Soul Painter

The seventh mask group picture is from a pair of ordinary parents.

When Gao Fan visited this family, he just knocked on the door, and heard a child screaming hysterically from inside the door. After waiting to enter the door, the gift he was holding was immediately snatched away by a little boy wielding a toy sword. Let's go, the parents chased the child and said in a pleading tone: "Xiaojie, Xiaojie, don't take it, it's someone else's property."

The little boy screamed, "I'm going to have to go, I'm going to have to go." The parents stood at one side helplessly, like two ministers facing an irritable king. From their expressions, Gao Fan saw the extreme "sense of being needed".

They need their children to need them. This sentence is very awkward. It can be explained that their needs for their children far exceed their needs for them. This makes them face their children as if they are facing God who can decide their life and death.

Gao Fan marveled at how this distorted family atmosphere was formed, and completed his seventh mask painting "Desire".

The eighth group painting "Cowardice" is from a believer who believes in a religion that promotes the end of the world. He is almost devout. He participates in various rallies every day and preaches to the general public. He agrees with it from heart to action own beliefs.

At the same time, there was another job selling insurance.

"Selling insurance is a part-time job, and faith is my official job." He said to Gao Fan.

Gao Fan understands his life, he has also struggled, but his salary cannot keep up with housing prices, and his enthusiasm cannot catch up with love. Gao Fan sees an urban youth whose dreams are defeated by reality, and the final choice is to convert his soul to God—— —It was the easiest way to do this, he conceded defeat and won.

The ninth group painting "Love and Desire", she is an old leftover woman, she was once beautiful, and now she still has the tail of youth. When chatting with Gao Fan, she looks graceful and graceful. She recalls her past and prostrates herself one by one. The man under the pomegranate skirt, she is committed to pursuing true love, but true love can't be too poor, can't be too ugly, can't be rich, can't be poor boy, and at the same time must be the soul she admires. good result.

"Do you know? I'm posting on Moments now, and there's not even a flirt~ No one believes it, but it's true." The loneliness in her smile and the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes are equally obvious.

In the tenth group painting "Indulgence", Gao Fan stayed with him in the Internet cafe for six hours. During these six hours, the conversation between the two did not exceed five sentences, but Gao Fan finished his painting draft. When Gao Fan left , this third-year boy who has lived in the Internet cafe for half a year and still wants to live there, glanced thoughtfully at Gao Fan's back, and then started yelling at the screen again: "Kill the Buddha first!"

In the eleventh series of paintings "Arrogance", Gao Fan saw this old man in the nursing home, and the years had deeply imprinted a look of contempt on his face, so that now he just stood there, even the pet dogs raised in the nursing home would He kept a respectful distance from him, Gao Fan just happened to see his son being scolded away by him when he came, just because he didn't bring the cigarettes that the old man specially ordered.

"The nursing home won't let you smoke..."

"I shouldn't have given birth to you back then! Useless stuff!"

After his son left, the old man sat lonely in the garden, his back slightly bent, but when other people passed by, he still straightened his body, showing a contemptuous expression.

The twelfth picture group "Desire for Prosperity", Gao Fan asked the deputy director to take him to the city hall for a tour, and it was completed.

The thirteenth picture group "Stupidness", Gao Fan returned to prison to collect materials, an old man who tried to use poison to make his granddaughter dumb, just in exchange for a second child quota - the second child policy was not yet open at that time, and this An old man is about to expire his sentence in prison, but he said that he doesn't know how to face his family after he gets out.

"I'm all for carrying on the family line..." the old man said painfully.

By this time, more than three months had passed, and it was mid-November.

It has been half a year since Gao Fan returned to China.

Except for the auction in Xiangjiang, he traveled between Pengcheng and Tianshi to collect materials and complete his own mask group paintings.

From time to time, Lu Guoying came to Gaofan's studio and walked around, seeing more and more finished paintings placed in Gaofan's studio, the different themes displayed in the mask paintings, those with lines He became more silent and unable to comment on the shocking masks formed, but only told Gao Fan, who was indulging in creation, to take care of his body.

Gao Fan did not regret choosing "Mask" as the theme of his first group creation, but this group of paintings did have a great impact on him. During these three months, he felt that his SAN value dropped a bit quickly , although they can make up for it, all the theme paintings he created, those negative human life that must be deeply understood, still made him gradually feel pain and despair.

After the beginning of winter, it is winter.

Gao Fan felt that this early winter in Ping City was extremely cold.

On the day of the winter solstice, the rare heavy snow fell for a whole day.

Xin Wei did not come for a few days.

When she came again, she specially chose a sunny weekend, which was also the second day of the winter solstice, thinking that she must take the 'caveman' Gao Fan out for a walk, otherwise he would have green hair.

In winter after snow, the sky is exceptionally clear.

After Xin Wei opened the door of Gao Fan's studio with the key, he turned to the wall facing the entrance and saw Gao Fan painting in front of the window.

The snow color reflected the sunlight on Gao Fan's side face.

Gao Fan is wearing a thick sweater. Because he is thin, he is particularly afraid of the cold. When he wears a thick sweater, he looks like a cotton ball. From this angle, the light and shadow reflect his facial contours, making his face look three-dimensional. He is concentrating on his work. Zhide paints the painting, but Xin Wei knows that this should be the last mask-themed painting created by Gao Fan.

In the studio, there are fourteen other theme paintings, but they are all covered with white linen. Gao Fan doesn't like Xin Wei looking at his paintings, and Xin Wei doesn't know why.

Now, Xin Wei quietly stood behind Gao Fan.

Meow~God lay on the cat climbing frame next to Gao Fan and let out a cry, as if greeting Xin Wei.

This obviously does not bother Gao Fan who has already entered the state of creation.

Xin Wei saw that Gao Fan used ocher as the main tone to paint an old-fashioned mask on his canvas. A large amount of black was used as a rendering, and piled up around the ocher mask, like a rainstorm surrounded by dark clouds, and an army surrounded by flags. The moment she saw the canvas, she felt a lot of gloomy emotions hit her face like a storm, and for a moment, it made her almost breathless.

The black and ochre in the picture, as if gushing out from the canvas, turned into a violent, depressive, and breathless gloomy emotion, which was stuffed into the eyes of the viewer. At this moment, Xin Wei felt despair. , Desperation, boundless desolation and grief, growing like weeds in her chest, crowding out all the living space of hope, leaving no ray of light.

What surprised Xin Wei even more was that the outline of this mask was thin and profound. Isn't this...Gao Fan?

The last mask painting, is it a self-portrait?

Chapter 3~