Reborn girl from poor family

Shen Huai noticed Su Ya's gaze and looked away from a distance. He found that Su Ya's face was almost filled with admiration mixed with heartache. He couldn't help but laugh and touched her head, "Don't look at me like that, without you." It's as good as you think, but it's not as hard as you think."

"It must be very hard." Su Ya whispered.

He promised the emperor and traveled all over China for him, but in the end his relatives were detained and he almost died alone and tragically in a distant place. He devoted himself to serving the country, but was always on guard. He must have felt sad.

But she had never seriously searched for these past experiences in him. Even if he said that he had a lot of troubles, and even when he put down all his pride and asked her for a home, she never looked into it seriously.

In her heart, she always believed that this was a short-lived relationship, so she naturally only looked at him. Even if she occasionally reflected on herself, she would always think that he was too powerful, and in the end she always thought that just responding to him was enough.

She really doesn't deserve his kindness to her.

"In short, I was young and inexperienced at that time, and the opportunity I could be valued was nothing more than the subtle checks and balances of the royal family."

When Shen Huai saw Su Ya's expression suddenly depressed, he slowed down his speaking speed and observed as he spoke: "As for later, the more places I traveled and the deeper the secrets I saw, I gradually became a As a truly 'useful' person, at that time, not only the Queen Mother and the Prince were afraid that I would travel far away and never return, but even the Emperor began to be wary of me seriously joining the Prince's camp, and this created a constraint."

Perhaps Su Ya's expression was too sad, so he quickly ended the topic: "Okay, that's about it."

He was worried about Su Ya, but Su Ya thought he was too late and asked: "Then when did the emperor stop them from leaving the capital?"

Su Ya sighed: "I'm too tired."

Su Ya really didn't expect this, but if he was willing to say it, she would also want to hear: "Why?"

Now she really understands: Shen Huai is addicted to taking care of others.

"It's really annoying." Su Ya said angrily.

"Well, I got angry," Shen Huai said with a smile: "I figured out the whole story, and naturally I got angry. Even the emperor and the queen mother wanted to make a fuss. How could there be room for my father to become drunk and crazy? He was about to take his grandparents away right now. Jing, just leave those few indifferent people to contain them."

Seeing that she really wanted to listen, Shen Huai continued to preach: "At that time, my grandparents wrote in a letter that they wanted to return to their hometown to worship their ancestors. But in the past two years, I have traveled all over the mountains and rivers. I have seen more joys and sorrows in the world, and my mood has become more open. I have a better understanding of their original choices, and I gradually let go of my resentment towards my mother..."

Su Ya felt sad that this fool, who clearly had a delicate heart, always acted extremely softly and lowly when facing the old man.

Thinking of those extravagant hopes that deceived himself and others, he shook his head slightly with self-deprecation: "For example, the situation at that time, I didn't want to be involved in those useless plots, and my father's life would not be affected if I left, so I thought that my grandparents were indifferent and should not miss the prosperity. , will always follow me."

She was full of anger and had nowhere to vent, so she held her face fiercely and squeezed out a complaint from the seam of her palm: "It's not like they compromised, it was you who compromised in the end, and you have to bear all the grievances!"

Shen Huai raised his hand to smooth her eyebrows, "I'm a little worried. It's so cold at high places. How can there be pure family affection in the royal family?"

The hand holding his face was too hard, squeezing the tender cheek flesh under his eyes. Shen Huai looked amused and couldn't help but reach out and poke it. As expected, it was smooth as expected. When he poked it again, Su Ya slapped him. Dropped: "Why do you keep poking at me?"

"But my grandparents won't go with you." Su Ya sighed softly.

"Well, Xiao Ya'er still understands people's hearts better than me," Shen Huai said with a smile: "I want to find a loophole that the royal family has not noticed yet and escape, but my grandparents won't cooperate."

She frowned and stared at Shen Huai, trying to find a trace of reluctance in his smile, but she couldn't find it.

"I have thought about it." Shen Huai stood up with a smile, picked a peach blossom that was in full bloom, and inserted it into Su Ya's bun. He looked around with a smile in his eyes, "Death is like a breeze. At that time, Even if I die, even though I am envious and jealous, I can’t care less. I just treat myself as a peach blossom and just decorate it for you.”

"Afterwards, it was my father who came over and cursed me to solve my confusion." He recalled the scene at that time and said with a self-deprecating smile: "My father can sometimes help save trouble. That day, he was so drunk that he forgot In order to be afraid of me, he rushed in and smashed a bunch of things, then pointed at my nose and cursed, saying that it was because of me that he had a name in Honglu Temple, but he could not even go out thirty miles outside the city. How many opportunities have you had to become famous."

"Because there is no choice," Shen Huai said seriously: "If I die in Huai'an, you will definitely be in trouble. Only my grandparents can protect you. Once I die, they will definitely feel guilty for me, since you are my last They should do everything they can to entrust you with it."

Shen Huai is just a sensible person, but he can't match the weight of those inhumane people!

Su Ya felt sorry for the sensible young man Shen Huai, but also felt sorry for the adult Shen Huai's wantlessness. If he hadn't tried his best to free himself and trudged alone in the white mountains and black waters, how could he have looked back so calmly?

Children who are too sensible are always ignored.

Su Ya understood.

"Just get used to it," Shen Huai reassured: "I deliberately avoid suspicion and never say anything out of bounds in my letters. The prince also has many of them. I never discuss political affairs in my correspondence. Therefore, although I knew about the turmoil in the court, I never Keep it in mind, I became suspicious when I saw my grandparents acting suddenly."

