Stir Up the Whole World

When Pei was young, before four years old, she was a very quiet and well-behaved child.

He doesn't like to play outside, and often holds pictures and children's books carefully selected by his mother at home. He likes the world in books, it's funny and cute.

Because he was too lively and didn't make much friends, except for staying alone, he was with his mother. Mom is a very special and important being to Pei Ye, and he has never seen his father.

If he wouldn't know something about that person from his mother's mouth, he almost thought he didn't have a dad when he was a kid, but other kids have it, he certainly has it, but he hasn't seen it, but he doesn't know it.

However, he knew from a very young age that the person was bad. The man who was called Dad ruthlessly abandoned him and his mother and left without looking back.

When I was a child, I had heard too much about that person, and if my mother wanted him to study well and work hard, Pei Ye had never doubted that he had to work very hard. He also felt that his mother was very hard and not easy. He should really listen to his mother. Later, he went to kindergarten and school. The collective life allowed him to gradually contact more people and learn more, and gradually realized that the lives of others are different from his own.

In fact, Pei Ye never complained about his origin. He always seemed to understand that he had no choice but to blame the woman who had paid too much for it.

He devoted all his energy to studying according to his mother's expectations, and worked hard to meet her expectations, never disappointing her. until--

Pei Min remembered that it was in his third grade. Once, the teacher arranged for him to publish a paper with a few classmates. That afternoon, he came home two hours later than usual.

When he returned home, his mother sat on the sofa in the living room, staring blindly at him standing at the door. At that time, he didn't feel any angry emotion from his mother, but he was afraid for no reason.

Almost subconsciously, ten-year-old Pei Yan hurriedly explained to her mother why she was late for home. It was just that his mother burst into tears when he heard what he said.

Two lines of tears struck the familiar face, and she spoke without any accusations, but suddenly raised her hand to the slap. The heavy, loud, ten-year-old Pei Ye stood not far away, and the whole person was frightened by this scene.

He heard his mother's blame, and she said that she was worried that he would be troubled, worried about his studies, and afraid that his friends were bad, and he was broken. Accompanying these words is the sound of the palm hitting the cheek ...

At that time, he only knew that his mother was unhappy, and it had something to do with him. He quickly confessed his mistakes, repeatedly promised that he would be obedient, and would never do such a thing again, begging her to forgive herself.

After that, for a long, long time, he did not do anything against his mother's wishes. But after all, he will grow up and he will realize that there is something wrong with it.

When he realized that he should resist and not obey, everything seemed too late. Pei Yue always remembered this incident in the third grade of elementary school. Although he later resisted consciously, he felt wrong.

Every time I think about it, he always feels a weird coldness. Sometimes, he feels that time and space have been broken as much as possible. He and the kid of his own face each other in the darkness, separated by a light.

Heart-struck, Pei Hui returned home.

He opened the door with his own key, and when he entered, he looked up and saw his mother sitting on the sofa in the living room. His hair was disheveled and his eyes were staring at him. There were two clear tears on his young face.

At an instant when the eyes met, the person sitting on the sofa stood up, holding a heavy ashtray in her hand. After she got up, the ashtray threw him hard at him.

Pei Yi could have avoided it, but at this moment, he didn't move. The ashtray slammed heavily on his forehead, and he was motionless, just watching the person near the sofa. The floor quickly gathered a dark red, sticky glare.

Lu Man met Fan Yuan for the third time in Fan Yuanyuan's birthday. In the hospital, this summer vacation.

He was lying on the bed, dripping. The man was asleep, and his forehead was wrapped in thick gauze. There were several wounds hidden at first glance from the body, which were stabbed by fruit knives.

What happened last night was clear. At that time Pei Hui returned home, and his mother hurt him madly. He did not resist or dodge, and looked at his mother coldly, with a sloppy gesture.

When she finally stopped, Pei Yan, who was conscious, forced herself to come to the hospital. This morning, Lu Man called him a little bit. He pretended that he was fine on the phone, but he couldn't reach the nurse.

Pei Yi, who was found to be out of bed, was scolded by the nurse, and other people's affairs in the hospital could no longer be hidden. Because of this, Lu Man came to the hospital to see him after an hour.

What is Pei Yan's mind? Lu Man doesn't say he is 100% in control, and there is always no problem with more than 80%. Sooner or later, when he started to fight his mother, because he couldn't really cut off the past, sooner or later.

In the face of this relationship, he has always been painful. The inextricable blood relationship, the undeniable care and upbringing, and the feelings of not wanting to be the possession of others, and not wanting to be a puppet toy are intertwined and painful.

There is a desire in his heart that can be repaid or compensated in some way. Until yesterday, when his mother changed from hurting himself to hurting him, Pei Min felt that this was probably a way out.

For Pei ’s mother, Pei ’s rebellion made her feel weak and she felt that the well-behaved child, who belonged to her alone, no longer exists, and no longer exists.

She didn't have any sense of security and felt that she would never have those again. The man who destroyed everything was Pei Ye who had abandoned her completely. He ... **** it ... like his father, **** it!

