Pastor's Tantra

……Why?

Aiwass hesitated and did not answer.

Yulia thought for a while, then suddenly showed a bright smile, sat on the ground, patted her thigh, and motioned for Aiwass to lie down: "Brother has answered many questions for me... Then let me listen to my brother's troubles. . Maybe I can help answer it too!”

For a moment, Aiwass was a little distracted.

It’s not because of Yulia’s knee pillow invitation…

It was because he realized that his melancholy and hesitation just now might be meaningless in a certain sense.

——The theme of this world is "self-separation".

The Eternal Self has stripped itself off ten times, and Crown Lord, Supreme Heaven, and Great Zhe have all cut it off. The power originally cut out by Samsara Tiansi became amber. The many snake tails cut out by Huantiansi became what he is today. Fallen Tiansi was also a part of Lucifer, not to mention the sand timepiece that can help people perform... The cutting pillar god...

The fundamental reason is that Yuanhe is absolutely pure.

If you want to become a pillar god, the only way is to purify yourself to a pure state. The safest and most mature way is to separate yourself.

And once we think about the philosophy of self-separation, the myth of "what am I" is an unavoidable topic.

Samsara Tiansi, Huantiansi, "Snake", Shepherd, Ai Shiping, Aiwasi, Aleister... Their essences may be the same, but they are absolutely different from each other.

If you can't find what your true self is, it's just self-denial and self-pull.

But at this moment, what the Lord of Scale Feather once said came to mind in Aiwass:

"——You come from another world, right... This is your biggest secret.

"——You haven't told anyone this secret. Neither Isabel nor Yulia. Because in your memory, this world is just a game... and you are not Aiwass Mo Riati'.

"——But is this really the case?"

……yes.

Aiwass opened his eyes slightly.

Speaking of which, why did I never tell them this secret?

The answer was ready to come out - because Aiwass was worried that once those words were spoken, their relationship would no longer be pure. They may think that Aiwass is not the real Aiwass, and may even become alienated because of this...

Both Yulia and Isabel are Aiwass' important ties in this world. He couldn't bear the possibility of losing them - even just the possibility.

Therefore, he subconsciously chose to hide it. Never even thought about "should he hide it"...

But now, this question has emerged from the lake of the soul.

Those words are so obvious——

"...If, I mean if...Yulia."

Aiwass asked softly: "Suppose... I have a memory from another world, which allows me to predict the future to a certain extent. That's why I can become such an amazing person today... What would you think of me?"

Yulia looked at Aiwass steadily, but suddenly laughed: "No wonder... I understand. I got it from... the day when I brought the Shadow Demon back, right? Those tarot cards turned into extraordinary The ability of the item was also obtained at that time, right?"

"...What's so surprising?"

Aiwass said calmly without changing his face: "This is just a 'what if'."

But at this moment, his heart was beating so fast.

But Yulia just said briskly: "What are you worried about, brother?"

——The moment the brother said that, Aiwass felt like he was bathing in the warm sunshine in winter.

And Yulia reached out to cover her mouth, squinting her eyes and laughing softly: "You are not worried...I will think that you are an outsider who took away my brother, right? Or do you think that I will cry and ask you to take him away?" Give it back to me? If you really think so, I will be sad.

"——My brother actually thought that I couldn't recognize my favorite relative in the world... Fortunately, the person you asked was me. If the person you asked was not me, but sister Isabel, maybe she would Sad enough to cry."

This was a level of naughtiness and aggression that Yulia had never shown in front of Aiwass.

All along, when Yulia was in front of Aiwass, she looked soft and sweet and in need of protection. He always has a cute smile, like a smiling angel or a cute Yixue dumpling.

However, when Yulia said these "uncharacteristic" words, Aiwass did not feel strange or inconsistent.

Because Aiwass also knew that Yulia also had a strong self-esteem and was stubborn and stubborn. Even in front of strangers, she sometimes shows strong aggression... She even wants to become Tiansi.

But Aiwass would not bind this impression to his own perception of Yulia.

……etc?

Put it this way...

Aiwass was stunned for a moment and suddenly reacted.

Seeing this, Yulia also smiled gently.

At this time, she was in another strange posture that Aiwass had never seen before.

She got up from the ground and wiped the dust off her butt. He walked over briskly, stood on tiptoes, reached out and touched Aiwass' head.

She no longer used such aggressive words, and her voice became softer again, but her tone was still much more mature than before: "Look, brother. People can pretend. People will care about the people they care about. To make yourself better in front of others, no matter what kind of personality you have or what kind of self you have, it's possible that you're just pretending... Even if you're an important relative, there won't always be no secrets.

"Even if I am hiding something from you, I don't want you to see something...

"But when I really show this side, you won't be surprised. Do you think that because I am not always as cute as in front of you, you will dislike me and think that I am not Yulia, but a possessor?" A monster in the body of your sister?”

"...Of course not." Aiwass whispered.

"Me too, brother."

Yulia said seriously, with a bright smile on her face.

"No matter what you become, what memories you get...I will never admit it. You are my brother, you are the real 'Aiwass'. Everything you do is in my heart What Aiwas has to do.”

What Julia was talking about was the "Aiwass" she met in the orphanage, not "Aiwass Moriarty".

——That was the Aiwass she really knew.

"I also believe that even if you get the memories of the future, brother, you won't do anything bad. You must be trying to save everything around you... Even I was saved by you, right?"

Yulia sat on the ground and said leisurely: "I just never asked about the mysterious technique that saved me from the fate of the 'Phantom Demon Egg'... but I didn't forget it. That is from the memory of the other world. The ability you get from it, right?

“Since that’s the power used to save others—I think that’s right.”

She spread her hands, smiled calmly like Aiwass comforted her in the past, and generously asked for a hug: "If you are worried, come and give me a hug."

At that moment, Aiwass seemed to see another version of himself through Yulia.

What he saw was the Aiwass before he "awakened his past life memories".

Aiwass looked at his former self, but he didn't feel any strangeness or alienation at all.

——There is no doubt that that is the "true self".

The hesitation in my heart disappeared instantly.

Whether he is Ai Shiping, Huan Tiansi, or a time traveler... It doesn't matter whether he is a real person, a created tool, an afterimage, or a key... .

He is Aiwass.

He is Julia's brother, Isabel's husband, Edward's younger brother, Sherlock's bad friend, Lily's master, Aleister's half... He is the prince of Avalon and the pope of the elves.

——No matter what he "used to be", now he is "Aiwass" in the eyes of these people.

The real Aiwass has already been born.

In people's love.

Seeing Aiwass still frozen in place, motionless. Yulia simply stepped forward and hugged Aiwass tightly.

It was a temperature as hot as fire, which made Aiwass's heartbeat feel another heartbeat.

"I love you, brother."

Yulia raised her head and whispered in Aiwass's ear: "As always."