The Ninth Secret Bureau
Vol 6 Chapter 113: sick
As Lu Yisheng said, Chen Xian is indeed not angry. Although his emotional change is similar to "angry" to outsiders, in fact...Chen Xian was just a little panicked, because the topic they were talking about happened to be Chen Xian. Topic I want to avoid most.
Does Chen Xian have a favorite?
This is hard to say, maybe only he knows it.
Then change the question.
Does Chen Xian want to spend time together with him?
This one is really not there yet.
Because Chen Xian once thought about this issue, which is an important part of the so-called inheritance of human genes.
Multiply.
Will I also find a girlfriend in the future?
Then get married, have children, and live the life that most humans should have.
But can I really do this?
Chen Xian was extremely skeptical.
Especially after the age of twenty-three, he no longer has any interest in things like "marrying and having children." This feature... This feature is a dream that many humans want to pursue all their lives.
Go back to the house.
Chen Xian sat on the edge of the bed and was silent for a long time. Perhaps he was touched by Lu Yisheng’s words. His mood had never been so complicated... He didn't know what he was thinking, but felt that all the thoughts in his brain were entangled. They are mixed together, just like a knotted ball of wool.
Chen Xian once thought that living this life alone is the best choice, but in the process he met Mu He, Lu Yisheng, Xu Yanan, Li Daosheng... They are like the ups and downs of life. In a sense, Chen Xian had been deeply affected, and it was precisely because of their existence that Chen Xian didn't want to find a partner anymore. The matter of getting married became more and more distant for him.
"I almost forgot about it..."
With a complicated expression, Chen Xian walked to the bedside table and opened the drawer, and took out a slightly dated album from it. He habitually skipped the pages containing the photos of his grandfather, and he slowly flipped through it. The following photos...
Twenty years old.
twenty one years old.
Twenty-two years old.
Twenty-three……
When celebrating his birthday every year, Chen Xian would always follow his old grandfather’s habit to take a picture in the yard as a souvenir, but...before the age of twenty, every photo of Chen Xian was significant The changes seem to have become more and more mature, and the facial features have become more handsome or relaxed, but after the age of twenty, until now.
His appearance has hardly changed.
in other words.
Chen Xian’s innate ability is his almost immortal self-healing power, and this self-healing power is always repairing his body, keeping his internal organs and limbs in the best condition every second, aging. Degeneration is simply impossible for him... His growth (aging) changes, only before the age of twenty, after crossing the hurdle of twenty years old, he has hardly aged, and has maintained it from beginning to end. Twenty-year-old appearance... Does this seem to be no different from the immortality in myths and legends?
Will not grow old and will not die.
Chen Xian doesn't know how long he will stay in this state, maybe decades or even hundreds of years, or longer...
The so-called longevity may be nothing more than that.
But this is not a good thing for Chen Xian, and even he thinks it is a curse, because his childhood experience has left a lot of shadow on him, and he doesn't want to live on forever... just like An ordinary human being living and dying like that, swallowing one last breath and leaving this world when he is damned, this is the best ending, but his self-healing power does not allow this to happen.
Before meeting Mu He, Chen Xian was often troubled by his own self-healing power, especially when he was alone at home, he had no idea what it meant to live, and immortality was right. Others may be of extraordinary significance, but for him... is this different from the torture that can never be escaped?
He likes to be alone.
But he was afraid of being alone.
People who are accustomed to loneliness are actually more afraid of loneliness than ordinary people. Chen Xian is a living example. If he is allowed to live alone for many years until the end of the years... then I am afraid this world is a living **** for Chen Xian. Up.
However, this trouble gradually disappeared after meeting Mu He, and even Chen Xian almost forgot that he had this incurable "disease". After getting to know Lu Yisheng, Xu Yanan and Li Daosheng walked in one by one. His own life...Chen Xian almost regarded himself as an ordinary stranger.
Until today Lu Yisheng mentioned this matter.
