My Outside Expression Is Different From My Inner Expression

The old house of the Li family.

Shortly after the two sisters and brothers Li Xusheng in Li Han language went upstairs, Mr. Li asked Li Hongjie to go shopping and left temporarily.

The housekeeper, nanny, etc. also left.

The living room soon becomes a place for quiet conversation.

Li Qingzhou calmed down.

But Mr. Li gradually frowned, put one hand on his knee and clenched it tightly, staring at Li Qingzhou's unhealed forehead and asked: "If Chengkang hadn't told me about this, what would you like to do? When are you hiding from me?"

"I don't even tell my grandfather if there is a car accident, and don't tell me when I return to Xicheng?"

Li Qingzhou said lightly: "It's not something worth talking about."

This sentence made the old man angry.

Mr. Li also had a thin layer of red on his face: "What are you talking about?!"

"This is not something worth saying, what is it?! Is it waiting for you, waiting for you..."

Mr. Li's finger pointing at Li Qingzhou was shaking, and at first glance, he was very angry, his chest was heaving violently, and he couldn't stop breathing.

Li Chengkang hurriedly stepped forward and followed Mr. Li's back: "Dad, don't be angry, don't be angry, be careful with your body."

"You don't know Qingzhou's character, he has always been like this..."

Li Qingzhou's fingers curled up, and there was no past.

Jiang Biling rolled her eyes secretly and said sarcastically, "Dad, I think he just didn't take us to heart, it's a pity that you didn't sleep well for him at night, in vain Worry."

"Master Li's heart is probably made of stone..."

"Bi Ling!"

"Shut up."

Li Chengkang and Mr. Li said in tandem.

Jiang Biling: "Okay, I'll shut up, I won't let anyone tell the truth..."

She muttered a few last words, and simply leaned on the sofa, with one leg crossed, and leisurely grinding her fingernails.

It looks like she really doesn't want to bother anymore.

Old man Li said slowly, "I don't want to hear you say this again... Qingzhou, someone in the family will worry about you."

"If something happens, you can't carry it yourself, you know?"

Li Qingzhou nodded stiffly: "...I see, grandpa."

Li Chengkang's eyes flashed, and he sat back in place and smiled: "Dad, don't worry, since Qingzhou understands where he is wrong, he will definitely not do it again in the future."

"Right, canoe."

Waiting for Li Qingzhou to answer.

Mr. Li snorted heavily, and then sighed: "I hope he can remember this matter..."

Li Chengkang smiled and said a few words.

Then he said: "By the way, I heard that this car accident was obviously aimed at the Yanjing Liu family... At that time, Liu Bohuai was sitting in the car and suffered a little injury."

"Qingzhou, have you met Liu Sanye?"

"No." Li Qingzhou said coldly.

Li Chengkang: "Really."

"Qingzhou, after all, you were in a car accident because of Liu Bohuai... Doesn't the Liu family say anything?"

"What does the second uncle want from the Liu family?" Li Qingzhou asked rhetorically.

"No, just thinking of the light boat, you rarely feel kind..."

Li Qingzhou doesn't want to talk about the "compensation" of the Liu family.

Although Li Chengkang was able to get the news that he was hospitalized in a car accident, he did not know the connection between Assistant Liu Bohuai and Fang Xiyan.

The land project in the northern suburbs has not been resolved, and Li Qingzhou will definitely go to Yanjing again.

He owns a property in Yanjing, which he bought when he was in college, and there is also one in Xicheng. He rarely returns to the old house of the Li family.

Even his sister and brother live here.

Because of Li Qingzhou's car accident, Mr. Li directly ordered him to stay and wait until he is completely healed before thinking about other things.

The project of the northern suburb of Yanjing is not in a hurry.

Li Qingzhou agreed.

…

The old house is huge.

Li Qingzhou lives on the first floor, which is convenient for traveling. Mr. Li and his two siblings live on the second floor.

As for the Li Chengkang family.

They moved out of the old house long ago, and occasionally came back to live for a while.

After Mr. Li went upstairs to rest, Li Qingzhou turned his wheelchair and returned to the room, but he didn't want to be blocked by others.

Li Hongjie crossed his arms, looked down at his disabled cousin, and sneered at the corner of his mouth: "Didn't you be very decisive when you moved out?"

"If you have the ability, you should never come back here for the rest of your life. The Li family doesn't belong to you."

In the face of Li Hongjie's full of malice, Li Qingzhou raised his head, his momentum was not diminished at all: "The Li family does not belong to me, does it belong to you?"

"You have self-knowledge, you are a stupid idiot, what qualifications do you have to say such a thing?"

"Is it just because you are stupid and ridiculous? There must be a limit to delusions, go away."

Li Hongjie was instantly angry, his face flushed red.

Because he was in the old house of the Li family, he didn't dare to do anything, so he could only pretend: "What are you proud of as a disabled person!"

"If it weren't for you, my uncle and aunt would not have died! You are a disaster! A scourge! You deserve a lifetime of misfortune!"

