shen Huaiyu is a virgin who sacrifices herself for others. If she is really a virgin, why doesn't she know that He Songjun is there The position of Mrs. Gu was given up immediately, but after her death. Gu Huai immediately married another person, which indirectly showed how strong Shen Huaiyu's last wish was.

Lin Yuewei didn't know if there was such a person in the world, but she certainly wasn't. If she knew that Gu Yanqiu had a mistress, she would beat her first, and then let her go as far as she could.

Gu Yanqiu said calmly, "I think it's the first type. My mother doesn't love my father."

Lin Yuewei didn't want to express her opinion on her family affairs, so she could only give a soft "um" to show that she was still listening and let her continue.

Gu Yanqiu said: "There are three evidences, but none of them are conclusive. My guess is mostly. First, as I just told you, she is most likely the one who prompted my father to marry He Songjun; second, according to Gu Feiquan's opinion Telling the story, he met my mother when he was a student, and my mother probably knew him, and naturally she may have known about the existence of He Songjun's mother and son. Third, my impression of my mother over the years is that she is a very... In today’s words, it is a Buddha. It’s not fake because you can’t get anything and let it go, but you really don’t care about anything. Does a person have more or less desires in this world? I have it, and you have it too. ."

The pure little pony was caught off guard in Lin Yuewei's mind, and she changed her sitting position, just running away.

Gu Yanqiu said: "But she didn't, I haven't seen her get emotional because of that incident. Dad's company made the first big money, or the financing was successful, and I was admitted to a good school. Things like that, why is my dad so happy? It's like, my mother... It's not that she is indifferent, she will also be happy for us, but it feels like, my dad and I are one family, she is another family, and happiness is also separated by a layer.

"She doesn't have her own private life, no family, no friends, no little sisters like your mother, and she is very affectionate with her husband, and occasionally goes out for a honeymoon. My dad took her out to play, I heard There have been several invitations, but she usually only agrees once every ten times. Do you think this is love?

"Besides, if a guess is a coincidence, can so many coincidences still be coincidences? At least there is a 70-80% probability that this conclusion is true."

A question popped up in Lin Yuewei's mind, and just as he was thinking about asking it, Gu Yanqiu thought of something with her.

"Since she doesn't love my dad, who does she love?"

"It's also possible that she doesn't love anyone."

"She really doesn't love anyone."

"What?" Lin Yuewei was surprised by her understatement. Isn't this her mother? Why did it suddenly become so disrespectful.

"People die like lights go out, and it's too illusory to say whether you love or not, isn't it?" Gu Yanqiu seemed to add a sentence temporarily.

"...Yes." Lin Yuewei thought, there should be something else.

Before giving her time to think about the result, Gu Yanqiu said again, "Do you remember my grandma? She fell from the wheelchair last time."

"Remember."

"Do you remember what we were doing at the time?"

"doing what?"

"Remember."

Recall. Lin Yue squinted slightly. At that time, Gu Yanqiu went to look for a photo album. She was in charge of accompanying Mrs. Gao outside. After that, when Gu Yanqiu came out, she just walked towards Gu Yanqiu and didn't even have time to say a word when Mrs. Gao fell not far from them. down.

"What are you doing..." Lin Yuewei murmured, flashing that clip back and forth, and a flash of light suddenly flashed in his mind, "Could it be because of the two of us?"

"I can't think of any other reason."

"why?"

"I'm thinking, does she think of us as someone, or this scene has been staged in front of her, and she is deeply impressed by this scene and has a psychological shadow." Gu Yanqiu said, "Also, you Said that after my grandma fell down, she said a few words intermittently."

"No, yes, no, Dad. These."

"The only thing we can be sure of with a high probability is that the 'dad' should refer to my grandfather who has passed away. The third word is hard to guess. As long as you think about the first two words in that direction, you can easily solve it."

Lin Yuewei felt blessed and said calmly, "We can't be together."

"As I thought."

"Cheng Yong from Gaoshan County said that he saw my mother go to my grandma, but my grandma chased her out, and she had tears on her face; Director Fang of the nursing home said that my mother came to see my grandma once every six months, okay The times are very good. Most of the time, the old lady will be angered, and the old lady will get used to it at every turn. I have never figured out what kind of deep hatred can turn a mother and daughter into enemies. In a woman's mind, who is the most important person? "

"Husband and children."

"Yes, husband and child, my grandfather died, I don't know how, Cheng Yong asked, but my grandma kept it a secret. She kept her dead husband secret, and kept silent about her daughter who was outside. What would be the reason? One day her daughter After returning home, my mother lost her temper, and even refused to recognize her and kicked her out of the house, what do you think would be the reason?"

"Does your husband's death have anything to do with your daughter?" Lin Yue frowned slightly. Other than that, she couldn't think of any other connection. Both of them were close relatives and loved ones, and she couldn't bear to give up either one, neither of them recognized either, or her husband and daughter were on the same front and did something to anger her. , either one person died because of another person, or a large part of the reason was because of another person. If it was the first type, the old lady would not be able to keep the portrait of Grandpa Gu Yanqiu at home and worship it every day.

