The Moon Over Tang Dynasty

Chapter 93 The past is like smoke Thousands of years of fate

The slightly colorful dark blue wide-mouthed hexagonal jade cup reflects the bright red wine. When looking at the light, a strange wave of light seems to shine through the thin wall of the cup.

This is the legendary luminous cup of grape wine? Liuli looked at it carefully for a moment, then lowered her head and took a sip, almost spitting it back out. The wine that had been heated on the stove tasted really...unique.

Pei Xingjian picked up the sterling silver phoenix head pot with swan goose pattern at hand, poured another bowl of Wuyun juice into the two-inch wide white jade bowl in front of him, picked it up and drank it. Seeing him leisurely finish the second bowl in a blink of an eye, Liuli became a little worried, "If you are eating wine on an empty stomach, don't eat in a hurry. It's better to drink some pink fruit first."

Pei Xingjian glanced at her with a smile, "It doesn't matter, I'm so used to it, so you don't like this wine very much?"

Liuli could only shake her head and smile, "I have indeed never drank anything like this."

Pei Xingjian poured some wine from the tall wine cup at Liuli's hand, took a sip, and frowned slightly, "I'm afraid this wine is better as a summer drink, why not have something else? His grandma It’s not bad yet, and although it’s still early to drink, it’s not too far off.”

Liuli thought about it and shook her head, "Maybe it will be better if you let it go for a while." She was not good at drinking, so it would be a waste to order any good wine. This wine shop looks ordinary. The decoration of the private room is simple and elegant, and the wine utensils are also very clean and elegant. No wonder he chose this place. However, he is so used to it, "Do you want it every day?" Drink a cup like this?”

Pei Xingjian smiled and said, "This pot only costs eight taels. Drink a pot of wine and eat whatever you want, and you won't have to ask the kitchen to cook it when you get home."

Half a kilogram of wine every day, even if the alcohol content at this time is not too high, but this... Liuli saw that he had poured out the third bowl, and hurriedly stretched out her hand to hold the back of his hand, "Use something first, otherwise it will be burnt. It’s time to cool down.”

Pei Xingjian held her hand with his backhand, looked at her and smiled, "Okay."

 Seeing him eat a few of the burnt and pink fruits on the Shang Yuan Plate, Liuli breathed a sigh of relief. Pei Xingjian's drinking speed also gradually slowed down, and it seemed that it took him a long time to finish the third bowl. He lowered his eyes and looked at the jade bowl in front of him, and suddenly said without looking up, "This is my first time in the West Market. I saw you in this wine shop, and they just served this Wuyun syrup that day."

Liuli was slightly startled, and her hand moved inadvertently, but Pei Xingjian stretched out his other hand, wrapped her hand tightly in his palm, slowly raised his head, and turned his eyes to the window, "I remember very clearly, that is The day after I met you at Daci'en Temple, I was looking at their newly posted wine list downstairs. Suddenly I heard your voice. I was very surprised. I couldn't help but go out and take a look. Although you brought You wore the curtain and hat, but the clothes were still the same as the day before. I watched you walk into the valerian shop. At that time, I thought, could you really be the painter in the shop?

"It was just after the first lunar month. Because I was on duty for my colleagues a lot during the New Year holidays, I didn't have to be on duty much in February and March every year, so I would come here every day. When I saw you for the first time, I was a little surprised. I took it too seriously, but in the next few days, every day when I checked out and left, I could see you walking out along this road. Watching your back slowly walking away, I always felt a very strange feeling. The feeling, but I don’t know what is unusual about it.

"Several days passed like this. On that day, I saw off my mentor's comrade, Xue Prince Consort, for the last time in Duliu Shu. When I heard Xue Prince Consort's words and saw so many **** heads, I couldn't help but feel particularly depressed. I sat there I couldn't sit still in this room until I had two sips of wine. Somehow, I walked downstairs and ended up at your Jia Val shop. I casually mentioned that I wanted to make a screen, and then I really saw how I felt. Suddenly it felt much better.”

It was obviously a long time ago, but Liuli remembered it clearly. He was wearing a brand new robe that day, and his face was extremely pale, but when he saw her, he smiled. She thought he was laughing at her at the time, but it turned out that Is there another reason for this?

Pei Xingjian's eyes were still looking at a certain place on the window lattice, as if he were not looking at anything, "I was actually not surprised when I saw your painting the next day, as if I had always known that you would be good at painting. As a result, your aunt came to see you. I heard her words in the studio and naturally knew that she wanted you to be Pei Zilong's concubine. I felt a little irritated for some reason, so I had to write a few words to distract my mind. When I came back, I kept praising and saying that I liked my handwriting. When I left, I didn’t know how I felt. “A few days later, I heard that Pei Zilong’s family held a flower fighting party, and I couldn’t help but inquire about it. , I have heard about what happened that day, and I am really worried about you. I also happened to hear that Pei Ruzhuo also wanted to find you. After much thought, I finally found you. You said that you didn’t want to be blamed for Pei Zilong at all. When I was a concubine, I breathed a sigh of relief, and then gave you the idea without thinking, and you actually believed me just like that. "

A smile flashed across his face. He didn't know what he thought of, but he slowly became serious again. He was silent for a long time before finally speaking again, "At that time, I already understood that I had thoughts that I shouldn't have, so that day , when I went to get the valerian screen, I had already made up my mind not to disturb you anymore, but I didn’t expect that you would actually ask me to help you draw and write on the screen. I couldn’t help but hesitate, but you thought I was I was afraid that I would lose face by writing an inscription for a merchant, so I hurriedly explained. If you looked at me like that, I couldn't say a single word "no". In the next few days, I saw such a good painting again. Listen. A few good poems like that.

