Muted

It is often said that no matter how painful life is, it must continue. So, when the right to life is deprived, how can we continue to live?

I thought about losing my job, but I didn't expect it to be so embarrassing.

The manager Tie Qing looked at me with a face, "This morning, everyone in our company received this photo in the mailbox. Mu Ran, I don't want to discriminate against your sexuality, but I can't stand the company's reputation being damaged because of you."

I looked at the photo in the manager's mailbox, expressionless.

The two men in the photo are hugging and kissing together, because they are a little far away, their faces are a bit blurred. But the man facing the camera can really be said to be me, at least like seven or eight points. If I weren't sure that I'd lived until now, I hadn't touched the hands of other men except Yi Tian, ​​and I would almost have to doubt which part of my peach history.

There is also a message in the mailbox, which is roughly that I am not only a disgusting homosexual but also shamelessly seduce someone else's husband.

I think I almost want to laugh out loud. The dog blood plot that is often seen in magazines on TV actually fell on me, but the shameless Xiaosan changed her gender and became a man.

At this time I did not feel any humiliation.

Actually, I would like to ask the people around me what I would do to seduce people like this. I would wash them and lie on someone else ’s bed.

Withdrawing my thoughts, I said to the manager, "I see. I will hand in my resignation report."

The manager frowned and waved impatiently at me.

Walking to the door, I paused and turned and bowed to the manager: "Always, thank you for your care." Then he opened the door and went out without waiting for his answer.

In fact, I still feel sad. After all, this is a company that has stayed for 3 years from graduation. Running the business with the manager everywhere was hard and tiring, but I also learned a lot. I always thought that if I kept working hard like this, maybe life would get better and better.

It's just a pity ... forget it, don't want to.

This is what I deserve.

Packed up and walked out of the company, some people watched me whispering along the way, and even heard the conversation of "look at him the same gay!"

When I arrived home, I unexpectedly saw the rent wife knocking on the door, and I hurried to walk over: "Aunt Yu, is there something wrong with me?"

The wife of the rent gave me a glance, and said hurriedly, "That ... Xiao Mu ... I'm really sorry ... this ... it's ... the house can't be rented to you ..."

I snapped and asked, "Isn't this year's contract signed? What's wrong?"

The wife of the rent said: "The penalty will be paid to you. I just don't want to rent it ... this ... If you can, please try to move out within one or two days ..." She left quickly after waiting Already.

I stood still, looking at the things I gathered from the company in my hand, looking at the home a step away, and taking a hard breath, I found the key, opened the door, and went in.

It's a bit late to get up late today. The slippers at the entrance are still turned outwards.

On the table was the bread I had ripped open and forgot to put in the refrigerator.

The cushions on the sofa were crooked, and they must have been crouched on the sofa last night and forgot to arrange them.

Although a bit lonely, every place in the house brings the breath of my life.

Prove that I live, breath.

I closed the door and walked into the living room. I stood in the middle of the room blankly, for a while I didn't know what I should do. The door lock suddenly heard a twisting sound. I turned around and Yi Tian pushed in. He didn't even look at me and went straight into the bedroom.

A few minutes later he came out and asked me black-faced, "What about my stuff?"

I sighed slightly. "I sorted out your things a few days ago and threw them away."

Yi Tian sneered: "You also threw away the documents I put in the drawer"

I froze, how could he put that kind of thing in the drawer's papers, and he guarded me like nothing, even when I turned the pockets before I washed him and worried about what else he forgot to take out him Will look at me coldly, as if I'm using something crooked.

"Everything here I remember clearly, I have never seen any documents."

Yi Tianzhang laughed, "Forget it, it's not a big deal anyway, just take it if you want." Then he turned and wanted to leave.

I suddenly took a step forward to hold him, ignoring his eyes that were as cold as ice skates, begging his head dumbly and begging: "Yi Tian ... Here ... Let me live here ... Just as ... Share ... "I was like a humble beggar, begging him to give me a place to live with his kindness and dedication to him over the years. Ha, I finally succumbed. I think it's more important than anything. I thought that the love that was pure and great was unrelenting, and it was finally treated as a transaction by me.

Yi Tian shook off my hand and smiled, "What is it, how much do you give me a medicine? Do you threaten me, or do I have any other emotions I didn't realize?"

I closed my eyes and my body was so rigid that I could hardly move. At this moment, I suddenly regretted it, why I didn't leave myself a way out, and told Yi Tian, ​​I beg you to let go of my love in these years. This kind of remark is really ridiculous.

After Yi Tian left, the whole room was quiet again, and at this moment he calmed down completely. It's okay, but I'll just start over. As long as I'm alive, isn't there a word for suffering and suffering? Isn't someone saying "I see happiness because of all my frustrations?" Everything I have experienced, whether it is pain or sorrow, is my own choice. Choosing the wrong path is the consequence of my responsibility.

Two days later I moved out of that small apartment.

After giving the keys to the landlord's wife, she looked back deeply.

This place records the happiest and most painful time in my life. Now that I am gone, no one is keeping or saying goodbye, it is just those cold furniture appliances, if they have feelings, would they be reluctant to think of me? Sore, I hurriedly bowed my head before tears burst out.

Such a self is so sad that he has to pin the feelings of parting on those dead things.

However, in this world, people who did n’t even say goodbye before leaving, and who did n’t even have a friend who could tell “you have to take care”, probably only me.

Take the suitcase to the street and lose the cowardly self-grief in your head. Now the most important thing is to find a place to live. I plan to stay in a cheap hotel in the last few days, and then go to the street to find a good rented apartment to settle down before considering work.

It's a little late now, and I asked if the small hotel rooms on the street nearby were full. Remembering that there was a shop in an alley, I went down the alley along the way. The less people walked in, the more you could see a tattered sign saying "Xingyue Hotel".

I was about to go up the stairs on the right. Suddenly my head hurt and my eyes fainted.