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Chapter 273 Maybe this is love

At noon, Ai Lili made four dishes and one soup, and the two of them ate and drank, until they were almost done.

Adhering to the principle of not wasting the remaining soup, Ai Lili did not throw it away, but collected it.

It's a little lacking for a proper meal, but it's pretty good to use the soup and water with a bowl of noodles or something as a late-night snack.

This is how dinner for two is settled.

When the two of them got up to have dinner, it was already past eight o'clock in the evening. Because they were too energetic before, they now look quite lackluster.

After Ai Lili got up, her steps were staggering, her movements were weak, and she didn't have the energy to prepare for dinner, so she used the leftover vegetables from lunch to cook two bowls of noodles, and cracked two eggs into each bowl to fill her stomach.

, and also replenished some energy.

As for Yan Xin, his calves were soft and his arms were shaking when he was eating. He couldn't even lift the bowl, so he could only put the bowl on the dining table and lower his head to eat.

This is what a man who works too hard looks like.

After being reborn, I have endured it for more than a year. This time I was released. I was a bit over-consumed, so that the release exceeded the limit of my body's endurance.

After eating, I felt a little better. At least my hands and feet were no longer shaking and I could move normally.

After getting up from bed, Ai Lili didn't talk to Yan Xin much.

In Yan Xin's opinion, this is a girl's shyness.

It cannot be said that the guess is completely wrong. There are indeed factors in this regard, but it is more of a guilty conscience.

When she came out to make noodles, Yan Xin struggled to get up to help, but she stopped her and asked him to lie on the bed to rest and wait for his meal.

The main reason for doing this was that she didn't want Yan Xin to find out that she had cleaned up the dishes after eating at noon.

If Yan Xin discovered this, he would probably suspect that she was not that drunk at that time and that what happened next was all intentional on her part.

If this happens, I'm afraid there will be some trouble in the future.

Fortunately, Yan Xin didn't get up and cooked dinner to cover up all the evidence, saving a lot of embarrassment.

But after all, I still had something in my mind and didn't dare to say anything more to Yan Xin.

Yan Xin, on the other hand, was in a complicated mood and had no intention of being flirtatious with her.

There is communication between the two people, but this communication is more lively than before.

The noodles are quite delicious.

Yan Xin, who was in a tangled mood, couldn't help but have this thought: "It seems quite happy to spend a lifetime with Sister Lili."

Ai Lili has a disgusting mother, but Yan Xin doesn't care.

As long as you don't act like a monster in front of him, that's fine.

Thinking about it this way, my mood gradually became less entangled.

Anyway, we have reached this point, what else can we do?

Feng Xi's side...

I can only stop thinking about it.

There was still a thought in my mind: "That's good, I don't have to deal with his parents in this life."

After finishing the meal, Ai Lili put away the dishes and chopsticks, and then pulled down the sheets on Yan Xin's bed. Instead of putting them in the washing machine, she hand-washed some stains.

I washed it by hand several times, looked at it carefully under the light, and found no other problems before putting it in the washing machine.

During the whole process, Yan Xin did not participate, but sat on the sofa in the living room to rest.

After putting the sheets in the washing machine for cleaning, Ai Lili walked to the living room, lowered her head and said to Yan Xin, "I'm going back."

Yan Xin had some surprises - he thought she was going to stay the night, but he didn't expect that she would go back to Ru's side.

But there is also a feeling of relief - it's better to leave, otherwise if you mess around at night, these old bones will fall apart.

Ai Lili seems to be a quiet person. I didn't expect that she can be so tossing, and sometimes she can be very proactive.

Thinking of some of the scenes that happened before, my heart felt hot again, and I felt a little eager to try.

He quickly suppressed his thoughts and warned himself in his heart: "Restrain, young people must restrain themselves! This is too harmful to the body!"

In the current state of the two of them, if they slept together at night, the consequences would probably be quite serious, including death or disability.

Asked Ellie: "Do you want me to take you there?"

Ai Lili felt happy and was willing to send her back. That was because she found no flaws and felt much more relaxed. Then she shook her head and smiled sweetly:

"No, you'd better rest more. It's just a few steps, there won't be any danger."

Yan Xin really felt that he was still weak now, so he didn't show off and said, "Then walk slowly."

Ellie left and closed the door behind her.

She felt a little uncomfortable physically, but the relationship between the two had made new progress, and her confession had been responded to by the other party, so she was still very happy.

When she returned to Gu Ru's house, Gu Ru was eating fruit alone in the living room, still in neutral mode as usual.

Seeing Ellie coming back, I was stunned for a moment: "Why are you back?"

Ai Lili blushed: "Ah? I live here and I will definitely come back."

I was thinking: "Does she know about Yan Xin and me?"

Feeling very embarrassed.

When Gu Ru saw the embarrassment on Ai Lili's face, she knew that she was shy, so she didn't tease her. She just said: "I mean, why did you come back so early today? You usually have to go for a walk after eating."

I won’t be back until ten o’clock.”

