Rebirth, Starting from 2005

It takes a long time to eat a meal, and I clink glasses from time to time. Before I know it, a bottle of red wine is drained.

Ai Lili drank most of it, and Yan Xin only drank about one-third.

But it was that one third that Yan Xin couldn't bear anymore.

Seeing that Yan Xin's speech gradually became a little unclear, Ai Lili asked a question that had been in her mind for a long time:

"Yan Xin, I have a question that I've been trying to figure out. Do you have someone you like?"

"Yes, there are many more." Yan Xin said with a smile.

Ai Lili was a little speechless—is this the legendary playboy?

Then he asked, "Then who is your favourite?"

"Mao... Grandpa..." Yan Xin said seriously.

Ai Lili was stunned for a while before she realized that he was talking about money.

It's pissed off, and it's funny—it's not about getting you drunk to hear you profess your love for money.

Then he asked, "Then do you have a girl you like?"

Without thinking too much, Yan Xin said, "Yes, Sister Tianxian..."

Ai Lili quickly stopped: "I'm not asking about your celebrity, but about the girls you've met in real life, do you like them?"

When I asked this question, I felt a little nervous.

There is a little expectation, and a little fear.

It's also fortunate that Ai Lili interrupted early, otherwise Yan Xin would have said all about "big power power" and "koi sister".

It is reasonable to say that Mimi is big, at least she has shown her face in Brother Xiaoming's version of "The Legend of Condor Heroes". Although she is not popular, she can be regarded as a star.

As for the koi sister, it will take more than ten years to show up.

When people drink too much, they can't control themselves a little bit, and some words that they usually don't say will be uttered under the catalysis of alcohol.

It's not necessarily true, it's just that the probability of telling the truth is higher.

Alcohol makes it easy to hide secrets.

Hearing the question Ai Lili asked, Yan Xin was stunned for a moment, and said: "In reality... there are people I like too... Sister Lily, I like it..."

Ai Lili showed a smile on her face, very happy, thinking: "Is it finally not hidden?"

After thinking about it, he asked again: "Then...how much do you like it?"

Yan Xin glanced at her, his eyes a little hidden: "I dare not say."

Ellie asked, "Why?"

"I'm afraid you will scold me if I say it." Yan Xin said embarrassedly.

"I assure you, no matter what you say, I will not scold you." Ai Lili said.

"I..." Yan Xin leaned closer to her and whispered, "I like it so much that I want to do bad things to you..."

Ai Lili's face was hot, and she also whispered: "Did...what bad things did you do?"

Yan Xin looked at her: "I want to hug you..."

Ai Lili blushed: "Then... that's not a bad thing, right?"

Yan Xin said again: "I want to sleep with you..."

Ellie was a little flustered.

What she was expecting was not such an answer. She never thought that in Yan Xin's mind, such a standard was used to quantify the degree of liking.

Her own desire to escape.

Don't think getting a grown man drunk is such a good idea.

This game is a little dangerous.

But he still couldn't help asking: "Then...then why don't you sleep?"

When I asked this question, my voice was very low and trembling.

She was a little surprised when she asked such a question, how could she ask such a question.

It feels like a devil called impulse is sealed in the body, and it is about to burst out.

Now it is violently hitting her atrium, making her heart beat thumping.

This is a very dangerous game, but she has an urge to continue this dangerous game.

However, what Yan Xin said next calmed down her impulsiveness, and she even felt a little bit chilled.

"I'm going to sleep... I have to be responsible..." Yan Xin said, "I'm going to get married... I'm going to be together forever... This is too scary..."

Ai Lili took a deep breath, feeling that all the blood had cooled down.

——Is it because of this reason?

——Afraid of taking responsibility for her, so she has been keeping her distance.

There is some grievance in my heart: "Is it so terrible to marry me and stay with me for the rest of my life?"

At the beginning, her mother forced her to go on a blind date, almost every month. She was the only one who was unwilling to develop with others, and there was no one who was unwilling to develop with her.

