Medical Sovereign

"Are you studying accounting?"

Ding Ning asked.

"She's a certified public accountant."

Xilin was proud of her best friend and rushed to introduce her.

"I remember when I was studying, Shanshan's grades were always first in her grade."

Diba said with great envy that she had always been inferior in terms of academic performance.

"Those are all old school calendars. You went to school in other places. Didn't you know that Shanshan would have been the top scorer in science in the province if she hadn't failed in the college entrance examination because of a high fever. Even so, she had passed all the exams in the city. First, she is good enough to study hard. If she hadn't chosen the local Ebony University because she couldn't worry about her uncle and aunt, otherwise, her life would never be what it is now. "

Xilin highly praised Yuan Shanshan, which made Yuan Shanshan feel warm in her heart. For the first time, she felt understood and valued. It turned out that she was not useless. At least, her two best friends admired her academic performance. of.

"It's so amazing. I didn't expect that Shanshan is actually a very talented woman."

Ding Ning's face moved slightly. He didn't expect Yuan Shanshan to have such a side, and he praised her sincerely.

"No way, I am not a talented woman. In the past, I thought grades were everything. But after I started working, I realized that grades are just an acceptance criterion in school and cannot solve my employment or even food and clothing problems."

Yuan Shanshan said with a hint of self-deprecation.

"Society is a very complex and extensive subject. If you can make a name for yourself in society, that is the real application of what you have learned. Although your grades do not mean everything, at least your starting point is higher than that of ordinary people. , you just haven’t encountered a stage that allows you to display your abilities.”

Ding Ning said meaningfully.

"A thousand-mile horse is always there, but a Bole is not always there."

Yuan Shanshan said with self-pity, quite feeling like her talent was not appreciated.

"No, you are wrong. Bole is everywhere, but there are not many thousand-mile horses that can catch Bole's eye. Maybe you have the talent to match a thousand-mile horse, but you don't have the amazing feeling that makes Bole feel bright."

Ding Ning's extremely serious tone poured cold water on her: "The most wrong thing about you is that you don't just think about your own mistakes.

Instead, you blame others and feel that God is unfair to you and society is unfair to you. You are a broken person, do not strive for progress, and just muddle along. "

These words were so serious that Yuan Shanshan almost shed tears of grievance. She choked and said: "You are not me, how do you know that I haven't tried hard?"

Diba and Xilin looked at each other, wondering how Ding Ning could say such harsh words. They were about to complain for Shanshan, but when they heard Ding Ning's voice transmission, it rang in their minds: "Don't talk, I'm treating her."

The two women opened their mouths and swallowed back the words that came to their lips, looking thoughtful.

"Maybe you think you have worked hard, but let me ask you, you said that once you lose your job, your family will be faced with a situation where there is no food to eat, so why did Diba and Xilin want to introduce you to a good job, but you refused? "

Ding Ning's tone was aggressive, pointing directly at Yuan Shanshan's most sensitive heart. His face turned pale and bloodless, his mouth opened but he was speechless. What should he say? You can't say that you don't want them to give alms to you out of sympathy.

Although Yuan Ye felt sorry for his sister, he was in awe of Ding Ning and did not dare to argue with him. However, his face became a little unsightly, and he bit his lips and sulked.

Ding Ning didn't even wait for Yuan Shanshan to reply, and continued to say harshly: "You know clearly that your boss has evil intentions towards you, but you would rather refuse your best friend's kindness and stay in the company to continue working. Why? Let me tell you, it's not you How great it is, it’s not your ridiculous self-esteem that’s causing it, but you’re intoxicated, intoxicated by the sense of being liked and pursued by others. Even if the other person is a fat pig that disgusts you, you’re still intoxicated. In the feeling of being coveted, use this alternative way to prove your existence and charm.”

"Don't tell me that this is not true. You can't hide it from me. I can see all your thoughts. No subtle activity in your mind can escape my eyes. Yuan Shanshan, ask yourself, am I wrong? "

"Don't escape, don't be afraid to face it. Only by bravely facing your truest inner world can you get out of the psychological shadow, be reborn in Nirvana, emerge from the cocoon and become a butterfly, and live a brand new self."

"People are not afraid of facing desperate situations. What they are most afraid of is not being able to face themselves. You have gradually lost yourself in the cruelty of reality. Your heart has been covered with thick dust. If you don't undergo major surgery, you will only live forever. Living in a humble self, is this really the life you want?”

"If you want to fight against fate, you need to defeat yourself first. If you don't even have the courage to face your heart, then your life will be completely over. You can only live in your own imagination forever, and live in a world that you can never realize. of illusory dreams.”

…

Ding Ning's words were like a knife, ruthlessly tearing open Yuan Shanshan's scars one after another, revealing bloody wounds that made her tremble with pain.

"Ding Ning..."

Diba couldn't bear to interrupt.

Ding Ning said seriously: "If you don't want your best friend to live in an illusory dream like this, it's best not to interrupt."

"oh!"

Diba obediently closed her mouth and pouted in grievance. This was the first time that Ding Ning got angry at her, which made her feel a little uncomfortable.

