[Quick Pass] Why Don’t You Love Me

"Mo Xiaodie!" Fu Mao snarled after being rejected again and again.

"Why, want to hit me?" Mo Xiaodie looked at him coldly. "How many times have I said that I don't want to see you again, what do you want?"

As long as Mo Xiaodie's attitude is cold and hard, Fu Mao will subconsciously soften his temper: "I just want you to come back to me."

"I can't go back to a scum." She refused simply and neatly.

"I said I knew it was wrong!" Fu Fang's violent temper came again, and he slammed the steering wheel with anger. "How many times do you want me to tell you?! It's my fault for me to apologize to you like that before? Isn't it OK for me and I to apologize to you?!"

Can't I apologize to you?

With a fluttering sentence, Mo Xiaodie wanted to cry and laugh again, "If I said that two years ago, I would be very happy, maybe I would let me die for you without frowning." It's a pity now and then, mother. His death made her never be able to be with him again.

"I don't want you to die for me, I just want me to be together again." Fu Mao shook her hand, with a faint begging and panic in his rebellious eyes. "Don't leave me anymore, we will get married when we go back, okay?"

Mo Xiaodie stared at him holding his big hand in a daze, before saying for a while: "I won't marry you."

"Why? Why do you just refuse to forgive me?! I will really change, you believe me!" Fu Mao said this sentence in tears. He was emotionally ups and downs. No matter how unwilling to love face anymore, Mo Xiaodie always ran away and he was about to break down. He really couldn't live without this woman. He was willing to even get married, so what is she dissatisfied with? ? "I know that it was me who used to fuck, and I always do some dirty things, but I promise I will never do this after I get married, you believe me!"

Mo Xiaodie lowered his head: "Such days will never come again. When I left you that day, I made up my mind and I will never be with you again. I can't always be a woman who is deceived at will. , Although I am stupid, not smart, and always think that there are no bad people in this world. But Fu Mao, you are a bad person, I can’t give you the rest of my life, you have ruined the first half of me I will hold the rest of my life firmly in my hands and never give it to you."

Fu Mao wanted to say something, but with a few movements of his lips, he couldn't say anything. What Mo Xiaodie said was not wrong, he was indeed a scumbag, and he did so much to Mo Xiaodie. "If I knew that I would fall in love with you, I would not treat you that way, trust me, Fluttershy..."

"Did you know? My mother was a famous beauty in the village when she was young, but she fell in love with someone she shouldn't love, so she hurt herself to such a situation." Mo Xiaodie's eyes were red. "If it wasn't for me, if it wasn't because my father was a scumbag, my mother wouldn't do...that kind of occupation. Later, she was completely desperate, and only I was her hope. So I studied hard, every time The first test is just to make her smile more, just to make her not be so sad and not always think about that ruthless and unrighteous man."

"But you ruined everything." Even today, thinking of his mother, Mo Xiaodie still feels broken. That woman who has been struggling for a lifetime! "If you can, who doesn't want to have a good background, who doesn't want to have parents who love themselves, who doesn't want to meet a sincere lover. But my mother doesn't have it, she only has me, and I will put her to shame again. For you, That's just a harmless joke, but what is it to me? It's an incalculable destruction. You must be very happy when you put the bed sheet stained with my first night blood on the blackboard, right? You think you You won, you are worshiped by your friends, what about me? I was told that I could no longer stay in school because everyone thought that 300 yuan could buy us mother and daughter for one night!"

"I can only suspend school and leave with my mother, do you know? The teacher said that if I can take the college entrance examination, I will definitely be able to take the entrance exam to a particularly good university. In that case, I will have a new beginning and I have time. Going to work and earning tuition on my own, I can make my mother a little more relaxed. After graduation, I can find a good job and be filial to my mother. In that case... we will be happy too, and all suffering will never come again. But you ruin everything . Do you think, do you think I don’t know? The drink you brought me back then had medicine in it, otherwise I won’t—I won’t talk to you..."

She burst into tears, she didn't want to remember those painful pasts at all, but once Fu Mao appeared in front of her, she would still be attacked by memories. "So I can only find some jobs that don't require education and age. When you spend money on racing cars with beautiful women in school, I do the same jobs as men on the construction site, but I am a girl, so even with the same workload , I can only get half of the money. Do you think I should be grateful for your money to treat my mother? If it weren't for you, she wouldn't be so young and wouldn't want to live anymore!"