For a moment, Chen Xian remembered...
It turned out that I was still a "patient".
How many years can a foreigner live?
Chen Xian probably calculated that strangers like Xu Yanan and Li Daosheng might live to be around 130 years old, and the longest would not be more than 150 years old, like strangers like Lu Yisheng. They will live shorter lives, but they will definitely live longer than ordinary humans... But in Chen Xian's eyes, their lifespan is almost the same as that of insects, because Chen Xian knows exactly how much he can live, killing three generations of their family. Maybe it's all easy things.
After a few decades or a hundred years have passed, it is estimated that Chen Xian will have to give these old friends one by one. This matter just makes Chen Xian think about it will make his heart panic... He doesn't want to face this fact at all, because These friends are too important to Chen Xian. You can see from how much he usually takes care of the people around him. He cherishes everyone who walks into his life, especially after his grandfather is gone, let him face it. The issue of separation of life and death is even more difficult.
Can't even deal with the problems of friends, let alone the other half of the old age?
He is immortal and immortal. Even if he lives for a thousand years, he still looks like his current appearance, while the other half has to go through the pain of aging and die step by step...Chen Xian has never experienced what it feels like to see his lover suffer, but he can imagine, It must be much more uncomfortable than seeing a friend suffer, after all, it's all acting like that on TV.
"What to do in the future... Do you want to confess your problems with Lu Yisheng and the others... How do we get along when they get old... Do you just watch them die..." Chen Xian muttered to himself , The parasite also oozes from his body surface at this moment, wrapping around his arm like some thread-like substance, seeming to calm his emotions, "I definitely can’t stay in the secret bureau for the rest of my life... it will be discovered. ......When should I leave......Is it going abroad or......"
There are some things you can't think about, and when you think about it, troubles follow.
For example, Chen Xian at this time.
After forgetting his "illness" for a while, he lived happily every day, and he was unwilling to think about the future. He focused on his eyes, but now...the "problems" coming out of his brain are getting more and more. Too much, Chen Xian couldn't control it at all. He didn't want to think about these headaches, but he just couldn't control it...
Chen Xian was scared.
Yes, he was scared.
Because he suddenly realized that no matter how many friends around him live and how happy every day, one day these will disappear... Those living friends will gradually turn into dust and disappear from this world, and their own lives will eventually return to one. In the human state, all of this is just a dream bubble.
One day.
Time will take away everything you have.
Is there any way to keep everyone alive?
Even if it sounds selfish, Chen Xian thinks so... He wants everyone around him to accompany him. As long as he is not alone, he is not afraid of anything, even if he is forced to live. At the end of time, he won't be afraid. He has tasted what it is like to be alone, so he doesn't want to go back, and doesn't want to go back to the life that has been shrouded in the shadow of loneliness all day long.
"Boss?"
Suddenly, a familiar voice broke the silence in the room. Chen Xian couldn't help but regain his senses. He looked up and saw that the window had been pushed open. Lu Yisheng and the others were standing by the window sneakily. Half of his face was exposed...like piles of wood, the bottom one was Xiao Budian, and then Mu He, Xu Yanan, Mr. Skull, Yu Sheng, "stacked" one by one.
"What the **** are you guys..." Chen Xian looked at them helplessly.
"No...nothing...just worried about you..."
Lu Yisheng smiled dryly, and seeing Chen Xian's mood is not bad, he tentatively asked.
"Boss, have you ever suffered a love injury... For example, broken love or something..."
"Can you get out?"
Chen Xianqiang resisted the urge to curse, but after speaking, he looked at the pile of funny human head blocks outside the window, and finally couldn't help laughing.
He gave Lu Yisheng a dumbfounded look, and threatened him angrily and funny.
"You talk nonsense again, believe it or not, I will hang you on the locust tree for a while?"
Hearing this, Lu Yisheng's face turned pale in an instant.
"Fuck boss, you have a strong taste... You still like this tune... No wonder you can't find a match!"
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