The Moon Over Tang Dynasty

Chapter 150: The dream is broken and the soul is hurt, there is no stopping it

 That’s right, why did she forget this? It stands to reason that he was summoned to the palace in the middle of the night, received the order and demoted in the early morning, and came back at this time, so she should have asked him. Liuli suddenly felt guilty and thought for a few times before saying, "Mrs. Yang already told me when she came here. Alas, I never expected that the Taiwei and Prime Minister Chu would be so despicable! But, didn't you tell me earlier that you wanted to Are you going there? That would be a good idea. I have already checked out the warehouse at home and packed half of my luggage."

Pei Xingjian held her arm and moved slightly, but said nothing. Liuli couldn't help but said, "Xiaotan said you came back a long time ago, why did you go to the carriage and horse yard again?"

Pei Xingjian's voice was slightly astringent when he spoke, but his tone was very calm, "I heard Mrs. Yang talking to you about herself, so I didn't want to stay too long, so I went out for a walk first."

Liuli stood up and looked at him carefully. Pei Xingjian still had his eyes closed, and his face had a sculpture-like tranquility that made her almost want to reach out and gently touch it along the contours. As if he felt her gaze, he suddenly opened his eyes and looked at her intently with deep eyes. Liuli was stunned and blurted out, "I didn't take her words to heart, but now I am asking for her, It’s hard to say anything.”

Pei Xingjian still looked at her without blinking. After a long time, he smiled and said, "I know, I heard it all. You are so smart, you can come up with such a comprehensive and good idea so quickly."

Liuli's ears felt a little feverish. She had actually been thinking about this idea for a long time. From the beginning of the idea to the step-by-step planning to today, it would be weird if she didn't do it thoroughly... She quickly changed the topic, "I really I don’t quite understand why Captain Changsun suddenly plotted against you? And why does Mrs. Yang seem a little angry towards you today?”

Pei Xingjian's smile faded a little, "Captain Changsun chose me because of the current situation. He just doesn't want to see me join the official department. As for Mrs. Yang... Liuli, today the Holy Master asked me how Zhaoyi looks like."

Liuli was really taken aback this time. She stood up and looked directly at him. Looking at his expression, she suddenly understood. She couldn't help but let out a long sigh and lay on his chest.

Pei Xingjian's voice was so calm that there was almost no fluctuation, "I reported back to the Holy Emperor that Zhaoyi has an indescribably handsome face and good fortune and longevity. However, he is too strong-willed and has little connection with his children. Therefore, he can be a good wife to any man in the world, but he is not suitable for being a wife." The Emperor's Wife. The Holy Emperor was furious at that time, and I think Mrs. Yang knew about it." His voice deepened, "Liu Li, I can't deceive you, nor can I deceive your heart. It's me who is causing you such embarrassment. I can’t stop you. You deserve it no matter how much you blame me.”

Liuli simply didn’t know what to say: She didn’t want to be an official in the court, so what was there to be embarrassed about? Is it really rare to be the wife of Nao Shizi? But what should he do? He is obviously not a person who does not know how to adapt, but when it comes to such fatal matters, he is more stubborn than a stone! Alas, this can’t be considered a mistake on his part, only stupidity! This is great. He obviously took the initiative to ask for help, but he now deserves it!

After thinking for a long time, she sighed, "How could I blame you? Speaking of which, Mrs. Yang was not really annoyed with me today. Besides, so what if she was annoyed with me?" She raised her head and smiled at him, " Have you forgotten that in these two days, we will go to Xizhou..."

Pei Xingjian's arm around her suddenly tightened, as if he wanted to rub her into his chest. Liuli was a little breathless. Her words "I've lived a free life" suddenly turned into a short exclamation. Pei Xingjian quickly let go of her hand, and Liuli sighed, "You want to suffocate to death..." Before she could finish her words, Pei Xingjian rolled over and lowered his head to seal her lips.

His kiss had a strange eagerness and lust, and Liuli was slightly surprised, but when the familiar cold fragrance entwined between her lips and teeth with familiar tenderness, she still couldn't help but reach out and wrap her arms around him. After a long time, she heard him stop and whisper in her ear, "Silly Liuli, don't talk nonsense like this in the future."

Liuli laughed softly, "Why are you so taboo about these things?"

Pei Xingjian gently pressed his forehead against hers, closed his eyes, and smiled after a while, "You just love talking nonsense so much. In the future... you should be more taboo."

