My 26-year-old Female Tenant

  I fell into contemplation, and then Li Xiaoyun's thoughtful and gentle and moving fragments came to my mind one by one. I understood: I am attached to her, but is that love?

Now it seems that this evaluation is so pertinent. If I have Robben's persistence in ideals, I will put aside all distracting thoughts and insist on pursuing the woman with long hair hanging down the shoulders. If I have Fang Yuan's cognition and compromise on reality, I will I will choose Li Xiaoyun and live a solid life.

  But I can't rely on both sides, so I am doomed to be so erratic when facing feelings...

Finally, I said to my mother who had been waiting for an answer: "Mom, don't worry about me and Xiaoyun anymore. Even if we are barely together, we can't guarantee that we will get married smoothly." Now, if something goes wrong after that time, won’t Xiaoyun’s injury be added to the injury?”

   "You're an asshole. After all, you still don't have boyfriend-boyfriend feelings for Xiaoyun, or you wouldn't be able to hurt her like this."

  I don't speak. In fact, my mother is right, not all right, but I don't know how to explain it to her.

   "Zhaoyang, I have said everything that should be said, and I have also told you what should not be said. I hope that when you regret it in the future, don't resent me as a parent for not reminding you."

   "Mom, don't say that, okay? It makes you seem to give up my son..."

   "Stop talking, Zhaoyang... Otherwise, you can find a more reliable girlfriend than Xiaoyun and bring it back for me to see, otherwise you can do it yourself!"

   "Mom, don't hang up the phone in a hurry, I still want to chat with you..."

   Before the voice finished, my mother had hung up the phone. I was stunned for a while, and then sent her a message: "Mom... Do you want me to go back during the Chinese New Year?"

   "Come back when you find a girl who is more reliable than Xiao Yun."

I smiled helplessly, held the phone with my bare hands for a long time, then looked up at the dazzling sunlight, I didn't even know what I should think about at this moment, so I lay down on the bench and covered the sun with my hands , Covering the wind with the other hand, I wanted to sleep until evening.

  …

   I don’t know how long I slept, but I felt someone pushing me. I woke up vaguely, only to find that it was Xiao Fatty Wei Xiao.

  He said to me in a joyful tone: "Brother, I have been waiting for you in the square for several days, and finally I am waiting for you!"

   "What do you need from me?" I said, lighting a cigarette while dangling.

  Wei Xiao nodded emphatically.

   "Didn't I leave your phone number?"

"lost."

  I took out the paper and pen from my bag and wrote my number to him, and then asked, "Tell me, what can I do for you?"

Wei Xiao smiled and took out two 100-yuan bills from his pocket and said to me: "Yesterday, a sister gave grandpa a lot of money, saying that it was in exchange for the baskets weaved by grandpa, and grandpa gave me the money to let I invite you and the referee sister to eat KFC!"

  I understand that the elder sister Wei Xiao said should be Zhuomei’s staff, but it’s a bit sad. At this time, Mi Cai is getting farther and farther away from us in the sky.

  I smiled and said to Wei Xiao: "Your referee sister has left, she doesn't like to play with us anymore."

  Wei Xiao lowered his head immediately, and said after a while: "But I really want to treat her to KFC, why don't you give her a call, brother, you all have phone numbers."

  I took a deep drag on my cigarette, looked at the sky against the sun, and pointed to the sky for a while and said to Wei Xiao: "She is on the plane, and the phone is out of reach."

  Wei Xiao was about to cry, I patted him on the shoulder and comforted him, and said: "She doesn't like to play with us, so let's not play with her, just the two of us can eat well and be full!"

   "Okay then, just the two of us will eat, we can eat a lot!"

   Wei Xiao is a child at heart, so Mi Cai's departure won't touch him too much after all, but what about me? He said he didn't care about it so much, but he probably cared about it in his heart.

  But still nodded and smiled: "You are right, one more of her is too much, one less of her is a lot, let's KFC, let's go."

   Wei smiled and jumped up, then tiptoed in an extremely funny posture, and walked towards KFC with my shoulders and back.

  …

In KFC, Wei Xiao and I each ordered a family bucket, and it was boring to compare who finished it first. As a result, I lost my appetite and was completely defeated by Wei Xiao. As compensation for losing, I bought another family bucket to give away Gave it to him, and he said he would bring this family bucket back to his grandpa to eat...then we parted.

  Watching Wei Xiao leaving with the family bucket in his arms, I couldn't help thinking: What is happiness?

  For Wei Xiao, it might be to eat KFC once, and then let his grandpa eat it again.

  Hoo... What a simple and beautiful happiness, but why can't I take it as happiness? Maybe I want too much, maybe I lost my childhood, maybe I'm not old enough...

After leaving KFC, I went to the bar again. At this time, the company in Suzhou has started to take annual vacations one after another, so the bar that has only opened for a few days has ushered in a wave of low tide in business. Even so, the occupancy rate tonight is also 50% , which is much better than before the transformation.

  I found a corner, took out a tablet computer and browsed the microblogs that customers reposted for the bar, and then evaluated the effect of the microblog reposting activities.

I subconsciously remembered what my mother told me to find a girl who was more reliable than Li Xiaoyun to go home for the New Year. I was taken aback for a while before replying: "Haven't you thought about it yet?"

  I smiled and nodded with a forced face. Actually, I really don’t know where to go to celebrate the New Year. Of course, I can go home with the cheek, but if my mother is really angry with me, wouldn’t it be an embarrassment for her during the New Year! So wait a little longer, maybe my father will call me to go back to celebrate the New Year, and it will be much easier with my father to cover me.

I shook my head and said, "It's still more than a week before Chinese New Year. It's too early to close now. Besides, the bartender and several waiters in our bar are from other provinces, and we haven't bought tickets to go home yet. The bar is open so that they have a place to settle down and earn money." < Said: "Your plane tomorrow morning, go back and rest early today."

  I checked the time, it was already ten o'clock in the evening, and I could almost leave, because the bar has specially hired management staff, and I don't need to stay in the bar during business hours.

I want to sit by the moat. After the friends around me leave one after another, I feel somewhat lonely, and the moat is the place to relieve loneliness. I smoke a cigarette there and look at the flowing river, and I will forget a lot. matter…

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