My Feelings Can Wait

"Auntie, don't cry, tell Yanyan quickly and let her come back soon." Ji Youyan said when he heard the male voice.

Zhong Qingyu choked up and said: "Yanyan, your father has an accident. Come back soon. At the City No. 1 Hospital. I just...I just called you. You changed your number. I can't contact you at all..."

The helplessness in her mother's voice made Ji Yuyan's heart broken.

"Mom, I was wrong." She burst into tears: "Mom, don't be afraid, I will be at the airport soon, wait for me, and I will go back soon."

Obviously it has been several years, and the family is already separated by mountains, rivers and seas, but at this moment, hearing Ji Youyan's voice and Ji Youyan's comfort, Zhong Qingyu still feels like he has found a pillar, and he has a heart. A sense of reality.

When the airport arrived, Ji Yuyan hung up, wiped away his tears and got out of the car.

On the plane, Ji Youyan pressed his lips tightly and sat tiredly. All the past and present lives replayed like a revolving lantern in her mind.

At the age of 20, in order to pursue the dream of music, and to stop being like the hanging puppets in the hands of parents, to walk the path they arranged, and to see the end of life at a glance, I have always been regarded as the pride of other children and parents. She insisted on dropping out of school and gave up the good future in everyone's eyes, and even her good marriage was considered by everyone as apostasy.

The father of the Qing and Gao scholars all his life believed that everything is inferior, and the only way to study is to study high. It seemed that from the moment she was born, he had planned her future life: study hard and live a stable life. When I graduate, I will be a university professor like my parents, or take the examination of a public servant, marry a good man who is the right person, and live a good life in peace but peace.

He looks down on TV’s “stars” who wear heavy makeup all day long to please others. In his eyes, this profession seems to be no different from the old actor. After the fierce quarrel, he repeatedly said three "good" and sternly questioned her: "For so many years, I have planned everything for you and for your good. I ask myself my father, do my duty and have a clear conscience. Now, I can't say anything. Are you? I can't control you, am I? You no longer have my father in your eyes, right?!"

Ji Youyan grieved with her neck: "That's what you think is good, not what I want! For so many years, I have no freedom at all. I am a human! Not a doll dressed up as you want, have you asked me what I want? "

He was shaking all over with anger, and asked her in a deep voice, "So, I was wrong, I'm sorry, am I?!"

She bit her lip and said nothing, tears slipping down. There is no way to communicate. He will never be wrong and always right.

Her default attitude made him even more angry and chilling. He pointed to the door and rebuked: "Okay, you want freedom, and I give you freedom! I am sorry for Ji Changsong, and I cannot afford you, the big Buddha, for the Ji family. Ji Youyan , Listen, if you step out of this door today, my Ji Changsong would not..."

His mother tried to stop him, but he pushed away. He still said: "I don't have a daughter like you in Ji Changsong, and there is no student like you in Jinghua University. Don't hang our name, sensationalize, humiliate the style, and ruin the school spirit!"

Looking at his unfeeling appearance, Ji Yuyan cried and laughed suddenly, frustrated. She knelt down and koosted him, went back to the room and dragged her luggage, regardless of her mother's yelling, and left without looking back.

Mother chased it out and stuffed her a silver|OK| card. There were tears on the mother's face, as if there were a thousand words to say, and in the end, she only said one sentence: "Let's go, I can do it for myself."

On the way, she received a text message from her mother, saying: "Yanyan, I am as disappointed as your father. But now I advise you to listen to nothing, and I don’t want to accuse you. I just hope You, the choice you make yourself, you are responsible for yourself, and never regret it. There is nothing you can do at home. You take care of yourself and take care of yourself. I hope that your dreams will come true and your career will be successful."

Ji Yuyan squatted down holding his mobile phone, crying in the street.

When leaving Yanzhou, she looked back at the city one last time. She was full of ambition, she vowed that she would make a breakthrough.

But the reality is far more cruel than she thought. In the first two years of entering the entertainment industry, she was unknown and accomplished nothing. She dared not contact her former classmates, friends and teachers anymore, and even more shamelessly contacting her parents.

At the beginning of the fourth year, she had a splash in her career because she moved to film and television. During the Spring Festival that year, she plucked up the courage to go back to her parents. But she couldn't find them anymore, they moved.

Mother answered her phone and made an appointment with her in the restaurant outside.

Without saying a few words, her mother asked her straightforwardly if the same-sex scandal that she and Jing Xun had been rumored was true.

