My Best Wife

"What?" Jaqueline was very surprised and confused. Li Xiaoxiao said: "My fault was that I was irresponsible to myself, my fault was that I was escaping from the pain of unrequited love, and my fault was that it was an emotional threat to Qiangzi. Yes, I can pack it up Yes, Qiangzi himself admitted that he loved me very much at that time, just because he still had Sister Yaxin in his heart, and because he had a strong sense of inferiority regarding his origin, so he could not admit his feelings for me, even if I His suicide allowed him to face himself properly, but

Yes, it's still a threat, it's still a mistake. "

Jaqueline listened quietly and said nothing at all.

Li Xiaoxiao asked: "Do you know what responsibility is? Do you know what true love is?"

Jaqueline said: "I...I don't know." Li Xiaoxiao said: "Actually, I don't fully understand it now, because my cousin often said that I am still like a child in my thirties. Today I suddenly understood , the biggest difference between maturity and childishness is to be responsible, to others and to yourself. Yes, love is a very selfish thing, that is, you have to be very selfish, have a very strong desire, and want to hold the person you love in your hands. , no matter you use deception or blackmail, as long as you are true

If you love him, you can do anything. This is love, but it is not responsible. It is not really good to the person you love. "

Jaqueline was fascinated by what she heard and couldn't help but ask: "Why?" Li Xiaoxiao said: "Because loving him too tightly will cause him a lot of trouble. My suicide at that time was that if I really died at that time, That strong man will definitely spend his whole life in self-blame. Then I am harming him. I obviously love him very much and want to pursue the person I love, but I am harming him. Therefore, we must be responsible. To be responsible for others is to be responsible for oneself. To be responsible for others is not to cause trouble or harm to others, nor to oneself.

Same, so what if you can’t get it? You shouldn't hurt yourself either. In fact, people must first learn to love themselves before they can love others. Do you understand? "

Jaqueline murmured to herself and repeated: "People must first learn to love themselves. People must first learn to love themselves." Li Xiaoxiao said: "In fact, at that time, Qiangzi was also very naive in terms of emotions. Only Sister Yaxin had seen through it long ago. You don’t know this yet, right? After Sister Yaxin divorced Qiangzi for the first time, she has been letting Qiangzi pursue me, and she has been thinking of ways to make Qiangzi recognize himself. Later, she took the initiative to enter Qiangzi’s world Disappearing is also to let Qiangzi focus only on me. It’s not that she doesn’t love Qiangzi, and it’s not that Qiangzi doesn’t love her, it’s just because she is treating herself

I am responsible for my feelings, and I am also responsible for the feelings of two naive people like us. Later facts also proved that even without Sister Yaxin, Qiangzi still did not dare to face his own origin and his feelings for me. This was his naivety. "

Jaqueline said: "I seem to really understand." Li Xiaoxiao smiled and said: "Whether you understand or not is not a matter of words. Now you can probably understand that among the three of us, Sister Yaxin is the most worthy The person I love, I understood later, so I took the initiative to withdraw from the wedding with Qiangzi, and Qiangzi also firmly chose Sister Yaxin. Having said that, this seems to be a reincarnation, and people really seem to have to experience hurt. Only when you grow up can you grow up. Sister Yaxin also met a scumbag and had a son with the scumbag. She

I didn’t understand these principles from the beginning. "

"Xiaoxiao, I..." Jaqueline said hesitantly.

There were two voices in her heart, one voice said: Since you understand this now, why don't you give up Brother Yuhang to me like Sister Yaxin gave up the hadron to you.

Another voice said: I understand, ever since I deceived Brother Yuhang, I have always felt guilty, and I have always felt that I am not worthy of his love. This is also a pity for myself, and I should announce this secret.

Li Xiaoxiao seemed to have read through her thoughts and said, "Do you have an idea that you want me to give up Senior Brother Yuhang to you?"

"I...I didn't." Jaqueline's face turned red. Li Xiaoxiao smiled and said: "I said, love is very selfish, and there is nothing hard to admit. I was the same at that time. It's just that our situations are completely different. Qiangzi and I have a big gap in origin. He It's not that you don't love me, but that you can't accept me as calmly as a normal relationship. But you and Brother Yuhang are different. There is no such gap between you. In the many years without me, he has never loved you. So. , it’s not that I don’t want to choose

Give in, but he didn't choose you. "

Jaqueline pouted. Although she admitted that her words made sense, she was still unconvinced. She had given a lot, but why couldn't she get the love of others? Li Xiaoxiao continued: "Also, although my feelings for Brother Yuhang are not as strong as those for Qiangzi before, I need to pursue another relationship and start my life again. This is also responsible for myself. I still had some worries before.

Yu, I haven’t seen it through yet, but now, I can clearly say that for my future, I will challenge you with a 100% attitude, and I will use 100% efforts to restore Brother Yuhang’s feelings for me. "

As she talked, she found that her thoughts were getting clearer and clearer. It is not only the mentality that is similar to the past, but also the situation. When Sister Yaxin divorced Qiangzi, it was because Sister Yaxin had a son with another man.

This moment is just like that moment.

In the past, although Sister Yaxin gave up her marriage to Qiangzi, she never gave up what she wanted in her heart. Now, she, Li Xiaoxiao, will not give up, because Qiangzi is worth it, Sister Yaxin is worth it, and Brother Yuhang is worth it.

She, Li Xiaoxiao, is also worthy.

Jaqueline sighed quietly.

She found that she was defeated, completely defeated, not a defeat after a mutually advantageous contest, but being crushed in every aspect. Maybe Zhuo Yuhang loves the Li Xiaoxiao he first met in college. Maybe Li Xiaoxiao has changed. Maybe Zhuo Yuhang's love is just to make up for his original regrets. Maybe after he wakes up, he will only miss the girl in his memory.

of innocence.

But those are not important anymore. What is important is that Zhuo Yuhang loves Li Xiaoxiao, and this relationship doomed her to failure from the beginning.

Jaqueline wanted to confess her failure, but she still couldn't say it. She didn't know whether it was because of face, dissatisfaction, or just because she couldn't let go.

"What's wrong?" Li Xiaoxiao asked.

"Nothing." Jaqueline said.

Li Xiaoxiao pondered for a while and said, "Don't you want to admit to me what you have done? Although this is what I want to know now, it is really not necessary and should not be done." "Why?" Jaqueline was surprised. To be honest, she almost said it just now.