Pianpian Does not Grow Up

Ji Pianpian understand.

she……

understood.

The blush climbed to the tips of his ears, and Ji Pianpian did not dare to raise his head at all. He could only hold a small stainless steel spoon and gently scoop up a piece of matcha pudding, and put it into his mouth dumbly.

The scent of matcha is around the tip of the nose, accompanied by a slightly bitter and refreshing sweetness.

It's like the words that fell in her ear.

——You can't like me, because you are still young.

——I don’t like you, because you are still young.

I can't explain it thoroughly, but I told her.

Shen Du took a bit of a cold hot American, took a sip, put it down, and slowly said, "I remember things early since I was a kid."

Ji Pianpian didn't know why he suddenly said this.

Shen Du really wanted to talk to her, but now, there are things that should be told to her.

Not too young.

It is also the most impulsive and most elusive age.

He can only be cautious and treat it with caution.

Shen Du: "When I was three years old, my parents went to work in other places, and I stayed at home to live with my grandfather."

It stands to reason that the memory of three years old, normal people can not remember when they grow up.

But Shen Du always remembered.

I remember my grandpa who was panting on the sickbed, remember the difficulty when I helped him to the hospital, and I remember the grandpa put an old voice in his ear and said: "Good grandson, grandpa's good grandson."

Constantly whispering, constantly calling him, as if the only way to hold this breath, not to fall down.

Shen Du didn't say much about his grandpa, he wanted to say something else.

"The cousin who was in junior high school was also left at home. She usually lives on campus and only comes back on weekends."

"She brings me a piece of candy every time she comes back."

Shen Du smiled and said, "I don't like candy."

When he said this, Ji Pianpian's heart seemed to be twisted, and he felt bitterness rushing to the tip of his tongue.

Shen Du continued: "When I was six, she was sixteen."

Speaking, he raised his eyelashes slightly and looked at Ji Pianpian: "One year younger than you."

Ji Pianpian: "Hmm..."

She couldn't drink the caramel macchiato because it was so sweet and bitter.

Shen Du paused, then continued: "She went home that day and gave me a half-bag of candy, more than 30 pieces. She stuffed the candy into my hand and told me that she could only eat one piece a week."

"I asked her why it was all given to me."

"She asked me back, I'm not happy for you all."

"I wanted to say I was unhappy, but I didn't want her to be unhappy, so I told her to be happy."

"She smiled and said to me, just be happy."

"She fell from a building that night and died."

Although faintly guessed something, Ji Pianpian was still shocked when he heard it.

The stainless steel spoon fell, hitting the porcelain plate with a crisp sound, Ji Pianpian suddenly returned to his senses, picked up the spoon, and whispered: "You..."

When the words came to my lips, I didn't know how to comfort him.

Shen Du's eyebrows were soothing, and he whispered softly: "It's been a long time."

Ji Pianpian can only say: "Sorry."

Shen Du: "Yeah."

There was a brief silence, Macchiato’s caramel melted, and the hot American style disappeared. Shen Du then continued: “She likes a man who is much older than her. That day... that man got married.”

At that time, Shen Du didn't know why, he just didn't understand--

He was afraid of death, because his grandfather was fighting with illness all the time.

But the healthy cousin gave up her life so lightly.

What he remembered most clearly was the aunt who came back from the field, crying desperately at the funeral.

She cried: "She's only sixteen years old, she's only sixteen years old!"

At the same age as a flower, it withers forever.

After listening to this, Ji Pianpian understood.

I understood why Shen Du refused her thousands of miles away, I understood why the age difference of only five years old kept him away, and I also understood how embarrassing Shen Du was when he learned the truth.

Sorrow and grief came to the tip of her nose, Ji Pianpian stared at the matcha pudding, her voice astringent: "I'm sorry."

Shen Du paused, and soon he raised his eyelashes to look at her: "What's wrong with you?"

Ji Pianpian bit her lower lip and said sadly: "I...lied to you."

The corners of Shen Du's mouth raised slightly, and a wry smile overflowed: "This is actually, it deceives me to be dizzy."

Ji Pianpian said again: "...I'm sorry."

Shen Du: "Well, you are not wrong, don't apologize."

Ji Pianpian: "..."

Shen Du drank the cool coffee, his voice returned to his usual clearness, and said to her: "I'm telling you this, I just want to tell you that it's not that you are bad, but that I can't."

Ji Pianpian looked up suddenly.

Shen Du looked into her eyes and said seriously: "You are still young, and there are some things you can make before you grow up, okay."

Ji Pianpian wanted to say: "I..." is not small, but she can't say it, especially after hearing something like that.

Shen Du: "Don't be fooled by impulse. In five years, you will find that many things are not what you think..."

Ji Pianpian's eyelashes: "For example..."

Shen Du: "For example, I'm just a bad adult."

Ji Pianpian: "..."

Shen Du suddenly bends his lips again and resumes his usual non-serious tone: "I was wrong, I should be a terrible old man in five years."

The atmosphere was slightly heavy just now, because his words were more than half empty.

