Reborn since 2005

Chapter 354 Having enough food and clothing and knowing one’s shame

Author: Hometown Three Thousand Miles

Aili's question made Yan Xin feel guilty.

The more guilty you feel, the more calm you need to be.

He hugged Ellie and said softly: "Don't worry, I will never be like him."

He won't be the same as Chen Li, that's because what he has done now is even more excessive than Chen Li.

So strictly speaking, there is nothing wrong with what he said.

Aili buried her head in his arms and said, "I'm really afraid that one day you will become like this."

"No, absolutely not." Yan Xin could only try his best to comfort him.

As he spoke, he patted her back gently with his hand.

But I regretted it in my heart: "If I had known that drinking would cause so many troubles, I shouldn't have let them drink at that time. It would have been better not to eat together."

He even felt a little dissatisfied with Chen Li: "I am also implicated in this bad thing."

Just as I was thinking about it, I suddenly heard Ellie crying in my arms and said: "During the time you left, I had several nightmares. I dreamed that you had another woman, and I dreamed that you were dumped. This period...

You spend very little time chatting with me and your tone is very perfunctory. I’m really scared..."

Yan Xin's body stiffened.

He was a little strange to begin with, and felt that Ellie had overreacted today.

Normally, when a friend encounters something like that, he or she can sympathize with or even hate the other person, but not to the point of making oneself so sad.

Now I understand that it was because she was with Feng Xi during this period that she was left out in the cold and made her feel a sense of crisis.

The pessimism that had accumulated during this period was now triggered by Liang Wei's experience.

At this moment, her sadness was related to Liang Wei, but more importantly, it was for herself.

Thinking of this, he felt even more guilty.

But besides continuing to coax Ellie, he didn't know what to do - or in other words, he knew what the right thing to do was, but he wasn't prepared to do it right.

I could only coax Ellie, saying that I was not that kind of person, and apologized for being indifferent to her during this period, and explained that there were too many things at work, and I really didn’t have time to chat with her, and then because I was too busy

, did not notice her emotions, expressed deep apology for this, and promised not to do it again next time.

But he knew that such a guarantee had no credibility because he couldn't do it.

This kind of thing will definitely happen in the future, and it will happen more than once - as long as this kind of concealment continues.

After coaxing her for a long time, Ai Lili's mood stabilized, and then she said to him sheepishly with tears in her eyes:

"I'm sorry. I lost my temper just now. I didn't control myself well and took my anger out on you."

Yan Xin couldn't get angry anymore and said with a smile: "It's true that I didn't do a good job and made you feel insecure."

"It's not your problem, it's Chen Li's problem. He was too ruthless and unkind to Xiaowei," Ai Lili said.

Yan Xin followed her words and said: "He also has problems, but his problems are his problems. I must also admit my own problems."

"It's okay with you, it's just my imagination." Ellie said.

I couldn't control myself when I was excited. After I calmed down and reviewed what happened, I felt that I was being too unreasonable.

I'm afraid that such behavior will arouse Yan Xin's disgust.

Looking at him eagerly, he said: "Husband, I doubted you just now...you...you're not angry, are you?"

"I'm not angry," Yan Xin said with a smile, "How can I be angry? I'm not angry at all."

Ai Lili didn't believe it: "Are you really not angry? Husband!"

"Really not angry."

Yan Xin felt a little guilty, thinking:

"I am a scumbag, and I have done such a bad thing, how can I get angry?"

His guilty conscience flashed across his face and fell into Ellie's eyes, causing her to misunderstand him.

She felt that this was a sign that Yan Xin was angry. He was obviously angry and felt that his sincerity was not trusted, but because he wanted to coax her, he could only force a smile to show that he was not angry.

Thinking about it this way, she felt that she was sorry for Yan Xin by saying those words just now and betrayed his true love for her.

Said: "Husband, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have doubted your feelings for me."

These words made Yan Xin feel a little unnatural. He was obviously a bad person, but he asked someone to apologize to him. That was too bad.

He smiled and said, "I told you I'm not angry, so don't think too much."

The unnatural look on his face fell in Ellie's eyes, making her feel that he was not thinking at the same time.

Apologizing with words could no longer make up for her mistakes, so she decided to make up for it with actions.

So, she slowly slid her body down until her whole body slid into the bed.

Yan Xin shuddered.

I originally wanted to explain to Ellie that I was really not angry, so that she wouldn't misunderstand.

But seeing the way she apologized now, I thought, if there is a misunderstanding, then it is a misunderstanding. When men and women get along, a little misunderstanding is inevitable, as long as it is not a contradiction of principle.

——Everyone wanted to apologize so sincerely, so it seemed unnecessary to stop others from apologizing, so I just accepted Ellie's apology.

I looked at the time and it was already after midnight.

They went to bed relatively late this night.

Liang Wei's bus was at 0:40. After she got on the bus, Ai Lili sent her a message to confirm that she got on the bus, and then she fell asleep peacefully.

