Mecha Star Wars

I don’t know what Jin Sichen thinks, but Wu Yusen sounds quite sympathetic to Lin Fan.

When parents push for marriage, they originally want their children to be happy. But many times, urging marriage becomes a formality, and it doesn't seem to matter whether you are happy or not.

According to Lin Fan's information and her own description, she was originally an independent, cheerful, and courageous woman. Although she is still suffering from illness, after contacting her in the past few days, I can feel that her character is also very good.

Whether she signed up for fitness classes or tour groups, they were all designed to help her get over the pain as soon as possible and return to normal life as soon as possible.

As long as he waits a little longer, Lin Fan's pain will be slowly healed and he will enter a new life. When the time comes, whether you have a boyfriend or get married, everything will happen naturally.

It's a pity that the Lin family's parents couldn't wait any longer. They didn't care that Lin Fan was still in the healing period, and forcefully forced a normal person to become like this.

Many people don't know that language is the sharpest knife in the world.

How sharp it is depends on how important the person wielding the knife against you is in your heart.

To put it bluntly, the more someone cares, the more hurtful their words will be.

As the people closest to her, Lin Fan's parents didn't even realize that their words were like sharp knives that almost stabbed Lin Fan to death.

I don’t know if they have ever regretted what they have done now.

Jin Sichen listened to Lin Fan's words, writing something in his hand from time to time, and then asked: "I feel that you seem to be particularly concerned about what your parents think, is that true?"

Lin Fan thought for a while and said, "I don't know what it means to be extra concerned. Why don't I tell you what happened when I was a child, and you can judge?"

Jin Sichen nodded.

When Lin Fan was a child, Lin's father had been working outside the home and rarely participated in his daughter's life. But fortunately, she made a lot of money, which allowed Lin Fan to drink milk when he was a child. Lin's mother could wear mink furs and gold chains, and she was always smiling.

I don't know whether it was because the family had some money, or because Lin's mother always liked comparison. Lin Fan spent his childhood being compared with other children.

No matter how well Lin Fan studies and how obedient he is, he never seems to get praise from Lin's mother.

Her cousin who was the team leader was always more powerful than her, the children of Lin's mother's friends were always more obedient than her, and even her cousin who was not good at studying and naughty and dropped out of school did all kinds of good things in front of Lin Fan. Lin Fan slowly felt inferior in his longing.

In high school, the disappointed Lin Fan began to rebel. She gave up studying hard and wanted to use her performance decline to attract Lin's mother's attention.

At this time, Lin's father's business encountered setbacks and began to suffer serious losses. Mother Lin was arguing with Father Lin all day long, and she didn't care about Lin Fan at all. Let alone scolding him, it could almost be regarded as ignoring him.

Lin Fan's mentality collapsed, he gave up studying and started living like a scumbag. Two months before the college entrance examination, the new history teacher came to Lin Fan for a long talk. The concern in her words was like a stream of warmth, making her stiff heart slowly beat again.

Lin Fan began to study hard and wanted to turn the tide. But it's too late. She could only give up mathematics, physics, and chemistry and only memorize liberal arts knowledge points.

After the college entrance examination, I actually got a relatively good score. I couldn't get into a key university, but I was much higher than the standard for ordinary undergraduates.

For Lin Fan, who had only studied for two months, this was already a very good result. If she hadn't given up studying in the first place, maybe Tsinghua University and Peking University would have given it a try.

As usual, no one asked about his university aspirations. Lin Fan chose a university far away from home. After entering, he found out that it was a private institution that only had junior college degrees, and the academic qualifications were not recognized by the country.

At this point, Lin Fan could only study hard in college, take the post-secondary examination, and finally graduate with a bachelor's degree from another university.

After leaving home, Lin Fan saw the vast world, broke away from the shackles of his family, and never wanted to return to a depressing environment.

After graduation, she did not follow her family's arrangements to go home and work, and went to Gaohe City alone to make a living.

"You all know what happened next." Lin Fan suddenly realized that her life was not long, and she finished it in just a moment.

"So you have low self-esteem in your heart and hope to be recognized by your parents. Although you work hard to get into college and find a good job, once your parents deny it, you will be very hurt." Jin Sichen concluded.

"This kind of damage keeps accumulating, which has dealt a fatal blow to you. It directly denies the meaning of your entire life. You don't know why you are alive, and you feel that there is nothing left to live for."

"You hope to get recognition from others, but it always backfires. Any recognition and encouragement will give you strength. So the history teacher in the middle school just had a long talk with you, and you studied with all your strength. You are just a lackluster He’s just a child who loves and has low self-esteem.”

Lin Fan listened calmly and agreed, "Really? I discovered it too. I used to think that I was very capable, bold, daring, and omnipotent, but later I realized that these were all illusions."

"I want them to praise me when I get into college, I want them to praise me when I get a bachelor's degree, I want them to praise me when I find a good job, I want them to praise me when I make a lot of money... I still got 100 points A child who wants to be praised by his mother. But in all these years, few people have sincerely praised me."

"You're fine." John Woo sighed a little and couldn't help but comfort him. Seeing Lin Fan looking over, he was worried that she wouldn't believe it, so he emphasized, "It's true."

