Sighing, Cheng Qing put the diary on the bedside. There was only one diary left in the box, but in fact, in terms of time, Yuan Shi should have worked for about 4 years after graduation.
According to the progress of writing the diary before, she should have at least 4 diaries left.
But in the past four years, she has only written one diary.
In fact, Cheng Qing still understands it mentally.
The person who most wants to write in the diary in a relationship has been separated. Looking at it like this, it seems that there is no need to continue writing in the diary.
It's almost four o'clock. Cheng Qing still decided to read the last diary, and then glanced at the girl who was sleeping in her arms but still frowned.
Cheng Qing chuckled and pouted at the corner of her lips, then gently placed her on the bed, and pulled the thin blanket beside her to cover her.
Cheng Qing sat up and took a sip of coffee against the head of the bed. Refreshed, and took the last diary.
Maybe it was a psychological illusion, she always felt that this diary seemed to be heavier than the previous ones.
Cheng Qing thought that if the days to come make the original body more difficult, it is probably because the days without hope are meaningless!
Opening the first page, the first two words introduced into the eyes are still "Ming Yue".
"It's been half a year since Ming Yue was gone. I entered the society and lived in the city closest to my home but I didn't dare to go back to see my family. I know I let them down so I hope myself can live well.
I am getting better and better and one day I will be able to stand in front of my family again. "
Cheng Qing breathed a sigh of relief and was no longer explaining what happened to Yue. Otherwise she can't take it anymore.
The following diary is written every few days, maybe even once a month.
Because there is nothing to do, just like any other young people who have entered the society, the original body is also mixed in various circles, such as diligent workers. She didn't mix up as a person as she said, and even later because of her personality, when the company laid off staff, she was the first batch of layoffs.
After that, because of social pressure and her disappointment, she chose to set up a stall in the center of the square. The days are difficult, but day by day, the original body has passed like this for several years.
So far, Ming Yue has never been written in the diary. If there is an expression of missing, it is mostly about missing her family.
As she said, she no longer cares about Ming Yue.
When Cheng Qing saw the name Ming Yue again, it was already the second half of the diary.
"Today, I received a call from my high school classmates. I heard that there will be a class reunion at the beginning of this year. They invited me. On that day, will I still see her? Mingyue, I miss you a little bit. ."
"Alas." Cheng Qing got up, and according to the news she had heard from Ming Yue and her best friend Lin Lan, she must have gone to this class reunion.
Sure enough, although the original body in the diary was about to move, she did not want to go. In order to forget Ming Yue, she never thought of her over the years, and even dared not write her name in the diary.
But as the time of the party approached, one day, Ming Yue called her.
"Ming Yue said she missed me and she wanted to see me. I was ecstatic, even though it's been many years, but my love for her has settled in my heart. I took all my savings over the years. I came out, bought beautiful clothes and shoes, and wanted to show her the best side of myself. Of course, I also bought Ming Yue a set of cosmetics that are not cheap for me as a gift.
Even though I didn't want to see her before, when she said these words, all my defenses fell apart. I look forward to this day coming sooner, just like every time I look forward to seeing you. "
When Cheng Qing saw this, his heart sank, that is, he was not disputing the original owner's anger, but also worried that her expectation was about to be destroyed.
However, seeing the last line of this page, Cheng Qing was moved.
—“Although I am very happy, I chose not to get a haircut after making all the preparations. Although I knew that I would meet soon, I couldn’t smile. At this moment, I am more Fortunately, I haven't gone home yet."
Maybe she knows everything!
Cheng Qing thinks so, the original body is not ignorant, but still has no turning back. The first meeting in high school was the best time for the original body, but now it seems that it is an unfortunate beginning.
Looking at her, she knew that there would be no good results, but she was still like a moth to a flame. The brightly colored memories that were originally seen in the diary now seem to be dyed in black and white.
It's like paying homage to the true feelings of the original body but can't get a response.
Although Cheng Qing knew that everything was her own will, how could Ming Yue trample on someone who really likes her like this?
If she can't respond, why hurt her?
