secret chat room

In life, people will always encounter aliens who are incompatible with the mainstream.

The education we have received tells us that a gentleman is harmonious but not uniform, and he is equal but not inferior.

Unfortunately, most people are good at saying one thing with their mouths, but doing another thing subconsciously.

Isn't there an old joke like this: There are two kinds of people I hate the most, the first is racist people, and the second is black people.

It's quite funny when you first hear it.

But the more amusing I find it, the more it proves the truth contained in the cleverness of this paragraph.

This is true for heterogeneous people with different skin colors, and it is also true for other people with deeper levels of heterogeneity.

Hua Lingqian is obviously such an outlier.

At a very young age, Hua Lingqian discovered his differences.

Children don’t know what a transgender person is, and of course many of their parents may not understand either.

A child's initial outlook and behavior are inherited from the adults around him, so Hua Lingqian was called a sissy for the first time, and was treated as a freak for the first time.

So he learned to hide himself, followed his mother's advice and cut his hair short, took off his skirt and put on "normal" clothes.

Parents also think that their children are just young and ignorant at first, and will be fine as they grow older.

But only Hua Lingqian knew that this was not the case. He still felt extremely awkward and hated himself very much.

I hate myself for being an anomaly and my "abnormality".

Then he hid his true self and became taciturn, like a good boy, all the way to college.

Unlike before college, when he threw himself headlong into studies in order to contend with his strong sense of self-disidentity, college life broadened Hua Lingqian's horizons.

He came into contact with the cos circle by chance.

For the first time in his life, Hua Lingqian put on the women's clothing that he seemed to have avoided before, but actually dreamed of. Also relying on his feminine appearance, he could almost pass it off as real.

Then for the first time in his life, he received a wonderful recognition. At first, in individual forums and group chats, his cosplay pictures were sought after by some people.

Later, she became somewhat famous in a certain small circle, and she even secretly gave herself a "stage name" called Hua Lingqian.

By the way, he also gained his first love.

Of course, it's online dating.

Then I was defrauded of nearly half a year’s living expenses.

I can't tell my family about this, otherwise if they find out the truth after searching for the truth, Hua Lingqian doesn't know if they will collapse.

It was a very difficult time. I had two taels of white rice in the canteen, some free soup, and some pickled mustard. It was basically the standard meal for lunch and dinner every day. As for breakfast, I just had to carry it.

However, all this was seen by his dormitory director Li Shanghua. Li Shanghua was a rough-and-tumble Northeastern man. He saw the embarrassment of his roommate. During that short period of time, he often arrested him because he was too bored to eat alone. As a friend, I would take him out to eat out from time to time.

Growing up, because of the ulterior secrets hidden in his heart, Hua Lingqian's personality was a bit inconsistent, and there was a gap between him and his family, so he always immersed himself in books, and it can be said that there were basically few people outside. A friend you can talk to.

Under Li Shanghua's guidance, several other roommates seemed to accept Hua Lingqian, and they began to play together often.

In fact, it's not that the roommate rejected Hua Lingqian before, but it was because he closed himself off too much and made others feel the distance.

In his study and life, the enthusiastic and generous Li Shanghua was undoubtedly a ray of light in Hua Lingqian's gloomy days.

Since his sophomore year in college, Li Shanghua started to fall in love, and naturally he focused more time and attention on his girlfriend, instead of hanging out with his friends all day like before.

After all, there is no roommate with a girlfriend, right?

This is an ordinary thing. If it had been someone else, the worst he could do was laugh at him and say he values ​​sex over friends.

But this is undoubtedly a bit difficult for Hua Lingqian to accept.

The more embarrassed a person is, the more possessive they are of the things they only own, which is unimaginable to ordinary people.

Hua Lingqian's morbid mentality made him feel that someone was going to extinguish the light shining into his life.

The fire of jealousy burning in her heart made Hua Ling unable to face her true inner embarrassment.

I like my roommate Li Shanghua. It turns out that I have always been an anomaly.

But since I am an outlier, I might as well stick to it to the end!

He began to secretly cause trouble for Li Shanghua's girlfriend, such as spreading rumors on campus forums that she often drove in different luxury cars outside the school, and had several godfathers. He even posted photos of her in photos to make her look presentable.

Rumors often evaporate faster than eating sweet potatoes mixed with leek farts in a closed air.

Li Shanghua's girlfriend's reputation in school circles soon became subtle.

However, there is no way to keep your shoes wet when you often walk by the river. Li Shanghua accidentally discovered Hua Lingqian's evil behavior behind his back, and then he was directly blocked in an empty dormitory during class.

Just as Li Shanghua was questioning him loudly with a serious face, Hua Lingqian's reason, burned out by jealousy, finally collapsed and he shouted crazily with a louder voice than Li Shanghua, "Yes! I did it! Why? Then?" It's because you are mine! No one can take it away!"

Li Shanghua was stunned, and for a moment he seemed to think that he had heard wrongly.

"Yes, you heard it right, I did this because I like you."

There was a moment of silence.

Li Shanghua's face turned from red to blue, then from blue to white, his eyes widened, his throat rolled, he opened his mouth, and cursed in a low voice like a groan, "You... you pervert!"

As soon as he finished speaking, Li Shanghua, who had come to attack the enemy with great force, walked away without looking back as if he was avoiding the plague. He even tripped over the threshold before going out.

Hua Lingqian, who seemed to be crying and smiling, was left standing alone in the dormitory.

…

Not long after, the fact that he was gay, liked women's clothing, and fell in love with his roommate, and secretly deliberately framed the scandal of slandering the reputation of his roommate's girlfriend, began to be widely circulated on campus, with his high-definition and uncensored photo and class pictures on the post. Name, someone even forwarded this matter to an off-campus website with added embarrassment.

His life suddenly exploded.

His classmates and roommates began to avoid him. Whether he was in class, going to the cafeteria to eat, or even walking on the street, Hua Lingqian seemed to feel that passers-by were pointing at him.

The counselor began to tactfully hint to him whether he should drop out of school. Even his father called and cursed him, and his mother even sighed on the other end of the phone.

social death.

What he did to Li Shanghua's girlfriend came back to him like karma, twice as much.

Just when Hua Lingqian was wandering on the edge of darkness, as if he was going to fall completely into hell in the next second.

A message alert came over, it was a chat group that mysteriously appeared on his computer.

At the beginning, he even chatted with the people inside several times with great interest. After all, communication on the Internet was the window through which he was most familiar with expressing his emotions.

Because so many things have happened in recent days, this chat group has almost been forgotten by him.

Hua Lingqian slowly looked at the computer screen.

Xingmang: "Are you there? I seem to have discovered something particularly weird."