MEMORIZE

"Oh…! Your brother saves me. Whoo-hoo."

Perhaps because he asked for a drink in advance, Ahn readily nodded. I said, "Hahaha! You chose me! Are you watching this, Lee Yu-jung?" After hitting the man in the side, he stepped as far away from the festival as possible.

In time, moving to a place as eerie as possible, I calmed myself down. Whatever happened, Ahn Hyun and An Sol are very reluctant to comment on it. Then how to make Anhyun open her mouth was the key.

I think I walked for about two minutes. Before I knew it, the night was deep, and Ahn Hyun still hums behind my back. I looked around the river and stopped walking around the garden pond. Perhaps because of the brilliant moonlight, the light was shining silver and white from the surface of the small pond.

"Oh, are we doing it here? But why are you here....”

Ahn Hyun smiled and sat down, and looked around with a red face. Then he hesitated for a moment and shouted, covering himself with both arms.

"Hey. Don't tell me..."

“?”

"Tongue, brother. You can't do this. Oh, no. If it's your brother... maybe it's okay....”

"Say one more thing. I'll force you to sober up."

I growled out and threw the bottle in my right hand hard. An-hyun chuckled and shook his hand, and grabbed the bottle that flew away even though it was a close range. After a little admiration inside, I opened the cap of the bottle on my left hand.

"Let's toast first."

"Yes, but are you drinking it from the bottle?”

I nodded my head still.

It was not long before I heard the bottle bumping into it, and I took a sip first. As the cold liquid slid gently over my throat, I felt a little excited but relaxed. After savoring the refreshing taste left in my mouth for a while, I glanced forward. From the front, Ahn Hyun turned his head slightly and was politely drinking the bottle.

"Kar. It's not strong, but it's pretty good, too. It's good to swallow my throat and I feel like I'm wide awake.”

"Then shall we have another drink?”

Ahn Hyun nodded with a face asking if there was a possibility. I was going to wait for some medicine to work. He was already drunk as he could be. So at least it was necessary to awaken the mind enough to think normally.

Afterwards I didn't say anything on purpose. Just silently, he only drank the innocent liquid, responding to Ahn's chatter.

And when I emptied about half a bottle, I felt that the gun returned to his blurry eyes and his drooping pronunciation was slowly becoming clear. At this point, I thought it was time to bring it up, so I took a punch out of my arms and asked. Maybe it felt awkward to see me keep silent, and Ahn Hyun's voice, which had been babbling until just now, was gradually dying down.

It was about time to light the ignition stone at the beginning of the year.

"Brother, do you have anything to say to me?"You haven't said anything since earlier."

Ahn Hyun's voice was much more subdued than before. I nodded calmly at the thought that the medicine had spread to some extent. Then, he put the candle between his index finger and middle finger and opened his mouth in a low voice.

"Yes, I want to ask you something. That's why I prepared this place on purpose. I have a question about Ansol."

"Aha. I see. Come on, ask me anything. If you were my brother, I'd tell you everything about Sol..”

"Ahnhyun, I'm not trying to play jokes on you. I'm asking about Ansol's past and spirit."

Then, Ahn Hyun shut up like a lie. I picked up a glance and looked at his face. Ahn Hyun was expressing his bewildered expression as to where he had gone with joy at the rally. I wouldn't have asked if it were before. But I gave more strength to my voice because I thought I could never back down this time.

"You're the only one I can ask. So I want you to tell me how you feel. You know what I'm talking about, don't you?"

“…….”

A cold wind passes by.

For a while, Ahn didn't say anything. He was just staring at the ground with his mouth shut tightly and blank eyes. But his eyelids were shaking slightly and his lips were slightly chomped in.

How long has it been? Ahn Hyun suddenly smiled. But it was a forced smile.

"Ha... ha ha. Well, I told you. I'm sorry. No matter how big you are, that's not good enough. There's a saying that it's personal privacy. Please respect me. Haha, ha."

"Anhyun."

"…brother. Can we just talk about it later? Why now of all of a sudden?Please give me some time to think. I want to clear my mind and enjoy this good atmosphere more."

Ahn's tone now had a pleading tone. I really didn't want to say it, but I decided to go ahead with it the first time I decided. Then, from now on, we must persuade the man in front of us.

I closed my eyes gently. Then he calmly refined his mind, then opened his eyes again and opened his mouth.

"Hyuna."

