Pat Me Please

"boom-"

The fireworks outside burst into bloom, like a vigorous curtain call.

Yu Zhou looked at the colorful fireworks imprinted on Xiang Wan's face, the radiance was so bright that people couldn't take their eyes off it.

She sucked in her sore nasal cavity, and raised her hand to caress Xiang Wan's face.

Xiang Wan rubbed against her palm instinctively, and the fine fluff on his face stood up.

Yu Zhou choked up and said, "Thank you."

She thought Yu Zhou would be angry, panic, or repel or avoid, but she didn't expect Yu Zhou to be so calm.

The mixed emotions in her eyes gradually faded away, and she looked at Xiang Wan with calm and inclusive eyes like the sea.

As if to appease her.

Xiang Wan calmed down in her eyes, and the wine color on her eyeballs gradually receded. She didn't know how long she kept this posture, but when she let go of Yu Zhou, she found that Yu Zhou's hands were red.

It's too red to look like.

So she was a little sorry again, and sat up with her hands on her sides, her long hair hanging on both sides of her pretty face, looking a little helpless.

Yu Zhou was really hurt a little, and she frowned slightly when she got up, then she propped herself up with her backhand, and sat down on the bed.

Just now, her waist seemed to be twisted, and she hissed in pain.

She thought for a while, looked at Xiang Wan's thin figure, and said, "Would you like to listen to what I say today?"

Still, I want to calm down.

Xiang Wan raised her eyes to look at her, she felt that she was extremely rude, she was a little surprised, Yu Zhou still had something to say to her calmly. Just like she used to hug herself and talk about the rules of the world.

Seeing that she didn't reject her, Yu Zhou took two small breaths, then looked into her eyes and said, "First of all, I want to apologize to you."

Xiang Wan was a little depressed, as if the madness just now had exhausted her strength, so that she didn't react at all when she heard this apology.

Yu Zhou went on to say: "The apology is not because I don't like you, but because I chose to escape before and didn't face up to your feelings."

"Actually, during this period of time, I have been thinking, when will you tell me about this matter, or, will you still talk about this matter, but you have not said it since then, and you have behaved very generously, so I was lucky, I thought, you have already passed."

"It didn't occur to me that on the many, many days I ignored it, you were still thinking about it, and thinking about it a lot more than I thought."

Yu Zhou had tears in his eyes: "I didn't see the weight of your heartbeat until very late. I apologize for saying arbitrarily before that it is not like it."

Xiang Wan sobbed softly, and finally couldn't hold it back.

"Wan Wan." Yu Zhou called her very gently, in the flash of fireworks, in the flickering pause.

"Do you know what the person I liked when I was eighteen looked like?" She pursed her lips and smiled.

Xiang Wan raised his head and looked at her.

"I was eighteen years old and I didn't bend. At that time, I liked a boy. He was my classmate. He played basketball very well. Let me tell you, the boy is naive. He often walks on the road. Just shoot a basket or something, and he does."

"But just such a naive guy, I liked it to death, I remember he likes to wear clover clothes, usually black or gray, his left shoulder is a little higher than the right, because he always slanted his shoulders The bag is on the side. His eyes are very, very beautiful, big and flickering, like a camel. Oh, by the way, he is also hunchbacked, so it looks more like he has some kind of blood relationship with camels."

Yu Zhou's tone was too funny, Xiang Wan couldn't hold it back, and let out a small breath of restrained laughter.

"What happened next?" Xiang Wan asked.

"At that time, I went to watch him play every day, and I also helped him fetch water, handed love letters, etc., but he didn't like me. Later, he got together with that flower, and I was crying in the dormitory. I cried so much that my roommate almost thought I was going to die. Later, I cut my hair for him, and wrote a diary about him every three days, and locked it in the QQ space. But in my sophomore year, I fell in love with another I don't like other men."

Xiang Wan's face turned pale, he bit his lower lip, and wanted to say something.

"Don't get me wrong, I don't want to say that your liking is rash, nor do I want to say that you will always meet better people in the future, just like I don't like him, don't like me."

Yu Zhou shook his head, and said softly: "What I want to say is that our classmate reunion later, this year, oh no, at the beginning of last year, I looked at him, he gained a lot of weight, and his hairline moved back. He was only 25 , just combing the hairstyle of a middle-aged man who is a bit old-fashioned in society, and wearing leather shoes."

"He is completely different from my impression. If I saw him like this, I would definitely not like him, but...you see, I just recalled to you, he was still the same as when he was 18 years old."

Yu Zhou smiled and said, "The way I liked it at that time."