In more than ten hours, Liang Wei will return to her hometown.

When she came out, she was a working girl with nothing. When she came back, she had hundreds of thousands of savings and the title of a popular online female writer. In a sense, it can be regarded as a homecoming.

While Ailili and Liang Wei were chatting on QQ, Yan Xin suddenly remembered what Chen Li said and said to Ailili:

"Chen Li said that if Liang Wei has any financial requirements, he can ask him, and he can agree within 500,000. How about you ask Liang Wei if he needs financial compensation?"

Ai Lili was dumbfounded: "Compensation for what? Why do we need financial compensation when two people are together and break up? What does Chen Li mean? Is he using money to humiliate Xiaowei?"

In her heart, it is quite shameful to convert companionship into money.

Because of Ai Jing, she is more sensitive than others, so she feels that such things are even more shameful.

So she felt that Chen Li's offer of such compensation was an insult to Liang Wei's character.

"This is called breakup fee, also called youth loss fee," Yan Xin explained, "If you search online, there are many such things."

After hearing that there were many such things, Ai Lili calmed down a little, but she still couldn't understand this way of dealing with it - it was obviously very disrespectful to girls, and the core of the spirit was that girls' companionship could be converted into money.

It's objectifying girls.

Said: "Youth loss fee, making such an argument is looking down on girls, isn't it?"

Yan Xin smiled bitterly: "Um... Under normal circumstances, this is requested by the woman. It is they who ask for compensation for the breakup, not the man who takes the initiative. You have to know that most ordinary people in our country are relatively poor. Generally,

No man would take the initiative to pay such a so-called youth compensation. When I was in my hometown, I saw some big fights over the breakup fee."

Ai Lili was stunned for a while, and then said depressedly: "Well, my living conditions are too good, and I don't understand these people's sufferings."

But she still hesitated: "Asking Xiaowei like this will make her angry and make her feel offended?"

Yan Xin was also undecided and could only speculate: "Probably not? Xiaowei also comes from an ordinary family, so she should have some understanding of these things and not think that the breakup fee is humiliating her."

If Liang Wei was still working as a real estate agent, Yan Xin could be sure that she would never be offended.

At that time, Liang Wei needed money very much and had a strong desire for money.

When she and Chen Li first got together, it was just an unspoken story between a real estate agent and a house buyer, not a love story.

But he was really not sure whether Liang Wei would feel offended now.

Because now Liang Wei has become a well-known online writer, and has received hundreds of thousands of manuscript fees, and the manuscript fees for physical publishing have not yet been settled. In total, the wealth that this novel has brought to her is

Over a million.

And he will continue to create wealth for her in the future.

Hundreds of thousands of dollars are no longer that important to her and will not be related to survival issues. Having it is certainly the icing on the cake, but not having it is no big deal and it will not have a big impact on her quality of life.

If you have enough food and clothing, you will know the etiquette. If you have enough food and clothing, you will know the integrity.

Only when you have a certain economic foundation can you afford to talk decently.

And Liang Wei is now more or less a decent person, and she is now in a position to be decent.

Of course, there will be some people who obviously can be decent but choose to be dishonorable.

Yan Xin didn't know what kind of person Liang Wei was.

Ellie insists that breaking up in this way is objectifying and humiliating women.

But she still mentioned this matter to Liang Wei - what if Liang Wei really needed these hundreds of thousands of dollars?

If Liang Wei loses this income because of her likes and dislikes, which then affects her life, wouldn't she become a sinner?

After sending the news, she actually felt very uneasy.

She didn't want Liang Wei to accept such breakup compensation.

If she accepted it, she would think that Liang Wei was a bit materialistic and gave up her dignity for money.

But she also hopes that Liang Wei can live a better life alone in the future and have better material conditions.

Even though she has been rich since she was a child and has some unrealistic ideas in life, she also knows that better material conditions can make people feel happier.

She hopes that Liang Wei can be happy and that the damage caused to her by this breakup can be as small as possible.

If compensating the breakup fee can make Liang Wei less sad, this is also a good thing for Liang Wei, and she has no reason to object.

But she hopes Liang Wei can refuse this kind of breakup compensation.

This is the behavior that an independent and self-reliant woman should behave. It is the most violent slap in the face to a ruthless and irresponsible man like Chen Li, and it shows the light of women.

In the midst of confusion, I received a reply from Liang Wei:

"Sister Lili, you can tell him that I, Liang Wei, can live a good life with my own abilities, and I don't need his compensation!"

Seeing such a reply, Ai Lili showed a smile on her face, and then said excitedly to Yan Xin: "Xiaowei said that she doesn't want the breakup fee. She said that she can live a good life on her own."

There is a sense of excitement and glory.

Yan Xin looked at her funny and said with emotion: "Chen Li is still vulgar. After living together for such a long time, he has not really understood what kind of person Liang Wei is."

