My 1979

In his memory, everything is sweet, always reminding him of the melancholy scenery outside the classroom window of the School of Foreign Languages, huffing and puffing in the wind in the winter when everything is dead, but because the sky is similar or different, he finally walks on their own paths.

Like most people in the great era, his youth was imprisoned by humbleness and poverty. The cruel social reality carved people's hearts and forced them to make all kinds of choices. In the end, he lost himself in the dark steel forest.

Falling in love with someone is the biggest vicissitude in the world.

He will always remember the time when he stood on tiptoes and looked up at happiness, and refused to let go of even her words.

As long as you have met him, no matter whether he was reckless or clumsy at the time, that person will always exist in your memory. All the stories run and spin, growing like weeds.

And who do you remember during that most innocent time?

"Li Erhe, you are my lifelong support."

"Please don't leave me!"

"Li Erhe, your temper is so mean!"

"Lao Er Li, you are so annoying!"

"Second child, I know your heart clearly."

"Except for you, there is no one else in this world who cares about me."

Everything is vividly visible.

He still remembered his last words to her, "It's not weakness. Weakness is enough to make people hate you, but it can also make people pity you. Li Erhe, don't let me pity you, live a good life."

He didn't need to look at her whole face, but just looked at her eyes, nose, or mouth, and he could guess what she wanted to say.

He said cruelly, "I already have a son and a daughter, the older one is in kindergarten."

Never mention that he and she once had a son and a daughter.

He couldn't control himself at this moment, he wanted to punish her, even if he couldn't hold back the water in his eyes at this moment, he still needed a decent face.

He muttered, "I'm leaving, as long as you are happy."

It's like a beggar who is being chased and bitten by a dog and can't wait to escape.

"Look, Erhe, you are still like this, with this temper. You have never really cared about me!" She shouted a little loudly, "You make me very embarrassed by this."

Li He turned his back and said, "You don't understand me."

"Then I congratulate you, you are very happy." She said through gritted teeth, "But you shouldn't come to me again, why are you still coming to me? Stop acting like children and give each other some space."

Li He smiled miserably, "Yes."

A misunderstanding is just a misunderstanding, he doesn't care.

"I'm sorry, I just hope you are well." This was the truth from Li He's heart. As long as she was well, there was nothing he wouldn't be happy with.

He doesn't want her to compromise under patriarchy.

It is always said that men and women are equal in society now, but in fact, there will never be equality when it comes to breakups between men and women.

The physiological structure of men and women is inherently different, and the environment in which they grow up promotes different education and culture. To put it simply, each has its own mission. If it is performed well, it will be considered a complete person. If it is not performed well, gender characteristics will be given to the person. A devastating sign.

He actually admired Westerners in this aspect. In the relationship between the two parties, there were very few examples of love turning into hatred. They just hoped that they would be well.

The greater the inferiority complex, the greater the hatred.

To retaliate against the other person because of love turns into hatred, that is not true love for the other person at all, but selfish desire. It is just that your efforts have not been rewarded accordingly, and you do not want to see the other person live happily without you. In the beginning, we were more or less in love with each other, but we were not able to We can never predict why we have been together forever, why we still refuse to let go of each other after our fate is over. In fact, the stalemate relationship is the most painful and torturous.

It is always said that time is precious, but in fact, a woman’s time is even more precious. The best time in a woman’s life between the ages of 20 and 30. These are the youth that cannot be bought back with any amount of money. Cherish the time she spends with him. Their future is unpredictable. .

If we talk about resentment, he does have it, but hatred will only make him unable to let go and become more narrow-minded.

He doesn't want to hate, nor does he want to remember, he just hopes that the person who was good to him will live happily, and God will have his own arrangement for the person who was not good to him, and it is not worth his obsession and hatred at all.

"I'm fine. Thank you for your concern. You're happy too." She was smiling from beginning to end.

"Yeah." He suddenly didn't want to talk anymore. He didn't want to tell his story or show off. Even though he was the richest man, what kind of ostentation did he have?

Where did the pomp and circumstance he knew come from: on TV, on the Internet, from people in the media. After spending a few words with the big winner, the media would start to talk about it in a serious way, making it look like they were dignified. .

In fact, as long as they are human beings, that is the case.

He just thought about it, there should not be rich and poor in the world.

But if a poor man clings to a rich man and climbs to higher places, it will be worse than anything else. He doesn't like to cling to others, and naturally he doesn't want anyone to take advantage of clinging to him to cause harm.

He just wanted to like her well and simply hoped that she would be happy, even though the person standing next to her in the end was not him...

May she always be well.

He couldn't make up for the debt he owed her in his previous life.

"You will always be like this." She got angry. "Whenever you are dissatisfied, you will have this little temper. No one can pamper you like this forever! Pamper you! You have to learn to grow up slowly."

As the words fell, tears also came out.

"I'm sorry." Li He couldn't bear to look at her. He said with determination, "I'm leaving, take care of yourself."

He is already the father of three children.

He didn't want to go back to the same old path in life. She is destined to only stay in his memory.

"You already have your own family," she said, "take on your own responsibilities."

"What about you?" He finally couldn't hold back and asked. His world is full of bustle and bustle, so why does his world have to be dealt with head-on? But he is an ordinary person, and ordinary people can only be soft. There is no real power to support his hard heart and find ways to settle himself.

She smiled and said, "Just watch."

"It's time to find someone to take care of you." After saying this, he left without looking back.

He was afraid that she would see her cry.

After taking a few steps, Ding Shiping's car had already arrived.

He said he wanted to go back first, but he still didn't dare to leave. After all, he had learned from the past.

Ding Shiping got out of the car and opened the door for him, looked at Li He who was in tears, and then looked at the girl.

After Li He got in the car, he turned around and watched her figure getting further and further away, becoming more and more indifferent in the gray sky, and finally burst into tears. If you die, you will die. It is true that you save food.

The world between him and her has lost even a hint of friendship. The two of them have broken up. He can no longer maintain an orderly family. Now he can only feel comfortable wandering around.

Ding Shiping didn't say a word, he just kept beating his back.

Li He said, "Please help me send a check to her tomorrow."

"I know, don't worry, I'll send him there early in the morning." Ding Shiping was not willing to go against Li He's wishes at all. He probably guessed something, he had never seen Li He like this.

After returning home, Li He drank again. He couldn't sleep. As soon as he lay down, a shadow would appear in his mind.

That shadow is always harassing him, so he might as well endure it.

Li He drank and vomited, vomited and drank again.

Ding Shiping cooked him a bowl of porridge and followed his advice, "Go to sleep."

"Mahle Gobi." Li He was a little hysterical, but he didn't know how to curse further.

Ding Shiping had no choice but to work with the security guards to find a way to drag him into the bedroom. "Just listen to me and have a good sleep. You will still be a good man when you wake up tomorrow morning."

Unknowingly, I was infected, followed by sadness and heartache.