Lin Fan looked at John Woo's smiling face with eight teeth exposed, and felt a little sour and warm in his heart. He tugged at the corner of his mouth and replied, "Thank you."

Jin Sichen had a general understanding and said to Lin Fan: "I found that you have a clear understanding of your condition, which is a good thing. It is right to live separately from your parents. If you cannot get affirmation, at least avoid harm. Now you live alone Do you control your emotions well?"

"I'm fine when I'm fine. I just can't do anything. I don't know when something happens, and I start having convulsions."

"Sometimes, maybe when I see the branches on the roadside being sawed, I keep thinking about it and feel sad. I toss and turn, and I can't sleep all night long. I think about it every now and then, and it obviously has nothing to do with me." Lin Fan sighed. road. "So I don't go out very much now, just because I'm afraid of being bothered by these inexplicable things every day."

"It's difficult for you to deal with emotional problems at the moment. Not going out is indeed a solution, but there will be problems in the long term. I just hope that after a while, your ability to withstand psychological stress will be strengthened and you will gradually be able to contact the outside world. This time cannot be too long. Human beings After all, they are social animals. If you are cut off from social contact for a long time, even normal people will have some problems. This will not help your condition."

"The best way is to put you in a safe environment, which can not only expose you to a certain external environment, but also eliminate factors that make you uneasy. At the same time, it can also be accompanied by psychological treatment, a three-pronged approach. Only in this way can you Improve your condition in the shortest possible time.”

"It's just that this thing sounds easy to say, but it's not that easy to do in practice." Jin Sichen certainly knew that Lin Fan had stopped treatment due to financial reasons and could not do what he said.

Lin Fan had known for a long time that it was impossible to get good treatment in her current condition. She had to resist on her own and take it no matter what. I have already calmed down, so I don’t feel it’s a pity.

Seeing that Jin Sichen seemed to be getting ready to move on to the next topic, John Woo hurriedly interrupted and asked: "What should I do if the side effects of her medicine haven't gone away yet?"

"What side effects haven't gone away?" Jin Sichen flipped through the documents. "The medical record shows that she has stopped taking the medicine for 2 years. Are there any other symptoms?"

Looking at Lin Fan's swollen body, it was indeed caused by the side effects of the medication. It should have been less swollen after two years, but it was also possible that he ate too much in the later period and became obese, so Jin Sichen didn't care at first.

Lin Fan explained his symptoms again.

Headache.

My brain is unclear, my reactions are extremely slow, and I always forget things.

I no longer like the things I liked before. I am not happy even when I should be happy, and I am not sad even when I feel sad.

My eyes hurt, I always feel tired and can't open my eyes.

My ears keep hearing sounds, but if I listen carefully, they don't seem to exist. Also tinnitus.

I always feel nauseous and retching, but I can't vomit anything.

Sometimes it feels like my head is heavy and about to fall off my neck.

My heart hurts, my stomach and intestines hurt.

Arm pain, hand joint pain, back shoulder blade pain. My thighs, knees, and buttocks also hurt.

The pain is also varied, sometimes it's stinging, sometimes it's inflammatory pain, sometimes it's numb, sometimes it's like burning...

This sounds like something is really wrong from head to toe.

Jin Sichen frowned upon hearing this, and he and John Woo took the physical examination report and looked at it carefully.

"She said that hospitals outside could not detect it, and I thought we could definitely detect it here. The result was that everything was normal." John Woo said next to him.

"Mood disorders are manifestations of depression." Jin Sichen said. "If it's painful, I suspect it may be a somatization disorder. There may be some side effects of the medicine on the eyes and ears, but it's too much for her."

"What is somatization disorder?" John Woo asked.

"Simply put, it is a mental disorder caused by mental anxiety. It is mainly manifested in various unexplained pains in the body and limbs, nausea, etc. that cannot be detected by medical means. It is often accompanied by obvious anxiety and depression."

"Isn't it depression?" John Woo asked.

"No, it's another mental illness." Jin Sichen was looking at Lin Fan's brain CT scan. "It's usually caused by genetic factors, physical or psychosocial factors. Her CT scan doesn't look obvious. I suspect it's because of the somatization disorder that accompanies her depression. Some depressed patients do have symptoms of somatization disorder in the severe stage. .”

Okay, another mental illness. Lin Fan was no longer able to complain.

"When did you feel these symptoms?" Jin Sichen asked Lin Fan.

"I probably stopped taking the medicine, I can't remember clearly." Lin Fan recalled.

"That's almost two years, which is consistent with the time of diagnosis. It should be somatization disorder." Jin Sichen concluded.

"I can't find anything wrong but I feel pain. Is it a hallucination?" John Woo asked.

"It's not a hallucination, it's subjective pain." Jin Sichen replied.

"Let me explain it to you this way. Physical lesions produce pain reflexes, which are transmitted by nerves to the brain so that you can feel pain. Somatized pain is a disease that has no substance in the body, but the nerves feel pain. Although it is subjective pain, it is also real. It hurts."

"Then how can it be cured?" John Woo asked again.

"..." Even though Jin Sichen was very knowledgeable and eloquent, he couldn't help but pause for a moment, "I need to take antidepressant medicine."