The Fire-Chasing Herrscher Who Destroyed the World

who I am?

Hua has asked himself this question many times.

Is she an ordinary girl in a small town, but because she has been studying boxing for many years, she seems to be out of tune with her friends around her?

A student who left his hometown when he was less than twelve years old and came to Canghai City, thousands of miles away from home, to study alone, and happened to meet a student who was almost forced to die when the Honkai outbreak broke out?

Or a Fire Chaser soldier who could only watch his first friend of the same age turn into a Herrscher and die tragically in front of him, and he could only hold her severed hand and could do nothing. ?

Compared with her companions, she has always been an ordinary one. She finally made it to the turning point of fate. Not long after, what awaited her was a dream that lasted for fifty thousand years, and a journey that lasted for five thousand years. Years of loneliness.

She has played many roles in these five thousand years.

Sometimes he is the Red Kite Immortal who saves the common people, and sometimes he is a cruel executioner, hunting down human beings in the vast land of China like emotionless machines. Some people's self-awareness has not completely dissipated, and Or maybe that kind of self-awareness is just the same anthropomorphic deception method as the Herrscher. In short, she did not hesitate when doing it.

So, who is Hua?

Memory is a very precious thing, perhaps the most precious thing in a person besides life.

Life is the most important and possibly the only form of its own existence, and memory is the key to prove that this existence is real.

But there are always some things that are special, such as Hua. For her, memory is like a curse, like a shackle. Every time after reading, she will almost ask that question in confusion and numbness——

who I am.

Am I really "Hua"?

Perhaps the real Hua had already died when he first used Yu Duchen's first rated power.

There is no such thing as burning memory. The dead person is the real Hua. The subsequent consciousness is nothing more than the product of the physical self, and then pursues the previous memory, deliberately imitating the original Hua - when another self comes to her. When she pointed out that her current personality was very different from before, she thought of this possibility... It was hard to say that there was no such possibility.

If this is the case, it is not entirely a bad thing that his reborn consciousness has a completely different personality than the previous ones.

Why must we imitate the original Hua?

It is human instinct to imitate behavior, but aren’t the objects of imitation always stronger? Although humans also imitate some animals and plants, those animals and plants are indeed unique in certain fields, and they can be considered strong in a certain sense!

Then what is the purpose of imitating the original Hua? What is there about her that is worth imitating?

Right?

Right?

Right?

But she still wants to be Hua.

Not to imitate, but to become. Regardless of whether the previous assumption was correct or not, she wanted to become Hua. This was an emotional impulse that she did not understand.

Or maybe it's not all that complicated.

When a being possesses all the memories of another being, no, it is the only one, then who else can she choose to be?

Yes, whether she is Hua herself or another consciousness spawned by Hua's body, she just wants to be Hua, and she can only become Hua.

Therefore, she was certainly not unaware of her former self's doubts and the distrust of her apprentices and grandsons. She could even see that even the brainless little Pado noticed something was wrong with her, but she didn't do anything. explain.

She felt it was unnecessary to defend this kind of thing, very unnecessary. She doesn't like to talk, she just wants to prove everything with actions.

Well, a person's existence is divided into three parts-

Past, present and future.

Needless to say, the past and present are natural, but what about the future?

As long as she follows her goal in her memory and completely eliminates Honkai, then who dares to say that she is not Hua?

But all, all, all, all of the above!

Everything was ruined by this self who was surviving on the remaining feathers of Yu Duchen.

Just one sentence:

"Perhaps I should call you by your scientific name more appropriately, right? Herrscher of Knowledge."

Even she herself didn't expect that when she heard this sentence, the first emotion that came out of her heart was panic, then shock, and finally anger:

"There's something wrong with you... No, there's something wrong with all of you!"

What and what, this guy! Is she a Herrscher? How could she be the Herrscher? How could any Herrscher think about overthrowing Honkai from the moment he was born?

She was so angry that she rolled on her hands and knees, as if she was about to get up from the couch and fight with her other self.

But there was no light in the room, and there was only the hazy moonlight filtered by the window paper. Without paying attention, she reached her hand to the empty space and fell face down from the collapse.

The other Hua was still sitting on the edge of the bed, watching all this quietly without making any unnecessary movements.

"Are you kidding me... I am the one who wants to defeat Honkai, and you call me a Herrscher? You actually call me a Herrscher? Are you stupid or am I stupid?"

