The First Daughter of Rebirth

Unlike Ruxue, Zhao Keren was naturally more happy than sad after hearing such news. She didn't know why the emperor issued such an imperial edict, but she knew that it should be Zhao Keran's idea.

She didn't know why Zhao Keran did this. She knew that Zhao Keran would never have any sisterly feelings for her. However, no matter what purpose Zhao Keran had, she was happy to accept it.

On the other side, preparations for the upcoming flower viewing banquet in the palace are also ongoing. During this period, Xiao Xiaoxiao has been living in the palace. In order to prevent herself from having time to think about things, she has been helping Zhao Keran deal with it.

All kinds of palace affairs, just don't want to let yourself have any free time.

"Concubine, do you have time now?"

Xiao Xiaoxiao was teasing her little grandson in Qifeng Palace. She seemed to be in a good mood. At this moment, she suddenly heard a sound. She raised her head and saw that it was Zhao Keran who was walking away from outside.

Come in.

Because Xiao Xiaoxiao always likes to be quiet, even though she lives in Qifeng Hall, there are not many people to serve her. Therefore, she doesn't know that Zhao Keran is here.

Seeing Zhao Keran walking in from the outside with a smile, Xiao Xiaoxiao smiled, picked up Situ Hui, and stood up, "Keran, it's you! Why are you free to come here today!"

Zhao Keran walked in, took Situ Hui from Xiao Xiaoxiao's hand, and replied with a smile, "Concubine, you don't know, there are not many people in the palace, and during this period of time, you have been

I’m helping out, so I still have a lot of time.”

"Why, isn't Xu'er pestering you?" Xiao Xiaoxiao joked.

Although she didn't see him since childhood, Xiao Xiaoxiao got to know Situ Xu quite well after getting along with her for a period of time. She especially saw Situ Xu's feelings for Zhao Keran.

In response to Xiao Xiaoxiao's joke, Zhao Keran smiled generously and said, "Concubine, please stop teasing me. I came here specially today. Do you have time? Let's go sit in the Royal Garden together.

Just for a moment, okay?"

"Okay!" Xiao Xiaoxiao responded, "Then you can hug Hui'er and let's go to the Royal Garden together."

"No need." Zhao Keran said with a smile, "Concubine, as you know, it's almost noon, and it's time for Hui'er to take a nap. If we take him to the Royal Garden now, we will have to send him back later! Like this

If you put in a lot of trouble, he won't be able to sleep and will start to get into trouble again, so why not let Yue Gu and the wet nurse take him down?"

Xiao Xiaoxiao felt that what Zhao Keran said was right, so she nodded, "That's okay."

Soon, the two people came to the imperial garden and sat down. After the palace maid and the eunuch arranged everything, Zhao Keran asked them to leave the pavilion.

"But, is there anything you want to tell me?" Seeing this situation, Xiao Xiaoxiao asked, "You want to talk to me alone, so you invited me to enjoy the flowers today.

Right!"

"Yes! Concubine." Zhao Keran raised the teacup with a smile and said, "Concubine, during this time, you have been living in the palace and shared a lot of things with me, which also made the burden on my shoulders lighter.

A lot. I am here today, drinking tea instead of wine, thank you for your help."

After hearing Zhao Keran's words of thanks, Xiao Xiaoxiao didn't hesitate. She picked up the tea cup and took a sip of tea. After putting down the tea cup, she sat there quietly without speaking. Because she knew that next, maybe

There should be something else I want to say to her.

Zhao Keran didn't act coy. She put down the cup in her hand, looked at Xiao Xiaoxiao, and said, "Concubine, you have been in the palace for a while, are you still used to it?"

"Not bad." Xiao Xiaoxiao smiled slightly, her tone full of emotion, "In the past, when I was a concubine and lived in this magnificent palace, I had no sense of belonging at all. At that time

, although I have been persisting for him, but in my heart, I am always thinking that it would be great if I could leave this cold place. But now it is different, maybe my mood is different!"

"Maybe!" Zhao Keran smiled and said, "Mother, it may be because you no longer have so much baggage in your heart and you have become more relaxed, so you have changed your outlook on everything."

"Maybe!" Xiao Xiaoxiao let out a long sigh, "I used to live too tiredly. I know he loves me in his heart, and I love him too, but I don't feel happy at all in my heart.

None. Even when he was with me, what I was thinking about was, where I couldn't see him, was he also accompanying other women just like he was with me? But, you say,

If I do this, am I acting like a jealous woman?"