She could not deny it, her silent attitude said everything.

The mother's face changed drastically, and she accused her: "Do you really know what you are doing now? Is this the dream you said at the beginning? Is this the freedom and life you want? Your father said that it was a big dye tank at the beginning. I didn’t let you go, but I believed you and wanted to persuade your father. But you see what you do after you go out? Do you know what the news is saying about you? You know everyone else is with me and Does your father point to something? Do you know how ashamed and embarrassed we are when colleagues and friends come to us with your various lace news?"

"You tell me, did you really sell yourself and follow a woman for fame and fortune."

Ji Youyan blushed and asked her: "Mom, do you think of me that way? Don't you believe me that way?" Let others think about her so much, even her mother thinks about her like this.

She doesn't ask how much she has suffered and how much wronged she has suffered in the past few years. She only cares about their face, right?

"If I say no, I just love her and stay with her. I am a homosexual. Would you find it more acceptable?"

The mother also blushed and did not speak. After a while, she said, "I can't accept it, can you change it?"

Ji Yuyan looked at her, tears rolling down. "How can I change this? I can't help it." Her attitude turned hard.

"You disappointed me too much. You go. We don't want to contact you until you figure it out." The mother stopped looking at her, as if looking at her again would make her eyes dirty.

Ji Youyan's heart seemed to be caught by something, dripping with blood. Her pride and her coldness made her unable to bow her head.

She suffocated her throat, wiped away the tears, and said every word: "I'm sorry, I have given birth to a daughter like me, and you have been ashamed." After that, she left the piece of silver that Zhong Qingyu gave her. |Ka, walked into the wind and snow.

After returning home, she had a successful career and gave Zhong Qingyu money every month. Zhong Qingyu would always return her double the money after she found out and refused. Ji Yooyan's heart slowly became cold, and later he simply gave up making money, and only sent something to the school during the holidays.

Later, her information was leaked, she changed her number and texted her mother, and found that her number was empty. It is also sad to have parents and children, and Ji Yoon gradually despairs. She didn't know what she should do to satisfy her parents and accept her with her parents. In addition to working harder for her career and seeking an achievement, she is powerless and wandering.

Later, she broke up with Jing Xiu. She was hid by Dingfeng Xue, and her life became chaotic. She followed Wei Yizhen, and she wanted to go back to find her parents the year after she won the movie with her own strength. However, there was no time to go back.

She is dead.

After carefully sorting out the context of the previous life, and then recalling the fragility in his mother's words just now, Ji Yuyan regrets it hard to bear. So was it the same in the previous life? My father had an accident in the last life? In the last life, when my mother was most anxious and scared, was she unable to contact herself in this way?

She is really an unfilial daughter.

Ji Yuyan covered his eyes and gasped in a hurry.

Wei Yizhen saw her feeling bad and comforted her: "Uncle rescued in time, Ji people have their own natural conditions, and they will be fine."

Ji Yuyan responded in a low voice: "Yeah."

After a long time, Ji Youyan calmed down and remembered to ask Wei Yizhen: "My mother said she couldn't contact me, so how did you know about this?"

Wei Yi really thought about the whole thing carefully, and also figured out something wrong. She answered Ji Yoo truthfully: "Jing Xun called me suddenly. I was also surprised at the time."

Ji Youyan missed a beat in his heartbeat, and reflexed: "How does she know?!"

"I don't know that. I didn't react to it and asked."

One possibility flashed in Ji Yuyan's mind, and she felt that it was too far-fetched, and then she thought of the second possibility, which was somewhat difficult to accept. She rubbed her eyebrows and suppressed her doubts first.

She solicited Wei Yizhen’s opinion: "Sister Wei, I may need to stay with the hospital for a while. Look at the work side..."

Wei Yizhen sighed: "There is no other way. I try to negotiate with the other party, and I can push as much as possible. However, the recording of the day after tomorrow is too urgent, and there may be no way to explain it."

Ji Youyan's heart sank.

"After I get off the plane, I try to see if I can find someone to save the scene." Wei Yi really reasoned: "Uncle is important. Let's first see how uncle's situation is, and then think about the subsequent arrangements."

we can only do this. Ji Youyan said tiredly: "Well, I'm troubled Sister Wei."

