Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide It

The airport is spacious and brightly lit.

People around, all kinds of sounds covered the childish whine. She felt a little embarrassed, and wanted to find a hole to hide herself, and also wanted to stop the tears, pretending that nothing had happened.

Either way, at least not like now.

Feel extremely self-conscious.

The woman was very beautiful and gentle in speaking, and she was a very good person at first glance. In life and emotion, it should help him a lot. Unlike her, everyone is rebellious and reckless. Like a burden, it will always cause him trouble.

From the beginning, it was an extra existence.

Useless.

He also needs to take care of her with extra energy when he is busy.

Looking at Sang Zhi's fear of crying, Duan Jiaxu suddenly remembered her first meeting with her.

At that time, she still cried arrogantly and had no regrets about anything, and her biggest worry was nothing more than the "please parents" that the teacher said today.

Did you really grow up?

Or maybe it was just too much tone.

Duan Jiaxu lightly pursed his lips. He didn't have a tissue on his body, and he could only wipe her tears with the sleeves of her coat over her: "Don't cry, my brother didn't think you were in trouble."

"..."

"It's cold here, put on your coat."

Sang Zhi sniffed and obediently.

"You can figure it out yourself, just know what's wrong." Duan Jiaxu said slowly, "Everyone doesn't want to be angry with you, they are worried that you will have an accident, you are in a hurry, you know?"

She lowered her eyes and choked, "I know."

"Get up and wash your face." Duan Jiaxu glanced at the phone. He seemed a little uncomfortable. He turned his head and coughed twice before continuing to say, "Brother takes you to lunch first."

Sangzhi shook her head slightly: "I'm not hungry."

"What isn't hungry?" Duan Jiaxu stood up and said lightly, "Are you planning a hunger strike for a man?"

"..."

"Child." Then Duan Xuox looked around and pointed not far away. "The toilet is over there, can you see it?"

San Zhi paused for a few seconds and nodded.

"I used to wash my face." Duan Jiaxu thought for a while and said, "Give me your ID card, and my brother will help you to ask for the ticket, and I will find you later. Don't run around."

Seeing this, the woman next to her said, "I'll take her there."

Sang Zhi handed her the ID from her bag, stood up silently, and looked subconsciously towards the woman.

The next second, Duan Jiaxu said, "No."

Listening to these two words, San Zhi walked towards the toilet without saying a word. After walking a distance, she suddenly stopped and looked in the same direction.

Sang Zhi could see the two still standing.

The woman wore a black slim dress and outlined her good figure. The skirt was stabbed with a retro pattern and was as long as the middle of the calf. She was tall, about one meter seven, and was only half as short as Duan Xu in high heels. There was a smile on his face, not knowing what to say, and then he reached out and patted his arm.

Then, Sang Zhi saw that Duan Jiaxu also laughed.

She pressed her lips hard, and looked away.

Sang Zhi went into the toilet and looked at herself in the mirror. The eyes were red and swollen, the nose was red, and there were tears on his face. She lowered her head and repeatedly flushed her face with water.

The cold water irritated the skin and re-stimulated her tear glands.

No matter how I wash it, I still cry.

An old lady nearby saw her like this and asked subconsciously, "Are you all right, little girl?"

Sang Zhi smoked a tissue and said with a lowered eye, "This water is too cold."

She seemed to have found a reason for the outbreak, and tears fell uncontrollably: "Why is this water so cold ..."

"Then don't wash it." The grandmother didn't find the reason strange, sighed, took a warm baby from the bag and handed it to her, "These two days are a bit cold, I remember to wear more clothes."

Sang Zhi didn't answer, sobbed and said, "No, thank you, grandma."

The grandma said nothing, but just soothed a few more words and left.

After a short while, Sangzhi reluctantly adjusted his mood. Taking notice of the blazer on her body, she took off and hugged her arms and walked out.

Duan Xuan was already waiting for her outside.

This time he was left alone. The woman just didn't know where to go.

Sangzhi walked over.