Hua shook her head and stood up quietly, but before she showed any intention to leave, the Herrscher of Knowledge grabbed her ankle hard.

"As you can see, I am just a phantom that can't even feel pain. I am indeed dead. I have checked the memories before my death countless times and don't think there is any problem. And there are some that we Shared memories, such as the side effects of Yu Duchen on the brain. Of course, you have no subsequent memory, but you should be able to guess that I used Yu Duchen for the last time, after all, Yu Duchen was completely destroyed..."

"Excuses, all excuses!"

The Herrscher of Knowledge climbed up from the ground in embarrassment.

Compared to Hua's calmness, her demeanor could be called angry. Fortunately, the night was dark enough, and there was no third person in the room... Of course, at this point, no one would have the time to care about their own image.

"I know it! I know it! You are actually jealous of me, right! Everyone is obviously Hua, but you are jealous that I can continue to live in this identity, and you can only become the past! Yes! It must be Is this necessary? We are obviously the same person, and I helped you, otherwise you would have been directly absorbed by me like your other companions... How dare you... Why are you slandering me? Am I a lawyer?"

slander. Yes, slander, this must be a naked slander!

How could I, a being who wanted to overthrow Honkai, be the Herrscher?

The shouting was extremely harsh in the desolate night, and Su Chang's voice soon came from outside the door.

"Master, what happened? I seem to hear you shouting something!"

"Who wants..."

"It's okay Su Shang... I remembered some things from the past. It's so late, so you should go to bed early."

For a moment, the Herrscher of Knowledge was even ready to take action, but Hua, who had been "slandering" her so coldly and ruthlessly just a moment ago, suddenly spoke on her behalf and pushed Su Chang back.

"Oh...Master, you...oh, forget it, I'm leaving then, Master, please take it easy!"

There was a burning feeling in my heart, but I couldn't find a way to vent it. Even if he yelled like before, it would not have any effect. In the end, all the Herrscher of Knowledge could do was clenched his fist and hit the bed hard, but the effect of force was mutual. Although It doesn't hurt very much, but the bed has no feeling. In the end, the only one injured is still myself.

"You guy, what are you thinking about? Why... why are you doing this to me..."

Why would you say that? Why do you say such cruel words?

It's like telling a child who has wanted to be a partner of justice since he was a child, but it turns out that his father is the biggest villain in the world.

This kind of words is not only cruel, but also extremely absurd, so absurd that it makes people sick. Even if it was just a joke, it was undoubtedly a bad joke that would make people beat the guy who made the joke to the point where he couldn't get out of bed.

It's not that she can't accept that she is not the original Hua. She also doesn't like the original Hua, no matter what time or era he was in. She just wanted to be Hua, thinking like crazy, she must become Hua, she must definitely become Hua, because...

Besides becoming Hua, where else could she choose...

Moreover, she felt that if it were herself, she could definitely do better than Hua, right? Looking back at past memories from her current perspective, if she were allowed to do it, she would be able to make better decisions many times, wouldn't she?

She was even willing to make some "concessions."

For example... hasn't she herself imagined that possibility? She has imagined that she is just a consciousness created by the body due to the vacancy of the soul. She can accept this setting, although this is already a big concession... But the Herrscher? Are you kidding me?

If she really is the Herrscher, that means her goal of becoming Hua was a joke from the beginning.

She cannot be Hua who saves the world and drives away the collapse. On the contrary, she will become Hua, her companion, and the target of everyone's crusade...

If it unfolds like this, how can she accept it?

But in that case, why did Hua...

And why did you deliberately put away the plain clothes?

If she was determined to be the Lawyer, why not call Su Chang to take action?

The Herrscher of Knowledge suddenly discovered that even if she had all the memories of that woman, she seemed unable to fully understand the logic of her behavior.

Are you afraid that the battle will affect the disciples on Taixu Mountain and the residents on the mountainside? Would this guy who once believed in "the devil must be killed" care about this?

Or is it that the so-called lawyer incident was just Hua's joke and excuse?

"Sure enough, you are deceiving me! Humph! Don't you just don't want to die! Don't worry, I have already said that it does not take much effort from me to maintain your body. You can maintain this state until you want to undress. The day when you take on the important task of handing over the part of your memory to me. But... if you really want to continue living, it's not impossible! I can make a concession and let's use this body together. How about the name Hua?”

