My love simulation with them

Chapter 4

Goto Ichiri seemed to be able to see the black energy and little devil-like wings behind Nanxiang Shi's hearty smile.

"Practice... practice... is okay, but Nanxiang-senpai... your guitar..."

Goto Isato spoke cautiously.

What greeted me was Nanxiang Shi’s hearty words:

"Sorry, Goto-kun, I don't have money to buy a guitar at the moment. Can you lend me yours?"

"That, that...guitar tab..."

"Let me think about it...it would be better if Goto-san could have some ready-marked guitar tabs and lend them to me for practice."

"I do, I do..."

"Then it's decided. Just spend three or four hours a day practicing with me."

Nanxiang Shi happily made the decision.

Three or four hours? !

Evil, devil...

Goto Yili shrank his head, timidly lowered his fair and slender face, not daring to raise his head.

Borrowing guitars and sheet music isn't a big problem, but three or four hours a day...isn't it too much to talk to oneself?

"Is there any problem? Goto-san?"

Nanxiang pretended to be caring for the patient at the end of life, and his body came over.

Question, what a big problem...

After all, I, I have no obligation to teach you...

"Actually, I have a good friend who is terminally ill. Before he died, he wanted to hear me play the guitar for him."

As if he was aware of Goto Ichiri's thoughts, Nanxiang spoke with a sad expression.

"Hey...hey? But...but..."

Although Nango-senpai is indeed handsome and sounds very real, it is absolutely nonsense... And three or four hours a day... I, I also have my own things to do...

"Then it's settled, please."

I haven’t agreed to anything yet!

The happy expression on Nango's face made her decision, and Goto Ichiri wanted to muster up the courage.

But in the end, he was defeated by the reality of social fear. He lowered his head and spoke hesitantly:

"No, no problem."

[Obviously, Ichiri Goto doesn't know the term "people's hearts are sinister". After being praised by you, the top student in the second grade, for your good looks with a sincere expression, she, who already admires you, can no longer refuse any of your requests. 】

[You are secretly upset. Goto Ichiri’s weakness is beyond your expectation. You may be able to ask for more.]

[You became friends with Ichiri Goto. 】

Chapter 5. I am CPU you

"Huh - after all this effort, we just became friends?"

Temporarily separated from the simulation, Nanxiang exhaled heavily, his eyes filled with disbelief at the creature Ichiri Goto.

Aren't girls just creatures who will queue up to send him love letters and chocolates if he just leaves him alone?

Why is it so difficult to get it done here at Goto Ichiri?

Sure enough, it’s because she’s a two-dimensional heroine, right?

He glanced sideways at the time.

Lunch break is almost over.

Giving up on the idea of going to Class 3 of the first year to take a look at Goto Ichiri during lunch break, Nanxiang focused his energy on the simulation again.

[You became friends with Ichiri Goto. You told her that the so-called three or four hours of teaching every day was actually just a joke. It was enough for her to spare part of her time to guide herself. 】

[After hearing this, Ichiri Goto was finally relieved, but behind this relief, there seemed to be some regrets unique to a little girl. 】

[It’s a new day. You wake up according to your usual schedule and go to class as usual. 】

[Yesterday, the fact that you took the initiative to go to Class 3, Grade 3, to look for Gotou Kazuri seemed to have spread among the student body. Everyone was talking about it. They all didn’t understand that you, who is in the middle of the campus, would take the initiative to look for Gotou Kazuri. Talk to people on the margins. 】

[But you don’t care. For you who have a high degree of self-discipline, other people’s evaluations have nothing to do with you. 】

[The lunch break comes as promised, you decide——]

[1. Go to an appointment and learn guitar]

[2. Learning guitar is just an excuse. Goto-kun, please be my girlfriend! Let’s get there in one step! 】

[Three, two-dimensional heroines are really difficult to handle, so let’s find other girls to play with]

[4. Personal simulation]

Nanxiang Shi took a cursory glance, and after confirming that it was a question for free points, he chose the first option.

After his previous contact with Goto Ichiri, he knew exactly what kind of social terror this woman was.

There is no need to consider the second option at all.

As for the third option...why does he always think about playing with other girls? Sure enough, it was just a simulator, and it couldn't imitate my own innocence and concentration.

[You decided to learn guitar from Ichiri Goto. Although the guitar was just an excuse for you to get in touch with Ichiri Goto, you still felt that you should go all out in everything rather than just perfunctory. After all, if you get along for a long time in the future, this will be a sign of responsibility for your relationship with Ichiri Goto. 】

[You have been studying guitar hard for a week. While studying, you never forget to chat with Ichiri Goto. 】

[In the borrowed music room, you and Ichiri Goto chatted about everything. Under your witty words, Ichiri Gotou gradually forgot about his nervousness and started talking to each other. 】

Memories begin to appear.