Three and a half hours later, Ji Youyan, Wei Yizhen, and Lin Yue arrived in Yanzhou. After getting off the plane and hearing familiar accents everywhere in the airport, Ji Youyan had mixed feelings. She never thought that it would be this kind of situation when she came back here again.

A pick-up car had already been arranged outside the airport. Ji Youyan got on the car and went straight to the City No. 1 Hospital.

After getting out of the car and seeing the gold plaque of the outpatient department of the City No. 1 Hospital, Ji Youyan's heart began to thump and his legs became weak. Following the instructions of her mother on the phone on the road, she found her mother's thin figure on the promenade of the intensive care unit.

She was lying on the glass and heading to the ward to look. Beside her, a woman of the same age was supporting her. Behind her were two men, one in fifty or sixty, and the other standing late.

Ji Yuyan's breathing was heavy, and he walked heavily towards them.

The sound of their group's high-heeled shoes tapping on the tiles was particularly abrupt in the silent night. Zhong Qingyu and the others followed the sound and collided with Ji Youyan's sight.

Only then did Ji Youyan see Zhong Qingyu's appearance. Her hair, which was always neatly combed, was messy and her eyes were red, haggard and tired. She is much older, and her always straight figure is buckling. Never again will I see the once elegant French branch.

Tears blurred Ji Yuyan's vision. She couldn't help it anymore, walked quickly towards Zhong Qingyu, hugged her, and whimpered.

"Mom, I'm back, Mom, I'm sorry, I was late."

Zhong Qingyu froze for a few seconds, slowly hugged her back, tears wet Ji Youyan's shoulders.

No matter how much their hearts have been separated, at least this moment, Ji Youyan feels that their hearts are fused together.

The people standing by the side wiped their tears. Lu Fang's mother, Professor Liu, patted Ji Youyan and Zhong Qingyu on the backs, and comforted: "It's fine when you come back. It's fine when you come back. Don't cry anymore. It hurts your body if you cry too much."

Ji Yooyan stopped tears when he remembered that there were outsiders. She let go of Zhong Qingyu, wiped her mother's tears, and asked her: "Mom, stop crying, how is Dad?" She touched the glass of the intensive care unit and looked at Ji Changsong on the hospital bed with heartache.

"Now the person has been rescued, but the doctor said that the physical signs have not stabilized, and we will see the situation later." Zhong Qingyu's voice was completely muted.

Ji Youyan helped Zhong Qingyu sit down in a chair.

"Uncle is ketoacidosis complicated by myocardial infarction, and there are other complications, so it was dangerous at one time, but the rescue is timely and it will be fine." The man beside him explained gently. He looked at Ji Youyan's eyes with forbearance of love and affection.

Ji Youyan turned sideways to look at Lu Fang's family.

"Yanyan, I'll take you to see the attending doctor." Lu Fang said thoughtfully.

Ji Yuyan nodded. She thought for a while, turned her head and said to Wei Yizhen and Lin Yue: "Sister Wei, you accompany Yueyue to buy some food and warm up my mother, uncles and aunts." In the middle of the night, she was worried that Lin Yue would go out alone.

Professor Liu said politely: "No need..."

"I want." Ji Youyan bowed to them sincerely, and said, "Thank you, uncle and aunt, thank you... Brother Xiaofang, thank you."

Professor Liu rubbed her head and said kindly: "It should be all." She sat down beside Zhong Qingyu, took Zhong Qingyu's hand, patted her on her knee, and persuaded her: "Now the child is back. Now, the past, let’s go, the whole family is safe and more important than anything else, don’t you think?"

Zhong Qingyu looked at Ji Youyan's away figure, tears wet his eyes again. She nodded gently.

Professor Liu sighed after looking at the back of his son who matched Ji Yoon.

The girl of the Ji family is still so outstanding, she is still so thoughtful and considerate, and she doesn't leak. They really like it, and their son really likes it.

Pity.

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Teacher Jing eat lemon: I like it too.

The article involves medical aspects, because I am not a professional, and I wrote it based on the information I have consulted, so there may be bugs. Please understand.

By the way, in the previous chapters, a stage-related worker put forward comments on microphone debugging. I gave a reply and an explanation at the time. Thank you for your comments. Later, because of the unpleasantness on other floors, I replied and wanted to delete it. In order to delete my own reply, I had to delete the entire comment. I hope Little Cutie has no misunderstanding.

Anyway, I hope the article can bring a little happiness to the cuties.

Of course, if you can, it would be even more grateful to give me a little happiness. :-D