I didn't expect to be disliked now, and the one who disliked was the person I liked.

This man was afraid of marrying himself.

Feeling hurt a lot.

I thought to myself: "Which point am I not worthy of you?"

Then think again: "Is it because I am a few years older than you? But is the gap in age really so frightening to you?"

She was born in 1981, and now she is twenty-five years old. Compared with Yan Xin, she is five years older. This is indeed her heart disease.

After being wronged, think about it carefully, it seems that there are quite a lot of men in this world who marry women younger than themselves, but very few men marry women older than themselves.

Especially the wealthy, the more wealth they have, the wider the age span of their partners.

Then there is some depression.

Thinking again: "Does he still dislike me for being an illegitimate daughter?"

But after this idea was born, she rejected it again.

It is true that she is an illegitimate daughter, but she has never told Yan Xin that it is impossible for him to know her parentage.

Then I thought: "Maybe he dislikes my mother and doesn't want to have such a mother-in-law, so he doesn't want to marry me..."

I think this possibility is quite high.

After all, her mother and Yan Xin had a fierce conflict.

In addition, she also thought about whether it was because her business ability was not enough.

She is not considered outstanding among her peers. Although the two jobs belong to the management, and they are in the senior management of the company she belongs to, it is obviously not because of her ability.

Other girls have such an opportunity, and maybe they can do better than her.

——At least I won't be scolded by the client every day for a period of time.

Compared with the people around Yan Xin, they don't seem to be outstanding.

Whether it's Chen Li, Gu Ru, or Xiao Yuan, they all get up slowly by relying on their own abilities.

Not to mention Yan Xin's partner who jointly opened an online store, a girl who is still in the third year of high school, can beat her in terms of business talent.

It's really people comparing people, making people mad.

The more I think about it, the more frustrated I become, as if I have many shortcomings, no wonder people are afraid of getting married.

Looking at Yan Xin whose face was flushed from drinking, thinking that this guy was afraid of spending his whole life with him, he felt very uncomfortable.

After being silent for a while, I still couldn't help asking: "Then do you have someone in your heart who you want to marry?"

Yan Xin tilted his head and thought for a while, then shook his head: "No, I'm afraid of getting married..."

"Why are you afraid of getting married?" Ellie asked, "What's so bad about being married?"

When I asked this question, I felt better again.

Although she didn't win, at least she didn't lose.

If Yan Xin said someone he wanted to marry, he would really lose.

"Marriage is too scary..." Yan Xin murmured, thinking of her marriage in her previous life, "When you get married, you have to live with one person for the rest of your life, and you have to be nagged by her and her parents every day. All kinds of cautiousness and all kinds of being looked down upon... Obviously looking at a very good person, living together is all kinds of trivial troubles, arguing endlessly over unnecessary things, and slowly obliterating all feelings... ...Same bed, different dreams, hate seeing each other, looks like an enemy, upset when you see it... You want to say divorce, but if you really want to divorce, people still hate you. You are so unhappy, and if you want to divorce, people still hate you Will you be unhappy, feel that you have failed her, will scold you, condemn you from the highest moral ground, and even bite you... If you have a child, it will be even more terrifying. No matter how reluctant you are, you have to endure it for the sake of your children, then you won't even have a chance of divorce..."

He said a lot of nagging, then held his head and said depressedly:

"What's so good about a day like this?"

Ai Lili was dumbfounded when she heard that, she didn't know where Yan Xin, who was not yet twenty years old, got all these messy feelings.

And, what the hell is "bite you"?

It was impossible for her to think that this was something that Yan Xin had experienced in his previous life. After much deliberation, she thought of a possibility—that Yan Xin had witnessed such a marriage, and then it left a shadow in his heart, and he developed a fear of marriage.

"Could it be that his parents' marriage life was not happy?"

she thought.

But it's not like that.

According to what she knew, Yan Xin's mother had passed away, and she died when he was in junior high school.

I also heard from Yan Xin that his parents have a good relationship.

