The leisurely life of rebirth

"In the morning, there are songbirds in the trees in the garden, and the red and green support the spring in the distant forest. Suddenly a good poem comes to my eyes, and the arrangement of the syntax is hard to find." The ears are filled with the chirping of birds, and the eyes are full of green branches, green and red supporting each other, and the fragrance is alluring. Spring water

At birth, swallows begin to fly, bees collect flowers and make honey, and fish cling to hooks to find food.

Fang Monan did not look at Han Zhaoqi, but just looked at the beautiful spring scenery quietly. The low mountains in the distance came in and out. In the gentle breeze, he could see peach blossoms swaying in the wind. It seemed that he could also smell the sweet fragrance of peach blossoms, and occasionally one or two pieces.

Green leaves have emerged, spring has arrived.

Han Zhaoqi was still a little nervous at first, afraid that she would ask what was going on on his lover's face. Seeing that she didn't ask anything, he gradually relaxed and lay down on the rocking chair, looking up at the blue sky with his hands naturally

It was placed on the armrest and started to squeak.

There was silence all around, with the sound of the wind blowing through the branches and the squeaking of the rocking chair singing in harmony. It seemed quiet and peaceful. Han Zhaoqi's facial expression softened a lot, and his heart gradually relaxed.

After Wang Ting applied the medicine on her face, she quietly walked back and sat next to Han Zhaoqi. No one said anything, and she quietly looked at the singing of birds and the fragrance of flowers, a scene full of spring, and she felt that her mood was much clearer, which made people feel more relaxed.

Comfortable and comfortable.[

Han Zhaoqi sat up straight and frowned. Maybe it was because the atmosphere was too good, or maybe it was too suppressed for too long. He said slowly, "I was among the first batch to enter the battlefield in southern Xinjiang. At that time, my reconnaissance company went deep into the hinterland to carry out operations.

Mission, young man, passionate and impulsive, somewhat looking forward to everything on the battlefield, and even feeling vaguely excited. Going in went smoothly, avoiding obstacles along the way. He passed by small groups of enemy patrolling troops several times. While resting

I am always half asleep and half awake, and my nerves are tense. Especially at night, the Vietnamese army agents and skirmishers are very active. If they are touched by the enemy, it will be over. The spirit is highly tense.

"." His mouth trembled and he continued in a strong voice, "It was early in the morning, and there was a thin layer of fog. I was hiding in a tree hole, covered by a layer of weeds outside, because the fog was too heavy, and those Vietnamese

The agents directly bumped into my gun. They were all barefoot and seemed to want to use the morning fog to make a sneak attack. Although we had gone through training before going to the battlefield, I was panicked and scared at the time, but I knew we must not let them

Walk past me."

His hand kept shaking, and Wang Ting hurried forward, grabbed his hand tightly, and kept stroking it. She had never heard her husband talk about things on the battlefield. This was the first time she heard him mention it, and she didn't expect it.

Such a big reaction. She looked up at Fang Monan and saw her shaking her head at her, signaling her not to speak.

Han Zhaoqi seemed to be trapped in his own memories, his eyes were dark and unfocused. He shook off Wang Ting's hand and gestured like a machine gun, "I closed my eyes. Ta-ta-ta... I fired all the guns. I'm still there."

I pulled the trigger hard. Even when my comrades came over, my mind was very confused and I just wanted to kill him, kill him. I was so scared that I actually took the saber and wanted to fight him desperately, and almost hurt one of my own."

"Pah..." Han Zhaoqi gave himself an ear scratch. "In the end, the company commander slapped me hard and I woke up."

Wang Ting covered her mouth in fear, afraid that she would cry, but she couldn't stop her tears from flowing down.

Han Zhaoqi touched half of his swollen cheeks, and his eyes regained clarity, "There were four corpses of Vietnamese soldiers lying at my feet. I shot all the 30 particles in a clip at once. The four people were crushed into sieves, and one of them was fatally shot.

It hit the chest and left a big hole in the back. Unfortunately, the other three people were shot in the brain and face. The forehead went in and the back of the head came out. The huge impact ripped off half of the head. There was a pool of red and white blood on the ground.

It’s the brain.”

"Wow...I vomited right then." Han Zhaoqi screamed, "I haven't even killed a chicken at home. I have killed people. I have killed people."

"My comrades comforted me, and they said, 'Okay! You kid, kill four of them as soon as you come up! Why did you miss such a good opportunity to show your face?'

'Killing someone on the battlefield is nothing, just bear with it and it will be over.'

The company commander comforted me, 'On the battlefield, either you die or I die, otherwise you will be glorious and just get used to it.'"

"Yeah! Just get used to it. Just get used to it." Han Zhaoqi said mechanically. "Gradually, I killed more and more people. I saw more than a hundred enemy corpses lying on the ground, and the air was filled with gunpowder smoke.

And the smell of blood was gone.

I saw my comrade was hit in the face by a bullet, and the bullet passed through the back of his head. Another team member was forced to fire the glory hanging on his chest while fighting the enemy. Everyone has one, and they will die without mercy.

captive.

