Rebirth begins with rejecting girlfriend arrangement

Chapter 247 I want to kill myself in the past

Author: Xiao Xiao who can't be beaten

Chapter 247 I want to kill myself in the past

Chu Yang originally thought that he would no longer waste his life for the little thing under his butt, and could face the world with a normal attitude.

But.

Even the small matter of taking supplies is disgusting. Huang Weixing's face was still stimulated to Chu Yang's heart.

My cultivation level will never reach the state of being as calm as water. My heart still has a kind of flame for this right. This desire cannot be suppressed, which makes me very surprised.

I'm the same person as well.

I'm grass.

Chu Yang had a deeper understanding of himself and thought he didn't care much. It seemed that he was not unfair to fall.

Young and frivolous, a little drifting.

It is very comfortable to be on the plane. I put on flower arrangements, drink tea and flirt with Li Xiaomei. It is very suitable for elderly care. However, Chu Yang is only 26 years old, and he is seven times a night. Just Li Xiaomei is a person in the plane.

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So it feels a bit wasteful here.

Moreover, Chu Yang was discouraged and didn't want to fight for Mr. Xie.

The matter of the hydropower station shows that he has acquiesced to it, but he deliberately ignores it and makes the mess come out.

He actually regarded himself as a pawn, so he didn't even think of the relationship between the king and the minister. Chu Yang had to remember Uncle Huang's words. Since he had no way to walk on the platform, he should leave this sad place.

Go to the city.

Chu Yang actually should have gone there long ago. He didn't agree to Zhiying at the beginning, but often because of his weakness, he didn't want to get out of his comfort zone. Now that the comfort zone is gone, he has to get out of it.

But how to go, this is a big problem.

Yesterday Saturday, Chu Yang actually went to Uncle Huang’s house for dinner. The whole process was still happy. Huang Ling’s girl grew up a lot again, and the pressure of studying in the second year of high school did not overwhelm her development.

But I didn't have the courage to tell Uncle Huang what I've been doing now.

I don’t know what I’m hesitating about or afraid of, but I can’t understand it anyway.

This may be the weakness of men.

On Sunday morning, she was still sleeping in the dormitory. Zhiying called and said that she had arrived downstairs of her dormitory.

Chu Yang was a little surprised. Unexpectedly, she came. After struggling for a long time, she still went down and chose to see her very sloppy.

Zhiying wore her best-looking pink dress, with a bunch of white belts around her waist. The waistband of the white belt seemed to be the golden proportional line of her body, which separated her upper and lower parts.

The upper body is round and full, and the lower body is tall and slender.

From a distance, it looks like a fairy, tall and graceful.

Chu Yang walked closer and found that her eyes were red and her delicate body was shaking.

"Why are you here?"

Chu Yang wanted to touch her head, but he held it back, for some reason why the two felt a sense of distance.

"Chu Yang, are you okay?"

Zhiying was a little sad because Chu Yang didn't hug her. Chu Yang rushed over when he saw her.

"I'm fine, don't worry." Chu Yang finally touched her hand.

"I said it's okay, let's accompany me for a walk." Zhiying came over and took Chu Yang's hand and leaned her body against Chu Yang.

Chu Yang was very intoxicated when he smelled the breath of her body. He was in pain at first. He felt very uncomfortable when he thought of the group of people behind her Li family.

The two walked to the nearby park together and sat on a small stool.

The bench is very cool and the butt is very comfortable.

"Chu Yang, I really don't care what position you do."

"But I care, my mother cares, your father cares, your cousin cares, and your aunt cares, right?" Chu Yang answered in one breath.

"They are not me."

"But you can't live without them."

"So you are going to break up with me?" Zhiying's eyes turned red.

"It's been three years, and I haven't done it, it's my problem." Chu Yang didn't know what to do. Is it also called love to let go?

"Chu Yang, who am I in your heart?" Zhiying looked at Chu Yang tightly, feeling a heart-wrenching pain.

"The perfect girl, beautiful, intellectual, has good family conditions, and everything is fine." Chu Yang blurted out.

"I am not perfect. Like other little girls, I will think about each other and worry about gains and losses. Moreover, I am very fragile and just want a sweet love." Li Zhiying is always too cautious about love.

"Zhiying, I'm sorry, I disappointed you. I thought I could meet your parents' requirements, but it was still too real."

"Chuyang, are you willing to come to the municipal company? Can you come? I'll beg my mother."

"I don't need your mother to pity me." Chu Yang was going to the municipal company, but he couldn't pass through her mother.

A man’s self-esteem is not allowed to do so.

Zhiying left, leaving with disappointment.

