My Thriller Survival Game

Everything in the darkness seems to be given a life that was not noticed during the day. When everyone is whispering in his sleep, they are whispering; the sound of the wind blowing through the dry and cracked branches of the trees; the sound of snow falling to the ground; the loneliness of the night walker.

The sound of the whistle; the sound of mice gnawing food in the water room; the sound of slippers kicking in the corridor; if you see it, tell me, who is he?

Everyone has their own predicament and their own abyss. Everyone is likely to fall into it, over and over again, as if the sky will never be clear, but as long as you keep climbing firmly, you will not be afraid of falling to death, and you will continue to climb.

After death and rebirth, you will always live on the bright side, even if you are never reachable!

At this moment, Xu Yang was sinking in the abyss of darkness, unable to break free. He was so afraid of the future that he would be like a ghost, wandering in the endless darkness.

I'm sleepy and tired, so be it.

I clearly know that if I continue to sink, I will fall into the abyss of nightmares and never wake up, but that's how people are. When faced with danger and the unknown, they are always afraid, confused, and wasting their time. As long as they can't see the danger.

, then the danger does not exist.

Deceiving oneself and others is not a way of survival.

The moment he chose to hand over his body, Xu Yang felt more relaxed than ever before. He didn't have to think about how to survive in this absurd and desperate world, or how to complete the task, let alone think about studies, money, fame and fortune.

rights, and life.

Someone once said that life is like a girl doing something. Since you can't resist, just enjoy it in silence. Fuck the truth. It's better to just lie down.

As he continued to sink, Xu Yang kept thinking about a question.

Is what you are doing worth it? Is it meaningful?

Judging from the current situation, it doesn't seem worthwhile or meaningful. He warned himself more than once that this is just a game, a virtual game. Everyone and everything he encounters here are just NPCs and NPCs.

Just wild monsters and quests.

He once wanted to save the ghosts here, but in the end he discovered that he was not a hero.

The word hero is too heavy. It means giving up, enduring humiliation, bleeding and sacrificing, and experiencing pain that ordinary people cannot imagine. And this painful experience and process often ends in tragedy.

You think you have redeemed others, but have you ever thought about whether they need your redemption and whether you can redeem them? From the beginning to now, who is redeeming whom?

Everyone longs for a hero, and everyone wants to be a hero, but most of the time, we can't wait for the former, and we can't become the latter. We can only give up in despair, lie down, and sink.

Xu Yang was confused and tired!

"I tried my best!" Xu Yang murmured.

"Did you really try your best?"

A faint voice suddenly sounded.

Xu Yang was slightly stunned, and then said with great certainty: "I really tried my best."

"That being the case, why are you so unwilling?"

"Aren't you willing to give in?"

Xu Yang was startled, frowned slightly, and remained silent.

"Are you really willing to do it? It took a lot of effort to get to this point, and you still know some of the truth. Are you willing to give up like this?"

"So what if I don't give up. The world is too dark and human nature is too complicated. I can't save anyone. No matter how much I do, it's meaningless."

"Is it really meaningless?"

Xu Yang was silent.

He talks about trying his best and saying he is willing, but it is meaningless, but he knows that he has not tried his best and is not willing. As for whether it is meaningful, he himself does not know, but when he thinks of the changes in Liming Community,

Thinking of his interactions with Xiang Qianjin and others during this period, he felt that everything he had done was not meaningless.

However, so what, he has fallen into the abyss of hell, where no one can help him, and the light he expected did not appear.

The other party seemed to know what he was thinking, and said calmly: "Instead of thinking about how to redeem others, it is better to think about how to redeem yourself. What qualifications does a person who cannot redeem himself have to redeem others?"

"This is an absurd, weird, desperate, and dark world. Darkness is the main theme. Light is a scarce existence. You are not the first person who wants to be the light, but you are the last one at the moment. There are already people ahead who have sacrificed their lives for it.

You lit the torch and you chose to give up after taking the first step. What qualifications do you have to say that you tried your best?"

"The so-called best effort is just an excuse for you to be cowardly and retreat. If you can't wait for a hero, and you can't become a hero, you are a coward."

"Coward? I'm a coward?!"

After hearing this, Xu Yang's face became extremely gloomy. Obviously, he could not accept this evaluation.

"Isn't it right? Jin Youcai and his wife can sacrifice everything for their son, Jin Lai can go to a filthy place like Niuma Street for you, and Liu Yueyue has to endure great pain to become a puppet master in order to help you. Even

Zhang Qilin, who has always been timid, dared to stand in front of you. They walked out of the familiar neighborhood and went to strange and dangerous places for you. They never gave up or retreated. What qualifications do you have to give up, retreat and sink?

"

Xu Yang was silent. He was unable to refute the other party's words and could not refute them.

"In the past years, they have been desperate and numb. It was you who allowed them to see hope and light. Although it is very weak and small, it may be extinguished at any time, but as long as it is still there, hope is still there.

If you really give up at this time, then everything will really be over."

"What should I do?" Xu Yang murmured.

"No one can save you, you can only save yourself. If you want to break free, you have to do everything you can to climb out and become your own light."

"Is that so?"

"Yes, that's it."

The world is still shrouded in darkness, and the sound has disappeared without knowing when. Everything seems to be a dream. The conversation just now was just him talking to himself, but the truth seems to be unimportant.

At some point, his body stopped sinking, he stood up and began to swim upstream. At this time, he suddenly discovered that self-salvation did not seem difficult.

In the pitch-black and unknown darkness, a light like a firefly gradually emerged, and among the fireflies there was a figure struggling to swim upstream.

Human beings are extremely complex beings. Sometimes they commit suicide and seek death, and sometimes they try their best to survive, trying to adapt and change. Even if they have fallen into the abyss of hell, they will try their best to survive.

Climb out of the abyss.