My 26-year-old Female Tenant

   It seemed that no one cared about the episode just now. The whole banquet maintained a good atmosphere, and the wine was not less. Anyway, today is the weekend, and everyone took advantage of this banquet to relax.

  Only, I didn't let go to drink, because the decoration plan of the bar has not been made yet, I need to have a clear mind to work hard for the bar's tomorrow.

  Looking at the time, it was almost 12:30, and I was really in no mood to stay any longer, so I said goodbye to everyone first.

  I walked out of the hotel and breathed the outdoor air, and my mood was finally not so dull. I don't know when Zhao Li followed me out of the hotel.

  I took out a cigarette and lit it for myself before asking him, "Why did you come out?"

   "I'm going to the company to organize merchants to attend a merchant management meeting later." Zhao Li explained.

   "I have to work overtime on weekends!" I subconsciously sighed.

  Zhao Li smiled, and said to me again: "By the way, do you want my Alto?"

"How much?"

   "Forget it, you can take it and drive it. Anyway, the car won't sell for much, but I still maintain it very well."

  I said unceremoniously: "Okay, after you finish the work, send it to my place."

   While Zhao Li and I were talking, two men and a woman came out of the hotel. I couldn't help taking a closer look, because the woman walking with the two men was extremely intellectually beautiful.

  Zhao Li said to me enviously: "Zhaoyang, do you know who those two men are?"

  I shook my head to indicate that I didn’t know, but I knew that they must be successful people, because the cars they got on were all luxury cars.

"They are very famous in the catering industry. One is Zhang Yixi, the head of Seaview Coffee, and the other has a bigger background, Han Feng, the young head of Huali Group... They are young entrepreneurs who have only emerged in the past two years! They should have come to Suzhou for a business meeting."

  I had no words, and felt a huge gap in my heart, but I couldn't say I envied them, because each had their own circumstances and good luck, so I asked Zhao Li for a while, "Who is that woman?"

   "Zhang Yixi's wife, Chen Qingyi, is a very well-known female anchor." After speaking, she sighed and said, "This is the upper class! We ordinary people can only look up and envy."

  I smiled and said: "How do you know that people in the upper class must live well? Maybe Zhang Yixi and that female anchor's marriage is not happy!"

   "This is impossible. If I can marry such a wife, I will be satisfied in my whole life, and I will die without regret!"

   "Maybe you won't think so when you reach that height. People are fickle, right, Zhao Li?"

  Zhao Li thought for a while and said: "Maybe, who can understand whose world... I went to the company, and I will give you the car later."

  I nodded, but seeing two men driving past me in a luxury car, I couldn't help thinking, are they really doing well after they look glamorous? At least I have an equally bright rice color beside me, but it is so lonely.

  So what should people pursue in life? And how much is the value of material wealth?

don't know! Maybe never understand! Because living is an unsolvable proposition.

  …

  Back to the residence, I began to immerse myself in the state of work again. It was not until late in the evening that I finally finished the decoration plan, and then collected information on various decoration companies in Suzhou on the Internet, so as to improve the efficiency of the negotiation tomorrow.

  It was getting dark outside the window, I closed my notebook, lay back on the office chair and lit a cigarette for myself, but I didn’t know where my mind was wandering.

The smoke from my mouth filled the room with no lights on, and I felt oppressed and heavy again. What happened at the luncheon today made me realize how failed I have been these years. My ex-girlfriend helped me maintain my dignity, what happened to me?

And Jian Wei's departure must have been disappointing to me. I remember that it was not long after she went to the United States. We hadn't broken up yet. On that day, the two of them were chatting on voice and video. Jian Wei asked me: Did you take good care of our When I went to work hard in the future, I took out a bag of lottery tickets from the cabinet and told her that this was the result of my hard work.

  Jian Wei got very angry with me that day, thinking that I was unreliable... Later, although we were still in touch, the frequency became less and less until we broke up.

On the day we broke up, I hugged the pile of lottery tickets and cried, because Jian Wei didn’t understand me... It’s not that buying lottery tickets is unreliable, it’s because I love her too much, care about her too much, and I’m afraid that I won’t be able to give her back when she comes back. She confessed materially, and she was even more afraid that she would not be able to marry her, so she pinned her hopes on lottery tickets ridiculously, buying ten tickets a day, which lasted for several months.

  Thinking of this incident, my heart twitched with pain again, alive, who can really understand another person's world?

  So Jian Wei will never understand the efforts I have made for the love between us. Before we broke up, I even went to the bar to sing until the early morning after get off work every day, just to make more money.

  No matter how tired I am, as long as I think of the "waiting" written with lipstick on the car window when she left, I won't feel tired. Thinking of the happiness we had imagined together, I feel that all the waiting is worth it.

But now I'm really tired, I can't seem to find the direction of life, let alone what kind of love I want, or I have rejected love because I don't want to bear the heart-piercing pain anymore .

  That's why I want to marry Li Xiaoyun. I am obsessed with the sense of security she gave me, but do I really love her? I don't love, so when I broke up with Li Xiaoyun, Ban Dad didn't feel sorry, on the contrary, he thought that I let Li Xiaoyun go!

   This is a great irony, which makes me helpless and makes me more painful.

Finally, the street lights outside the window turned on again like yesterday, and my emotions gradually calmed down in the darkness, but I inadvertently saw the guitar standing in the corner with my and Jianwei’s names engraved on it... so I cried Yes, I cried aggrievedly.

  I was sobbing, and I lit another cigarette for myself, but I could see through the future in the smog, even if I put a pair of wings on my present self, I still can't reach the place I once imagined with Jian Wei!

  …

  The car horn sounded outside the window, finally awakening me from the memory of the past, I looked out the window, and it was Zhao Li who drove his Alto Little Prince to look for him.

I hastily wiped away the tears on my face with my hands. I can cry very sad alone, but in front of others, I am still that Zhaoyang who is careless by nature and doesn’t care about anything. Just like before, I can change into A mask with a meaningless smile faces Zhao Li.

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   It is recommended not to wait for the third update, it is very likely that it will not be written... Even if it is written, it will have to be after 12 o'clock.