After having dinner, Chu Yang did not go back to the dormitory, nor did he want to go back. He was afraid of loneliness. Instead, he kept wandering on the street with no purpose and just wandering around. When he was the office director, he rarely had such free time.

Generally, they either follow Mr. Xie to socialize or work overtime in the office to review manuscripts.

Today is a rare one.

When I first came to the city of Butai, I felt that the place had few industries and small places, but the air was good and the people were kind.

It seems to have changed now. There are more people and more cars, there are more hotels and more bars, and the air emits a slightly intoxicating atmosphere. Some people say that this is fireworks, but in Chu Yang's eyes now,

It's the smell of rottenness.

Every progress of civilization is indeed an expansion of desire. It may have been just food and clothing before, but now it has reached sexuality and desire.

This world is changing every moment.

Time is the greatest driving force for everything.

Women are one of the biggest factors in all changes.

Unconsciously, it changes everything, changes cities, and changes people. What it could not achieve in the previous life will still have the same end in this life? Is life already destined?

Before I knew it, Chu Yang walked to a small alley, which was surprisingly quiet, and there were a few people. He looked around and saw several crosses, some words like "Allah", and some abstracts.

Western oil painting.

After a closer look, I finally found that it was a Christian church here.

Something is a little bit.

Chu Yang really didn't expect that there would be such a place in this small city. It can be seen that the church has declined and its facilities are old. I don't know how to maintain it. Chu Yang was a little curious and walked in and saw that there was a

A woman wearing a black turban is praying with her hands folded.

I don't know if it's the owner of this church.

She was very pious and muttered: "God, please give me a calm heart, accept what I cannot change, give me the courage to do what I can change, give me wisdom to distinguish the two

The difference between people is to not worry about tomorrow, enjoy every moment, regard suffering as the only way to success, and regard frustration as a whetstone to hone your will."

Just this passage is a bit like chicken soup, but Chu Yang was fascinated by it.

It is very philosophical to regard suffering as the only way to success, and to treat frustration as a whetstone to temper your will. I never thought that this Christianity could say such profound words.

Although I don't believe it.

After a while, the woman put down her headscarf and walked out. She turned out to be a bald man, with a very white face, and she looked pretty pretty, with a calm expression and a peaceful appearance. When she saw Chu Yang, she said softly: "You

Are you here to pray to the Lord?”

Chu Yang quickly waved his hand and replied: "No, I'm passing by."

The woman showed a calm smile: "If you have anything, you can talk to the Lord, and the Lord will favor you."

Chu Yang only has one belief in his heart, which is unshakable, but he will not say that he has any contempt for other beliefs. Last time he went to Buddhism with Uncle Huang, he felt that he had gained something, so he still answered respectfully: "I am not loyal."

believer."

The woman didn't care and said, "When you come here, it means that you have a fate with the Lord."

"I don't believe in fate." Chu Yang felt ridiculous in his heart. Could it be that you still want to influence me?

The woman was not anxious: "Are you unhappy?"

Chu Yang: "Everyone has something unhappy."

The woman looked up at the Lord: "In fact, people are all suffering people, and they all need a myth. People will be invincible in this myth and can defeat all evil. This myth is the Lord."

Chu Yang didn't expect that she really wanted to develop herself into a believer. She didn't know if this guy had a task, so she could only answer: "Living in this world, she is her own master, she is the only one.

The source of meaning.”

Unexpectedly, Chu Yang would also discuss philosophy with a Christian believer.

Chu Yang didn't expect that he would say something he had never believed.

The woman was still calm: "If a person can really dominate himself, then there would not be so many people who died in misfortune and lived in pain. People are too fragile, and they are so fragile that they are difficult to guarantee their own survival.

People need to find the basis for living in space outside of their own survival, and the Lord is our basis for this world.”

"You are poisonous." The woman's voice was like a magical power. A few words made Chu Yang's firm heart mess up. Chu Yang couldn't stand it, so he quickly ran away and ran out of the alley.

But this voice came from your heart and could not be eliminated or verified.

Chu Yang ran a few steps and turned back, but found that even the lights on Christianity were turned off.

That woman can never be found again.

It seems to have never existed.

Chu Yang was glad that he ran fast, otherwise he might have stayed in it forever.

Living in pity and tragedy, living in vain and emptiness.

I have to have an effective connection with reality.

This can't continue.

So Chu Yang decided to kill all the past self, lower his head again, start over, and slap those who look down on him.

The goal is already very clear.

The first step is to go to the city and take a pit there. Only in the city can you make a comeback.

PS: Christian believers should not be too substituted, they are all novels.

(End of this chapter)