At that moment, Ahn Hyun stopped talking again. Then he opened his eyes wide and soon opened his mouth and looked at me. There was a sense of surprise in his eyes.

I don't usually just call kids, or even Clan members, by their names. I almost sang it with my last name. It was to build my own walls and keep my distance. Perhaps the people around you used to feel it vaguely. Was it that Jung Ha-yeon asked me to call her name? But this time I broke the wall myself.

To Ahn Hyun, who looked unsure what to do, I said quietly.

"Today I'm... No. I don't think I'll have a chance unless it's now."

"Brother…, please…".”

"What the hell are you so afraid of? Hiding like this doesn't solve everything.”

"But, brother, but....”

"Hyun, do you remember what I said before? Don't be afraid. Overcome that fear and face up to the cause of fear. Only then can we survive and adapt to this Holplane world."

Is it because I speak earnestly, which is rare for me. Whether he felt it or not, Ahn Hyun's face was a flash of conflict. His face was clearly showing his current indecipherable worries and complicated feelings. My intentions must have been conveyed. In the end, however, Ahn's answer was to lower his head. Soon a little "I'm sorry" came to your ears.

As expected, this much could not break down the walls of Anhyeon. I sighed loudly.

Until five minutes ago, the joyful atmosphere had changed rapidly. The pleasant and exciting air quickly subsides, and the air of discomfort and silence takes its place. Such a silent state of silence continued.

I smacked my lips and opened my mouth again.

"Not long ago, something very big almost happened to Ansol. Do you know?"

Ahn nodded his head and immediately stirred from side to side. Perhaps Ansol's reaction gave him a rough idea, but he didn't know the details. Since it is difficult to talk about guardians, she would not have said anything in detail.

"It's going to be really, really hard if we leave him here. This is not just about adaptation. Hallplane will change rapidly in the future. Then, in this rapidly changing world, can Ansol survive with that personality? I don't think so. I always told you, didn't I? You don't know what's going to happen in Hall Plain. This case was the perfect match. It was a situation where Ansol could be used in the wrong way, or worst of all, it could be wrong. Fortunately, I managed to prevent it this time, but I can't guarantee that it won't happen again."

"No way Sol....”

"If it were like before. Yeah, I see. It's okay. You don't have to if it's hard to say. I would have said this. Well, honestly, I'm comfortable with that, too. I just need to focus on my work and not care."

“……!”

Anyway, Ahn Hyun's head and drooping shoulders are flinching. However, it was Kim, who needed to speak stronger to break down the solid wall. First of all, I was going to recognize the importance of the situation to Ahn Hyun. And then, you have to shake your emotions.

"But now I can't. A long time ago. Kim Han-byul once asked about it from the user academy. Why don't you come into the Golden Lion? Why are you kicking this great opportunity? What did I say back then?”

“…….”

"I'm not as good a person as you think I am. I have a lot of doubts and I don't trust people well. But you know what? This Holplain world is not a world where you can live alone. In the end, you have to live together and have a colleague to help you. So I answered. I'm going to make my own clan. No matter what happens, it's a clan of people I can only trust.”

"Family…"?”

As soon as he took out the word "family," Ahn's eyes shook relentlessly. I did not miss such a response. After drinking the remaining liquid from the bottle and moistening his throat, he continued to prepare it immediately.

"I gave up the golden lion, but you were in the same situation. Because I refused to offer to the middle class. To be frank, was I at the time? All I had was two gold or so gold coins from the User's Academy, a zero-year broke user with nothing. But you followed me without saying anything, and in the square, you gave me all the gold coins. How do you think I felt then?”

"Brother…."

"Hyun, think about it. Me, you, Sol, and Yoojung have been together since the rite of passage. It's not South and South anymore. That's why I can't wait and see. I know that if we keep going like this, it's going to be all wrong for Ansol. I know it's going to happen, but should I just leave it as it is just because I don't want to say it?"

Ahn Hyun shook his head slowly and very slowly. It had a strong feeling that it was stirred reflexively rather than voluntarily.

This is the last one. I looked straight into Anhyun's eyes. Then he opened his mouth quietly.

"Hyun-ah, let's not run anymore, let's give it a try. I'll help you. Just like we've been. What?"

"Oh…."

At my words, Anhyun looked like she forgot what I said. His eyes were shaking and his lips were about to burst into tears. I didn't shy away from that kind of guy.

