Marvel: I have a serious mental illness

"Happy Valley, sooner or later this place will become a huge paradise. I want everyone to become a madman like me..."

"The worst thing about having a mental illness is that everyone wants you to be okay..."

"Actually, everyone in this world is a patient. Everyone puts on a mask, pretending to be another person, pretending to be a false person who is not themselves at all..."

"Otherwise, you will be targeted, misunderstood, and insulted... This is simply putting people in shackles and domesticating them into dogs without independent will..."

"Tsk, tsk, tsk... How absurd is this? How sad is this? Hahaha... This is really ridiculous!"

"I wonder what everyone will think of me when the paradise is built?"

"Is it a madman? A wise man? A devil? A god? What is it? In fact, it doesn't matter. I just want everyone to live truly and reveal the hidden truth..."

Jerome stood up slowly, stared at the dark night, and said some very philosophical words.

He inherited his father's ambition.

He has never been a crazy clown, but a different kind of clown.

Rather than saying he is a clown who brings fear, it is better to say he is a variant of innovative consciousness.

Jerome walked into the warehouse with brisk steps.

He looked at the boy who was hunched like a baby at the bottom of the pond, with a smile on his lips and a gentle tone: "Jerome, wake up quickly..."

"Brother, are you still waiting to cause trouble in New York with you?"

"I seem a little lonely without you by my side..."

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Three o'clock in the morning.

Queens, New York.

Inkram Street.

Inside the villa.

Zhou Ran was lying on the big bed in the master bedroom, soundly asleep.

After returning from the hospital, he started to sleep and has not woken up until now.

All told, he had probably slept for a full fifteen hours.

His sleeping posture is extremely peaceful, and a smile appears on his face from time to time.

Although I don’t know what kind of sweet dream he had, there is no doubt that he is relaxed and happy now.

This is a long-lost sleep experience.

Zhou Ran has not experienced this kind of high-quality sleep for a long time.

He slept soundly.

But at this moment, his spiritual world was in chaos.

In the dark spiritual world.

Xiao Zizai, who had always been calm, suddenly frowned. His whole body trembled, his eyes glowed scarlet, and he looked like he was facing a formidable enemy.

"Huh..." Xiao Zizai took a deep breath, turned to look at the Joker, and asked in a low voice: "Joker, what happened here? Why can't I feel Zhou Ran all of a sudden?"

"He seems to have disappeared. My current state is very strange. I can't suppress my heart. I am very hungry. I have never been so hungry... I really want to eat, eat more..."
Hannibal also nodded and said with a pale face: "Yes, what happened? I feel the same way. I am very hungry. I have never been so hungry."

"Really, if I don't eat anymore, I will probably die soon..."

Hannibal no longer cares about losing his temper with the Joker. Faced with a matter of life and death, he chooses to forgive the Joker for his slights and insults.

At this moment, he is really weak.

After hearing this, the clown opened his mouth, showed a smile, and said slowly: "Hey, hey, brothers, don't panic or be afraid. Jake is in good condition now and there is nothing wrong with him."

"It's just that he has been too tired recently. If he wants to have a good sleep, he needs a good rest."

"Oh, I think you have all heard a story, which is Odin's sleep in Norse mythology. What is happening now can be called Jake's sleep."

"After this sleep, his strength will become stronger."

The clown paused and continued: "As for why you are so uncomfortable, weak, and weird now... the reason is also very simple."

"In this world, every living person is chasing something. Whether he is in a high position or at the bottom, there will be a moment spent chasing that thing..."

"The name of that thing is the meaning of life. All living people have explored what the meaning of life is."

"However, most people still don't understand this matter and live in confusion all their lives. It's not until the moment of death that they seem to realize a little bit of the truth when they look back on their lives."

"But we are different from them. We are born knowing the meaning we carry. We are born knowing why we live?"

"So, when Jake disappears, we who are weak will instinctively want to expand the meaning and mission we carry... It seems that only in this way can we continue to live instead of disappearing with Jake."

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"Xiao, Hannibal, it's normal for you to be in this situation. It's because you want to survive..."

After hearing this, Xiao Zizai nodded with a smile on his lips.

He pushed up his glasses and whispered: "Clown, I understand what you mean. Survival is the greatest instinct of living things, and only by knowing the meaning of one's existence can one survive."

"So, after Zhou Ran fell asleep, I frantically wanted to find prey and then eat, because only when I was eating was I in the true sense..."

"Unexpectedly, I have been practicing Buddhism intensively, but my soul still has not achieved essential detachment, and I am still afraid of death. This is still a bit sad to think about."

"If this continues, I will probably be further and further away from the path to becoming a Buddha."

Hannibal frowned, looked at the Joker, and asked in a low voice: "Joker, why did he choose to sleep at this time?"

"We fell into a deep sleep just once due to fatigue. This is something we have never experienced before. What else is hidden in this?"

"Joker, I think at this time, we need to work together... tell us everything you know!"

"Although we have different ambitions and different desires, we are one and intimate... You should not hide it from us."

Hannibal stared at the clown, knowing that the clown must know something secret.

This is his intuition. His intuition is always accurate and he never misses it.

The clown smiled and said, "Do you two still remember what I said before?"

"The chaotic home court is about to begin..."

"And now is the time to begin... What is chaos?"

"Sometimes it's light, sometimes it's darkness and it's chaos!"

"And when will there be light and darkness?"

"The answer is simple. When Jake falls asleep, light and darkness are no longer under control, and the moment of chaos begins..."

"This is the moment for chaos to perform..."