Watching our comrades fall, we realized that we too would die. We held the mutilated bodies of our fallen comrades and cried bitterly. Although we had been prepared to accept the sacrifice in those days,... But at this time, we really saw ourselves.

The bodies of our comrades have begun to grow cold. It is a pity that we cannot bring them back to the country and bury them on the soil of the motherland. We cannot even cremate the remains of our comrades and take the ashes back. We carefully bury the remains of the martyrs.

They looked over again, found a direction facing the motherland, and buried their comrades-in-arms. The soil was shoveled down one by one, gradually covering the young and pale faces of the martyrs. They rested in peace. Resting in a foreign land, they seemed to

Just falling asleep, sleeping peacefully, will eventually merge with the lush bamboo forest. They will never see their mother again, and their mother will never see them again." He shed tears.

"Ah..." The heartbreaking, sad and desolate roar resounded.

When Fang Monan saw someone trying to get closer, she quickly waved her hand to prevent them from coming in and disturbing her. Han Zhaoqi choked and said again, "I don't want to die, I don't want to never see my mother again, I don't want to die, the only choice is to kill! Kill!"

"His face was twisted, and he yelled with ferocious teeth, "Kill!" His eyes were full of murderous intent, and he jumped up from the rocking chair.

When Fang Monan saw this, he went down with a knife, supported his falling body, and placed him on the rocking chair.

"Is he okay?" Wang Ting asked worriedly.

"It's okay! He's too tired, let him take a nap." Fang Monan shouted to the outside of the courtyard, "Why don't you come over and help? Carry him in."

"Yeah! Okay!" Li Qingjie and Li Daniu stepped forward quickly. They carried the two sides of the rocking chair and carried the person into the room. Fang Monan followed him and said, "Go to the guest room and let him sleep for a while.

"

The two grown men worked together to lift Han Zhaoqi onto the bed. Wang Ting took off his shoes, put his legs on the bed, and covered him with the quilt.[

Fang Monan took advantage of the three of them not paying attention, took out a piece of soothing incense and lit it. "This soothes the nerves and helps you sleep."

Wang Ting looked at the clean and spacious guest room, looked at herself, and said sheepishly, "I can wash the sheets and quilt."

"Let's not talk about this for now. Let's go out and talk." The four men came out and sat down in the living room.

Fang Monan got up and went to the kitchen, brought three cups of tea and placed them in front of them one by one.

Li Qingjie and Wang Ting held the teacups in their hands and took a big sip. After taking a few deep breaths, Li Qingjie calmed down his thoughts and asked, "Sister-in-law, is Han always like this?"

Wang Ting took another sip of water, her eyes were misty, as if she was recalling, "I didn't notice it when we first got married. He was always taciturn, and looked like an honest person, hiding everything in his heart. Later, I don't know what happened.

He would get angry when he didn't get what he wanted. First he would throw away things at home, and then he would punch and kick me. When he was awake, he would apologize vigorously and ask me to forgive him. In order to give him

The child had a complete home, so I endured it. Later, he felt that he could no longer control himself, so he asked me to tie him up, but this time, he chopped up the family dog." She trembled all over, as if remembering that incident

A terrifying scene, "I'm really afraid that he will hurt our son." She sniffed, "We also went to the hospital for a checkup, and the doctor said that he is not sick. He is just depressed. It is probably because he is not going well at work."

Fang Monan rubbed his chin and asked, "Irritable and irritable. Is he like this at work? He is a police officer, how is the relationship between colleagues?"

"He is a loner in the workplace and keeps to himself." Wang Ting said immediately.

"Then how does he treat prisoners?" Fang Monan asked again.

Wang Ting frowned, "I don't... treat prisoners, ah! Now that I said that, I remembered that he always treated prisoners with murderous intent, and almost beat them to death a few times." She paused.

After a while, "He received a lot of criticism for this, and his promotion was always delayed because of his hot temper. Later, he was afraid that something similar would happen to him again, and because his brain was so good, his superiors only asked him to analyze the case and no longer

Participate in the arrest.”

Fang Monan asked again, "What is his cultural level?"

"Oh! After graduating from high school, I joined the army." Wang Ting looked at her and replied honestly. "Doctor Fang, what happened to my lover?"

"That's right! Dr. Fang, when I went to see Lao Han last time, he was quite a normal person!" Li Qingjie also asked eagerly, "Dr. Fang, what's wrong with Lao Han? How could he hit his sister-in-law!"

Fang Monan sat up straight and said calmly and coldly, "The war has changed many people who participated in it. It is the war that makes people strong or sinks. Maybe it was blood and passion that supported them at the beginning, but later on

It was death and blood that made me numb.

"He paused and continued, "Although their lives have returned to peace for the veterans who returned from the battlefield in southern Xinjiang, their experience seems to be that they are always on the battlefield every day, with images of war constantly flashing through them.

Dead comrades, killing scenes, gunshots and shouts, etc.

Etc. Sleep disorder, very unstable mood, no sense of happiness in life, living in memories of the past every day, and they are fragmentary and fragmented." (To be continued. If you like this work, you are welcome to vote,

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