Ruo Chun and Jing Ming

chapter20

On the night that autumn wind was raging, Du Ruo hid in the deserted playground stand and wept bitterly.

Crying for her crushed crush, crying for her trampled self-esteem, crying for the months of stress, trembling, and torment that have been suppressed for months since enrollment.

After crying, his tears ran dry and his throat was dull.

She spent a long time in the dark. The world is so big, she is alone. No one knew that she was heartbroken at the moment, and she couldn't talk to anyone.

There are always some injuries that will not be mentioned with anyone.

That night, Du Ruo packed up himself and did not let his roommates find out when he returned to the dormitory.

For a while, she could see nothing but quieter than usual.

This was the end of her first crush on life, and it ended very quickly and cruelly. No one even knew it had ever existed, just like the dark playground that day, no one knew she had cried in the middle of the night.

After thinking back and forth, I do not know how to survive, so painful period.

But how big is it? It's just a hole in a t-shirt, a word of rejection. It was just that the young girl at that time was too young and had greater self-esteem than heaven. Where do you know, when the soul grows up one day, that hole, that sentence is just the same, it's gone.

But she didn't understand then.

A little things are too big to pass by.

After that, she never went to the playground to read in the morning. She didn't even dare to look up when she walked, so she was afraid to meet Jingming. Even if I know it's not so easy to meet.

For a time, she fell into a deep self-denial-she was impoverished, useless, not beautiful, poorly dressed, without temperament, without specialties.

For so many years, I do not know how to feel sad, this time, she can be regarded as a thorough understanding of the word "inferiority".

She hated this, and wanted to help herself, she began to savage herself and pushed herself out of the comfort zone.

She forced herself to join the debating society, began to practice speaking and debating skills, and imitated learning with the members of the society. However, because of her weak background, her eloquence was far from the debate. When she first joined the society, she was a little shy and couldn't open it. mouth.

At a meal in the club, the members were happy and all drank some beer.

One senior senior sister, Zhai Miao, who has won a national excellent debater, asked her, "Du Ruo, why do you look so timid and always dare not try?"

Du Ruo had a sting in his heart at the time, and said softly, "I'm afraid of losing face. I'm afraid that others would laugh at me."

"Don't be embarrassed while you're young, learn more from your experience. What about the future?"

Her eyes were inexplicably wet: "But I don't know what to do. I also want to be good right away, like you. But I ..."

"You're fine already." Sister touched her head. "Don't look forward and look back, don't panic, take it slowly, try more. Think about it a hundred times in your head, and say it once and do it once. Talking about soldiers on paper is No. You know what? "

"Ok."

"Besides, why aren't you confident? You are better than us. Your college entrance exams are much more difficult than ours. You came from your hometown, and you picked a thousand miles. Did you look like this when you were studying before? Surely not Let's go. Then why come to a better place, instead of making yourself happier, but confused? "

The words awakened the dreamer.

At that moment, Du Ruo suddenly realized. Yes indeed. Why did she forget?

In her hometown, she is the best.

Since childhood, no one is better than her. She can easily understand the course and quickly remember the contents of the books, even after entering college.

It took me so long to enroll in school to remember that my original self was happy, confident, and shining.

Why did she forget?

Why only care about envying others, but forget about yourself?

Not long after, the sister recommended her to join the outdoor activity agency.

This time, if Du did not hesitate, he immediately agreed. She wanted to go out and see the world outside. It's time to go out and see.

She joined the outdoor activities club, and from time to time, she rode around the Third Ring and Fourth Ring with members from various faculties and climbed the Great Wall.

She gradually walked through the streets of Beijing, saw the ordinary people in the hutongs, saw the busy white-collar workers in the business district, saw the migrant workers sweating on the construction site, and saw the small merchants on the road ...

She also climbed up the high mountains, and saw the mountains stretch and the world was vast.

The world is changing every day. She is the same.

She split her time into eight parts, participated in extra-curricular activities, and did not delay her studies. The remaining time was spent in the library, studying the contents of textbooks, and studying high-end foreign technical courses.

Once, she was so busy and upset that she was still very busy, but now she was very well-organized and very full.

I was lucky enough to find a tutor in the neighborhood next to the school. The distance was close and the salary was not low.

Occasionally, when she was quiet alone, she would think about whether such desperation was to prove something.

she does not know.

Today, she couldn't think of the result, so she didn't rush to think about it. Let time resolve.

If there is anything that can easily ruin a person's self-confidence, it is better to like a person, and he not only dislikes you, but also looks down on you.

It is said that love is a good thing, that is the cheer of those who get it.

Only the lost know--

Love makes people humble, makes people cheap, and makes them ruin.

That's it.

As for her, just waiting for the day to pass, she slowly forgot the kind of shame. After disliked him, she was liberated and came out of that shameful inferiority complex. As if the boulder moved away, the grass broke out.

This is not done to prove anything. It's just her life, it should be, it should be. After a long walk, I finally went back from my lost path.

When she thought about it, she was locking the laboratory door, holding the inclination sensor she made in the bag, and she was satisfied and peaceful inside—this was not taught by the teacher, but she taught herself.

Some time ago, she found Teacher Yang Changqing and wanted to give the teacher an experimental project and learn a little by the way. But the teacher didn't think the freshman was suitable.

She is not in a hurry. She learns slowly and waits till the results are shown to the teacher. I believe it will surprise the teacher.

Three other people in the dormitory were also taking classes in the experimental building. Just after class, the four went back to the dormitory together.

The autumn went to the winter, and the campus was bleak.