Even though Cheng Qing couldn't understand the original body's feelings for Ming Yue, she also understood her love, and was even more worried that this love would eventually become a laughing stock.
That day must have been a bad day. She found out when she was talking to Ming Yue. On that day, there was too much embarrassment for the original body.
But compared to embarrassment, perhaps the most lethal force is her giving up on Ming Yue.
There are several blank pages in the middle of the diary, only the date and weather are written, but nothing is written.
Cheng Qing looked at the time she wrote, probably at the beginning of that year. In other words, the few pages she didn't write might be the day of the class reunion.
What happened that day made her only have the strength to write down the time and the weather. She may feel uncomfortable and can't write anything, but she doesn't want to forget this day. So, there are only a few blank pages of the diary!
A few days later, the original body still wrote the events of the day in the way of memory.
She was excited about the day they were about to meet, and she sketched Ming Yue of various appearances in her mind, and imagined the first sentence of the two of them meeting again.
With the thoughts and expectations of these four years, the original body opened the door of the box. Then I saw a room full of classmates, and heard one of them shouting: "She really came."
"Hahahaha."
In the harsh voice, through the bangs in front of me, I saw the woman who was thinking about it. Unlike herself, after graduation, she is more coquettish, beautiful, and generous.
Yes, she is still the moon in the sky, exuding a cold moonlight, which can only be seen from a distance and cannot be played with.
The original body ignored the others, held the gift given to her, and smiled at her.
Ming Yue, who was sitting behind the big round table, also smiled at the original body. Just as she was squatting in front of her back then, smiling like a flower.
The lifeless heart beats again at this moment.
That night, Ming Yue's girlfriend also came. Same-sex marriage has been passed for two years, and even homosexuals can appear together on various occasions.
That night, all of them made a bet that Cheng Qing would still appear at this party?
Who wins or loses, I don't know, but then they got drunk. So, they made another bet, if Ming Yue's girlfriend proposed, would Cheng Qing still propose?
Ming Yue's girlfriend thought it was impossible, but after seeing someone propose to Ming Yue, Yuan Yi went up to propose.
Because Lin Lan told the original body: Who do you think in this world can truly give Yueyue happiness? Shouldn't it be the person who likes Yueyue the most?
The original body knows that no one loves Ming Yue more than himself. She was asking herself to propose, but the original body still thought about it and agreed.
Are you stupid? Stupid to a certain level.
However, it is so stupid that it makes people feel distressed.
She knelt down to propose marriage, not knowing the result. It's just that if she doesn't gamble this time in her life, she will regret it all her life.
The original body was half-kneeling there, looked up at Ming Yue's bright smile, smiled and promised: "I will wait for you."
Everyone laughed even louder, the toad wanted to eat swan meat and had no self-knowledge.
From the beginning, these people just wanted to call her here for fun. Just like teasing a monkey, tease the original body.
The original may be stupid, but also decisive. But it's not that it won't be sad, it's just... already hurt.
When one kind of pain is too much, it becomes numb. As a fencer, Cheng Qing understands this feeling very well.
In the original diary, she worked very hard to beautify Ming Yue's various behaviors, but still let Cheng Qing feel Ming Yue's evil.
The whole story is long and depressing, and even the owner of the last diary wrote about this class reunion. No matter how small or small, nothing was leaked, which shows that this class reunion has brought her a lot of damage.
However, at the end of the diary, the original body still gave the best ending.
Jeng read many diaries, and the depressed person suddenly smiled in relief.
—Ming Yue, I don’t regret meeting each other. The years you and I have known each other are still my best memories. Although, this memory is more painful, and it has never made me happy. But I am happy, I will wait for you for five years.
Because I know that 5 years is the minimum to truly forget you. My heart is full of you, what qualifications do I have to like others?
But Ming Yue, forgive me but I still feel...
If we hadn't met, we wouldn't have such deep-rooted expectations. The expectation of no result is the pain that really goes into the bone marrow.
Here, Cheng Qing saw that the original body at this moment was the one who really let go of this relationship. Because Ming Yue has already agreed to his girlfriend's proposal, for Yuan Shi, the feelings have already been drawn.