Liuli couldn't help but laugh and said, "I am very cautious in front of others and never talk nonsense."

 She answered with another deep kiss, which gradually became a little hot. His fingers reached into Liuli's lapel, and Liuli's mind suddenly became confused: The sun hasn't set yet, right? Is this considered a nap? He has never done this before...

　　The tassel-colored silk tent that was put on after autumn fell down at some point...

When the room finally became completely quiet, the daylight outside the window had gradually dimmed. Liuli knew that she should go out and tell Ani to prepare dinner, but she didn't want to move at all. Pei Xingjian's hand was still stroking her back, but now it was as gentle as coaxing a child, "You sleep for a while, I will call you when dinner is ready."

Huh? Why is this a bit like what I just said? Liuli wanted to say no, but maybe his embrace was too warm and his voice was too gentle. She only felt that her eyelids were getting heavier and heavier, and she finally fell asleep.

When she opened her eyes again, the first thing that caught her eye was Pei Xingjian's face. When he met her gaze, a smile appeared on his face, "Are you awake?"

Liuli blinked her eyes before remembering what happened before going to bed. She hurriedly raised her eyes to look, only to see candlelight flickering in the room. She sat up and asked, "What time is it?"

Pei Xingjian immediately wrapped her in a quilt and said, "Chill carefully. You have only slept for an hour. Dinner is already prepared. I will ask them to bring it to you now. You can get dressed slowly." He stood up and walked out. He was already fully dressed.

  Could it be that he had just been lying on the side with his clothes on, looking at himself? When Liuli saw her clothes, she placed them beside her pillow. They were not folded neatly but carefully. She reached out and picked up the top piece of clothes. She couldn't help but stay for a while: even if he felt guilty about Wu Zhaoyi, he still felt guilty. You don’t need to be so considerate, right?

When she packed up and went out, A-Ni was taking the little maid out to get the food box. When she saw Liuli bending her knees and smiling, "Madam, rest now, the dinner has been laid out." A-Yan bowed silently, lowered his head and walked in. Packing up in the back room. The roots of Liuli's ears felt hot. She forced herself to calm down and walked to the table and sat down. The porcelain plates were laid out on the table. They only had the most homely roasted lamb, sesame pancakes, etc., but the aroma was still tempting. She glanced at it for a few times, and suddenly wanted to sigh: The two cooks Mrs. Yu gave her were good at craftsmanship. They could always make the ideas she came up with, and they did them better than she imagined. It's a pity that they can't cook them. I took it to Xizhou. I wonder what the food in Xizhou is like...

Pei Xingjian's concerned voice came to his ears, "What did you remember?"

Liuli came back to her senses and said with a smile, "It's nothing. I just think that at this time tomorrow, we don't know where we will have dinner, so I really want to take the cook with us."

Pei Xingjian smiled and said nothing. After a while, he said, "Eat it quickly. The biscuits will not be crispy when they are cold."

Liuli was really hungry. She ate two biscuits and drank a bowl of soup. She looked back at Pei Xingjian, but she was lost in thought with a biscuit in her hand. She couldn't help but stretch out her hand and wave it in front of his eyes.

Pei Xingjian was startled. He lowered his head and took a bite of the biscuit. He must have swallowed it in a hurry when he suddenly choked and coughed. Liuli was angry and funny. She patted him on the back and asked Ani to bring him a cup of hot water.

After finally stopping his cough, Pei Xingjian lost his appetite. The plates on the table moved a little and he put down the bamboo chopsticks. After thinking about it, Liuli simply asked someone to remove the cups and plates, and then ordered the cook to After making a new bowl of hot soup cakes and serving them, Pei Xingjian shook his head, "Let's make a cold dish."

　　It’s the Mid-Autumn Festival and you still want to eat cold food? Liuli couldn't help but look at him in surprise. Not long after, a bowl of celadon bowl filled with snow-white cold food mixed with green fragrant leaves was brought up. Pei Xingjian slowly ate it all this time. After A Ni packed up her things and went down, the curtain had not yet fallen. He reached out and hugged Liuli.

Liuli thought of A Ni's smile just now and A Yan's calm face without raising her eyelids. She couldn't help frowning and pushing him, "It's all your fault for making A Yan and the others laugh at my jokes. Don't do this again." !”

Pei Xingjian looked down at her and nodded slowly, "It's my fault. I will never do this again."