"So, what I want to say is that the one when you were 18 years old was the best and most unique one. It will make you wear a filter for that person for a long time, and the one with soft light Kind of, after many years, maybe she is not what you remember at all, but when you recall her, she is still very beautiful, very beautiful."

"So, I am very honored to be the person you were attracted to when you were 18 years old."

Yu Zhou also drank wine at night, and her eyes were a little red. She put her palms up, pressed them against her face, and exhaled lightly.

"In the future, no matter how fat, ugly, or old I look, I may still have a shadow of my best time in your heart."

"So, thank you," she said.

As soon as Xiang Wan blinked, tears rolled down.

"You're so smart, you must have already guessed it. In fact, I didn't intend to hide it. Although I told Su Chang to let nature take its course, when she kissed me today, I knew that there was still nothing I could do."

That's why I don't hold you, and I don't support you anymore, even though you walk staggeringly, even though I am still very worried about you.

"Su Chang is the person I met when I was 21 years old. At first I thought that my liking for her was no different from my previous crush and fascination, but it took me more than four years to I only know that it's different when we separate and combine."

"I love her. It's a bit hypocritical to say it, but..." Yu Zhou didn't continue, shaking his head.

"The difference is probably that I like someone, but I can't do it. I know there will be another one, but if I meet her, I know there is no one."

Even after a long time, when she comes to you, you still feel that she is different, out of tune with this world, like that, you see a clear **** of death among the busy phantoms of tens of thousands of people Same.

Your love can only go with her, and then die.

"So I have no way to accept other people, even if it is impossible for me and her, or, it is difficult for me to accept other people, no matter how good they are, but I can't leave a bug for myself, it is like saying that I am happy with her. Others are together, but once she appears, it's gone." Yu Zhou frowned, "Do you understand?"

Xiang Wan listened quietly and nodded.

"I'm not sure whether you like me or love me. You may not be sure now. Let's wait and see."

"I don't want to tell you, forget me, or don't like me anymore, because this kind of thing can't be done with just a few slogans, but from the perspective of protecting you, I personally hope that I like it, It's not the love that I can't change in this life."

"Because I also have selfish intentions. In fact, I really want to be your best friend and a family member you can rely on, because I was the first person you met in this world. I think this fate is no more than love. It’s light, and you’re so lonely here, I really want to take good care of you and love you with my family.”

Xiang Wan covered her eyes and sucked her nose twice.

"It's also because of this selfishness, so I have been afraid to talk to you openly. But now I want to tell you that I like an impossible person, but I know the pain of being forced to contact, just like I told you before Like 'It's all Su singing', I don't want you to be desensitized like this, so I can, I accept, you won't be friends with me anymore, if you feel better like this."

Xiang Wan put down his hands, looked at the bed, and flashed his eyes.

"However, if you want, I will still be your most reliable friend and relative, always support you firmly and trust you."

Yu Zhou wiped away his tears and said in a low voice, "I can do it."

There was nothing she could do, as if all the choices were cruel.

Xiang Wan looked at Yu Zhou through her tearful eyes. She shrunk her shoulders now, feeling helpless as if she had been abandoned, but she was trying her best to be a mature adult and deal with her first heartbeat rationally and appropriately.

Looking at her, Xiang Wan called her softly: "Yu Zhou."

"Huh?" Yu Zhou raised his eyes. The sound seemed to be squeezed out of the throat.

"You can pat me." Xiang Wan said.

Yu Zhou reached out and hugged her into his arms, gently stroking her shoulders as before.

Xiang Wan said: "I once told you that in relationships, I'm not extremely vicious, but just now I was a little jealous, and I couldn't control it."

"I know." Yu Zhou patted her.

"I'm not reconciled," Xiang Wan realized after being wronged, "Why did I fall into your house? I've been with you for such a long time, and we've met each other. Why don't you like me? "

Yu Zhou also cried, and she also felt very fucked.

"That's to say, we usually write novels. You are the one who uses the heroine script. I will definitely like you. The author who wrote your script must be sick." She cried and scolded her mother.

Xiang Wan smiled through tears, hugged her and shook her chest, bit her lower lip lightly, and said, "I see it too."

Yu Zhou hugged her and cried.

Xiang Wan said, "Don't cry."

"Don't worry about it, it's really uncomfortable."

"…I do not care."

"You still take care of me."

Xiang Wan couldn't help laughing, smiling, she said to herself with tears, try to be friends with Yu Zhou.

Might be happier that way.

Because she can still easily make herself laugh, as if everything in life can be ridiculed.