But what makes Cheng Qing even more rare is...
—You gave me the most beautiful tenderness in the world at that moment. I have deeply experienced this tenderness and understand how rare it is. So, I will try my best to be like that.
This is the end of the diary, which makes people feel relieved and can't help but smile.
Rare.
The most rare thing is that in this deeply hurt relationship, the original owner never blamed anyone. Even live a positive life.
Whether it's the beginning or the end, she's always open and candid.
Finished.
Cheng Qing got up and sighed. Reached out and touched the cover of the diary, it was a pity for the original body for the first time: he is a good person! Pity!
The morning sun on the horizon already has some light and shadow, and in the room without light, there is also a light source to keep the room from being dark.
Cheng Qing got up and looked at Luo Xi on the bed, then looked outside the balcony, and suddenly smiled silently: "I can't let her crawl back again."
If it will be photographed, it can only be so. Fortunately, although the two of them didn't point it out, they could tell that it was your love.
Cheng Qing looked at Luo Xi, who was still sleeping, and laughed: "Our CP fans, will they get their wish?"
Luoxi slept deeply and ignored her at all, Cheng Qing also got up boringly and walked to the bathroom to wash.
Dim room with no lights. Relying on a little bit of morning light, I can see that the layout of the bathroom is not big.
Against the wall, there is a clean white bathtub, and the glass sliding door separates the toilet outside. In the direction of the door is the light luxury washbasin.
Cheng Qing's things are simple, unlike Luo Xi's pile of skin care products on the makeup table. Cheng Qing simply put facial cleanser and lotion in front of the mirror in the washbasin. Even a bottle of beauty serum and eye cream was given to her by Luo Xi when she was recording at the villa.
After staying up all night, I will naturally look bad. Cheng Qing used the facial cleanser to wash off the oil that came out overnight, lowered his head and closed his eyes, and then rinsed his face with warm water from the tap.
The long hair on both sides fell down, and some of it got wet from the water on the side of the washbasin.
The sound of water falling on the bottom of the basin made a sound, fortunately the bathroom door was closed. That silly girl turned over the balcony last night and stayed up until three o'clock with her.
I'm afraid she is very tired, Cheng Qing doesn't want to disturb her, so she didn't dare to turn on the lights when she entered the bathroom, and the door closed early.
Cheng Qing thought, and reached out to pull the towel hanging on the side.
My face was clean and there was no foam, just a drop of water. She wiped the water off her face with a towel and glanced around the bathroom unconsciously, but she always felt something strange.
In the drowsy room, it was quiet and gloomy.
Cheng Qing froze suddenly, and suddenly realized that something was strange.
There is no self in the mirror in front of me.
Cheng Qing's eyes suddenly turned back, but he saw himself in the mirror with a serious face.
As you move, you will do the same in the mirror. That moment just now seemed to be just an illusion.
Cheng Qing breathed a sigh of relief: "I haven't slept all night, I'm really dizzy."
Hanging the towel back, she walked out of the bathroom with a serious face. In my heart, I suddenly remembered a sentence that the original body had written in the diary: Expectation without results is the pain that really entered the bone marrow.
She walked to the bed and saw that Losey was still asleep.
Cheng Qing watched for a while, then reached out and turned on the light in the room.
The dim room was instantly filled with dazzling light, even in the drowsiness, Luo Xi still frowned in discomfort.
Cheng Qing chuckled and leaned over and said, "Get up quickly and go back, or you may be found when you go back later."
Luoxi slept in a daze. After hearing this, she turned around unhappily and fell asleep to the other side.
He said softly, "Sleep again, sleepy."
Cheng Qing's heart melted when he saw it, and he couldn't help but go forward and rub it well. But she didn't know what to think in her heart, but she still went up and pushed her: "Dear, go back to sleep. It's only two steps away, not far."
Luoxi was so **** off by her that she sat up, her hair was fluffy, and she glared at Cheng Qing: "What are you doing? I'm not afraid, what are you afraid of? Hmph, turning face ruthlessly White-eyed wolf."
Cheng Qing: "...white-eyed wolf?"
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