Rebirth: Opening confession to my deskmate Xiaohanhan

Why does Wen Jingshan like her younger brother?

She didn't know the reason.

Originally, I wanted to help take care of him, but later, during my interactions with Bai Wenjie, and the other party's bold expressions of love, slowly and slowly, I always thought of him inexplicably.

"Senior, senior, there's a new Chinese restaurant opened over there. I heard the food in it is delicious. Do we want to go together?"

"Senior, senior, brother-in-law, they all went out to play, I'm so bored alone..."

"Senior, senior, I feel a little uncomfortable, can you stay with me?"

After asking her again and again, asking her to hang out together again and again, Wen Jingshan gradually discovered that she actually liked this boy who was four or five years younger than her but never disliked her, and he was also very gentle and considerate. .

Fate is like a joke played on them.

I promised to help take care of others, but after taking care of him, I fell in love with him.

At first, Wen Jingshan refused to admit it. She kept refusing and denying it no matter what. But as time went by, more and more evidence was put in front of her, leaving her unable to refute it.

"Senior sister, I find that I seem to like you more and more."

Bai Wenjie learned from Kong Yu that he had to be thick-skinned when chasing girls, so he always played straight and took the initiative.

The sincerity in her eyes was never false, but the stare made Wen Jingshan feel guilty, a little scared and panicked, and she was even a little scared.

"Sister, are you ignoring me because you hate me? Have I done something wrong?"

Wen Jingshan: "I don't hate you, I'm just too tired recently."

"Sister, can I hug you?"

Wen Jingshan was stunned, but Bai Wenjie took the opportunity to reach out his arms and hug her.

Such sudden close contact made Wen Jingshan tremble all over, struggling almost subconsciously, but she immediately felt the warmth coming from the other person's body.

He was comforting her and telling her his feelings and his decision.

Wen Jingshan stopped struggling and allowed the other party to hug her. She lowered her head and covered half of her face with her long hair, unable to cover up the panic on her face at all.

It had been a long time since she had experienced the feeling of being in love.

The person I was talking to before was not interested in her at all, but her figure and appearance.

We've only been together for a week, and yet we're already thinking about holding hands, kissing, and even booking a hotel room. This is hard for her to accept because of her slow pace.

She was a little resistant to holding hands at first, but the subsequent behaviors made her even more disgusted. She just wanted to slow down in the fast-paced era, but the answer she got was: pretending to be so beautiful, it must not be the first time.

Then break up immediately.

Because of this, Wen Jingshan didn't want to fall in love, and she even had a dislike for boys who were interested in her.

And Bai Wenjie said: "Sister, I know that I like you now because of your looks and appearance, but I am not in a hurry. I will definitely become better and better, and then prove that I like you, not just for your appearance. , I like his character very much."

Combining this kind of sincerity, as well as his respect for her every time they get along with each other, and all the details, Wen Jingshan admits that she has indeed slowly fallen.

However, he is five years younger than her. Will such a relationship really be recognized?

This was what she was struggling with, but she couldn't bear to push him away.

This kind of contradiction and pain caused a strong sense of oppression in her heart.

"elder sister?"

The soft sobbing of the girl in his arms made Bai Wenjie feel distressed to death, but at the same time, his heart tightened and relaxed. When it tightened, he hoped to get a quick reply from her and let her relax, and then relax again. continue.

But on the other hand, he was worried about her rejection. In that case, he would lose this relationship forever, which made him afraid to think about it.

"Sister, I'm sorry, I was too anxious."

"No need to say sorry, it's not your problem."

Wen Jingshan raised her head and looked at him with red eyes.

She doesn't blame him. After all, she promised to take good care of him. She should be blamed for the current result.

"Senior sister, we can take it slow. If you still don't like me or have feelings for me in the future, I won't pester you anymore."

Bai Wenjie is not the kind of person who stalks her. When he feels the other person's discomfort, he understands that he has been pushing too hard these days and should leave her some room to think.

Two years ago, Wen Jingshan was only twenty years old. Now she is no longer the ignorant and ignorant girl she was back then.

"I know, let's go back first. I'm a little sleepy tonight and want to go to bed early."