"Could it be that his neighbors or relatives had such an unhappy couple, which left him with a psychological shadow?"

She had such a guess again.

The grievance in my heart has disappeared a lot - Yan Xin is afraid of marrying her, not because she has any opinions on her, but because she is simply afraid of married life.

Moreover, Yan Xin liked her but didn't dare to show it, because he was afraid that if he had an affair with her, he would spend the rest of his life with her. On the one hand, it showed that this young man was a bit timid, and on the other hand, didn't it prove that this young man had a sense of responsibility?

Because I am afraid of taking responsibility, I dare not express my love in my heart.

How many men nowadays have that sense of responsibility?

As long as you are happy in front of you, you will forget your future responsibilities, like someone casually, and then give up someone casually.

At least this young man, at least at this moment, still has a bottom line in his heart - he is afraid of taking responsibility, so he will not flirt.

In this day and age, it's hard to come by.

Thinking of this, his affection for Yan Xin deepened.

She felt that it was necessary to dispel Yan Xin's fear of marriage.

Said: "But some people are married, and the couple will live happily together."

Yan Xin shook his head: "Maybe it's just that they left the happy side to us, and the unhappy side is hidden, so we don't want people to see it."

Based on the experience of his married life in his previous life, he could argue about anything.

He didn't think that two people could hold back their quarrel after living together for a long time.

Ai Lili said: "Do you think I will scold you?"

Yan Xin looked at her for a while, then thought for a while, and said, "Probably not..."

"Absolutely not," Ai Lili said, "If I am with the person I like, then I will definitely treat him well, cook delicious food for him every day, treat him with the best side, let him The days are getting happier and happier, it is impossible to blame him, abuse him, and make everyone suffer together..."

"Well, you are a very gentle person...you wouldn't do that..." Yan Xin murmured.

Ai Lili was secretly happy, feeling that she was highly regarded in Yan Xin's heart.

He also said: "I am not only gentle, I can also cook."

She blushed quite a bit when she said this.

That is to say, Yan Xin is drunk now, she dares to say such a thing.

Usually she is not so shameless.

It was also partly due to the alcohol she had been drinking, which also played a role in her.

It's just that her drinking capacity is much larger than Yan Xin's, and she is not affected that much.

But it can't be completely unaffected.

Yan Xin hummed, and then glanced at the food on the table, four dishes and one soup, it was quite rich for two people, but it was almost enough.

The taste is really good.

Nodding: "Yes, your food is pretty good."

After a while, he added: "The food is much better than Feng Xi's."

Ai Lili has already learned that the girl who opened the online store with Yan Xin is surnamed Feng, because the supervisor of the Nishang Yuyi online store that she is in touch with calls her boss Feng, but he doesn't know the name.

Now that Yan Xin mentioned this name, he naturally guessed that it was the collaborator of the online shop.

The name of the first online store they opened was "Golden Morning Sunshine". "Jin" was taken out of Yan Xin's "Xin" character. Needless to say, the word "Xi" is Feng Xi's Xi.

Thinking of this, I feel a little uncomfortable.

He asked again: "Then do you like Feng Xi?"

That female high school student was a heart problem for her, and she had already listed it as her strongest competitor.

They all say the truth after drinking, and she wants to hear Yan Xin's truth after drinking.

When Yan Xin heard this question, she quickly shook her head: "I don't like her, how could I like her?"

The reaction was quite intense, leaving no room for hesitation.

Ai Lili was secretly happy, and asked again: "Why? Isn't she very capable?"

"She..." Yan Xin hesitated for a moment before saying, "She is a wicked woman!"

Ai Lili was taken aback: "Evil woman? Is she very fierce to you?"

"Yeah, she is very fierce," Yan Xin said, "This woman has a bad temper, if you see her in the future, stay away."

Ellie breathed a sigh of relief.

The person she listed as the strongest competitor turned out to be such an unbearable image in Yan Xin's heart, so she can rest assured.

But in her heart, she also left such an impression - Feng Xi is a woman who is not easy to mess with.