Ellie said hesitantly: "I will eat earlier today, so I will finish my walk earlier."

Gu Ru thought to herself: "You are coaxing ghosts. I also went out for a walk at night and didn't see you."

When she was walking in the community, she looked specifically at 21A, Building 5, and saw a light there. She was sure that the two people were there, and she didn't know what to do. Anyway, they were not walking.

It was not easy for her to reveal this, so she just smiled and said: "So that's it."

Ai Lili had something in her mind and didn't dare to have too many conversations with her, so she just said: "Sister Ru, I'm going to take a shower first, so I won't chat with you."

Gu Ru said: "Go ahead, I'll go to bed after eating this fruit."

It was actually a little inconvenient for Ellie to move, but in order to prevent others from noticing the problem, she endured the pain and walked as usual, entered the bedroom, found her pajamas, and then went to take a shower.

After coming out of the shower, Gu Ru had already gone back to the bedroom, and there was no one in the living room.

She returned to her bedroom, put herself under the quilt, and thought about what happened today, her face turned red and her heartbeat accelerated.

If possible, she would rather lie on Yan Xin's bed now, or preferably in his arms.

It felt so good that she missed it so much.

However, she is also a little afraid of being with Yan Xin.

My body can't bear the torment, and it's still hurting now.

What's more important is that when you are with the people you like, you can't help but want to do the things you like.

But she didn't want to be too proactive and make Yan Xin think she was a shameless woman.

——Thinking of the things she did when Yan Xin was drunk, she felt very ashamed and felt that she was quite shameless.

Fortunately, no one saw it at that time, so she could let herself go.

But under Yan Xin's gaze, she was really embarrassed to let herself go.

But she was afraid that she couldn't help it.

Before, she found that she seemed to be unable to help letting herself go, and some scenes now make her feel ashamed when she thinks about them.

This is still with some reservations.

She couldn't even imagine what it would be like if she completely unreservedly let herself go completely.

Even if it happens in the future, it will have to be discussed later.

You can't be so unrestrained in the beginning.

So, she chose to come back.

At this time, I still regretted this choice - if I had continued to stay at Yan Xin's place, I would have been able to lie in the same bed, even if I did nothing but cuddle up together, I would have been very happy.

Of course, it would be happier to have some interaction, as long as it is not the kind of interaction that is very frustrating.

As I thought about it, my heart became hot again, and my legs were twisted together.

He took out his cell phone and sent a message to Yan Xin: "I miss you."

She had already confessed her feelings and received a response from the other party. At this time, she no longer had so much reserve.

Soon, Yan Xin replied: "I miss you too."

In fact, it is a perfectly normal response. It can even be said to be a somewhat mechanical response, without any soul.

But in Aili's eyes, these words were full of affection, as if she heard Yan Xin speaking these words softly in her ear.

She really wanted to return to Yan Xin, lie in his arms, and listen to him say these words himself.

Send another message: "Yan Xin, I love you!"

When in person, she can only say "like" at most, but dare not say "love".

I like this word, it has a wide range of applications.

The word love is relatively narrow.

She only dared to say this online.

Yan Xin's reply was still very formal: "I love you too."

Perhaps feeling that such a reply was too perfunctory, Yan Xin quickly sent another message: "Are you feeling better?"

Ai Lili blushed and touched the injured area, which still hurt a little.

He grabbed the tissue on the bedside table and wiped his fingers, then replied: "It still hurts a little."

Yan Xin: "I'm sorry, I couldn't control myself."

Ellie: "It's okay. It's not your fault. It's my wish."

Yan Xin: "You have a good rest."

Ellie: "Yeah."

After a while, there was no new message from Yan Xin, so he sent another message:

"There are still some vegetables that I bought today that have not been cooked. I will cook for you after get off work at noon tomorrow."

Yan Xin: "You only have two hours of rest at noon. Wouldn't it be a bit too tiring to cook when you come back from get off work?"

It can still be done, it can be made simpler.

But Ai Lili thought about it and decided to come back to cook after get off work at 12 o'clock at noon. After finishing the meal and putting away the dishes, it would be almost time to go to work.

There was enough time, but it was a little too rushed.

So he said: "Then let's do it tonight. Whatever you want to eat for lunch tomorrow, I will bring it to you after get off work."

This way you can save some time to do other things.

Although you don’t have to do anything, you must at least set aside some time to do it.

——What if Yan Xin wants to?

As his girlfriend, shouldn't you satisfy his needs?

Even if Yan Xin doesn't have that need, as a qualified girlfriend, she should proactively help him create such a need.

At this time, she already regarded herself as Yan Xin's girlfriend.

They have already confessed their feelings to each other, so shouldn’t they be in a relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend?

Yan Xin replied: "Then I'll trouble you."

Ellie: "No trouble, I'm willing."

There is a word called love, which is not a good word, but it can very well explain Ellie’s current state.

At this time, she was so passionate that she couldn't wait to keep chatting with Yan Xin.

It is best to chat under a quilt.