Liuli sighed, stretched out her hand and rubbed his face, "What did you remember? Why don't you smile at all?" It was one thing to want to go to Xijiang, but to be demoted like this, he felt a little awkward. It's probably uncomfortable too, right?

Pei Xingjian smiled faintly and said, "I remember the first time you had dinner with me." He held Liuli's hand, lowered his head and kissed her fingertips gently. Pei Xingjian's hands were very cold, and his lips were actually a little cold, almost colder than Liuli's fingertips.

Just thinking about the situation that day, Liuli felt her face still couldn't help but feel a little hot, and her fingertips felt numb. She wanted to pull her hand away, but his hand was held tightly. After a while, she raised her head and said, "You're tired too." One day, do you want to take a bath? I asked them to prepare water before dinner, and now I think it’s better.”

 Taking a bath? Of course, Liuli nodded, but heard him add in a low voice, "I'll help you."

Liuli raised her head and stared at him, thinking she would see a familiar smiling face flashing with a joking expression, but found that although he was smiling, his eyes were dark, making it impossible to see through the emotions inside. She frowned, almost wanting to move his face to take a closer look, but her body suddenly became soft, but he picked her up and strode towards the clean room.

 Are you kidding me? Liuli pushed him hard. Pei Xingjian looked down at Liuli and whispered seriously, "I just want to see you." Is he kidding? Liuli suddenly felt uneasy, "Shou Yue, what's wrong with you? What happened?"

Pei Xingjian was startled and said with a smile, "What else can there be? I feel a little reluctant to leave when I think about it."

Liuli let out a sigh of relief. In fact, she had already begun to feel reluctant to let go. She was reluctant to let go of her first home, and she was reluctant to let go of every place she had decorated with her own hands. Compared to her, Pei Xingjian was caught off guard and had to leave Chang'an City, where he had lived for more than 20 years. His emotions should be deeper. She put her arms around Pei Xingjian's neck, raised her head and pecked him gently on the lips, "There is nothing to be reluctant to part with. When we get to Xizhou, I will arrange a better one for you!"

The heat of the clean room hit her face, and Pei Xingjian's body suddenly stiffened. Liuli narrowed her eyes and wanted to ask him, but his kiss fell suddenly, with unprecedented enthusiasm and tenderness, which just emerged in her heart. That little question was washed away without a trace in an instant.

　　…………

"Madam, madam..." There seemed to be a stubborn voice drilling into her ears from afar. Liuli tried her best to open her eyes. The room was full of sunshine outside the silk tent. She couldn't help but cover her forehead and sighed.

 As expected, Ayan’s voice came from outside the door, “Madam.”

Liuli responded, "What time is it?" The hoarseness and laziness in her voice made her startled.

 “It’s almost done.”

 Oh my God, it will be noon if you keep lying down! Liuli hurriedly sat up, feeling a strange soreness all over her body. She couldn't help gritting her teeth and looking at the empty pillows beside her. He must have been crazy yesterday. Even when they were newlyweds, he had never been so gentle and greedy. She had never been so gentle and greedy. When did you fall asleep? Third update, fourth update? The last impression was of him kissing his forehead gently and murmuring words such as "Have a good sleep, and everything will be fine when you wake up." good? It's strange, it's not like he doesn't know that he will be easily tired and sleepy later, but he is still like this... He got up early, does he still want to see people? Thinking of last night's scene, she couldn't help but feel a fever on her face. She cursed and reached out to pick up the clothes on the side.

After finally tidying up, Liuli opened the tent. Just as Liuli was about to raise her voice to ask Ayan to fetch water, she suddenly saw several pieces of white linen paper stacked neatly on the table under the window, with Pei Xingjian pressed on them. My favorite mutton-fat jade paperweight.

There seemed to be a drumming in his ears. He quickly walked towards the window without even putting on his glazed shoes. He stumbled, and reached out to hold the edge of the case to keep from falling. However, he didn't care about anything, so he stretched out his hand and pushed it away. Open the paperweight and pick up the first piece of paper.

The handwriting on it was the one she was most familiar with. It was a bit sloppy and daubed a few times, which was quite different from his usual neat style. Liuli looked up at the six words "Liuli Qingqing Aijian" dripping with ink, and felt the drums in her ears getting louder and louder. She read line by line, and when she read the last line, she couldn't help but close her eyes for a long time and couldn't think about it. He couldn't tell whether the swelling in his chest was shock, anger or pain.