"Well, then I'll take you back."

Bai Wenjie took the initiative to drive. Now he is eighteen years old and has all the driver's license applications.

The car stopped steadily at the door of Wen Jingshan's apartment building.

"I won't go up, senior sister, just pay attention."

Wen Jingshan nodded, turned around and walked towards the community. She didn't know how to face him, but she told herself in her heart that she liked him.

It's just that I don't know how to face him.

Wen Jingshan, who was standing at the door of the building, did not go home immediately. Instead, she stood there blankly, looking at the dark night, thinking about the hug just now, and many strange feelings welled up in her heart.

Does Bai Wenjie really like her?

Or maybe I was attracted to her just because she was pretty. After a while, my interest waned and it would be fine, right?

Wen Jingshan thought and suddenly felt relieved, but she still felt a little sour and aggrieved in her heart. Why did she feel the urge to cry?

She doesn't like this feeling!

But she couldn't help but want to get close to Bai Wenjie.

She kept comforting herself and calming down. No matter what, she had to stabilize her emotions first.

She needed time to digest this.

Wen Jingshan didn't know that Bai Wenjie had been watching her off from the bottom of the building. He didn't leave until he saw her completely disappearing from sight. He also knew that what he had just done was too intense, but he couldn't control it, but he couldn't help it. After some slow reflection, I realized that I was pushing too hard and needed to change my way of getting along.

…

the next day.

The two of them had a tacit understanding not to mention what happened yesterday, as if nothing happened yesterday. They only had occasional exchanges, and the atmosphere seemed a bit awkward.

While Wen Jingshan was working, she secretly observed Bai Wenjie. He still had that sunny look, and he treated her more tenderly and enthusiastically. However, whether it was her answers or her attitude, they all affected her unconsciously. he.

"Senior, what are you looking at?"

Wen Jingshan, who was immersed in her work, woke up suddenly when she heard this question.

"Ah? It's nothing. It's nothing. I'm reading the newspaper. Do you want a drink of water? I'll get you a cup of tea."

Wen Jingshan quickly shook her head, then took out her coffee pot and poured him a glass of water. This move made Bai Wenjie a little happy. It was obvious whether he liked it or not. What's more, the senior sister had never spent time with him. Every time he spent his money, the other party bought him things for a bigger reason than he did. Therefore, he wouldn't believe the senior sister who was with him because of money.

Whenever Bai Wenjie is not in the right mood, Wen Jingshan will even put down her work and slowly enlighten him.

If this is not love, then he will definitely never believe in bullshit love again. He will work hard and marry Wen Jingshan as his wife in the future.

Thinking of his dream, he was full of energy. He wanted to be a successful entrepreneur and let the woman he liked live a happy life.

Bai Wenjie was planning a beautiful blueprint for the future in his mind, but he didn't notice that Wen Jingshan looked at him with something strange.

What came to her mind was the scene from last night, that hug, and she didn't resist.

She originally thought that it was only because of the stimulation of alcohol that she agreed to Bai Wenjie by mistake. However, after she sobered up, she had a soft spot for that embrace, and even felt a little nostalgic...

"What are you thinking about, senior?"

"No, I didn't think anything of it. Come and get to work."

Wen Jingshan quickly lowered her head and pretended to continue working, unwilling to look into Bai Wenjie's shining eyes. She was afraid that she would not be able to help but throw herself into his arms.

Although Bai Wenjie was confused, he did not ask further questions. Instead, he sat down and concentrated on his work.

…

After getting along with each other for this period of time, Wen Jingshan herself was a little incredible. She found that she actually fell in love with this brother who was five years younger than herself. This was simply incredible.

In particular, Bai Wenjie could always quickly capture the sharpest sense deep in her heart. She could even feel that Bai Wenjie seemed to be testing herself, and moreover, he was testing whether she really liked him?

Wen Jingshan even found that she was a little hopeful, a little hesitant, and even a little scared. She was afraid that Bai Wenjie would be lost without knowing it.

"Senior, I'm not in a hurry. If it bothers you, I won't say those words in the future." Bai Wenjie saw that she didn't say anything for a long time, thinking that she was uncomfortable.