When she saw the coat in her hand, Duan Xu frowned. "How do I take off my clothes?"

"I was just afraid to get dirty after washing my face." Sangzhi lied casually, his voice with a heavy nasal voice, "and I'm not cold."

She glanced and said, "You wear it."

Duan Jiaxu didn't do anything but just stared at her. After a short while, he sighed subtlely, his eyebrows lowered: "Is the brother just too aggressive?"

Sangzhi shook her head: "No."

"Then all of your kids are forgetful?" Duan Jiaxu put on her coat again. "It's only been one year now, how can you be like a stranger to your brother?"

"..."

He said slowly: "You can make your brother too sad."

Sang Zhi didn't know what to say, so she opened the topic: "Are there any tickets?"

"Well, I bought you two o'clock in the afternoon." Duan Jiaxu gave her the boarding pass and ID card. "I have already got it for you. Go to eat first, and I'll check you out later . "

"Okay," said Silent for a few seconds, "how much."

"Not much money." Duan Jiaxu loosened the tie around his neck and didn't care much. "What do you want to eat?"

Mulberry: "It's okay."

Duan Jiaxu took her into a McDonald's at the airport.

They ordered something casually, but neither seemed appetizing. He didn't mention the woman just now, nor did she say where she went. Sang Zhi didn't have the courage to ask.

Afraid to hear the word "girlfriend" from his mouth, she would not be able to maintain her expression.

Maybe she noticed that she was in a bad mood, and Duan Xuhui would say a few words from time to time to tease her. His throat is a bit dumb and he always coughs over his head when talking.

Sang Zhi couldn't help asking: "Are you sick?"

"Um." Duan Jiaxu casually said, "a bit cold."

Sang Zhi was quiet for a while before he said, "You remember to take medicine."

Duan Jiaxu laughed: "Thank Xiao Sangzhi for your concern."

He played with the box given by Sang Zhi, raising his eyebrows and asking, "Can my brother open it?"

Mulberry bit his fries and nodded silently.

Inside is a tie.

Dark red background with black and white stripes.

Duan Jiaxu touched the box without looking at it, and closed the box with a few glances. The corners of his eyes were bent, and his mood seemed extremely good.

Sang Zhi heard. Soon, she wiped her hands with a paper towel, pulled out all the cash she brought from the schoolbag, and stuffed it into the pocket of the blazer.

The two sat for a while.

Seeing that the time was almost up, Duan Xuox got up, sent the child to the security checkpoint, and ordered a few words: "After going back, listen to the words of your uncle and aunt, study well, and stop being unhappy because of this matter."

Sang Zhi took off his coat and gave him back: "I see."

She paused for a few seconds, and suddenly came out the phrase: "Compliment Brother, you don't need to tell me."

——If you are in love, don't tell me.

Duan Jiaxu didn't understand, her eyes moved: "Huh?"

Sang Zhi didn't explain, squeezed a smile, and walked backward in the direction of the security checkpoint. Then she waved to him: "Then, I hope you are happy every day."

It may be that the windows are all bought out, and the naive position is beside the aisle. She didn't cry anymore. After getting on the plane, she asked for a blanket with the stewardess, and slept on her head.

She had a dream.

Dreamed that she was not thirteen when she met Duan Xuan.

But eighteen years old.

She dreamed that she was still seven years old with Duan Xuan, but it was no longer a bridging gulf.

Dream of her dreams come true.

Dreamed that secret crush can also be, not just a matter of one person.

Get off the plane.

Sang Zhi turned on her cell phone and called Sang Yan. After a few hours, his anger has converged a lot, his voice is particularly calm: "You come to t2 exit, I am waiting for you here."

She obediently followed her and went out.

When going out, Sang Zhi saw Sang Yan's figure, and then lowered his head and hung up the phone.

Sang Yan walked over, glanced at her face, seemed to want to say something, and swallowed it all back quickly. He grabbed her by the wrist and said lightly, "Forget it, I won't scold you. Go home."

