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Zhang Taiping was lying on the bed with empty eyes, and the white square ceiling seemed to reflect that smiling but pity-like face again. The girl’s name is Zhang Xiaowei, oh, we can’t call her a girl now, because she was born as early as five years ago

She got married years ago, and even her daughter is four years old. Their ending is not that the girl is vain, dislikes poverty, loves wealth and is unfaithful to love, but is filled with too much helplessness and God's will. This has to be solved from the beginning.

Let’s talk about Zhang Taiping’s life experience.

Zhang Taiping grew up in an orphanage. He didn’t know who his parents were. I just heard from Grandma Zhang, the oldest person in the orphanage, that she was sent to the door of the orphanage on New Year’s Eve in 1982. At that time, it looked like only

When she was about one year old, her little face turned red from the cold, but she didn't cry or scream. Her little eyes turned around when she saw someone. She wore a jade pendant with the word "Taiping" engraved on it made of fine linen silk around her neck. Grandma Zhang believed in Buddhism, and she felt at ease with her as soon as she saw it.

She was destined to see the jade pendant around his neck, so he named him Taiping and took her surname as Zhang. His birthday was set on the 30th of the New Year.

Zhang Taiping was raised by Grandma Zhang as her own grandson. He was smart and smart since he was a child, but he was frail and sick. Even with the special care of Grandma Zhang as the dean, he was still as thin as a stick, just like the children in the African refugee camp.

It manifests as a state of malnutrition.

When he was twelve years old, Grandma Zhang passed away. This was not only a mental blow to him, but also a physical challenge. After Grandma Zhang left, he was treated equally and was in a state of hunger all day long.

It’s not that the food provided to him is less, it’s that he always has to eat three or four times the food of children of the same age to feel full. After two hours, the feeling of hunger will sweep through the body again.

When Grandma Zhang was still alive, she took him to the hospital for check-ups several times, but each time the result was that he was fine and in good health, but his blood sugar was a little low. He just needed to take more sugar and eat more meals when he went back.

It's not a big problem.

However, the strange thing is that no matter how much I eat, my stomach is always unsatisfied. It is like a bottomless pit, no matter what I fill it with, it remains empty.

When he was in middle school, food was provided by the canteen. Fortunately, he met a sympathetic aunt. Every time he ate, he would always wait dozens of minutes slower than others, and then go in through the back door until he was full.

The stomach is full, but the emaciated body cannot be changed, and there is even a tendency to develop into a white-bone spirit. Going out late at night can always scare people who have something on their mind. A scary and bad appearance is destined not to be recognized by classmates. Poverty and suffering

It is a drug that promotes maturity. While other children are still looking for all kinds of interesting things to enrich their childhood, he already knows that his opportunity to study in school is hard-won. Moreover, because of the alienation and avoidance of his classmates, he devoted all his energy to

When it comes to studying, all junior high school students know that the number one in the grade is a skeleton ghost!

My high school entrance examination scores were among the best in the district, and I was admitted to a private high school for free, and received a monthly living allowance of 200 yuan.

The better news than his results is that his body has finally improved. Although he is still a big belly, after a summer vacation, some meat has finally grown between his skin and bones. He looks like a human being and is no longer as scary as before.

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Life in high school is no different to him than in junior high school. After all, high school students are much more mature than junior high school students. The likes and dislikes of a person are not as obvious as those of junior high school students. There are also people who are willing to date and hang out with him.

.However, the quiet and closed character developed during the three years of junior high school prevented him from integrating into the laughter and extreme sports. Coupled with his maturity far beyond his peers and his ever-present hunger, he could only study in a corner alone.

, learning, learning!

When I was a sophomore in high school, a girl who transferred to another school came here. Her name was Zhang Xiaowei.

Fortunately, Zhang Taiping, who had been sitting alone in the corner, became her deskmate.

The girl doesn't look stunning at first glance, but she is petite and has two small dimples on her apple-like round face when she smiles, which makes her look particularly cute. Her small nose is always wrinkled, which adds a bit of liveliness.

Romantic atmosphere.

A girl who had just transferred to another school could not yet integrate into the various cliques that had been formed in her first year of high school. So when others were chatting or playing sports, Zhang Taiping, who was still studying, was fortunate enough to get the company of girls and the curious eyes that glanced at him from time to time.

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Zhang Taiping and the girl first met in a physical education class. Zhang Taiping clearly remembers that day, which was September 21, 1999.

On this day, the girl ate a large piece of ice cream at noon, and felt a stomachache during the afternoon physical education class. The girl, who was a little careless, then remembered that she could not eat anything that was too cold during her menstrual period. The girl who felt that it was her own fault had to ask for leave and go back to the classroom to rest.