Ai Lili said angrily: "He just looks down on women and thinks that others follow him just for his money."

"Yes, this is too bad." Yan Xin agreed casually.

But she was thinking in her heart: "But Liang Wei was with him in the first place because she wanted his money."

He had never told Ailili about this fact before, and Chen Li and Liang Wei were even less likely to say it, so Ailili never knew about it.

But he didn't want to tell Ellie the real situation.

Reality is too skinny, so let Aili, a kind-hearted woman, maintain more beautiful fantasies about the world.

It is also a happy thing to have illusions about the world. There is no need to expose other people's happiness.

They go to bed very late at night and get up late the next day.

When Ellie woke up, it was already past eight in the morning. She quickly got up and packed up, and drove to work without even eating breakfast.

After arriving at the company, I called a nearby restaurant and asked them to deliver breakfast.

As for Yan Xin, the company does not have an office for him. He can go to work or not.

Since it's already so late, of course there's no need to go to work.

He was not as anxious as Ellie. He even ran around the community a few times before eating breakfast. After returning home, he took a shower, hid in his room, turned on the air conditioner, and lay on the bed playing with his mobile phone.

Ellie went to work, and he was at home alone. He could talk to whoever he wanted, and there was no need to be nervous at all.

I chatted with Feng Xi for more than an hour, saying a lot of earthy love words and talking about how much I missed each other.

But it was Chen Li who talked more.

The two of them live in the same community and could have met and chatted directly, but the weather was too hot and it was not as comfortable to lie down in someone else's home as in one's own. Yan Xin was unwilling to move and would rather chat on QQ.

Moreover, you can chat with many people at the same time on QQ, chat with people offline, and also use a mobile phone to chat with other people on QQ, which is somewhat disrespectful.

——Once in a while, forget it. If the frequency is too high, it would be too outrageous.

Even if he and Chen Li are very good friends, they can't be so rude.

She reported Liang Wei's current situation to Chen Li, told Chen Li that Liang Wei did not ask for breakup fees, and told Chen Li her exact words.

Chen Li didn't say much, he just said he didn't want it. Anyway, he would leave a sum of money there, and he would transfer it to Liang Wei whenever she needed it.

Yan Xin asked him a little sourly: "Now that Liang Wei has left and you are single again, are you ready to be as carefree and carefree as before, changing women every day?"

Chen Li answered honestly: "I have this idea. If you change one every day, you can always get freshness, it doesn't cost a lot of money, and you won't fall into the emotional pit. Isn't this better?"

Seeing such an answer, Yan Xin became angry and felt that Ai Lili's evaluation of this guy was correct, he was a bad man!

No matter how many people break up, they will be sad for a few days, but this guy thinks about how to be carefree and happy, and he changes his girl every day, which is infuriating just thinking about it.

Ask him: "Don't you want to find someone stable?"

"I don't want to." Chen Li answered simply.

Then he sent another message: "Find a stable one. There is no freshness, and you will be controlled by others. You will lose a lot of freedom. It's so boring. Now I can change it every day. As long as my body can tolerate it, I can even change it every day."

Two or three, isn't it better to live like this? Why should I find an ancestor to support me at home? I suffered a loss once and make such a mistake again, then I will be a pig!"

Yan Xin felt that his lifestyle was not good, but at the same time he felt a little sour in his heart and felt that such a lifestyle was quite happy.

I want to refute, but I don’t know how to refute.

Because if he could think of it, he himself thought it was a bit stale.

It's useless to talk to Chen Li about his family, because he doesn't have a good impression of the family itself.

It's useless to talk to him about emotions. He doesn't even admit that there is such a thing as love in this world.

It was useless to tell him about responsibility. He just didn't want to take responsibility, so he decided not to get married or have children in this life.

With different values ​​and lifestyles, no one can convince anyone.

If it comes down to it, Yan Xin even feels that he is likely to be persuaded by this guy.

——You can change to a beautiful girl every day!

——Change one every day!

——You can even change two or three a day!

We all grew up watching educational films. Who doesn’t have some strange and bold ideas in their hearts?

If it weren't for Feng Xi and Ai Lili, two women he didn't want to hurt, Yan Xin might have chosen the same lifestyle as Chen Li.

He is also young, and he also has youthful delusions.

The most important thing is that he still has such conditions. His conditions are even better than Chen Li's, and they are much better.

However, when you are with Feng Xi or Ai Lili, the sense of emotional gain cannot be provided by those girls who can change at will.

So he chose his current lifestyle, even if this way made him fearful.

If you can't convince Chen Li, you can only respect, understand and wish him well.

In the chat with Chen Li, Yan Xin also revealed that Ai Lili was very dissatisfied with him, so he should be mentally prepared.

Chen Li was very embarrassed: "I felt it yesterday, but it doesn't matter. I am a bad person to begin with. It is normal for Sister Lili to look down on me. I will not go to your house to eat in the future, lest she be unhappy when she sees it.

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