Lu Man sat down beside the bed, placed the fruit he bought on the bedside, and helped him stare at the infusion while waiting for him to wake up. She didn't sit for ten minutes, and Pei Yue had already woken up, and when she saw her, she laughed.

He said nothing: "Why don't you call me when you come? How good is it to run a hospital today on your birthday ..."

The person who was looking down at the cell phone heard the sound and looked up at the person in the hospital bed.

Lu Man's face didn't smile at all, and he stared. The fierce Baba said: "Student Pei, you can bear it! You can still laugh when you are hurt!" She poked her mouth again, and her eyes were red, "You are touching What happened? How did you make yourself like this? Was robbed? Did you call the police? "

Pei Yue said, "No ... it was an accident. It's not serious, it's just a matter of raising it for a while." He would never say anything about being sent to the emergency room last night.

Lu Man's face did not believe it: "What accident can be stabbed in my body and my brain broken?"

Pei Yue smiled helplessly: "It's really okay, don't worry about it."

Lu Man pouted with dissatisfaction and snorted: "You wouldn't tell me about such a big injury. If I hadn't found it, I wouldn't have known it until you were hurt ... You are too much, you haven't Treat me as a girlfriend ... "

Seeing her angry face, Pei Ye was afraid of herself, but only a better temper: "I'm not telling you, I'm afraid that you're scared ... and how bad your birthday is today. "

Lu Man frowned deeply, unhappy: "What happened to the birthday, is it important for you to have a birthday? Anyway, it's not right for you to do so, you must tell me next time."

Pei Weiwei only said, "Okay, promise you." I had never felt it before, but now I have a very clear feeling in his heart-when he saw Fan Yuanyuan, he was unconscious and calmed down. .

The promised person was finally heard beside the bed, as if relieved, his face relaxed a little. Lu Man accompany Pei Yan in the hospital and helped him buy lunch near noon. She didn't return at noon. Mother Fan called over.

There is no taboo, Lu Man answered the phone in front of Pei Ye.

"Mum, you eat first. My friend is hospitalized. I'm in the hospital now, so I'm not going home so soon."

"What's the matter with my boyfriend? I'm twenty years old this year, and I can't make a boyfriend yet? Why don't you go after my pretty high school girl without regard to my brother?"

"I see, it's okay, okay ... bye."

Pei Yue listened to her call, watched the expression on her face with a frown, and just a phone call, the infinite kinship between her ubiquitous and her family, and the heart that was not really calm, was immediately disturbed again.

His face remained calm and said, "The phone at home? Or you go home, I'll be fine by myself."

Lu Man shook his head: "That won't work."

She smiled at Pei Yi and said, "My family is used to waiting for dinner together, so they are looking for me."

Pei Yue said, "It's fine." Lu Man smiled, continuing what he hadn't done before.

It wasn't until the afternoon that he helped Pei Ye buy dinner, and filled him with a pot of boiling water and prepared some snacks, and Lu Man was ready to leave. All day, Pei's mother or relatives didn't show up. No one knew what was wrong, but she didn't ask.

The next day, Lu Man came to the hospital with his breakfast early, and helped Pei Ye bring a few idle books to read. He invited him to the same place and asked with a smile: "I know you are boring, I brought you a book, am I particularly good? ? "

Pei Ye smiled at the moment, nodded in approval, and thought deeply: "Yes."

On the third day, the fourth day, and the fifth day ... If you do n’t need to practice your car, Lu Man reports to the hospital on time every day, and only leaves in the evening.

After more than a week like this, one day at noon, she went to help Pei Hui buy lunch as usual, and there was an extra person in the ward. The system told her that the middle-aged woman with a sloppy face was Pei's mother.

Pei Yue saw Lu Man come back, looked at her mother, and introduced each other out of politeness. Pei Ye's mother guessed that the little girl in front of her was taking care of Pei Ye these days, with a kind smile on her face.

She said kindly, enthusiastically, "Our little sister-in-law has taken care of you these days, thank you ... is there anything tonight? Aunty, would you please have a light meal?"

Lu Man's face was cautious and his smile was uneasy.

Seeing this, Pei Yue said, "Mom, no need. When I am discharged, I will thank you."

Pei Ye's mother looked at him with a blame, and said with a smile, "How can it be the same?" Then he looked at Lu Man again and asked softly, "Eat with my aunt at night, OK?"

Lu Man had to nod his head, agreeing to it.

Pei Yan looked at her, a faint hesitation appeared under her eyes, with a little overwhelming anxiety.

The author has something to say: how to say, this situation of Pei Ye really needs to come out of that psychological dilemma. I saw comments saying that I hope Man Sister redeemed him. My hesitation on the ending is actually at this point. If it is in life, I don't think this kind of thing is good. Specifically, for most people, they don't have the ability to redeem others. If a relationship is mixed with these things, it is actually painful and difficult. Many times, when we encounter difficulties, we can only come out of ourselves. I would still be a little worried that the stories I wrote mislead the readers, especially a subtle influence, in case someone does not understand that reality and fiction are not the same thing qaq