Got off.

Pushing open the classroom door, the girl was surprised by her deskmate lying on the table. The girl thought with amusement: "Isn't he a good friend here too?".

However, as she got closer, the girl heard bursts of cooing.

Naughty, she squatted quietly next to the bench to confirm that it was indeed coming from the stomach of her deskmate.

Looking up, what he saw was a pale face covered in sweat.

"Are you hungry?" she asked softly.

Zhang Taiping didn't answer, he just closed his eyes and bit his lip.

The girl took out the snacks she had always prepared in her bag, pushed them to him and said, "Here you go."

Zhang Taiping still didn't move, but the sweat on his face dripped down his chin to the ground.

"Behave, this is really bad for your health." The girl's voice was surprisingly soft.

This gentle voice seemed to have magic power. Zhang Taiping finally raised his head. Through the blurred vision, what came into view was a pair of sincere and slightly pitiful bright eyes.

"Eat it." The girl gave her a smile, with two shallow dimples on her face.

Under the guidance of this heavenly voice, Zhang Taiping mechanically tore open the packaging bag of snacks and put them in his mouth.

He didn't know if there were angels in the world, and he had never seen one before. However, at this moment, he believed that angels were around him.

From then on, the girl brought two breakfasts every day and always had a lot of snacks in her bag. They began to get to know each other and then became friends.

For Zhang Taiping, the happiest two years flew by.

His grades are always among the best. Although the girl has been improving with his help, she is still far behind his grades.

After the college entrance examination, while waiting for the results, the girl was obviously depressed and full of worries. He knew the reason, but he deliberately did not ask. Instead, he secretly looked at the girl's application form while filling out the application form, and smiled in the girl's tearful eyes.

Say goodbye. Then I found a job during the holidays and slowly waited for the moment to surprise the girl.

The first choice of university is Northwest Agriculture and Forestry, because both he and the girl like this imperial city full of historical vicissitudes and classical connotations. The most important thing is that the girl's first choice is here.

There is no suspense that he arrived at this campus two days early for the start of school, where they might be about to witness their sweet time.

Taking advantage of the aftertaste of surprise, their freshman life was sweet and enviable.

However, God always seems to like to give people a bolt from the blue, seeing people's helplessness and pain makes the sky clear.

During the summer vacation after his freshman year, Zhang Taiping felt the hunger he felt before high school again, even worse. It was like a person who had just woken up from hibernation and wanted to eat, and his stomach was absorbing the energy in the body like crazy. What was worse

Yes, what is absorbed at this moment is not only the energy of the food in the stomach, but also his vitality.

Some of the muscles accumulated over the past four years quickly shriveled up within a few dozen days. Every morning, there would be a few wisps of dry white hair on my head, and wrinkles gradually appeared on my skin.

He once thought about committing suicide, but he could not do it despite the girl's silent pleas filled with tears.

It would be a pain to get to know someone at this moment. He understands the girl's dream, understands what the girl pursues, and understands what the girl wants most. However, can he give all this to himself now that he is neither a human nor a ghost?

Guilt and self-blame are like the devil corroding his soul. He can't give the girl happiness, and he can't give the girl happiness. Then seek relief, a better relief for the girl.

He began to neglect the girl and used his ugly appearance to sarcastically hurt her.

In fact, the girl completely understands his feelings, but a relationship cannot be let go just by letting it go.

So, he used self-mutilation to drive the girl away again. This time he succeeded. The price of success was two broken hearts.

In the days when there were no girls, Zhang Taiping began a devilish college life.

As if he was eating like crazy, he spent time in the library like crazy. Not only did he read all the information on agriculture, but he also covered a lot of information on traditional Chinese medicine.

I got a professional master's degree and a doctorate. I took the Chinese medicine qualification exam. Then I visited famous old Chinese medicine doctors everywhere because the obsession in my heart was still there.

He once wondered in a neurotic way whether he was pregnant with a **** in his body.

I once went to a blind fortune teller on the street to get a fortune, and the blind man told me that it was "the evil star". Although I haven't read many novels, I still understand the meaning behind this word. So I said with anger.

She kicked the blind man's stall and walked away. The blind man didn't ask her for money, but watched him leave with regretful eyes from behind.

Seeking medical treatment failed, taking medicine was useless, fortune telling did not achieve the desired results, and mental arithmetic was completely dead.

Now he works as an administrator on the country's largest flower tree trading website, and at the same time writes novels on the country's largest novel website. He earns three to four hundred thousand a year. After deducting the cost of high-energy substances he needs all the time, and

The rest of the basic living expenses were donated to his orphanage.