Ji Pianpian mumbled: "I suspect you are dissing Ji Heyu."

Shen Du smiled and said, "Senior Ji is in his youth."

Ji Pianpian: "You are two years younger than him."

Shen Du: "Yes, I'm only two years younger than him."

Ji Pianpian: "..."

"Yeah." Shen Du looked at the time and said, "We should go back."

Ji Pianpian stared at Macchiato, who had half a cup left, and said, "If I grow up..."

Shen Du looked at her and waited for her quietly.

Ji Pianpian listened to her heartbeat like a drum, and plucked up the courage to say: "If I grow up, can I be with you."

When the voice fell, the girl's blush was like a burning cloud in the sky.

No, Huo Shaoyun doesn't look good at her.

After a long while, Shen said, "You will think I'm old then."

Ji Pianpian frowned: "No way."

Shen Du thought for a moment: "When you go to college, you will know how many handsome little brothers there are."

Ji Pianpian: "What does that have to do with me!"

Shen Duyou said quietly, "Yes, it has a big relationship with me."

Ji Pianpian: "?"

Shen Du: "After all, I am ashamed of myself."

Ji Pianpian: "..."

A man who has been elected to the N-College for six years, isn't he afraid of flashing his tongue when he says this!

Anyway, what should be said and what should not be said, Ji Pianpian said, she is not afraid or afraid, even brave.

Ji Pianpian: "Then let's wait and see!"

Shen Du's eyes curled up: "Miss Pianpian, five years is too long, it's better to watch the day and night."

Ji Pianpian didn't understand.

Shen Du dragged her back to reality with a single sentence: "For example, think about the school exam for the sixth grade?"

Ji Pianpian: "……………………"

This is really too ‘day and night’!

Ji Pianpian became nervous, and she said: "I will be admitted to F major."

Shen Du looked at her.

Ji Pianpian explained: "I wanted to take the test by myself. I...I thought about it before, but the arrangements were made at home, and I didn't have the courage. Later..."

Shen Du took her words: "Very good, just do it if you want to, and you will have no regrets if you do it."

Ji Pianpian's eyes lit up and said, "Yes! You told me that in the last moments of life, unfortunately, it must be something that I haven't done before, so I want to try."

Shen Du left in no hurry, and asked her about the school exam process.

Ji Pianpian didn't have any scruples, no need to hide or lie, she didn't need to lie anymore, she put the bamboo beans in the exams of F major and S major.

After Shen Du listened, Meifeng frowned slightly: "The sixth grade is the F major exam, and the eighth grade is going to S city?"

Ji Pianpian: "Hmm..."

Shen Du: "Has the ticket been booked?"

Ji Pianpian: "I booked it."

Shen Du: "Is anyone there to pick you up."

Ji Pianpian: "There is a classmate who applied for the exam together." It is a high school classmate, but the professional training is not in one place.

Shen Du nodded, and then asked her about professional courses.

Art test is an area that Shen Du doesn't understand at all. He had also heard of it when he was studying, but as the first-grade student of God, no teacher would tell him this.

As for the art test students, most of them are scum from elementary school, which is a natural shield from good learning.

Ji Pianpian talked to him in general.

Shen Du asked her: "Like movies?"

Ji Pianpian: "I like it!"

Shen Du was amused by her little appearance, and then asked, "The director...is the director?"

Ji Pianpian: "No, if S is big, it will be more of a TV station's choreographer. F big has a major in directing..."

Shen Du half propped his chin to look at her: "Then what do you want to do most in the future."

Ji Pianpian was stunned, and said: "I..."

She actually didn't know what she wanted to do in the future.

She really likes movies, and she also likes to write random things, but it seems like it's a little bit short of asking her to go to a TV station or to be a director.

Ji Pianpian said ashamed: "I don't know...I just want to go to university."

The major is because cultural courses are not good enough. The ultimate goal of the art test is university, which is to go to a relatively better university.

This seems pretty boring.

Especially in front of Shen Du who came from a prestigious school.

Perceiving the girl's loss, Shen Duwen said, "This is also very good. If you don't know what you will do in the future, studying is the most correct choice."

His words cheered Ji Pianpian up.

Shen Du said again: "There are many variables in the future, there is no need to frame yourself now."

Ji Pianpian nodded unconsciously: "Yes, yes, yes!"

Shen Du's voice became more and more gentle: "The top priority is to study hard."

Ji Pianpian is cute: "Yeah!"

"Speaking of studying..." Shen Du deliberately lengthened her tone and asked her, "Do you need a tuition teacher?"

Ji Pianpian was stunned.

Shen Du: "The college entrance examination champion five years ago, I was reading the second degree of N University, proficient in mathematics, physics and chemistry, high in emotional intelligence, high in IQ, gentle, considerate, and thoughtful. Such an excellent... tuition teacher."

Ji Pianpian: "…………………………"

Here again again!

Can this person wipe this sentence out of his mind!

Shen Du added another sentence: "The charge is not high, one piece of sugar a day."