self-discipline! Have you ever seen Marlin Vandor at four in the morning?

Zefa’s eyes were as red as the devil, his voice was hoarse like iron, and even spit out with excitement.

He grabbed Roy’s neck desperately, and his eyes, which had experienced countless vicissitudes, were full of pain.

yes,

Stinky boy,

You go desperately like this

Does it really make sense?

Even the old man who had been silently watching next to me

I can’t stand it!!

Daily training is like a life and death battle by you;

The study after class makes you feel like you are gritting your teeth;

And this should have been an ordinary swordsmanship lesson

In the end, you are lying in this hospital room full of injuries!!

Is it really worth it?

Self-discipline is a good thing

But what about self-abuse?

Zefa gritted his teeth tightly, looking like he hated iron but not steel.

“I know,”

Roy suddenly laughed

“Zefa-sensei, I really know.”

He looked at Zefa seriously and said word by word.

“Actually, I want to be like everyone else…”

He smiled softly, calmly, and with yearning.

“Classes are simply in class, and those seemingly useless cultural classes can slip away…”

“After class, I simply throw away the books and don’t think about learning at all…”

“When you are in a good mood, go to bubble female classmates, even if the confession is rejected, it doesn’t matter, anyway, the next one is more well;”

“心情不好的时候嘛，就跟其他同学跑出去打打牌赌赌钱撸撸串喝喝酒，输赢无所谓，醉不醉无所谓；”

“That kind of life is really comfortable, very comfortable…”

But I can’t.

The existence of the system makes it impossible for me to do such a freewheeling and unrestrained way.

But come to think of it,

Roy couldn’t help but shake his head gently

Even if the system really does not exist, is such a life really what you want?

Ask yourself

Ask yourself from the bottom

of your heart

Even if this “damn it” system never existed

Would he really eat and wait for death like this?

Let’s be honest,

He actually had the answer in his heart.

This is not the calm, comfortable, peaceful earth he used to be.

It’s a different world.

Self-discipline alone is not enough.

It’s full of danger

Any pirate can take his own life.

Not to mention the four emperors of the new world…

Only masochistic efforts can truly improve their ability to survive.

Even if I want to be like everyone else, make a salted fish.

But what scared Roy was

So someday,

When you really need to have a certain ability

When to protect those who need protection

What if…

In case he is still as weak as he is now,

So what to do?

Others he might be able to leave alone

But what about your own classmates?

What about your own teacher?

Even if it’s only for a short time

He has also become bound to other military school freshmen.

It’s true that he’s a crosser, but he also has feelings.

And the military environment is the most able to cultivate feelings.

So,

He spoke

Laughing more wantonly and cheerfully, but in my mind I recalled the scenes of the past.

The originally incomparably familiar picture, the picture of life on earth, unconsciously, became strange and distant.

And everything in front of you quickly becomes incomparably clear and real.

“Zefa-sensei, tell me two

words from your heart…”

“I come from a very distant place, and my hometown is very peaceful and free,” he said

“Even if you don’t have the slightest strength, or even just an ordinary person who can’t help it, you can live a life without worrying about clothes and drinking…”

“I used to be, in the words of the army, a waste that ate and waited to die.”

“I can lie on the couch all day and let someone bring me something to drink and eat.”

“I have never been on a boat in my life, let alone seen the sea with my own eyes;”

“I have never seen the magnificence of the sky, let alone the sufferings of the world;”

“If there are no accidents, I will live comfortably and mediocrely, and finally die…”

“Maybe in the end I will be able to get a wife who doesn’t care so much about whether I have money or a house;”

“She doesn’t need to be beautiful, she just needs to be nice enough for me.”

“If you can give birth to a big white fat man and raise him peacefully until he grows up, it will be perfect…”

“And when I die, maybe a few old friends shed a few tears at my funeral, and then said goodbye completely and never saw me again.”

“That’s a very ordinary life…”

As the words slowly spoke, Roy could feel that the big hand holding his throat was gradually loosening.

“In the past, I felt that grades were not important at all, that could only represent the achievements of my student days.”

“后来啊，我发现，原来人的成就，其实从一开始就能够看得清楚。”

“Hard work and self-discipline are habits that will last throughout a person’s life.”

“I may be self-disciplined, I may be masochistic, but it doesn’t matter at all.”

“The important thing is that I know a very simple truth…

“—I may not be able to stand at that height in ten years, but at least …

Roy’s tired eyes gradually bloomed with an incomparably determined light.

“My current attitude determines whether I am a waste that needs to be protected by someone in ten years, or a figure who can protect others!”

Effort, self-discipline, hard work,

Does it really work?

Can talent really be beaten?

Roy didn’t know,

Zefa doesn’t know either,

Nobody knows.

But ah, it’s better than doing nothing, right?

Zefa looked at Roy with a resolute look in front of him with stunned eyes, suddenly let go of his hand, and let out a long sigh.

“So you decided?”

“Even if it’s in a way that borders on abusing yourself, you have to be stronger?”

“Even if you end up full of injuries or even die, you don’t hesitate?”

Roy smiled and nodded.

“Yes,”

“Actually, there aren’t many reasons, Zefa-sensei.”

“If I had to find a reason,” he said

“That’s what I want to answer with confidence to the next question.”

He fixed his eyes on Zefa

“If life ends here, I… Are there no regrets? ”

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This is not a peaceful country, this is a chaotic sea, and the most basic self-discipline, perhaps, is not enough.

Thank you for your suggestions, the book review area may not be returned, but in fact I will read it, I will work hard.