 He actually left like this! He actually said that he was sorry for himself and could not harm himself, so he wanted to stay in Chang'an and let himself calm down to think carefully and make a decision? What did he let himself choose? Who does he think he is?

Ayan's slightly urgent voice outside the door woke her up, "Madam, do you want to bring some water in?"

Liuli calmed down and answered in a dry voice, "Wait a minute."

Under the letter, there were two documents with neat strokes. Liuli gritted her teeth and read them word by word. When she read the date of signature, she almost immediately wanted to tear the paper into pieces. powder, but he just flattened the paper, folded it, stuffed it into his sleeves, stared at the second document for a while, and then said loudly, "Come in!"

Ayan and Xiaotan walked in carrying hot water, salt cups, Ge towels and other items. They looked up and saw Liuli sitting on the crescent moon stool next to the window table. Her face was pale, but her eyes were astonishingly bright. The two of them looked at each other, but heard her say calmly, "When did Alang leave?"

Ayan was startled and said hurriedly, "Alang got up before dawn, and asked the slaves to take his two bags and send them to the outer courtyard. He also ordered that Mrs. Yu would come to the door at about early noon, and asked the slaves to wait before calling. Madam, get up."

 He has always thought carefully and made every plan, so he did it last night...and then early in the morning he left himself such a letter of release from his wife, dated half a year later! Did he think that this way, he would happily become the new rich man of Chang'an who was favored by Empress Wu, and then find a pretty boy to marry? It turns out that in his eyes, this is his best way out!

Liuli's face burned, but this time, it was because of anger.

Xiaotan walked out with the basin in hand. Looking at Liuli's face, Ayan couldn't help but asked softly, "Do you want me to go outside and call Alang back?"

Liuli took a deep breath and shook her head, "No need to look for him, he has already left Chang'an."

A-yan couldn't help but change color on her face, and she lost her voice, "Alang, this is..." Looking at the pieces of writing paper on the table, she suddenly understood a little bit, and asked quickly, "Madam, what should we do now?"

Liuli remained silent. Ayan wanted to ask again, but Ani's voice came from outside the curtain, "Madam, Agu from the Carriage and Horse Courtyard wants to see you."

 Agu didn’t go with Pei Xingjian? Or, he hasn't left yet? Liu Li stood up suddenly and said, "Let him in!" When he walked outside, he couldn't help but take another look at the few bags he packed aside last night. Two of them were gone, leaving a gap that was almost painful. People's eyes hurt.

A-Yan followed her gaze and whispered, "Madam, it seems that Alang didn't take much money with him." At least he kept the gold ingots and broken gold by himself, and Alang didn't even ask.

Liuli was speechless. He had clearly written in the letter of letting go of his wife that all the family property would be left to himself...

In the yard, Agu still stood upright. When he saw Liuli coming out, he bowed silently. Without waiting for Liuli to ask questions, he said in a stiff tone, "Agu was entrusted by the husband to stay and serve the wife. If the wife has any My instructions, despite the assignment, Agu will never follow my wife to live as a slave in someone else's house, please forgive me."

He actually asked Agu to stay and serve him? But Agu was obviously not happy. What he meant was that he would leave if he remarried in the future? The anger in his chest seemed to be extinguished a little, and there was more of a suffocating heaviness. Liuli nodded, "I understand, you can go down."

Watching Agu turn around and leave quickly, Liuli suddenly felt that the yard felt strangely empty. She looked up and saw that the leaves in autumn were only slightly sparse, but the clear sky looked extraordinarily high and clear. She suddenly remembered that when she first came to this time and space, she had seen such a sky countless times through the cracks in the window. Her dream at that time was just to breathe freely under the sky. This dream is now right in front of her, and she can touch it as long as she takes a step forward.

 No one can stop her from taking this step, not the Cao family, not the eldest princess, not Wu Zetian, not even Pei Xingjian!

Something in her heart slowly calmed down. Liuli took a long breath and turned around to give orders to Ayan. Suddenly there was a sound of footsteps behind her. A maid hurriedly ran in. When she saw Liuli, she saluted and said, " Madam, there is Madam Lu outside the door asking to see you."

Ms. Lu, is Ms. Lu Jin here? Liuli lowered her head and thought for a moment, then smiled, "Invite her in quickly!"

I like Xu Wei's "Blue Lotus" very much - "Nothing can stop me from my yearning for freedom." Freedom may be the ultimate dream of each of us.

The first half of the series will end tomorrow.

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