How could Shen Huai not know? But he said calmly: "I am an anomaly in the Shen family. Although I have some talents, I am unruly and hard to figure out. My grandparents don't say it, but they love their son more than me. This is not true. What an unfathomable thought."

"Ah?" Su Ya thought to herself, it was just a coincidence that the old grandmother was ill.

"The result was naturally very disappointing. They were shocked by my rebellion - the royal family only valued me so much that they would restrict me like this. How can ministers be picky? It's because I don't know what is good and what is wrong. My father even felt that wealth was in danger, so he scolded me if I continued to act recklessly. , will definitely ruin the future of him and the Shen family, and they are making a fuss that if they are implicated by me like this again, it would be better if they died right now."

"What happened later? Then my grandmother fell ill."

"Last year, before the Guangxi incident."

"My grandmother was mumbling while she was ill. She held on to my hand and kept repeating it, saying that it was so easy for this generation to have three children and grandchildren, but they were killing each other, which was heartbreaking. Please pray that if she shows love to me, she will give those few Leave a note to 'survive'."

He is so kind, but he is always mistreated, which makes people really angry!

"It's not about being nostalgic for prosperity." Su Ya said silently.

"Tell me carefully," Su Ya urged.

Su Ya lowered her eyes and touched his sleeve silently. Why is this person so good?

Shen Huai held her hand in his palm with his backhand, "I was determined to go back and relieve the old man's knot, so I wanted to go back to Beijing and escort them back to their hometown. It happened that I had just left the Tatar border, so I returned to Beijing from Datong to bring them back to their hometown. The border map was sent to the palace..."

Okay, now the image of Father Shen is very full in Su Ya's heart. She pursed her lips and said nothing.

He thought for a while and added: "Besides, even if I have extravagant expectations and they don't treat you well enough, it doesn't matter. You have the property I left behind to protect you, and you have Gao Gao Xu Yuan to help you. It can last for at least a year and a half." You can survive the impact of all the events in Huai'an in just a few years. Isn't the sea and the sky broad at that time, and you can do whatever you want?"

Shen Huai smiled and took back his hand and asked: "Are you thinking that I am so ignored at home, why did I entrust you to them in the first place?"

The pain that was hidden in time only condensed into his persistence for family and love.

Su Ya became even more angry.

"Why lie to you?" Shen Huai raised his eyebrows and said: "In the early years, when I chose not to kill my father, Zhao and others, I was thinking that if I didn't have my two elders to protect me, I would not be able to stabilize during the years when I lost my memory, so I decided to Let the old man spend his old age in peace. I am responsible for my own decisions. I have never thought of any exchange, and naturally I will not change my mind easily."

"It's just that I was too obsessed with wanting the love of my family, so I chose to turn a blind eye."

Shen Huai said calmly: "It's all over. Now I only feel a little bit disappointed when I think about it occasionally."

What's the big picture?

At this point, he suddenly paused and thought of someone. Seeing that Su Ya was listening intently, he swallowed the irrelevant details and continued: "I thought this trip was over and I could go home and get close to my grandparents." We were so close to each other, but unexpectedly, after returning home, they said they were not planning to go back to their hometown. They only told me that I had some things to do and that I had to take care of everything."

"Although the things I do for the Emperor are confidential, they are not necessarily hidden from anyone who cares. The Queen Mother is keenly aware of the Emperor's closeness to me, so naturally she has secretly put pressure on my grandmother. Changing the bank account is a struggle between all parties. That mother and son, father and son Everyone had their own calculations of gains and losses, and they felt that they could not completely control me, so they tacitly chose the same containment method."

beg?

Because the white-haired man lowered his stature, he was willing to let Shen Huai compromise and find a better future for his children and grandchildren who were not living up to expectations.

Su Ya frowned: "Is it the emperor and the queen mother who gave the order? You have worked so hard, why are they putting pressure on you at this time?"

Well, very good, this guy is thoughtful and appropriate!

"Besides, I had already learned to be calm at that time and understood that for them, the palms and backs of my hands were all flesh, so I made the choice based on the overall situation, and the rest could be compromised. This is not a fault."

Hearing this, Su Ya felt that countless big rocks were falling into her heart, making her unable to breathe, as if she was suffocated by being trapped in a swamp and unable to get out. This was Shen Huai's step by step retreat!

Shen Huai could tell what she was thinking just by looking at her, and it didn't matter. What he wanted was for her not to have too much respect for Father Shen. If she didn't have any illusions, she wouldn't be constrained, taken advantage of, or hurt.

Why is he so unruly? He is clearly the most soft-hearted person in the world.

"Because another crisis of changing the crown prince had just passed," Shen Huai said: "The prince narrowly kept his position as crown prince. The gap between father and son became deeper and deeper, and the atmosphere in the palace became more subtle. And because I have the reputation of being the prince's attendant, I have since As soon as I came out of the capital, I got the emperor's order and often wrote down the customs of various places in letters and told them to the prince."

Hearing this, Su Ya couldn't help but ask: "So the emperor doubts your position?"

Su Ya didn't believe it.

"You haven't thought about it," she asked deliberately: "If that's the case, all your money and hard planning will only help me in the end. I will have money and freedom at that time, and I will soon have my own life."

What does your new life, getting married and having children, have to do with you?"

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