My 1979

For Li He, it is right to say that the current life is comfortable, and it is false to say that he is happy. Why is he relieved? At least he no longer has to worry about money in this life and has the ability to take on any responsibilities. Thinking about the rotten family he had in the past, it was really a serious burden on him. It was like boiling oil pouring over his heart every day. There were always a lot of difficulties and problems.

But why can't he be happy? Of course he can't be happy, because his feelings and desires cannot walk brightly under the two big trees of reason and morality.

His heart and head had become a battlefield. On this battlefield, reason and lust are at war, and the two villains are fighting to kill each other.

As a human being, his instincts direct his mind toward the unjust.

You know, there are so many good girls in the world. Do you want him to hold them all in his arms?

He will grow old one day, and they will grow old too. Can he guarantee that he will grow old together with them?

If you have a child in the future and someone asks the child, where is your father?

Let the children answer this. How can a child not have a father? Children need a father.

If a child doesn't know who his father is and is scolded as a bastard, that would be a painful life.

It's even more unfair to women. They stay in a dark corner with her, unable to see the light and live a normal life. Without the little days, how can we count the sweetness?

The more Li He thought about it, the more cruel he felt.

The world is inherently cruel.

Li He is almost busy with things here and he is leaving.

Chen Dadi and Heping Song naturally wanted to arrange a farewell drink for him. He didn't need anyone to persuade him to drink at the wine table. Instead, he drank beer and liquor in rotation, and he drank happily alone. In the end, everyone persuaded him not to drink anymore.

He drank too much and his head was groggy, but Li He felt that he had never been so sober before. Logically speaking, he should say goodbye to He Zhaodi before leaving.

He Zhaodi's fervent love and warm tolerance for him always moved him. Living in this world and being loved by someone, although not a bad thing, is a real painful thing because he can't make any promises.

He didn't need anyone to help him, and he didn't need anyone to help him. He rubbed his face vigorously and went out alone.

By the time Pingsong and others chased them out of the hotel, Li He had already gotten into the taxi and he could no longer be seen. However, no one knew where he was going, so they could only rush around and search slowly at the intersection near the hotel.

Li He stopped at the door of the hospital, took out a handful of money from his pocket and gave it to the driver, and got out of the car without waiting for the driver to change.

The driver got out of the car after him and put the change into his hand, "Be careful and don't get too drunk."

"Thank you." Li He smiled and cupped his hands towards the driver.

It was so late, but there were still many people at the door of the hospital. Old girls, young wives, and hunched old men were walking in and out of the hospital.

He went upstairs and saw He Zhaodi at the door of the ward, and his face suddenly became hot. He walked towards him with courage and courage.

"Er He, you must be drunk." He Laoxi waved to Li He enthusiastically.

"I'm leaving tomorrow, let me tell you." He Laoxi's words took away half of Li He's drunkenness.

"It's okay. You are busy with your business. You don't have to worry about us. There is food and drink here. If you need anything, you can find a doctor. It's very convenient." Seeing He Zhaodi carrying the thermos bottle and turning on the water, He Laoxi said to Li He The voice said, "Give me a cigarette, I'm going to die."

"No, no, if I ask you to quit smoking, you have to quit smoking. How can you be careless about this kind of thing." Li He replied simply. He Laoxi's illness has just subsided, and he cannot let a cigarette make it worse.

He Laoxi said helplessly, "I just heard that I don't smoke, I really don't smoke. Think about it, if I smoke again and get sick, won't it harm the eldest daughter's money? I feel sorry for her that it is not easy to make money, but We can’t waste it like that.”

Li He had no choice but to hand He Laoxi a cigarette, and at the same time he was ready to take it back as soon as He Laoxi started to smoke.

He Laoxi happily took the cigarette, but he didn't light it, but he lowered his head and smelled it from time to time. Li He looked tired for him as he took a deep breath.

"Okay." Li He saw that it was almost done and took it back from him without his consent.

"Hey." Although He Laoxi was reluctant to part with the cigarette, there was nothing he could do about it. He knew that if he continued to quit smoking, he would be a burden to his daughter. What's more, all the young and old in this family were counting on their daughter, and he was so distressed that he shivered.

When he was young, he worked hard and never was lazy for a day, let alone lost money. But in the end, he still lived in panic.

He himself is incompetent and incompetent, so he can no longer burden his daughter.

Li He chatted with him for a few words and then left. At this time, He Zhaodi just came back from fetching water. She said, "I'll give it to you."

"No, no need." In front of He Laoxi, Li He seemed to feel a little guilty.

He Laoxi said to Zhao Di, "I'm going to bed soon, and it's useless for you to stay. You've been with me since you came here, and you don't have time to go out for a walk. You can go for a walk too, and listen to them He said that the night here is just like the day. There are delicious food and fun things for sale. They are very beautiful and there are many flowers. Don’t stay indoors, go and have a look, and buy two pieces of clothing. They are both good."

"Then you wake up at night and pay attention." He Zhaodi explained a few words.

"I know, I know." He Laoxi agreed.

An old lady in the same ward watched He Zhaodi go out, and then sighed and said to He Laoxi, "You are such a lucky girl."

He Laoxi said cheerfully, "That's natural, that's natural. There's no one in the country who doesn't praise it."

Li He and He Zhaodi went downstairs and exited the hospital. The pale moonlight elongated their silhouettes.

After walking along the road for a while, Li He lit up a cigarette and finally couldn't help but speak first, "I'm sorry."

He didn't know why he said sorry, but he was sorry anyway.

"Why are you saying this?" He Zhaodixin immediately panicked, feeling anxious and uneasy. She looked at Li He in horror. Did he misunderstand something? She had no intention of asking Li He to bow his head. How could she ask him to bow his head?

How can a man bow to a woman!

She would rather die herself, she would rather protect his pride and face with her life!

Li He smiled and said, "Maybe I said the wrong thing the day before yesterday. I just want to care about you and want you to have a good life. Don't be angry with me."

"How could I be angry with you!" He Zhaodi shook her head desperately, "I'm just angry that I'm useless to you."

She thought that as long as she was of some use, she wouldn't need his pity.

"You're just thinking nonsense." Li He said, "How could you be useless? No one can compare with you."

He Zhaodi said seriously, "But trust me, I can help you, you don't have to do business."

She knows how hard it is to do business. He must be short of money, otherwise how could he come out and suffer like this.

She has three carts now, and she will have thirty carts in the future. She has three boats now, and she will have thirty boats in the future. She firmly believed that he would be able to help him one day in the future.

"Silly girl." Li He finally couldn't help but laugh. He understood her thoughts and said with a smile, "I'm not short of money."

He couldn't tell her that he had a lot of money, would she be even more disappointed?