Stunned for You

In November, the day for postgraduate entrance examinations is getting closer. Unless necessary, Shi Yi is no longer in the classroom. She applied for a seat in the self-study room for the postgraduate entrance examination of the library. During the day, except for lunch and night, she would go back to the rental room to eat. The rest of the time, she would study in the self-study room.

Fu Sitian is her strongest backing. In addition to the postgraduate review, she did everything she could for Shiyi, from washing and cooking, tidying up the room, to Shiyi's coursework and essay revisions. Shi Yi was actually unwilling in her heart. She felt sorry for Fu Sitian and felt that she was really working too hard.

However, Fu Sitian really didn't want her to touch these things.

During the summer vacation, Shi Yi occasionally cooks to prepare dinner for Fu Sitian, and can feel the joy that Fu Sitian feels when he comes back from get off work; now, she has noticed that even though Fu Sitian still praises her when she cooks, he laughs. However, she doesn't seem to come from the heart.

She always stared at the results she had made after she was cooking, after she cleaned up the dishes, after she was washing and mopping the floor, when she thought she couldn't see it, and her expression was full of pain and confusion.

Once was accidental, twice and three times, Shi Yi gradually understood.

So she let Fu Sitian do everything she wanted to do for herself.

If she is allowed to bear a little more, she will really feel better, then let her go. Her original intention was to relax Fu Sitian psychologically, to be less stressed and happier.

Unexpectedly, she was wrong in her prediction, a big mistake.

Fu Sitian is really too hard, and people's ability to bear it is limited. What's more, she can't sleep for long a day. Ningcheng and Shencheng are doing class, housework, and part-time jobs outside of school.

At 11 o'clock in the night when the first draft of the paper was finalized, Shi Yi washed and went to bed, and Fu Sitian was already lying down on the bed. Under the dim light source of the small night light, Fu Sitian turned his back to her, curled up under the quilt, with only half of his slap-sized face exposed, his eyes closed, as if he was asleep.

Shi Yi thought she was tired and couldn't hold it up physically, and felt a little relieved, thinking she could finally get a good night's sleep.

She deliberately lightened her hands and feet to go to bed, lifted a small corner of the quilt, and moved into the quilt with little movements.

The warmth in the bed was obviously the touch that Fu Sitian had just helped her warm up the bed not long ago. Shi Yi's heart suddenly softened, and the warm feeling spread from the soles of her feet to her limbs. She couldn't help but turned sideways and stood up to kiss Fu Sitian quietly on the cheek.

Lifting the hair on her cheeks and lowering her body, Shi Yi froze suddenly when her lips were about to press against Fu Sitian's cheeks.

She straightened up and stared at Fu Sitian's sweaty forehead in astonishment.

It’s almost mid-November, and the weather in Shanghai is getting colder. The windows of rental houses are in disrepair for a long time, and there are still gusts of cool breeze when they are closed. .

Shi Yi changed his face and reached out to touch Fu Sitian's forehead. As soon as her hand touched Fu Sitian's skin, Fu Sitian shook slightly under her hand.

The sound of breathing seemed to tremble.

Shi Yi reacted with hindsight. Tonight, Si Tian's breathing sounded so deep and rapid.

She changed her face completely, leaned her body and stretched out her hand to "click" to turn on the light.

"Si Tian?!" She pulled down the quilt that Fu Sitian was covering the lower half of her face, and then she could see clearly, under the quilt, Fu Sitian bit her lower lip tightly, her expression in pain that she had never seen before.

Unable to conceal it, Fu Sitian turned over with difficulty and opened his eyes to look at Shi Yi.

Her eyelashes were soaked in cold sweat, her vision was blurred, and her eyeballs were a little red from the pain.

She loosened her lower lip and wanted to smile at Shi Yi, but when she opened her lips, before she could say anything, another chisel-like severe colic came, causing her to let out only a short and depressing painful moan.

The whole body was shaking more uncontrollably.

Shi Yi's whole brain exploded.

She had never seen Fu Sitian look like this, and even, had never seen a person with such a painful look. There was a moment of blankness in her mind. She knelt up and sat up, trying to reach out and hug Fu Sitian up, and then retract it just as she was about to pick up.

