Loser's redo: Transmigration in a novel

Zick, consumed in his emotions, looked at the screen before him blankly. A sense of depression and sickness crawled into his body, making him despondent. It had been a while since he started feeling like this.

Zick had not realized it before, but the determination and unmoving attitude that he had till now suddenly disappeared. This made him feel awkward in many ways.

'Eternal life, I think I wanted to pursue it, but what the hell is happening? Why do I feel no interest in it at all?' Zick was not able to control his fluctuating emotions. His face distorted weirdly, it felt like the past him felt infinitely distant.

'Just what the hell am I doing?' Zick could not understand anymore. The desire to grow was present within just like always, but it certainly felt very different.

"Sir Zick, are you alright?" Yuriel placed her hand on my forehead, scanning my whole body for any abnormality.

Looking at Yuriel's action, the familiar feeling of affection bloomed within him.

Feeling this, Zick sighed deeply: 'I am losing it at last....'

Zick didn't care anymore, eternal life? It can just screw itself.

There was no hesitation at all in discarding the goal he set.

'I only do what I want to do...' Zick firmly thought so.

With the determination within Zick vanishing out of nowhere, he had almost no attachment

Currently, he only wanted to grow stronger to defeat the demon lord, hence he was still gonna proceed as planned.

Zick softly placed his hands upon the worried Yuriel's palm: "Don't worry about it, I feel a little weird looking at the speed they gathered."

Zick was able to keep acting normal even in his emotional turmoil state. He was really gifted in acting as he thought.

Seeing Zick look deadpan as usual, Yuriel spoke calmly: "Yes, the speed of assembling these forces was fast, something is going on in the background for sure."

Slightly nodding his head, Zick started looking at the position of the golems carefully, he didn't want any mishaps to happen even if he messed up.

Seeing Leona moving to the back of the army, Zick slowly got off the seat. In the end, he decided to let Leona and Anastasia escape, and participate in the apocalypse that he would create at a later date.

"Well, we have given them enough time for them to prepare." Zick placed the silver egg on the seat.

He continued: "So is everything ready?"

"Yes," Yuriel answered seriously.

Zick put on the black suit with quasi-grandmaster rank defense and put on the same black mask. The whole time a smile adorned his face.

'Ah...Killing and plundering are very exciting things aren't they?' Zick could feel his blood boil unlike before.

He didn't know if this was the right thing.

Neither did he know if the current him was the real him or was being manipulated.

And finally, why are emotions so fun?

'I feel very funny about my emotions, it gives me a nostalgic feeling similar to when I was back on Earth. It feels like...I became more human?' Zick thought carefully.

But Zick only felt awkward for a little time, he was able to accept it soon and move on.

Actually, it was all weird from the moment he came to this world. He had not noticed it but looking back on it now, everything seems suspicious.

Zick was a rational monster the whole time, even now he was such.

But here a point stood out.

Zick might have been broken, with a very unstable mind but this could not lead him to be perfectly rational as he was!

How could a person become rational just because they want to?

If that were the case couldn't everyone keep a calm attitude in battle and life-threatening moments?

Zick sighed The more he thought, only a single point resonated with him.

It was the promise he made to himself at the start of his stay on the battlefield.

It was to do what he felt like doing, being true to his feelings.

'Hmm, but for some reason, I turned into full-on rational mode after that.' Zick smiled thinking this.

Even now, Zick felt a little pity for the people who were going to die here. But he still didn't stop, because he wanted to do it.

Zick knew more than anything that to defeat the demon lord he would need more powerful Golems and allies.

When Zick was halfway putting on the mask, he looked at Yuriel from the corner of his eyes. Slowly the corner of Zick's lips curled up.

"Yuriel, wanna kiss?" Zick smiled at her like it was nothing.

Yuriel just nodded her head slowly, she had come to like doing 'things' with Zick a lot. Though she still had a long way to go in his eyes.

Sharing a long and intense kiss, Zick and Yuriel continued moving through the teleportation circle.

'Am I a pervert? Well, more than that I feel nice teasing her....so I must be a sadist, huh?' Zick thought while he held Yuriel's hand. He was currently being pulled along. In a while, they arrived right above the preparing army.

No one was able to find them thanks to Yuriel's invisible spell.

Many temporary camps entered Zick's sight, they were still in a session planning out the way to invade the secret lab. They were very cautious as they knew the origin of this place.

Zick's eyes glazed over to the main camp: "It seems they are not aware that I already took over that place....."

Zick deduced coldly like usual, it seems like this had become an ability of sorts.

"Activate the energy field," Zick spoke in an eerie voice.

Yuriel executed his order with no hesitation.

At once with immense fluctuations of mana, a pure white mana barrier started to form from the middle of the army and started expanding at a rapid rate.

The people stationed in the rear guard were in their guards feeling the mana fluctuation. The moment they saw the expanding barrier they started to run in at full speed.

But it was just too late, only a few were able to escape. And among them, Leona and Anastasia were included.

Anastasia with her crystal-like eyes must have seen the barrier and made a run for it with Leona with no hesitation. She had used multiple body-strengthening magic, making her breathless.

After looking at this, Zick ignored them and looked at the restless army before. It was already commendable that the army had not begun to be in a state of disorder.

They were just restless.

'This is a trained troop I guess. The training ingrained in their body must be what kept them from breaking the formation.'

This barrier was created by a very strong magical device, Yuriel made it after using ten percent of the whole mana crystal they got from the Jhesker alchemy tower.

"Order the golems to start moving." Zick looked forward to the golems' performance. He had simply come here to collect some soul to feed the regretful necklace on his neck.

Instantly, tens of peak masters and master ranks appeared on the battlefield with a blurred glow.

This was the last push needed for the army's order to truly break apart. Just the aura released by one of these golems was breathtaking to these soldiers.

Alchemists were the ones with the ugliest look, they were not front liners but in this situation, they could only grit their teeth and fight with everything they had.

At once all the golems started rampaging on the battlefield. screams rang out from every corner filling Zick's and Yuriel's ears.

There were only around four people with master-rank strength, they were no match to the golems at all.

It was mostly one-sided slaughter as far as Zick could see.

In the corner of his vision, Zick could see Leona vomiting in repulsion, looking at what was happening within the barrier.

Anastasia too was repulsed, but she had not lost reason, she started dragging Leona and herself far away from that place.

Looking at the necklace glowing dimly on his neck, Zick was satisfied. The troops which surrendered were left alive by Zick's order.

Around 15,000 soldiers survived somehow, kneeling on the ground. It was the most disgraceful moment of their life, but nothing but the thought of surviving was present in their head.

Zick ordered the dead body to be sacrificed for the creation of the biological golem.

The survivors were also mostly sacrificed, only the minimum needed amount was kept alive for experiments.

While taking care of the army, Levienel arrived at the secret lab. And as expected, she was able to collect all the resources from the main base of the organization.

Surprisingly, it seems like Levienel came across the organization's master, killing him in the process. She had collected all the dead bodies too.

After considering it for a while, Zick sent Levienel off to loot the other two left bases too.

'Let's see just how much I can develop with all these resources. The organization's master had some good things with him.' Zick smiled contently.