"Mother, I understand your thoughts." Zhao Keran looked at Xiao Xiaoxiao, his eyes full of determination, "You feel this way because you love your father in your heart. It's because you love him that you feel this way.

Jealousy arises when you want to be exclusive. If you didn't love your father, you wouldn't feel this way at all."

"So, of course, I actually envy you in my heart. Not only envy, but also a trace of jealousy." Xiao Xiaoxiao smiled bitterly, "I think it's not just me! All the women in the world are.

I should envy you, not because you have become the most noble woman in the world, but because you have obtained the love that all women in the world long for."

"Mother, you are right, I am probably lucky to have met Xu!" Speaking of her husband, Zhao Keran's smile contained a hint of sweetness, "The love between the two of us may be relatively pure!

None of us want to insert someone in the middle, after all, the love of three people is really too crowded."

"If only the love between me and him could be so pure." Xiao Xiaoxiao sighed, "If the love between me and him could be so pure, then we would never end up like this today."

"Concubine, don't say that." Zhao Keran said, "Actually, you know very well in your heart that the relationship between you and your father is not over yet. In this case, there is no telling what the ending will be! As long as you forget

If you start over with your father about what happened in the past, then there will be a future between you two."

"Of course, although you are married and have children now, you still don't understand the matters between relationships." Xiao Xiaoxiao smiled bitterly and said, "Emotional matters are just like wearing shoes, right?

Only the person involved knows that it fits. Outsiders have no way of knowing. Moreover, the relationship between you and Xu has always been smooth, and there is no third party involved at all, so you can't understand the pain in my heart at all."

"Mother, I know what happened back then, and you are still complaining about your father." Zhao Keran sighed and persuaded, "But to be honest, you are not young now. In your heart

I still love the other person now. If this is the case, why not give the other person a chance? Don't wait until the future when there is no chance to regret today's miss."

"Of course, we have missed each other a long time ago." Xiao Xiaoxiao said calmly, "Back then, when I chose to escape from the palace, we had already missed each other. Now it is useless to talk about it, it is just empty talk.

"

"Mother and concubine, what happened back then was not my father's fault alone." After Zhao Keran took a deep look at Xiao Xiaoxiao, he said leisurely, "The reason why your relationship is like this today

This situation cannot be just my father's fault! There must be your reasons for this."

"Maybe you're right!" Xiao Xiaoxiao smiled and said, "But I really tried my best back then. If I hadn't been exhausted, how could I have escaped in such a mess. If I hadn't supported myself

If I can't go on, how can I be willing to leave my young Xu'er behind?"

"Concubine, everything you said today is just to defend your irresponsible behavior." Zhao Keran's tone was a little serious, "When you were with your father, when you chose to enter the palace,

, you should know what you are about to face, but you still chose to enter the palace. Now that you have entered the palace, you should know that you cannot continue to be cowardly."

After hearing what Zhao Keran said, Xiao Xiaoxiao couldn't help but want to defend herself.

But before she opened her mouth, Zhao Keran continued, "Mother, concubine, don't rush to explain. Even if you can really convince me today, will it really be useful? The one you have to convince is yourself, not me.

.”

After a pause, Zhao Keran continued, "Actually, what kind of place is the palace? Even if you haven't tried it yet, you should know it in your heart. It's just a place that eats people without spitting out their bones. If you want to be safe

If you want to live here, you can't just rely on the protection of others. What you have to do is to protect yourself, instead of always thinking about hiding behind others. After entering this palace, you have to be strong.

, not only for yourself, but also for the people you love, but you didn't. You have always been so self-pitying, without making any efforts at all. Mother, the reason why what happened back then was really just

Is it your father's fault? Is it really the fault of the queen? Is it also your fault?"

After hearing Zhao Keran's powerful words, Xiao Xiaoxiao opened her mouth, but she couldn't say a word. She didn't know what to say. She always thought it was other people's fault, but among them

, is it true that as Ke Ran said, he also has his own mistakes?

In the past, she had been avoiding this fact. No matter what others said, she always thought that they owed her something.

During this period, she had lived in the palace for so long and thought a lot. Coupled with what Keran said today, she really couldn't help but start to suspect that for so many years, she had been hating the person who harmed her.

People, but now think about it, was the murderer back then one of them?

Seeing Xiao Xiaoxiao lost in thought, Zhao Keran took a sip of tea and said, "Mother and concubine, the direct murderer of what happened back then was indeed the queen. But, you and your father, didn't you and your father take this relationship seriously?"

Where is the person who pushed me into that situation? So don’t keep resenting my father, you are also wrong."