She was afraid that random movements would make Fu Sitian more uncomfortable. She forced herself to calm down and carefully touched Fu Sitian's forehead, cheeks, and body.

Fu Sitian was as if he had been soaked in water, clammy and sweaty.

Shi Yi's arm against her face began to weaken.

She turned around to get out of bed: "I will take you to the hospital."

Fu Sitian finally took a sigh of relief from the severe pain, and reached out to hold the corner of her pajamas: "Shi Yi..."

Her voice was so soft that she was angry.

Shi Yi turned to look at her.

She held her clothes with one hand, and put her hand on her belly. She crouched, her face pale, and there was still unending pain in her eyes, but her tone was very ordinary: "I'm fine, it's just a stomachache, don't go... Go to the hospital, and later... it will be fine."

She seems to want to laugh, but it hurts too much. It's uglier to laugh than to cry. She seemed to be aware of it herself, so her eyes became helpless and pleading.

"It's okay... don't make a fuss."

Shi Yi looked at her, his throat seemed to be blocked by something.

She raised her head, took a deep breath, lowered her head and held Fu Sitian's hand holding her clothes down, and said in a mute voice, "No. Don't be aggressive. Silver｜Bank card, medical insurance card, where is your medical insurance card? ?" She flipped through the bedside drawer.

Fu Sitian said stubbornly: "It's really not necessary. From now on...it doesn't hurt that much." As if she wanted to prove, she lifted the quilt and supported herself to sit up, but the hand covering her belly was obvious. Harder.

Cold sweat slid down the tip of her nose.

Shi Yi's whole heart fell with her sweat and fell into the mountain of swords. I can't tell whether it is more painful or more panic.

She pulled the coat to the side and put it over Fu Sitian, like Mei heard Fu Sitian's refusal, she got out of bed neatly without even changing her pajamas, put on her long coat, shoes, and searched for keys and wallet.

Fu Sitian insisted: "Shi Yi, really don't need it..."

"Lie down for a while... it will be fine..." The voice gradually faded.

Shi Yi could hear that she was hurting again. Can't find the key, the more anxious the more she can't find it, why can't she find it, why can't she do it even with the key. There was a smell of fishy sweetness in his throat, his hands were trembling unconsciously, and the key was finally turned over in his pocket.

"Can you go? Go downstairs. Let's take a taxi. Hurry up." She walked to the bed on Fu Sitian's side as soon as she was saved, and reached out to help her.

Fu Sitian shook his head: "No, Shi Yi, I don't want to go."

"Come down, I'll help you." Shi Yi could not hear the same.

"Shi Yi, I really don't want to go." She hung her head, painful and tired, and there was another pain in her stomach.

"Then I will carry you."

"Shi Yi!" She finally couldn't hold back her tone, begging Shi Yi with a bit of crying. Stop letting her talk, let her emphasize again.

Shi Yi really didn't speak any more. She fell silent, motionless, the air quietly as if everything had died.

Fu Sitian became uneasy again.

She struggled to look up at Shi Yi. Shi Yi was also looking at her.

Shi Yi cried.

Under the cold white light, her eyes were quiet, and two lines of tears flowed down her clear cheeks, silent, quiet and turbulent.

Fu Sitian felt that his soul was in pain for a moment.

How can she make her cry? How could she make Shi Yi cry.

Yi did not cry on the day when she broke with her mother and returned; on the day when she was deprived of her qualifications for postgraduate study by the school, Yi did not cry. But now, she made her cry.

She cried so forbearingly, so silently.

Tears burst into Fu Sitian's eyes instantly. She struggled to sit on her knees and hug Shi Yi, but Shi Yi reached out and pressed her shoulder.

She scratched the beginning, wiped her tears with her other hand, and asked in a low voice: "Go to the hospital. You can use my health insurance card."

She knew what Fu Sitian cared about. She also remembered where Fu Sitian's medical insurance card was—she no longer had a medical insurance card.

She quietly saved the premium and bought her a set of autumn clothes for the fall season.

Fu Sitian choked his throat and could no longer refuse.

She couldn't bear Shi Yi's tears. In the whole world, she is the person who doesn't want to cry the most. But... it's her, always crying her.

Meeting Shi Yi is one of the few happiness in her life. And when Shi Yi met her, it was the greatest misfortune in life...