"Why are you in charge of the Li family..."

"Shut up!" Li Qingzhou said gloomily.

His voice was not loud, but he managed to make Li Hongjie shut his mouth, and his left foot couldn't help but take a step back.

It seems that this is too humiliating, and Li Hongjie reluctantly stands still.

Li Qingzhou sarcastically said: "You can't even compare to a disabled person, how can you still have the face to live?"

"If I were a disaster star, I would be the first to curse you to death."

"You are a waste of food, a waste of air, a waste of land when you live, and a waste of RMB if you don't live."

Li Hongjie was furious and stunned.

Usually when he was insulting like this, Li Qingzhou would just stare at him with sullen eyes, and then turn the wheelchair to leave.

It won't be like it is now...

Li Hongjie couldn't help but stay where he was.

Li Qingzhou was too lazy to pay attention to him, turned the wheelchair and rolled over Li Hongjie's instep, and soon shut the door of Li Hongjie's scolding screams.

…

His room in the old house of the Li family has been cleaned and kept as it is.

After locking the door, Li Qingzhou first looked around, then went straight to the bookcase standing by the wall.

The row of drawers in the bookcase is at the bottom right.

Li Qingzhou took out the key that he had been carrying with him and opened the locked drawer at the top of the bookcase.

—A photo album is kept in it with great value.

He took out the album on his lap and opened it.

Here are photos of the whole family, photos of Li Qingzhou alone with his parents, photos with his sister and brother…

Most of the backgrounds in the photos are taken in hospitals, and a few are taken in old houses.

Photos are memories of the past.

—Li’s parents and Li’s mother smiled brightly. Although they were trying to raise the corners of their mouths, they were a little stiff, while the younger sister and brother who took the photo together had a strange expression…

This was when Li Qingzhou was brought back to Xicheng by Li's parents and Li's mother, and when his legs could no longer be healed.

He has just reunited with his parents and family, and they are slowly getting along with each other and tentatively accepting.

Li Qingzhou's atrium was originally a dam, waiting for the day to be gradually warmed and disintegrated by the family.

But the shadow of a lifetime of disability has always shrouded Li Qingzhou's head, and the Li family is incompatible with the environment he used to live in...

This made him even more gloomy and sensitive, even inferior.

Repressed and contradictory emotions are accumulating every moment.

Finally, it exploded when Li Qingzhou felt a huge drop.

—That was the first time Li Qingzhou had a dispute with Li’s parents and Li’s mother.

After that, he left the old house of the Li family alone.

He wants to go back to Licheng and the orphanage.

Where can a disabled person go?

Li Qingzhou looked around blankly on the street where people came and went - his palms were red from friction from turning the wheelchair for a long time, and there were obvious dust marks on his knees and trouser legs.

He fell on the stumbling trail and struggled for a long time before being helped by a kind person who happened to pass by...

At that moment, countless complex emotions such as shame, embarrassment, pain, etc. swarmed.

Li Qingzhou's throat seemed to be restrained, and she couldn't breathe.

He thought that the darkness of the day was all here, until... Li's parents and Li's mother had a car accident right in front of him.

Rescue failed and died.

There are only a few sentences in the original book.

But the reality has always been left in Li Qingzhou's memory, the same traces that have been carved into the bone marrow.

—that day seemed to be reflected in an old photo of black and white moments, full of rainy sadness and despair, could not be flipped, and could not be touched...

Li Qingzhou stroked Li's father and Li's mother in the album and sighed.

From then on, he no longer mentioned the matter of returning to Licheng.

And under the arrangement of Mr. Li, he entered Xicheng High School to study, and then he was admitted to Yenching University and graduated by skipping grades.

Li Qingzhou's intelligence was seen by Mr. Li, and he taught him how to handle some affairs of the company when he first entered the university.

Li Qingzhou also did a good job, and after getting familiar with it, she began to slowly get in touch with the core of the Li family's career.

He moved out of the old house of the Li family since he was able to support himself.

Strictly speaking, apart from having the most communication with Mr. Li, Li Qingzhou and his two younger sisters and younger brothers get along very little.

But it's not that Li Qingzhou doesn't love them.

He just doesn't know how to restrain the thorns all over his body - afraid of hurting them, and afraid that he can't bear it.

Li Qingzhou stroked the position of the heart on his chest, dull and dull pain.

"Wow, I'm such a poor little girl."

Li Qingzhou couldn't hold back, he squeezed the sleeve of his left hand with **** and wiped the corner of his eyes, then he held up the album on his lap with both hands, and kissed his grandfather, parents, sister and brother one by one.

mua, muamuamua…

Li Qingzhou placed the album in a prominent position after kissing.

The back of the album is not full, it is blank.

Li mother lost no photos of him from childhood to adulthood. She wanted to make up for it from the moment she found him, but it will always be a regret.

"It won't be a pity, I'll fulfill your wish for you." Li Qingzhou said softly.

The sun outside the window is still as bright as ever, but the room seems to have finally injected warmth.