"I don't think I can drink in this restaurant anymore. If I keep looking at you like this day after day, I might do something stupid. I know I'm not qualified to have such delusions, and I'm afraid I'll hurt you. You, too, were afraid that you wouldn't give me a chance to harm you... I really didn't come here after that. But things were unpredictable, and I would fall into the eyes of the Holy Master because of the words on the screen, and in the blink of an eye I would become a living roommate. In the eyes of others, I naturally reached the sky in one step, but I suddenly felt that in this way, I might be able to solve some things, and I might be qualified to dream about some things. In those days, I would come here to drink whenever I had time. ”

 On Chinese Valentine's Day? Liuli immediately remembered that she rarely came to the West Market because of Mrs. Wei's affairs. When Pei Xingjian suddenly found her that day, he indeed said, "Why haven't you been to Jiaval Store these days?" I asked him how he knew, but he said it was the shopkeeper. Later, after he left, I asked the shopkeeper myself and didn't say anything. I was still wondering for a long time... God, is she really slow?

Pei Xingjian sighed softly, "I never thought that you would encounter such trouble. What I wanted to say, if I said it at that time, it would be like taking advantage of others. I thought, wait until I can help you. This trouble is solved. When these things are over, I will tell you my thoughts. If you are willing, I will find a way to solve all the problems. But not many days later, I received a letter like yours. I also mentioned such a request in the letter... I don’t know what you were thinking at that time, but I knew then that I couldn’t miss you again. As long as God gives me another chance, I will never hesitate again. ”

His eyes turned to Liuli's face, and there was a bright light shining in his eyes, "In the end, God really gave me this opportunity, Liuli, you don't know how happy I was when I heard your voice in the imperial study room, How happy I was when I met you in Tangquan Palace! And when I understood your thoughts bit by bit in Wannian Palace, I seriously felt that maybe the hardships I had endured were worth it, otherwise I would just give up. I know you, I see you, but I may not notice you at all.”

"At that time, I looked at your back from this window every day, and I thought every day, why does your back give me such a strange feeling? Even if you change your clothes and wear a hat, no matter how crowded the crowd is, , I can always recognize you at a glance. One day I suddenly realized that it was because no matter how many people you walked among, you always seemed to be alone. You always seemed far away from others. , it makes people feel that no one in this world can get close to you. When I look at your back, it’s like seeing myself.

"I have known since I was a child that I am different from others. No matter how loud the house is and how eager the people are to interact with each other, I have always been an outsider. I thought it would be good in the future, but unexpectedly it got worse and worse, even in my mentor's family. , in the end I am still an outsider... Fortunately, no matter how bad the days are, I will eventually get used to it. Even if I can't stand the feeling of eating alone in an empty room at home, I can still go out to eat every day. That kind of chilling feeling will accumulate day by day. I thought that in this life, even if I can achieve success in the future, even if I can get married and have children in the future, no one will ever understand this feeling, and it can't be changed. I actually met you."

He looked deeply into her eyes and said, "Liu Li, I don't know why you are like this, but I know that we are the same person. In this world, we are just the same person."

Liuli looked at Pei Xingjian blankly, unable to speak or even think. His words seemed to suddenly reveal everything between them. She understood every word he said and felt the same, because it was her own. It was a feeling she had felt since the first time she saw him. That's why she felt that he looked familiar and kind to her inexplicably, so she believed in him almost unconditionally. The words "Pei Xingjian" just gave an excuse for this trust. In fact, she knew as well as he did that they were the same. people.

In this world, she is indeed just one person. It is a gap solidified by a thousand years, standing hard between her and everyone, so that she will never be able to open her heart to anyone, and she will never be able to. Being truly close to them makes her always an outsider in this time and space. However, she was able to meet the same him, and for completely different reasons, he became perhaps the only one of his kind in the world... She couldn't help but smile, but her eyes quickly became blurry.

Pei Xingjian’s chest felt as if he had been hit by a boulder. In the past two years, he has seen her humble and distant smile, her sly and happy smile, her sadness, her anger, her shyness, but he has never seen her cry. It seems that no matter what the situation, She could straighten her back silently, but at this moment... He reached out and held her face, trying to wipe away the water drops that made him feel heartbroken, but the silent tears rolled down more and more violently. , and fell onto the table along his palm.

He only stayed for a second before he lowered his head and kissed the tear-filled eyes without thinking, and then slowly followed the traces of tears and covered her lips. Those bitter and salty tears mixed with her fragrant and sweet breath, turning into a taste that was so intoxicating that it made people tremble, slowly dipping from the tip of his tongue to the deepest part of his heart.

Alas, I have wanted to write this chapter for a long time...Thank you dear jianhuan, Gentle Trouble, Le Youyang, Xiaochi November and Bourbon Rose.

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