Rebirth, Starting from 2005

Hearing Yan Xin's words, Ai Lili was silent for a while before saying:

"It's not easy for my mother. For more than 20 years, she has devoted herself to me. She has paid a lot for me and regarded me as her reliance for the rest of her life. If I don't listen to her, she will be very sad. .”

Yan Xin said: "However, you should not listen to everything your parents say. Some words should be listened to, and some words should not be listened to."

"But if I don't obey, the consequences will be very serious." Ai Lili said.

"How serious is it?" Yan Xin couldn't understand.

"When I was fifteen or sixteen years old, I was also very rebellious. I felt that my mother was controlling me too much. I wanted to fight against my mother. Later... Later..."

At this point, Ai Lili suddenly couldn't speak anymore.

After a moment of silence, he said:

"Later my mother cut her wrist... She bled a lot that day, and the floor turned red..."

Yan Xin's eyes widened: "So exaggerated?"

Ai Lili didn't answer him, but the two hands holding the steering wheel were trembling slightly.

Obviously, the scene in her memory had a huge impact on her.

Yan Xin brought her into the scene and thought about it. The scene was indeed terrifying, and it was beyond a girl's psychological tolerance.

He had some doubts in his heart: "Who knows if he really committed suicide by cutting his wrists? After all, it's not impossible to fake it."

But this doubt is not easy to raise.

Recalling the scene at that time, Ai Lili's voice trembled a little, and she said: "Fortunately, I was rescued in the end. If I hadn't been rescued, I... I would be the culprit who forced my mother to death... I will never die in my life. Will be peaceful..."

It's not just that if he is not rescued, he will not be peaceful for the rest of his life.

She has been rescued, and now she recalls that scene with lingering fears - she almost forced her biological mother to death.

This pressure oppressed her for several years.

After a while, I calmed down my emotions, smiled again, and said to Yan Xin:

"Since then, I have never been stubborn with my mother. Although she is very strict with me, she is also for my own good. She is the kind of person who is willing to sacrifice her life for my good."

"After that, I haven't rebelled."

"I listened to her and didn't make friends who didn't help my future when I was studying."

"I don't know what kind of person can help me in the future, so I didn't have a single friend in high school."

"There are no male or female friends."

"It's because I'm stupid, I didn't get good grades in my studies, and I couldn't get into a good university."

"There is no way, my mother asked me to study abroad again."

"Others think that I am an international student returning from overseas, which is amazing. In fact, I studied abroad because I couldn't get into a good university. I went to a community college."

"During the years when I was in university abroad, my mother was worried about me. She was afraid that if I was left alone, it would turn bad, so she also went to study abroad with me. She really put her mind on me."

"I have studied abroad for several years, and I have not made any friends."

"After returning to China, I originally wanted to find another job. After all, the signboard of international students is still useful. Others don't know that I actually studied at a community college with poor teaching quality. I am willing to offer a job that is higher than that of a famous domestic university. salary to hire me, but my mother disagreed, she asked me to work in Fengxiang Property..."

"I know she's doing it for my own good, so I'm here."

"She is worried about my vision and won't let me fall in love, but she very much hopes that I will get married earlier, and will arrange for me to go on a blind date almost every month. They are all promising and capable people carefully selected by her. .”

"But I don't like those people..."

"I know she is doing it for my own good. Every blind date she chooses can make my material life more secure in the future, but I really can't accept it..."

He obviously said it with a smile, but just talking, his eyes became moist.

Yan Xin didn't know what to say.

What Ai Lili said was that her mother was kind to her, but such a description made him feel suffocated.

Such a mother is terrible.

Maybe Ai Lili really thought her mother was doing it for her own good, but Yan Xin didn't think so.

In his memory, after Ai Lili got into a car accident, the mother didn't show too much sadness, and was more fighting for her own interests.

She may have really put a lot of energy into this daughter, and even bet everything on herself.

But that was not for her daughter's happiness, but for her own happiness - including arranging for Ai Lili to go on a blind date with a so-called promising and capable person.

A mother who persecutes her daughter by self-harm, and a mother who asks her daughter to obey her own opinions in everything, Yan Xin has no way to think that this will be a loving mother.

However, he couldn't get those words out.

Originally thought that Ai Lili, as the illegitimate daughter of a real estate boss, should live a happy life, but hearing her say that, she was not happy at all.

The economic conditions are good, I can live in a good house, I can drive a good car, and I don’t need money.

But the personal space is so tightly controlled that I don't have my own life, but only live for others.

Such a life is also quite sad.

Ai Lili has never said these words to others, and there has never been such a person who can listen to her.

After saying it this time, I felt as if I was complaining about her mother, so I smiled again and said:

"Actually, my mother is a little more strict with me. She treats me well in other aspects. She is mainly worried that I am young and inexperienced. I don't know the complexity of society, and I am afraid that I will be led astray."

Yan Xin couldn't say anything, so he could only nod in agreement: "I can understand parents' concerns about their children."

But I couldn't help but said: "But I have seen so many strict parents, and I have never seen one as strict as your mother."

Ai Lili thought to herself: "I haven't seen it either..."

I can only explain in a low voice: "Everyone is different, and every parent is also different."

Today was a very happy day, but the last happiness was ruined by a phone call, and both of them were a little depressed.

After that, they didn't talk about this topic again.

At the beginning, the atmosphere has not returned to the original.

The red Mazda drove all the way, and encountered a traffic jam on the road, but it was not very serious.

When encountering a traffic jam, Ai Lili looked a little anxious, obviously worried that she would not be able to get home before 8:30, and she would not be able to explain to her mother.

Fortunately, enough time was left, and when I finally went back, it was only ten past eight.

The car stopped at an intersection, and Ai Lili said apologetically, "I should have sent you to where you live, but today is a bit rushed, so I can only send you here, I will give you ten yuan , you can call back later."

The place where she parked was only half a mile away from the building where she lived. She didn't dare to park too close, for fear that her mother would find out that she had brought a man back, so she could only park here.

After finishing speaking, he also took out ten yuan to give to Yan Xin.

Rejected by Yan Xin, he said with a smile:

"I don't need this one. It's not far from where I live. I just want to eat and exercise after eating. Just walk over there."

Ai Lili forced it to him: "Take it, it's five or six miles away, it's too tiring to walk there."