Yan Xin's reply was a little slow, and she sent another message: "Would you like me to wear the black ribbon tomorrow and show it to you?"

She knew Yan Xin liked this.

Although I don’t know why he likes this, but since he likes this, it can satisfy him.

At this moment, she is willing to meet any request Yan Xin makes of her.

It doesn't matter whether she likes it or not, as long as the person she likes likes it, she will like it too.

The previous struggle with Yan Xin was the same. In fact, many times she didn't feel so happy, and it was more accompanied by physical pain.

However, she could feel Yan Xin's pleasure, so she endured the pain in her body to accompany him.

As long as she can make the person she likes like her, she is willing to go through all the trouble.

Yan Xin replied more reservedly: "Well, the weather is so cold, why don't you give it up?"

Ellie: "It doesn't matter. Turn on the air conditioner in your room. Then it won't be cold."

Yan Xin: "Okay."

Ellie: "I'll bring the short skirt over and show you how to wear it with the short skirt."

Yan Xin: "Okay!"

Ellie posted another one: "Do you want to wear high heels?"

Yan Xin: "Can you wear high heels?"

Ellie: "I haven't worn it, so I don't know, but I can give it a try."

The black stockings and high heels were what she saw on the forum of Xingguang.com.

There is a gender forum on Xingguang.com, which is a gathering place for old perverts. A large number of real-life otakus who have no courage use their imaginations and discuss all kinds of strange fetishes on this forum. It is simply unsightly.

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Ellie also learned some knowledge from it.

She wanted to show her best side to Yan Xin and satisfy his fantasies as much as possible.

On the other side, Yan Xin looked at the chat history and felt bad.

I thought to myself: "Does Sister Lily still have such an unrestrained side? How come I have never discovered it?"

This contrast is a bit big.

But after thinking about it carefully, he had never had the chance to discover this from Ellie before.

No matter whether it was in the previous life or this life, there was no such opportunity to discover this.

After all, this kind of chat is just a chat between lovers.

Thinking back to my previous life, I and Feng Xi had been married for several years, and we were an old married couple, but we had never had such a passionate chat.

He had revealed similar wishes several times, and then Feng Xi glared at him: "You're crazy! If you don't have the energy to think about making money, what are you doing with all this nonsense?"

After putting forward strange ideas several times, I did not receive a positive response. Instead, I was poured cold water on me. In the end, I never mentioned such a thing again.

This was the first time he had encountered such a chat.

Speaking of which, it must be attributed to the fact that he and Feng Xi did not get married through falling in love, but through blind dates. It was just that when they reached the age where they needed to get married, they chose to get married.

Before getting married, there was no basis for a relationship. At most, I studied the other person's basic conditions and felt that they could still get along, and then they got together.

That marriage is for life, not for love.

He really didn't know what it felt like to be in love and to be human for two lifetimes.

Never experienced it.

But at this moment, he seemed to feel this way.

"Maybe, this is love?"

He thought so in his heart.

When you like someone, you like them so much that you want to sacrifice everything you have to give them.

The only thing that can do this is the existence and legendary love.

He had such emotion, but this emotion was not directed at his own feelings, but towards Ellie.

He felt Ellie's passion for him.

But he also knew that he did not have the same enthusiasm for Ellie.

He can't treat Ellie like Ellie does to him, and he doesn't have the urge to give everything.

Understanding this made him feel more guilty towards Ellie.

Materially, he can give the same response, or even double or even multiple times the response, but emotionally, he cannot give the same response.

As a human being in two lifetimes, it is impossible for him to have the kind of blazing emotions that can make people desperate.

When people are young, their hearts are not young.

At an age when he could impulsively and desperately love someone, he had not encountered such love, and he was not even qualified to love someone.

Now I have the qualifications, but I have passed that age and no longer have that teenage mentality.

I feel a little sad when I think about it.

But as for regrets, there is nothing to regret.

The years are passing by, and the days must pass slowly and steadily. Being too impulsive is not a good thing.

After chatting with Ellie for more than half an hour, I finally couldn't bear the fatigue of my body and said good night to her.

Exit QQ, plug in the charger for your phone, then turn off the lights and go to sleep.

I fell asleep within a few minutes.

He had many dreams that night and was awakened many times from his dreams.

He dreamed about Ellie, and dreamed about doing the same things he did during the day with her.

But it was Feng Xi who dreamed more.

I dreamed that Feng Xi asked him with tears on his face:

"Why are you doing this?"

"Why did you abandon me?"

"Why did you betray me?"

He also dreamed that Feng Xi jumped on his shoulder and bit him hard on the shoulder.

It was a heart-wrenching pain, a pain that penetrated to the bone marrow.

I wake up from the dream again and again, and dream again and again.

Every time I wake up from a dream, I feel pain.

I don't know if it's heartache or pain in my shoulder.

I will try to update it with 10,000 words tomorrow, which will probably be one chapter, a big chapter with 10,000 words.

How much depends on how much can be updated.

(End of chapter)