She gave up the struggle and let Shi Yi help her out of bed. The moment he stood up straight, the pain came again, and something surged to his chest. She covered her mouth, and she couldn't walk steadily under the support of Shi Yi. She moved to the bathroom in a few seconds on weekdays. It took her half a minute to move to the bathroom. She was so painful that she could not straighten her waist. Can't squat to squat.

Shi Yi squatted to lean on her, patted her on the back, tilted her head up, and the line of her jaw and neck was tight, without saying a word.

Even the yellow bile couldn't come out. Fu Sitian was exhausted, panting against the wall, his face wet, and he couldn't tell whether it was tears or sweat.

Shi Yi wiped her face and mouth with her sleeves. Then, she squatted in front of her with her back turned, and said, "Come on, I'll carry you."

Fu Sitian declined with an agitated voice: "No need..."

Shi Yi repeated: "Come up." As she said, she touched Fu Sitian's arm backhand and looked back at her.

Fu Sitian still wanted to refuse, but she saw Shi Yi's eyes clearly.

There was no light in Shi Yi's eyes, only the silent mist and the inextricably dense depression.

Fu Sitian's heart was torn once again. What to do, what to do so that she can return that kind of light to Shi Yi.

Shi Yi put a soft tone and said again: "Si Tian, ​​come up." There were faint pleading and exhaustion in his eyes.

Fu Sitian completely surrendered.

Tears rolled in her eye sockets, and she followed Shi Yi's outstretched arm, slowly lying on Shi Yi's back.

Shi Yi carried her on his back, leaned on the wall, and stood up very slowly but steadily.

"Will it be uncomfortable?" Shi Yi asked her.

Fu Sitian pinched his fingertips and lied to her on her back: "No."

Shi Yi stopped talking, and walked outside the door behind her back.

Her back was thin, thin and lacking the sense of strength of a slender girl, and Fu Sitian knew how strenuous she was by listening to her breathing.

But step by step, she carried her on her back and walked very steadily. She carried her on her back, walked out of the door, to the top of the stairs, and down the stairs. No matter how Fu Sitian struggled or asked, she tightly circled her thighs and refused to let her down.

At the height of the four-story building, Shi Yi worked hard to walk fast and steady.

Stepping down the last step and stepping on the flat ground, she felt a warm liquid running down her neck and back into her back. "Shi Yi, let me down." Fu Sitian struggled to slide again.

Shi Yi leaned on the armrest to gasp, and the back of his hand was too hard to support, and the blue veins loomed. "I'm going to fall if I move it again." She swallowed a mouthful of sweetness, and tried her best to say normally.

Fu Sitian froze instantly.

Shi Yi leaned her head and rubbed her head, hoarsely but softly coaxed, "I'll be fine for a while, and there will be a car after a short walk."

Fu Sitian couldn't help her, so he could only get down again with a choked voice.

Can't let go, can't make Si Tian more painful, can't give in to the body, can't admit defeat, this is Shi Yi's determination to gritted his teeth all the way down the stairs.

She thought she could.

She thought she was different from other peers; she thought she was determined and invincible.

However, after Fu Sitian refused to use her medical insurance card for fear of adversely affecting her future physical examination; in the emergency room, he heard Fu Sitian hesitating before answering the doctor "have pain... a few times", the doctor marveled at her. This kind of pain could be tolerated; after the doctor judged that it should be a gallbladder stone, it would be better to have the gallbladder removed surgically. The cost was about 20,000 yuan. After Fu Sitian flatly refused, she still collapsed.

She took the excuse of going to the nursing station to get the infusion medicine, and quickly stepped out of the infusion room. Suddenly, she couldn't hold it, facing the wall, against the wall, biting her lip, crying until she couldn't breathe.

She couldn't forgive herself for not knowing anything. It has been so long, and the person she cherishes has suffered for so long, and she actually doesn't know anything. What kind of selfish world does she live in.

At this time, she actually wanted Fu Sitian to worry about the money, and forced a smile.

How could she be so useless.

She never admitted, but gradually had to admit it.

Shi Yi, there is nothing outstanding, even inferior to ordinary hardworking and capable people.

Without her parents, she was nothing.

Small, useless, and vulnerable.