"How can you lie to me once and lie to me a second time, Fu Mao, how can you harm me like this!"

"What did I do wrong? Why did I encounter such a thing? What did my mother do wrong? Why did she suffer so much?"

Mo Xiaodie's question left Fu Mao speechless. He panicked to say something to explain, but he couldn't explain it at all. Because it was indeed the wrong thing he did when he was young, he didn't think about it for the girl. He even continued to humiliate her after drugging her. Bye-bye ten years later, he deceived her again. Even the night before she left him, he was violent to her like a rapist.

What does he rely on? It's just money, power, these things that Mo Xiaodie doesn't have.

But Mo Xiaodie lives more dignified than anyone else.

"You ruined everything about me, but made me think of you as the savior? Fu Mao, am I particularly stupid? Huh?"

The tears in her eyes were painful and desperate, "Do you think you can just say sorry, these past can be smoothed out? Don't be kidding, you want it, if you don't want it, throw it away, Fu Mao..." she muttered Then, suddenly roared, "Why don't you die?!"

Mo Xiaodie rushed forward to pinch Fu Mao’s neck with her hands. Because of her force, her hands were bruised and bulging. She was already scary thin. At this moment, her eyes didn’t look like a living person, as if she was about to eat Fu Mao. It's full of hatred. Fu Mao looked at her in shock, at the monstrous hatred in those eyes that were always full of warmth and love. The girl who had watched him wholeheartedly would never come back. The Mo Xiaodie in front of him was weather-beaten. After the vicissitudes of life, she lost her soul tormented by life and love. She wished he would die. That kind of love would never come again, because he personally destroyed it.

She was just a plaything, a bet, a joke he made to show his ability when he was bored. But this joke, she is a living person, she is gentle and kind, but she was finally pushed to the limit by him.

Mo Xiaodie is just an ordinary person, even a hard-failed person who can't even reach the ordinary level. She has been sensible since she was a child. She has been carrying the hope of her mother since she was a child. She just wants to be able to start again in one place one day in the future. Together with mother, the mother and daughter lived a dull and content life. They don't have much ambition, they just have such a little extravagant hope that after experiencing so much sorrow, they can find a place to live so that they can live in peace and stability.

Such simple hopes turned into extravagant hopes in the end.

Mo Xiaodie gave his emotions and was finally told that it was a joke. Later she lost her mother, and no one in this world will truly love her again.

She just wanted to leave Fu Fang, and don’t see him again in this life, but when she just arrived in a place, she didn’t even start again, he chased after her, like a huge nightmare that enveloped her, always let her Think of everything in the past.

She can't even live well, but he can't do it.

So why didn't he die? It will be fine if he is dead. No one will hurt her anymore. She doesn't have to worry about living her life anymore, for fear that one day she will walk downstairs and see him standing there smoking a cigarette. She will not be afraid that she will always be caught back , I don’t know when it became a new joke again.

Inadvertently when she was young and frivolous, ruined a girl's soul.

But these people will always live better than her. They live in luxury homes with beautiful women, spending money like dirt, and living a luxurious life. But the innocent Mo Xiaodie had to bend over and kneel down to earn hundreds of dollars, and his last month's salary was not enough for a shirt.

You see how unfair God is. Some people are drunk and dream of death, and some people are so hard to live.

In Fu Fang's memory, he rarely saw Mo Xiaodie crying. She didn't cry when she was humiliated, she didn't cry when she knew that she was cheated, and she didn't cry when she was violently abused by him. Compared with those glamorous girls who are always pitiful, she seems to be born without tears. But now she is crying, crying so ugly, so heartbreaking, and crying so much that it hurts his heart, because all her tragedies started with him. He crushed her hopes, yet she was still complacent that she was a savior. .

What kind of savior is he, he is a scumbag.

The woman in front of him seemed to cry all the tears that hadn't flowed out at once, and even the hand that was stuck on his neck loosened. Fu Mao didn't dare to touch her again, but wanted to stop her tears. What should not be done.

Then he hugged her. Although she bit him and kicked him to keep him from approaching, Fu Xu still hugged her tightly and refused to let it go.

In the end, Mo Xiaodie was tired of crying and fell asleep like this. But even in her sleep, she still cried from time to time. Such deep pain, how can I not get rid of it even in a dream?

It's bitter.

It's really bitter.