There was a smile on the corner of the clown's mouth, looking very happy.

"Joker, what do you mean..." Hannibal opened his eyes wide and looked shocked. He didn't finish what he said, only half of it.

Because telling them all is really shocking.

Xiao Zizai raised his eyebrows and completed what Hannibal had not finished: "In other words, in the next period of time, this body will be controlled by chaos."

"The clown is currently the only one in the chaotic camp, so the clown will be in charge of this body."

The clown snapped his fingers and said with a smile: "Bingo, Xiao, you got the answer right, but you only got half of it right, and the other half was not right."

"I am not the only one in the chaos camp, there is also the great Mr. Monkey. The next ones in charge of the body are Monkey and I."

"Monkey?" Hannibal blinked, looked at the dark stone in the spiritual world, and asked with great confusion: "Joker, but the little monkey has not been born yet, it is still in the stone, and it is still in the stone.

How to control the body?"

"Although it is still in the stone, it does not mean that it has no consciousness..." The clown explained with a smile: "It can also think. It looks like a stone, but it is still a monkey..."

Hearing this, Xiao Zizai smiled and said: "From this perspective, it can be explained that the Great Sage occupies the body."

"After all, the Stone Monkey is also a monkey. I'm looking forward to what story it will have with the world when it takes control of the body?"

"I think that would be very interesting. After all, it is the supreme existence in the chaotic camp." The clown arranged his hair, his movements were very elegant.

He smiled and said: "However, before that, I took over this body."

"I'm going to do something fun."

"Joker, I'm curious about what fun things you can do?" Hannibal slowly walked to the Joker's side, blinked, and said, "Can you let me out of here? I can make a scene with you.

Throughout New York, I will make you feel happy..."

Hear Hannibal's words.

The clown shook his head and said: "Sorry, Hannibal, you should stay here for now... The chaotic home court may be bloody, but it won't be so heartbreaking."

"It would be too bad if I let you out. I don't know what kind of things you will cause... You'd better wait!"

"But, I'm really hungry! If I hadn't been carrying the hunger all the time, this body would have collapsed long ago..." Hannibal's eyes were very fierce, and he gritted his teeth: "If it weren't for me, the clown would have collapsed a long time ago..."

Sir, where do you have any chance to awaken the Dionysian factor?"

"Without me, there would be no chance for all of you to show your strength. I have shouldered everything for you... Every time you use strength, you consume all my physical strength!"

After Xiao Zizi heard this, he reached out and patted Hannibal on the shoulder, and said with a smile: "Mr. Hannibal, don't be so angry. I believe it is fair here and you will get out one day."

"You will definitely have a day when you eat wantonly, and the later that day occurs, the better and safer it is for you, right?"

"You don't want to go out now, have a big meal, and then be wiped out by Zhou Ran's subconscious mind!"

"In addition, I have already thought of a way to relieve your hunger..."

Listening to Xiao Zizai's comfort, Hannibal's mood improved.

He knew that this Buddhist who looked fierce on the outside had a gentle and kind heart.

Although his methods are cruel and his personality is bad, he is an extremely crazy murderer.

But it cannot be denied that this Mr. Murderer is very kind at heart.

He raised his eyebrows and asked: "What method? If the method does not satisfy me, I will be unhappy... If I am unhappy, I don't know what will happen here?"

"After all, the main personality is asleep now, and you may not be able to suppress me..."

"Namo Amitabha..." Xiao Zizai clasped his hands together and slowly said: "Donor Hannibal, I want to follow the Buddha's example of cutting meat to feed the eagle. During this period, if you are hungry, you can eat my flesh."<

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"In this way, my Dharma can be profound and your hunger can be quenched."

"How about this method?"

When Hannibal heard this, he couldn't help but lick his lips, his eyes full of greed.

His mouth was drooling and he laughed: "Hahaha... I am very satisfied with this matter..."

"Xiao, do you know? I have wanted to taste what you are like for a long time, but I have always been afraid of your force..."

"Now, I finally got what I wanted."

"Xiao, you are really a kind person. Sure enough, Jake did not misjudge you and made you his kind person."

"In your Buddhist terms, how would you describe it?"

Hannibal blinked and said happily: "I remember, what you did is a great merit."

"Xiao, you will definitely become a Buddha."

"Namo Amitabha..." After Xiao Zizi heard this, a smile appeared on his lips, and he said slowly: "Mr. Hannibal, thank you for your praise, but I have not yet reached the state of becoming a Buddha."

"I just hope that through some small things, I can prevent myself from falling into endless hell."

"My upholding good moral principles, practicing precepts, and meditating are all to prevent myself from becoming a devil... The reason why I am kind is because I know what evil is better than anyone else!"

"I was born to kill, and I have been infinitely close to evil... It is those evils that have made me good today."

"Hoo ho ho... It seems that everyone here is the most correct..." The clown stretched and said with a smile: "The chat is over, it's time for me to go out and take a walk."
"My dear brothers, I declare that the chaos at home begins at this moment..."

"Tsk tsk tsk...Jake, I will prepare a grand gift for you. You will definitely like it...When you wake up, you will be extremely happy and praise me loudly."

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Ding dong!

Ding dong!

Ding dong!

Ding dong!

The bell rang four times.

It’s four o’clock in the morning.

Zhou Ran sat up from the bed and suddenly opened his eyes.

Those are a pair of eyes full of chaos and madness.

He twisted his neck, with a smile on his lips, and said: "Cheer! Jump for joy!"

"The great Joker has officially come to this world at this moment!"