Ichiri Goto, who had been instructing Nango on basic guitar chord knowledge for a week and had already relaxed a little, spoke cautiously:

"That...Senior Nanxiang."

"What's up?"

Today's Nanxiang is still as dazzling as ever in Goto Ichiri's eyes.

Against the afterglow of the sun, he held the guitar diagonally with his white palms, and there was an indescribable sense of concentration on his handsome face.

It seems that compared to the sunshine,

Goto Ichiri, who was always used to hiding in dark and damp corners, felt ashamed of himself.

She looked at her toes uneasily, and her fingers tangled together unconsciously:

"Why, why do you want to learn guitar from me? As long as Senior Nanxiang claps his hands, there should be many girls in the school who can play guitar who are willing to teach you, right?"

Yes.

Although he has been coaching Nango for a week, Goto Kazuri still doesn't understand.

For someone as popular as Nanxiang Shi, a central figure on campus, as long as he opens his mouth, there should be many girls who have learned guitar willing to come up and teach him - not to mention two or three hours, even more than ten hours, or even two hours. Studying one-on-one and all night long...isn't a problem, right?

Rather than being with someone like her who is not gregarious and even has difficulty communicating...

Aren’t there many, many suitable candidates?

She didn't understand, so she wanted to ask.

But just asking this question seemed to have used all the girl's courage and strength.

After she spoke, she only dared to shrink her neck and lower her head. She didn't even have the courage to look directly at Nanxiang.

"Instead of being with someone like Gotou-san..."

He seemed to have read her thoughts.

Nanxiang Shi put down his guitar and fell into deep thought.

Senior Nanxiang is thinking. You really think I'm not good at all, right?

No... maybe it's better this way... Instead of hanging out with a buffoon like me all day long... this week is enough fun.

Nanxiang's silence made Gotou Ichiri, who was born with low self-esteem, fall into deeper self-doubt.

There was an unspeakable sour feeling in my heart.

Sociophobia is a creature that is extremely good at self-harm.

They will be so happy that they get carried away with the recognition of others.

You will also feel heartbroken and sad because of the hurt caused by others.

At this moment, Nango Toki spoke with a calm and sincere expression: "What if I say that I just want to learn guitar with Gotou-san?"

There is not even a hint of deception in these words.

"Why...?"

The timid Goto Ichiri shrank his head, obviously not expecting to get such an answer.

"What's so surprising?"

Nanxiang Shi's fingers pressed the guitar strings again: "Gold will always shine. Goto-san plays the guitar so well. Not to mention how cute he is, there will always be people who are willing to know about Goto-san's excellence in the future." place."

"What's so great about me...?"

Gotou whispered this word in a low voice, his eyes timidly looking from behind his bangs to the boy in front of him.

Nanxiang Shi's sincere words without any lies deeply moved her, who had been in a gloomy situation all year round and whose life was colorless.

Social phobia, if viewed in animation, might be a really interesting setting.

But no one has ever put themselves in the shoes of a person who actually has social phobia disorder.

Desperate desire to communicate with others.

But deep down, I was afraid of this kind of communication.

I am afraid of causing discomfort to others, so I can only close my heart.

Tangled, contradictory, autistic.

Over time, he becomes taciturn, unable to communicate with others, and even makes others feel uncomfortable.

This long-standing feeling of loneliness has been lingering in my heart all year round, and the sky is also a gloomy color. I can only hide in the online world, practice guitar hard, and temporarily escape reality, so as to gain some inner vanity satisfaction.

She knows that many things in the online world are virtual, but that is her only social spiritual sustenance.

Inferiority and self-pity, but also self-pity.

After communicating with her for a week, Nanxiang knew that this was Goto Kazuri, the main tone of her life of extreme fear and uneasiness.

Difficult woman!

"So, let me be the first person to understand Gotou-san, how about that?"

So, in the sunshine, he stretched out his hand to the timid Goto Isato who was huddled in the shadows.

hesitate.

Long hesitations and silences.

Just when Nanxiang sighed secretly, he felt that he might have been too hasty.

The white and slender palms cautiously and suddenly grasped his outstretched palm with undetectable speed.

Nanxiang looked at Gotou Kazuri in surprise as he quickly retracted his hand.

"I-I will work hard!"