"Yes!" Xiao Xiaoxiao's tone was a little relieved, "You are right, what happened back then was indeed not just one person's fault, he and I were also at fault. But even if this is the case, what can we do? It's already happened.

After so many years, we can no longer go back to the past."

Speaking of this, Xiao Xiaoxiao's tone became a little emotional, "Even if we know about the problems between us, what can we do? Can the two of us get back together right now? Is it really true that there is a problem between us?

Can the broken mirror be reunited? Moreover, even if the broken mirror is reunited, the crack will still be there, and nothing can be done to erase it. Moreover, it has been so many years, and I have long been bearish on it."

"No, concubine, to be disrespectful, you are deceiving yourself. If you do this, I will look down on you." Zhao Keran said, "If you were really relieved, you wouldn't be in the palace today.

Inside. If you had really completely forgotten your feelings back then, you wouldn’t be afraid to face your father. It’s because you still have feelings in your heart that you choose to escape because you don’t know how to face them.

right."

"Of course, your eyes are really vicious." Xiao Xiaoxiao smiled helplessly, "But even if what you said is right, so what? I don't know how to face him now.

.Maybe I shouldn’t appear again at all. Maybe it’s better to miss each other when we meet!”

"Mother, if you think so, you are really wrong." Zhao Keran shook his head and said, "You still have many days in the future. Maybe you really missed each other back then.

Well! But now that you have reunited, it means that there is still a fate between you. All things are arranged by God in the dark. Since it arranges for the two of you to reunite again, then

It means that it wants you to continue the fate you had before and not to leave any regrets for your life."

"But the gap between the two of us has long been too wide. Neither I nor he can cross that gap." Xiao Xiaoxiao's eyes were moist and her eye sockets were slightly red, "This

It’s a crack that none of us can repair.”

"Okay." Zhao Keran said firmly, "As long as you both have such a heart, it won't be a problem at all. Concubine, in fact, as long as you are willing to take a step, then you will know that there is still infinite potential between you.

of the possibility.”

"Of course, your eloquence is really good." Xiao Xiaoxiao looked at Zhao Keran and said, "I am very moved by what you said, but what happened back then really made me lose my courage."

"Concubine, in fact, during this period, my father has entered the palace several times. I believe you also know it." Zhao Keran said. "But my father has never bothered you. If he doesn't love you,

That's simply impossible. Then do you know why he did this?"

"I don't know." Xiao Xiaoxiao knew vaguely in her heart, but she just didn't want to admit it.

Seeing Xiao Xiaoxiao's arrogant look, Zhao Keran smiled and said, "Father did this because he also wanted to give you time. He knew very well what happened back then had hurt you, so he wanted to

Leave everything to time. He wants time to heal your scars, that’s because of his love for you."

After hearing Zhao Keran's words, Xiao Xiaoxiao was a little moved. Suddenly, she didn't know what to say.

Zhao Keran did not speak to urge Xiao Xiaoxiao to make a decision immediately, because she knew very well that there were some things that really had to be thought through by the parties involved themselves, otherwise no matter what others said, it would not have any substantive effect.

"Mother, I know that what happened back then has caused a lot of harm to you, both mentally and physically. But if you never face it, even if the wound is healed on the surface, it will still be there inside.

It will continue to fester." Zhao Keran said calmly, "Only if you are willing to face the past can you have a future."

"But, have I really done something wrong over the years?" Xiao Xiaoxiao couldn't help but ask, "With such a result, did I also make some mistakes?"

"Concubine, you know very well in your heart, why do you still ask me?" Zhao Keran looked at Xiao Xiaoxiao with a smile, "What you have to ask now is yourself, what exactly do you think."

"Perhaps it's time for me to untie the knot I felt back then!"

Xiao Xiaoxiao lowered her head and thought seriously.

Seeing this situation, Zhao Keran didn't speak anymore. Because she felt that everything she should say had already been said. No matter whether the mother-in-law understood or accepted it, she couldn't stop it. Moreover, she believed

, the mother-in-law is not that kind of superficial and stupid woman. There are some things that she cannot see clearly because she is always in the game. As long as she is willing to look at it with her heart, she will know what she should do.

After a while, Xiao Xiaoxiao raised her head, her eyes filled with determination, "Keran. I want to see the deposed queen in the cold palace and the current empress dowager."

Xiao Xiaoxiao felt that there were some things that she could no longer escape from. Perhaps only by facing them could she truly be relieved!

"Okay." Zhao Keran agreed readily, "Concubine, when do you want to go?"

"If possible, I want to go now." Xiao Xiaoxiao didn't want to delay it any longer.

"as you wish."