Gu Yanqiu didn't answer this question, and threw another question: "What do you think will make a mother feel so brooding for more than 20 years and can't let go of it, and react to such a big thing at any time? Why is she so resolute? Saying 'can't be together'? She was in her fifties when she moved to Gaoshan County, why did she take such a big risk to leave her hometown at this age, judging from her down-and-out life, her uprooting was more like being forced to of."

Contact Gu Yanqiu mentioned earlier that Mrs. Gao had such a big reaction when she saw the two of them appearing in front of her at the same time, so...

Lin Yuewei's pupils shrank suddenly.

Is it...

The pair of young girls from Gaoshan County appeared in her eyes at the same moment.

-I also have a girlfriend, but my family doesn't approve of me being with her.

- Same-sex marriage has been legal for two years, and they still have the old thinking, saying that men and women are only right and proper, and women and women are rebellious, affecting human relations, and they will regret their ancestors in the future.

Gu Yanqiu exhaled a long breath: "These were all my guesses before."

Lin Yuewei waited for her next sentence.

Gu Yanqiu said: "The things Mr. Liu found tell me that these are not speculations, but facts. Except for the fact that things with He Songjun's mother and son have not progressed, the rest are facts."

So Gu Yanqiu went to Yangqing Village back then—now it belongs to a prefecture-level city, and Yangqing Village is long gone. Time changes, and it is very laborious to check, but some things have happened, and there will always be traces.

Mr. Liu found an uncle of Shen Huaiyu, a cousin of Gu Yanqiu's grandfather, Gu Yanqiu's third grandfather. Going back 30 years, the brothers in the countryside all lived in the same village, and the whole village knew about any movement.

The third grandpa is also over 70 this year. He wears dentures, and the child is in good spirits. He took him to the city. Now he is living a good life, and his face is red.

The first time I saw Gu Yanqiu, I stared at her for a while, and sighed and said one word: "Like."

He took two puffs of his old cigarette and said, "It's really like that."

Gu Yanqiu said, "The third grandfather."

The third grandfather said "hey", agreed, and said, "You really look like your mother, as beautiful." Mom, she is a well-known beauty in eight villages, she is obviously a girl who grew up in the countryside, she looks like a city person in both skin and appearance.

"My eldest brother, that is, your grandfather, his name is Shen He. The eldest brother picked up a pole and drove out all the begging people, and the elder sister-in-law scolded at the door with her hips on her shoulders: 'Everyone is shameless, right, say How many times has it been, my daughter is going to study and go to university, and if you are not in a hurry to get married, leave it to me.'"

Gu Yanqiu showed some doubts.

The third grandfather explained: "You don't know, we are like this here. If you don't say it clearly, it will be ruthless. There will be more troublesome things. Like a fly, Xiaoyu went to school, and there was a string of big boys behind her, who euphemistically called her escort, who didn't know what they were thinking.

"My eldest brother, find out the boys one by one, and then ask their parents to educate them. If it really can't be done, go up to the pole, and then scolded: 'Let you know what's good or bad, let you know what's good or bad, dead boy, Stay away from my daughter', and later gave Xiaoyu a homemade bottle of chili water, the kind that can be sprayed, and when you see a boy with bad intentions, spray him."

Gu Yanqiu smiled a little. She didn't know anything about her mother's past or her relatives here. With the words of the third grandfather, a specific picture appeared in her mind.

It was not easy for her mother to grow up, and her parents were heartbroken.

The third grandfather squinted and smiled: "Xiaoyu herself is also cruel, and she takes a bottle of chili water, and whoever comes to slap whoever will not show any affection. Besides, they are all half-sized boys, so who has nothing to do? , that kind of idler will retreat when he sees this battle, can't be shameless as a human being?"

Lin Yuewei also laughed, and a little doubt arose in his heart: The Xiaoyu in the third grandfather's mouth is very different from the Shen Huaiyu she understands, so is it because of what happened next?

"Xiaoyu lived up to expectations and was admitted to a university. We were the first high school student in our village, the first college student, and the first famous college student. At that time, the university was not as good as it is now, and it was not easy to pass the test. , going from house to house, with lanterns and colorful decorations, and the big brother's family putting on a water table. This is a big happy event for the whole village. We, especially my big brother and sister-in-law, will finally have a good day in the future. The bachelors in the village will not come to propose marriage again, college students So, are they worthy of it? It's an honor to see it from a distance."

"But we didn't expect..." The third grandfather smoked a cigarette, muffled his voice, and stopped talking.

Gu Yanqiu pinched the knuckles of the rest of his fingers one by one with his thumbs, and took a sip of water from the water cup beside him.

Smoke lingered on the lips of the third grandfather, and he pulled out a long sigh: "We didn't expect that a good smart and filial child would become like that."

"What has it become?"

The third grandfather glanced at her, then looked around, as if he remembered something, shook his head and said, "Forget it, the world is different." He suddenly changed his words and said, "But in our time, it was impossible, girls and girls. Being together and getting married is like something."

Gu Yanqiu: "What did you say?"