"No, no, don't think too much about it." Wen Jingshan shook her head in panic.

"You... don't dislike me?" Wen Jingshan hesitated for a moment, and finally summoned the courage to ask.

As soon as these words came out of her mouth, her cheeks turned red and she was so ashamed that she wanted to hide under the table to avoid his gaze.

"Age is not a problem, not to mention, sister, you are very beautiful, you look younger than me." Bai Wenjie praised her with a smile.

Wen Jingshan breathed a sigh of relief. It turned out that he didn't dislike her. She thought he would think she was older.

"Thank you." Wen Jingshan thanked her with a smile and returned to her previous elegant appearance. She is a person who can easily adjust her emotions.

Bai Wenjie pursed his lips and smiled. His eyes fell on Wen Jingshan, becoming more and more gentle, with a slight smile on his lips.

"No matter how long it takes, I will wait for you. I admit that I really like your appearance and figure, but after getting along with you, I like your character and every move you make."

He is not the kind of superficial person. If he likes someone, he has to kiss him or even get a room to be considered as someone who really likes him.

In this fast-paced era, Bai Wenjie also wants to take his time with relationships.

"Okay, hurry up and eat." Wen Jingshan was a little flattered. She didn't expect that he would say this to her. There was a sweetness in her heart, but she didn't show it at all. Instead, she urged him to finish the meal quickly so that he could work as soon as possible. .

Bai Wenjie was not polite. He liked this opportunity to be alone with Wen Jingshan. Although there was a bit of a gap between the two, he believed that he would be able to resolve it.

…

At night, Wen Jingshan lay on the bed after washing, staring at the ceiling, and what Bai Wenjie said to her this morning echoed over and over in her mind.

She suddenly found that she was used to Bai Wenjie's daily companionship. She was used to him insisting on getting off work on time every day no matter whether it was windy or rainy, even if there was thunder and lightning. She was used to chatting with him and teasing him, and was used to being in the company. , they discuss plans for the future.

She also knew that she liked him, not only for his handsome and excellent appearance, but also for his kindness and simplicity.

But……

How much does Bai Wenjie like himself?

She couldn't guarantee it.

Wen Jingshan tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. All she could think about was the scene where Bai Wenjie confessed to her today.

Her heartbeat was beating fast, and her heart was beating violently, as if she had returned to the way she treated her feelings in the first place.

It’s so embarrassing, I took care of my younger brother until I liked him...

Wen Jingshan's face became more and more rosy, and she quickly covered her hot cheeks. Her heartbeat was getting faster and faster, as if it would jump out at any time.

Wen Jingshan kept comforting herself: "Wen Jingshan, Wen Jingshan, why are you so worthless? Isn't it just because your brother confessed to you? Why are you so scared?"

Wen Jingshan closed her eyes and forced herself to sleep. However, no matter how she forced herself to sleep, she would always think of the disgusting words Bai Wenjie said to her. Her ears turned red and her heart beat faster and faster. , even his breathing became rapid, and his chest heaved violently.

Finally, she couldn't bear it anymore, lifted up the quilt, climbed out of bed, walked into the bathroom, turned on the cold water, and washed her hot face with cold water.

"Wen Jingshan, are you crazy?"

Wen Jingshan stared at herself in the mirror with a blushing face and blurred eyes, and cursed in annoyance, but as soon as she finished speaking, she burst into laughter.

"Then let's talk secretly without letting others know?" Wen Jingshan murmured softly and made the final decision.

"Sister, aren't you asleep yet?"

After receiving a call from Bai Wenjie in the middle of the night, she found that she didn't feel bored at all, but actually liked it a little bit.

From this moment on, Wen Jingshan clearly understood that she could no longer live without this younger brother.

If it weren't for liking him, she would never be like she is now, and she wouldn't be so anxious about gains and losses. She would feel particularly happy every time she heard his voice.

If you like someone, your heart will never lie. You will be nervous, worried when you are not with him, and have all kinds of uneasy emotions. You will only feel calm after hearing the other person's voice.

This is what Wen Jingshan is like now.

Slowly, she discovered.

It's hard for me to leave him now, at least that's what the voice in my heart says.