Walking in the north wind, everyone couldn't help narrowing their necks and panting tremblingly.

He Huanhuan suddenly proposed: "It's too cold, it's time to change clothes. Let's go shopping together on the weekend to buy clothes. I think online shopping is always a little bad."

Du Ruo agreed: "Okay."

She saved a lot of money for tutoring lessons. She had already made up her mind to stop buying bargains. It's better to save a few defectives and buy a good one.

Qiu Yuchen: "That's what I meant."

After entering the dormitory building, a girl dressed in high-heeled shoes was walking in front of her. It was Jiang Xiaoyun who was opposite the dormitory.

Everyone knows each other, greeting each other with a smile.

Jiang Xiaoyun is a flower of the Department of Media. They are usually better dressed than girls in science and engineering. But she did take extra care today.

When she went away, He Huanhuan turned back: "Wow, it's so pretty, is this going to meet the boy?"

Xia Nan said, "She seems to be chasing Jingming."

Du Ruo's heart froze, and frowned uncomfortably.

Almost two months have passed since that night.

Seasons change, yellow leaves fall.

Only dry branches remained on the campus.

She has always avoided contacting him or hearing from him. If the class is close to his classroom, she will definitely take a detour; even in public classes, she will come and go in a hurry and never meet him.

But this time, it still stings.

He Huanhuan was very happy and said, "There are so many people chasing him, this is a good match. Right?"

Du Ruo echoed the words: "Yes, it's a good match."

...

She never visited Jingming's laboratory where they did the project. Once Li Wei asked her if she wanted to visit again. She refused because she went to the library. Li Wei never asked again.

One night, Du Ruo went to the laboratory alone to make a sensor. Before going upstairs, it was found that the laboratory to be visited was on the same floor as Jingming, so he deliberately bypassed the elevator farther away and did not pass by his side.

She tinkered with sound-sensitive materials, coils, resistors, circuit boards, screws, housings in the laboratory ... It took more than an hour for the sensors to complete.

Du Ruo was so satisfied that he placed the sensor solemnly and clapping vigorously in front of it: "Pop!"

The small light bulb on the sensor is not moving.

Du Ruo: "..."

She applauded a few more times and still didn't respond.

Du Ruo :? ? ?

She disassembled the sensor, the line was correct, reassembled it, applauded again, and the indicator light remained motionless.

The sound is too low?

Du Ruo thought about, leaned over to the sensor, shouted at it: "Hey!"

small bulb:"……"

"Roar!"

"..."

"Huo!"

"..."

"what!"

"..."

The sensor was motionless, as if deaf.

Du Ruo did not give up: "Ha! Ha! Ha!"

The figure at the door flashed a little, she was embarrassed, and immediately turned back, and suddenly hesitated.

Jing Ming stood at the door of the laboratory and looked at her impatiently: "What's noisy at night?"

Du Ruo: "..."

He hadn't seen him for more than a month, and his face looked strange, as if his hair had been cut short. The coat is also thicker and looks more expensive.

"What are you doing?" Jing Ming frowned, glancing at his head.

"No. Nothing." She moved away slightly, blocking the sensor.

But Jing Ming had sharp eyes and saw it at one glance. He walked towards her, pointed his chin aside, and said, "Let it be."

Du Ruo did not want to listen to him and said, "My ..."

He had just turned her away, picked up the sensor on the table and asked, "Sound sensitive?"

"……Ok."

He stretched out an open palm towards her. She didn't respond. He turned to look at her, his eyes were not friendly.

Du Ruo passed him the small screwdriver.

Jing Ming took it, removed the sensor two or three times, glanced at it, sneered with a grin, and shook his head. That way, not to mention contempt, and without talking, put things back in front of her.

He reached out and rang a finger, and made a clear, loud, light.

Du Ruo: "..."

The moment before he was still vomiting in his heart about the appearance of two to five thousand and eighty thousand, and then he was speechless.

She glanced up at him and asked, "What's wrong?"

"The primary and secondary coils are reversed. This kind of mistake has been made, and I don't think you can save it." He said in a low tone.

"Oh." She whispered, nothing else.

The lab was quiet for a while, the fluorescent light was on, and the small bulb on the sensor was on.

Outside the window, there are boundless winter nights.

Jing Ming originally talked casually, and he also knew that the content she was now operating had greatly exceeded the outline. But after the voicing was over, I saw nothing when she saw her.

Long time no see, she seems to have changed a little.

Nowhere can it be said for a while.

He didn't care, he picked up her paper and pen on the table, brushed and wrote a series of website addresses on it, and said, "Watch the course, find the materials, these places are there."

I dropped the pen and gave a condescending statement, "The technological breakthrough in the field of sensing lies in the material, and the principle of multi-learning circuits."

This man is like this. What attracts his eyes is always a machine, not a man.

Who used to be apathetic because of a "OK" sentence.

"Thank you." She nodded, still nothing else.

At this time, his cell phone rang, and it was still the English song she couldn't hear clearly.

He turned over and answered the phone: "Hey?"

I don't know what to say on that end.

He said, "Here it is."

He put down the phone, glanced at her, and left without saying goodbye.

The small bulb goes out at the same time.

Du Ruo looked down at his messy handwriting on the book, and looked at the small sensor, and he said nothing for a long time. For a while, she heard his footsteps disappear in the hallway, and heard the door slamming at the end.

Then she said, "Hello!"

This time, the small light bulb on the sensor lighted up obediently.

She sighed, and couldn't bear the waves in her heart, but was a little careless to annoy her.