"..."

"On your teacher's side, Mom helped you take time off." Sang Yan's tone was very bad. "How can my parents scold you after I go back, I can't help. Because I want to scold you too."

"..."

"You really are now--"

Before he finished speaking, he heard the sound of Sang Zhi sniffing his nose.

Sang Yan stopped his voice, turned his head, stared at Sang Zhi's head, and couldn't see her. He stopped, sighed suddenly, and opened his arms at her: "Hey, devil."

"..."

"Don't cry, it's no big deal to lose love," Sang Yan said, "come here, brother hug."

Back home, Sang Rong and Li Ping have not yet returned.

This time she went out, it seems that she really just went to school in the morning, went to school in the afternoon, and then returned home. Everything is no different than usual.

Sang Zhi walked into the room, silently putting together the dolls on the bed, the gifts that had been appreciated in recent years, and the milk bottle on the windowsill. She stared at the empty bedside table and thought of the piggy bank that she had broken into pieces.

She got up and tore off the photo of the University of Iowa on the wall.

Staring for a while.

Tears suddenly began to fall again, hitting one by one.

Repeatedly in my mind, Duan Xu looked at the woman smiling.

Mulberry wiped with the palm of his hand. Because he was crying, his whole body was shaking. She looked up, slowly, and stuck the photo back again. Later, from her drawing book, she took out the slips in which she had been trapped and wrote those two dreams.

Picking up the pen, Sanzhi quickly crossed out the second one.

Unrealizable dream.

It should be discarded.

She has liked men since she was thirteen.

She had a crush on her since she was thirteen.

Since then, I have the idea to grow up and be with him.

Now it is found in mulberry.

Perhaps, even if she really grows up, he is already with others.

Or, even if she really grows up, in his eyes, she is still the one who would cry because she couldn't get her homework, and never grow up.

Sang Zhi began to reduce his connection with Duan Xuan.

He would still buy her gifts during the holiday season, and after each quiz, he would also ask her for her results. Sang Zhi would reply, but would no longer answer his call.

When he asked, he just used the excuse of "too busy to learn" to confuse him.

Only on holidays and on his birthday, Sangzhi would send blessing text messages. After all, this person really loves her as a younger sister and really treats her well.

She couldn't do it, completely treating him as never before.

If he couldn't do that, he just lost contact with him directly.

Sang Zhi did not take the initiative to ask Duan Xuan's situation, and also blocked his circle of friends. She put all her energies on her studies and chose science in her second year of high school. She also applied to live on campus, and for a long time, she did not even bring her cell phone.

The grades are also mentioned from the middle to the upper grades.

The little girl's features gradually widened, her jaw became sharp, and her eyes were large and bright. Her skin was naturally white and her lips rosy. When you laugh, there will be two small pear vortexes on the lips, cute and beautiful.

The figure seemed to draw a strip, and reached one meter six five.

Sang Zhi gradually became famous in the grade.

Because of its beautiful appearance, it is also considered by some to be a class flower privately. Moreover, the physics teacher in the key class always took her by the mouth and boasted that she was extraordinarily proud.

Because of this, many people know that there is a female school bully in the key science class, with a very beautiful soft sister face, and most importantly, her grades have never fallen into the top five.

Basic scores of physical scores.

The grades are good and beautiful.

The combination of these two points has become the "goddess" in the school days of others.

Sang Zhi can often find milk snacks from people he does n’t know on the table, flip over the drawer, and somehow pull out a love letter. Back to the dormitory after late repairs, occasionally blocked by a staircase to confess.

She refused and returned everything. Gradually, these things are gone.

In the junior year of high school, a sports student in the class next door started chasing her. After training every day, he will bring a lot of snacks to Sang Zhi, and after late repair, he will come to pick her up on time.

She didn't think much about it, but at a certain moment, she found that the person's voice and speaking tone were similar to those of Duan Xu, and she didn't say anything resolute after that.

After two weeks.

The sports student confessed to her.