Soon, the wind completely died down and the surroundings became so quiet that they could even hear breathing. Suddenly, a hot energy was delivered between the fingers of the right hand. As I turned my eyes reflexively, I could see that the beginning of the year, when I didn't smoke a single sip, burned down and touched my skin. As soon as I dropped it, a low voice flowed from the front.

"Ha... That's right."

“?”

How should I express Ahn Hyun's face when I look back again? The eyes are blank and the mouth is wide open. You don't look weak. At first glance, he seemed relieved, but in a way, he seemed possessed.

"You're right. Soli... was acting a little, no, weird for her age."

Ahn Hyun finally brought up the first word. He showed a slight gap in his tightly closed mind. I answered immediately to open the gap even more.

"Yes, I had a rough idea that there was a problem. But that's not something to be ashamed of, is it? Every modern man has at least one….”

"No, no, no. That's not it. That's not it."

And at that moment, Ahn Hyun's eyes flashed once. It was not long before he let out a deep sigh. Then he continued with a silly smile.

"It's not that bad…The seriousness of Sol. It's not enough to be wrapped up in such nice words. Yes, that's right. Our Sol, she's mentally challenged."

He looked like a psychopath.'

Suddenly, what Ko said in the past crossed my mind.

"…Does Sol know that, too?”

"I'm sure he's aware of it. I've taken him to the hospital a few times. But you probably don't know why you became like this.”

What the hell is this sound? As I raise my head with a curious face, I can see Ahn Hyun with a bitter face. He was slowly taking his lips off.

"I lost my memory once a few years ago. Not all, but in part. If you had asked Ansol, I wouldn't have answered correctly. It's not that I didn't do it.”

"What…?"

"Memory loss..."

It was totally unexpected for me, who had thought it was an intellectual disability. Regardless of my reaction, An-hyun kept talking.

"Come to think of it, I went to the hospital a lot. I don't know much about the mind either. But I've been to many hospitals, and every hospital I visit has a different story. It's schizophrenia. It's a dissociative disorder. It's a mood disorder. It's a delusional disorder. Trauma, hysteria. Or because of extreme stress. Haha... But that's how it's supposed to be. The world of the human mind is originally so profound, and Ansol is especially complex that it is difficult to make a final diagnosis in modern psychiatry.Yes, sir."

"…I see. What do you mean by memory loss?"

"Oh, brother, do you know dissociative amnesia? Oh, did you say psychosomatic forgetfulness?"

I managed to nod my head. I don't know the details, but I knew about the symptoms. In short, it is a disability phenomenon that cannot recall important past memories, and when symptoms are severe, it can be seen with symptoms such as confusion, depression, anxiety, age regression, suicide impulse, and interpersonal disabilities.

I came to my senses immediately. And I thought it was important from now on, so I quickly managed my facial expression.

"And what happened to him?”

"What's going on?Yes…."

"So what the hell did you go through that caused Ansol to have such a mental disorder?”

Ahn Hyun didn't answer right away. I'm just looking down at the ground with a heavy face. However, that was also for a while. His eyes seemed to be getting sad as if he was trying to think of something, but he slowly raised his head and started looking up at me. In that way, Ahn Hyun and I made eye contact in the air.

Soon after, Anhyun's mouth opened.

============================ Review of the work ============================

I've read all the posts since the beginning of school. I got a lot of comments and comments.

I feel like I'm in a hurry all of a sudden. Why are the words so twisted? Or I don't understand why this part suddenly comes out.

I've been thinking about it, and I think there are a lot of things that I missed while trying to speed up the development of my poor skills. I have to blame myself. ㅜ.ㅠ

Anyway, I'm planning to release the twisted ones for the time being and publish them at their original pace to recover my writing skills. I can't ruin my memory because of my greed. Ha ha.

Of course, the daily serial will continue. I'd appreciate it if you could think that I'm trimming my writing a little bit more on a late day.

I'm very tired today. My body and head are dizzy, so I'll play League of Legends to recover!

I'll upload the re-reply in the next episode. Except for one person.

Letzgo02 / Congratulations on your return! Yes, secret classes are not duplicated. In the case of Kim Soo-hyun, all the information was disclosed thanks to the perks, but in general circumstances, it cannot be duplicated. Of course, there are exceptions. It's like Kim Soo-hyun, Vivien, or Shin Sang-yong. :)

And congratulations on passing the exam. A police exam! You're amazing, and I'm jealous. :D Clap clap clap clap!

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