Plague Doctor

"No one in the whole family is willing to do anything, I will do everything! I have to serve you all well, I have to cook, take care of the whole family, and take care of A Jing, I will do everything, and there is no freedom in a day. , I don't have a day at ease, I don't even have time to get sick, I can't do anything without me..."

Chen Shengdi suddenly cried and shouted hysterically, her words were very messy, and she was accusing something.

These words seem to be old sayings, and some of the words that Lin Qianfei casually mentioned are heavy. It can be seen that they are Chen Shengdi's daily complaints, and they have said it many times.

Probably this is part of the real situation of this poor family. All the housework is burdened by Chen Shengdi, which has already weighed on her nerves.

At the same time, Lin Guowei's complexion became darker, and he seemed to be much older in the blink of an eye. He sat down on the chair, very hesitant and confused.

Seeing the changes before and after the couple, Gu Jun, Wang Ke, Cao Yicong and others knew in their hearts that it was they who were directly related to Lin Jing's disappearance.

Gu Jun's heart suddenly tightened, a bad prediction gradually became true, and a tragic event gradually surfaced. He didn't even want to think about the truth, but some dark imaginary pictures were surging in his mind, making him unclear whether it was an imagination or an illusion...

Take it to the deep mountains and wild forests and abandon it... push it down the cliff... bury it in a hole dug with a hoe...

He took a deep breath and said, "Aunt Chen, please calm down and tell us everything about that year."

"It's clear, we'll deal with it according to the situation." Wang Ke added a voice and put more pressure on the two of them. Guozi's face had the majesty of long-term interrogation, "If it's not clear, Lin Qianfei He and Lin Longxuan may need to cooperate with our investigation for a period of time, which will definitely affect their studies."

"We really don't know how Ah Jing disappeared!" Lin Guowei said in a hurry, nervous and scared, but also a little angry, "It has nothing to do with Feifei and Long Xuan, they don't know anything, if you want to arrest us, you want to be shot. Just shoot us!"

The middle-aged man shouted loudly, slapped the coffee table with resentment and nowhere to vent, and banged loudly in the old and messy living room.

If it was another villager, Lin Guowei might be startled, but Gu Jun and the others stood still, didn't say much, just watched.

Chen Shengdi gradually fell down, not knowing whether he was calm or down. He murmured something, but did not make any words that could be heard clearly. His red tears flashed with a complicated look, as if he was looking at the old and old people on the opposite wall. The Three Good Student Award.

"It's me..." She suddenly let out a trembling voice, "It's my mouth, it's all my fault... I shouldn't have said that to him... It's all my fault..."

Gu Jun frowned slightly, and looked at Wang Ke, things seemed to be different from what they expected.

At the same time that Lin Guowei became stiff and silent again, Chen Shengdi told some unknown circumstances of the year.

Three days before Lin Jing disappeared, Chen Shengdi scolded the son because Lin Jing kicked other children's basketballs with his feet on the basketball court in front of the village. After a fight, a parent came to complain.

Lin Jing said that he was just standing there, trying to help kick the ball back, if he had a hand, he would catch it and throw it back.

But the other kids just insisted that he was picking things up, that his feet were dirty, that he was a monster...

Chen Shengdi didn't stand on her son's side, and scolded Lin Jing in front of the parent. When the parent left, she was still very angry and continued to scold Lin Jing: "What are you watching on the basketball court all day? , you can't play anymore, arguing with others, causing trouble, will cause trouble, serving you is annoying enough, but also causing trouble!"

In fact, in the past and at ordinary times, Chen Shengdi often complained and scolded the eldest son like this. She didn't understand it, and she felt bitter in her heart. She thought it was... nothing.

"Ajing is also my son, and I raised it. It's not his fault that he has no hands. I know how hard he is, and how can I really blame him..."

At this time, the recalled Chen Shengdi choked and said, but on that day, she also scolded a few vicious words, which she had never scolded before. At that time, she regretted it after scolding herself, but she was stubborn and unwilling to admit her mistake. regret but too late.

"I said... I should have listened to people's persuasion to throw you away when you were just born, so I won't drag myself down for the rest of my life like now..."

Hearing this, Gu Jun's heart couldn't help sinking, and his breathing became heavier, as if he could feel the pain of Lin Jing at that moment.

But he knew that he might never really understand that feeling, even though his family of origin was not very good.

Chen Shengdi continued to talk. Three days later, in the evening, she returned home on a tricycle carrying two children and a few bunches of bananas, and Ah Jing was gone. She said that she didn't lie about this part, and Lin Guowei didn't lie either. He was indeed out of town that afternoon, and when he came back, he joined to find A Jing.

After searching for a few days, they couldn't find it... They didn't insist on looking for it any longer.

But they were quite sure that A Jing ran away from home by himself and should have been alive for a while.

It may be rumored that the handless beggar child seen by someone in the neighboring village on the streets of Dongzhou is him...

For this reason, the couple had been to Dongzhou City, the rumored street, and looked at the beggars on the street from a distance.

It's just that they didn't see their son, and they didn't go up to ask questions. Maybe the son wasn't there, maybe they didn't touch it. After going there once, they never took any action to find Lin Jing anymore, just pretended that this son was no longer alive, and that there was no such thing as

this person……

They got a relief, the family became less difficult, and Qianfei and Long Xuan had a better life.

But over the years, the two of them have never really let go of this missing handless eldest son in their hearts...

After Gu Jun, Wang Ke and the others listened to this set of rhetoric, they did not judge for the time being. They watched Lin Guowei smoke a cheap cigarette blankly, watched Chen Shengdi get up, and walked to the master room connected to the living room. Jun and Cao Yicong followed and watched, only to see that Chen Shengdi took something out of an old wedding suitcase on the closet by the bed.

"This piece of paper was left by A Jing... When I got home that day, the paper was placed on the coffee table..."

Chen Shengdi was at a loss, holding a small crumpled white paper in her hand.

Gu Jun took the old piece of paper and saw a line of words written with a blue ballpoint pen on the paper. The handwriting was crooked and laborious, but he tried his best to control each stroke.

It was written by Lin Jing, but he didn't know how to write it.

[I'm gone, don't look for me, I'll kill myself when I've lived enough]

Love the plague doctor.