His voice was still similar to Duan Xu's, but his tone was tense and stumbling.

Sang Zhi has never heard Duan Xun's tone.

It also allowed her to return to God in an instant, and seriously rejected his confession according to Duan's praise for teaching her.

She felt emotionally embarrassed.

If you like one person, it is difficult to like another person.

But no matter how she is, she can't spoil the relationship between herself and others.

For someone who cannot be forgotten for a while, choose someone who is similar to him and use this person as a substitute.

It's just because of this that Sanji occasionally feels.

When I think of Duan Xu again, she doesn't seem to feel so sad. Because with his memories, only the last time he met, it was gray.

The rest of the time is mottled.

Fresh and beautiful.

At the end of June of the following year, the scores of the college entrance examination came out. She played steadily, more than a hundred points above the main line. With this achievement, she can go to two universities.

The family hoped that she could apply for Nanwu University, and did not want her to go too far.

Sang Zhi thought about it for a long time, and finally filled the University of Yihe.

Not the same as before. Just because she wants to apply for a major in digital media arts, in comparison, the University of Yihe is better.

On the day of reporting to school, Sang Zhi didn't bring much luggage, only carrying a schoolbag and suitcase.

Sang Rong originally asked Sang Yan to accompany her to pass by, but Sang Zhi felt that there was nothing to accompany them. After a long time, they were relieved and agreed to let her pass alone.

Sang Yan said that he asked Duan Xuan to pick her up, and Sang Zhi refused.

She said it's been too long since I saw her, so I don't bother people.

Sang Zhi got off the plane, left the airport, and got on the school bus at the University of Yihe, where he picked up at the airport. Under the leadership of the seniors, she checked in, received the dormitory number, and bought daily necessities.

Say hello to the roommates, and gradually become familiar with them.

She attended military training and began classes and community activities after the end. All she had to do when she dreamed about the future was one thing missing.

The main purpose of Sangzhi came to Yihe.

It seems that in the process, it gradually became an insignificant thing.

In mid-October, Sang Zhi had a roommate's birthday. The group took two subway stops and ate at a seafood restaurant. After the meeting, it was too early to see, and they decided to sing at the nearby KtV.

It happens to be Saturday, and there is no access to the school.

They spend more time than singing.

Sang Zhi wanted to stay out of the incident and was still drank several cups.

There were more than a dozen people squeezed in the small booth, and it was easy to get up close with drinking. It quickly became hot and stuffy. She felt noisy and annoying, and for the reason of going to the toilet, ran out to ventilate.

In addition to the gate, this KtV has a small door. After exiting, there is a corridor connecting a nearby supermarket and KFC.

The temperature outside is slightly cool and extraordinarily comfortable.

The corridor lights seemed to be broken, flashing.

The sight is too dim.

Sang Zhi lay on the railing and wanted to pull out his mobile phone from his pocket to play. Inexplicably, she found a square in her pocket.

She didn't hold her ground and rolled down to the ground not far away.

Looking down, I found that it was a pack of ladies' cigarettes.

Sang Zhi was going to pick it up, and suddenly found a man standing near the smoke. He is tall and thin, wearing a simple white shirt.

From this perspective, only the outline of his side face can be seen, which is vague. The man leaned against the wall with a cigarette at his fingertips, emitting a scarlet light.

She felt a little familiar.

Did not dare to guess at his own thoughts.

Sang Zhi thought that the pack of cigarettes should be tucked into her pocket by her roommate. She pursed her lips, lowered her head, and took two steps to the other side, trying to pick it up.

At this time, the man was moving.

His eyelids moved, and he bent down slowly to help her pick up the pack of cigarettes.

The lights on the ceiling did not flash at this moment.

Sangzhi saw what he looked like.

Peach blossom eyes, evil face. And that pair of smiles, always sloppy.

She saw him staring at the pack of cigarettes, and then quickly raised her eyes, like the slow motion in the old movie, hit her in sight. Then he raised an eyebrow and asked, "Little mulberry?"

As ever before.