The third grandfather said: "In the summer vacation of the first year of college, your mother brought home a female classmate, who is a serious child in the city, dressed like a rich and noble, the eldest brother and sister-in-law brought home the only hen that lays eggs in the family. Killing stewed soup and entertaining people, you must know that she is a... is a... and brought Xiaoyu into a pervert, let alone chicken, eldest brother will not give her a grain of rice."

The third grandfather looked at Gu Yanqiu again, and said with both relief and regret: "Fortunately, she also found her way back and walked the right way, and with you, the elder brother Quanxia Yuzhi should also rest his eyes."

"Third grandpa, you've digressed."

"I'll go on." The third grandfather breathed in the clouds, the smoke in the air was increasing, and he spoke slowly, "I only found out later. During the summer vacation, Xiaoyu's female classmate stayed at her house. It's been about ten days, she went back to the city, and Xiaoyu went back with her. The day she left, I stayed for a while, but she was very determined, her eyes seemed a little red, I can't remember now, maybe I remembered wrongly Bar."

Grandpa San: "I didn't think about it that much at the time, but during the winter vacation that year, Xiaoyu didn't come back. I asked my elder brother and elder sister-in-law, and my elder brother and elder sister-in-law were silent for a while, saying that she was going to work in the city to make money during the Chinese New Year. Children are fashionable, what is it called work-study program. I don't know how, so I complained that I can't go back to school year after year. Big brother and sister-in-law didn't say anything.

"In the summer vacation of the second year, she still didn't come back. The elder brother said that she was working part-time. The summer vacation was long and she earned a lot. I still have no doubts. Now that I think about it, I'm really stupid. , I didn't think much about it. She came back in the third year, the fourth year, and the fourth year for Chinese New Year, but the atmosphere in my eldest brother's house was very strange. She left again just after New Year's Eve.

"At this time, I noticed something was wrong. I went to ask my elder brother and sister-in-law what was going on. My elder brother didn't speak. He never smoked. Xiaoyu spent a lot of money in school, and every penny came out of her teeth. That day She grabbed my cigarette stick and smoked a bag silently. My sister-in-law cried and told me about it intermittently. It turned out that the female classmate that Xiaoyu brought back from the first summer vacation was not a pure female classmate, but her girlfriend. , you say absurd is not absurd."

Gu Yanqiu had only one thought in his heart: Sure enough.

Sure enough, not actually.

The third grandfather continued: "The elder brother was furious, the father and daughter had a big fight, and the elder brother kicked Xiaoyu out of the house. So that summer Xiaoyu stayed at home for only ten days and left, and never came back. Senior year When she came back during the winter vacation when she was about to graduate, it was not because things had changed, but she planned to go to another city farther away, to Yanning, to stay with her girlfriend, and to inform her parents when she came back."

The third grandfather smiled bitterly and said, "I don't know what happened to this child, but for a nondescript girlfriend, I don't even want the parents who have raised her for so many years and sent her to college so hard, little white eye. Wolf."

"and after?"

"I haven't seen her."

"Have you never seen each other again?"

"No, then I moved into the city, the village was demolished, and an industrial park was built. She may have come back later, but she shouldn't be able to find her home."

Gu Yanqiu was silent for a moment and asked, "How did my grandfather die?"

The third grandfather took a deep breath, and after a while, he said in a hoarse voice, "Car accident."

"How did the accident happen?"

"It's been a long time, decades. Your mother graduated from college a year or two years ago." The third grandfather narrowed his eyes, not wanting to recall this memory in his long life, "Is the country building water conservancy, the government Funding, the eldest brother is lucky, the family has a good position in the field, and it takes a lot of advantage. Some people look at him and want to exchange with him. Do you think it can be exchanged? The land is the life of our farmers. He and that family There was some conflict."

"If I knew that something would happen to him, I would definitely not advise him to drink that wine." The third grandfather took a deep breath, his throat was dry, he drank again, and his two old hands couldn't help shaking.

Gu Yanqiu waited for a while before listening to him continue to say with a trembling voice:

"There is a boy in the east of the village, who is married to a girl from the county, who is quite rich. The banquet was set up in the county seat, and a large hotel was packed. I invited more than ten tables, and most of the people in the village went to the dinner table. I had a dispute with that family, about the marriage of the next generation, and of course we can't make trouble. My elder brother and I both thought that we should leave things alone and forget about the happy event. Who knew that the mother-in-law of that family would start shouting, saying that Shen Huaiyu, the daughter of Shen He's family She is a perverted homosexual, my eldest brother was stunned for a moment, and I was stunned, I don’t know how she knew, and she knew so much, knowing that the other college student who came to our village at that time was not her ordinary classmate, but a girlfriend.”

The third grandfather rubbed his hands, it seemed a little cold, Gu Yanqiu poured him a cup of hot water, handed the cup to his hand and covered it.

"In the end, it was the host who came forward and told the woman to shut up. But more than half of the people in the village went, and everyone knew about it. I don't know how it will end in the future? If I can’t eat any more, I have to go first, so I will answer it, and think about going back to discuss the countermeasures.”

The third grandfather picked up the water glass and took a sip of hot water, calmed down the tremors slowly, and pinned his eyes on the table without moving: "Who knows that night, he left and never came back."