Hua didn't answer in a hurry, but just let the sound of heavy breathing fill the room where she had spent countless nights.

"Hey! You guy, don't be so shameless! Is it OK or not? Is it OK or not! You must be right!"

"You still don't understand, or in other words, you don't want to understand, so you're just deceiving yourself."

Hua Dabao shook her head in disbelief. This action was captured by the passing moonlight, and then she could be seen silently walking to the small table in the room and sitting down, leaving only the sound of "Sasha" footsteps.

"The reason why I call you the Herrscher is not for any random reasons, let alone boring emotions such as jealousy. There is only one reason, you are the Herrscher."

"Hey, hey, hey! If you talk like that again, I'm going to beat you up!"

"You are actually aware of it yourself. Along the way, you have been using your mental abilities consciously or unconsciously. Even the ability to quickly defeat Hollander was the same kind of power you relied on. But Mikael also seems to be asking Let’s go through a similar question—Yu Duchen is obviously broken, so where does your power come from?”

Hua ignored the threat from the Herrscher of Knowledge, and just finished all this in a statement. There was a hint of exhaustion in his tone, and it was more like the taste of tea that has been boiled and then cooled in winter, with a thick taste. , but they all pile up together and are difficult to spread in the mouth.

"What do you mean by this? Have you forgotten? We are different from those Valkyries made by Otto! Even without the corresponding weapons, Valkyrie armor and artificial stigmata, we still have the ability to fuse the warriors themselves..."

"...But Garuda does not have mental abilities. I shouldn't need to repeat this."

"Then... maybe it's because Garuda was killed before he could show this kind of power... and... maybe it's because this body has been using Yuduchen for many years, so the body has developed adaptability. What about evolution? You can't prove that what I said is impossible, right? Just because I have spiritual power, do you think I should be labeled the Herrscher of Knowledge? Let me tell you, Aponya had the ability to see destiny before he was put on the operating table, so is Aponiya a Herrscher? "

The Herrscher of Knowledge kept protesting, and she threw out every piece of evidence that was enough to support the possibility that "she is not the Herrscher". But no matter what she said or did, even if it really made Hua Ye shaken at all, she couldn't ignore her gradually collapsing heart.

To prove one hypothesis, she must shape more hypotheses. It's like you have to make up a bunch of lies just for one lie.

The truth is always the simplest and most direct one.

"Herrscher of Consciousness, in fact, you don't need to be so resistant. We don't have to fight between us. As long as you are willing to accept reality, even as a Herrscher, it is not impossible to walk on the road against Honkai. Of course, There are some things that must be confirmed first, and then, but until you are completely stable, I will..."

"It's so noisy! What are you talking about?"

"Um?"

Hua only had time to let out a soft hum before a pink feather emitting a faint white light appeared in the palm of the Herrscher of Knowledge.

"Shut up first."

Whether it's Lawyer or Hua, it's hard for her to explain clearly what she is.

But think about it carefully, once you accept the setting that you are a Herrscher, you don't seem to be as angry as you showed before?

After all, becoming a Herrscher means having power, the power to change many things.

However, if she was happy, she didn't seem very happy.

No, there is nothing to be happy about at all.

My heart was in a mess, and my body temperature was switching rapidly between extreme heat and extreme cold, which was devastating.

"Forget it! With my intelligence, isn't it easy to become a human being? As long as everyone thinks I am 'Hua', then I will be Hua, and I will also be Hua when the King of Heaven comes! Although there is still a feeling like a lump in the throat... ...but you should get used to it, my friend...

"As a warrior of the Fire Chasing Moth, you can't save anything. You can only watch the humanity you swore to protect and the civilization you swore to protect being destroyed.

"As the Immortal Red Kite passed down from word to mouth in China, you have nothing to do with the vastness of supernatural powers. You have indeed saved countless people, but in order to save these people, you must ruthlessly kill more people. Obviously those who were killed of people who not long ago viewed you as their savior.

"As a master, although I don't remember what happened five hundred years ago, I can tell that the relationship between you and those apprentices is not good.

"As for now...what can we say about the past ten years?

"No matter what era, you are a waste that has accomplished nothing. But who asked me to appear in your body like this? I am still a very responsible person. Just open your eyes and watch the birth of the new Hua. !”