"Be good, it's not that I want to scold you, but the object of Yuan Shanshan's jealousy is you now. The more I treat you well, the easier it is to make her jealous, which is not conducive to her recovery."

As Ding Ning's gentle voice rang in her mind, Diba quickly felt relieved. Maybe Ding Ning's words were a bit harsh, but severe cases required strong medicine for Yuan Shanshan's good. It didn't matter if she suffered a little grievance.

Yuan Shanshan drooped her head, her expression was gloomy and uncertain, her eyes were dull and blank, and she fell into self-analysis.

Although what Ding Ning said was hard to hear, she was very accurate. Even she didn't realize that this was her truest thought.

But when Ding Ning ruthlessly tore through all the fig leaves and exposed her dark heart to the sun, she was shocked to find that what Ding Ning said was absolutely right.

Why should I reject Diba and Xilin's kindness? They are their best friends. Isn't it human nature for friends to help each other?

Even though he knew that the fat pig boss had bad intentions towards him, he still took the meager salary happily and maintained his ridiculous dignity self-righteously.

In fact, she fell into self-doubt and self-denial, and suffered from a severe inferiority complex. She felt that no one cared for her, no one loved her, and no one even pursued her.

So when she found out that the fat pig boss coveted her, she refused sternly and even felt disgusted. However, the subtle sense of self-existence that was recognized made her intoxicated. She did not hesitate to reject the kindness of her best friend and persisted. I stayed in the company that was always making things difficult for me.

Isn't this a shame?

To put it bluntly, it's actually that simple. It's just that she has been unwilling to face her true heart.

But once the disguise was truly torn off and the darkest side of his heart was exposed to the public eye, things had reached a point where it couldn't get any worse, and he felt relieved.

Just like people often run away after committing a crime and live in fear all day long. When they hear the sound of an ambulance, they think that the police are coming to their door. They are like a frightened bird all day long. That kind of spiritual feeling Torture is often more devastating than prison.

Therefore, many people cannot stand this kind of mental torture, and will eventually choose to surrender and face legal trial. Even if they are imprisoned, it is better than living a life of hiding around all day long. At least, they feel at ease.

Yuan Shanshan felt this relieved at the moment. Anyway, things had developed to a situation that couldn't get any worse. They had already hit rock bottom. How far could they fall if they fell further.

So, Diba and Xilin were stunned to see Shanshan raise her head with a calm face, unusually calm: "Yes, what you said is right, I just have low self-esteem..."

"sister!"

Yuan Yanye shouted in pain.

Yuan Shanshan took a deep breath, looked at Yuan Ye calmly and shook her head: "Don't interrupt me, Ding Ning is right, I am too inferior and cowardly, and never dare to face my true heart. I blame everyone, I don’t want to make progress. I always feel that I, Yuan Shanshan, am so good and capable, why can’t I live as good as others? So I hate, I hate God for being unfair to me, I hate why I was born into such a poor family, and I hate my father. Why is she disabled? I hate Siren. Why did she marry an excellent husband who loves her so much and live a life of fine clothes and fine food while still living in blessings and not knowing her blessings? I hate why Diba can become a big star. Others mention me. Yuan Shanshan would sometimes say that I am Diba's best friend, but no one would say that Diba is my best friend..."

"Shanshan, stop talking."

Diba bit her lower lip tightly, with pain and pity in her eyes, and said pleadingly.

Although she had long known from Ding Ning's inference that Yuan Shanshan suffered from severe inferiority complex, when Yuan Shanshan said it herself, she was still in pain and couldn't breathe. They were the best best friends.

"Deepa, don't interrupt me, okay? It took a lot of effort for me to have the courage to speak out my truest thoughts. If you still treat me as your best friend, just listen to what I have to say."

Yuan Shanshan's tone was so calm that it made people's hearts palpitate, with a sense of desolation and despair.

Siren sighed, shook her head slightly at Diba who wanted to say something else, and signaled for her to continue.

Yuan Shanshan's face showed a look of nostalgia, and she said leisurely: "The three of us are the same age. We are all twenty-seven this year. We have known each other for more than ten years, right?"

"Diba and I have known each other since childhood. We were in the first grade of junior high school when we played together. We were both fourteen years old at that time, and it has been thirteen years."

Siren interjected softly.

"Yes, time flies so fast. In the blink of an eye, we have known each other for thirteen years."

Yuan Shanshan sighed with emotion, and then laughed at herself: "Because I have a disabled father and a mother who picks up rags, and I still live in a shanty house known as a slum. Since I was seven years old, I have suffered from everyone's indifference and supercilious looks. Being bullied, insulted, and ridiculed, I didn’t dare to tell my parents when I was bullied, because it would only make them more miserable and powerless.”

Both Diba and Xilin's eyes were moist. Although they did not witness it with their own eyes, they could feel the despair and helplessness firsthand.

Yuan Ye gritted his teeth, looked at his sister with tears streaming down his face, and held her hand tightly, as if this was the only way to give her comfort and strength.

He was very young at that time, just two years old. Who knew that his sister had suffered like this? When he was older, it was not that no one bullied him, but his sister always protected him like an old hen guarding her calf. , whoever bullies him, she will risk her life with.